Okay be like Elsa in Frozen. Let it go, let it go. The application back at home is against your favor. Plane tickets are expensive and you do not have enough money to pay them.
#Serendipity
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3am in the morning and I wanna cook some food cause I'm hungry
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Supposed to be a chill day where I'll write some reviews today and prep some documents for job applications, and the fucking email ruined it. Now I have to think what to do next. I really don't have the money to go home nor to pay for the penalties. Sigh.
And I need to eat. I haven't eaten for the whole day.
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I need to eat lmao hahahaha
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Remind yourself girl
I'm so so hungry
I am such a weakling. Can't even stand without eating for a day. I used to not eat for more than a day back when I was depressed, now I can't lmao. This is not equally similar as how gazans are starving there.
I can't think well when I'm hungry
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Please just get me out of this place. I wanna leave this apartment. It feels suffocating.
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Idk it feels weird. Feels like someone's gripping my forearms specifically or something. Idk. Feels weird.
Whatever. I'm gonna change my sheets and take a bath. Just some random weird ass intense energy waking me up while I was sleeping.
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Maybe I should just quit my job. It's so hard to find cheap housing here.
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If I can't find something cheap and safe here, I'll just go back home.
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Don't mind me. It's just me being dramatic. This girl has problems with uncertainty lmao
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Why do i look so puffy????!!!
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I accidentally re-subscribed to the quinn app. I forgot to cancel the subscription, after pausing the payment for a month. And now google pay automatically deducted the subscription on my account. It's too much of a hassle to get the money back so I guess I'm back to listening to spicy things again lmao.
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I accidentally re-subscribed to the quinn app. I forgot to cancel the subscripti...
You're broke you need the refund
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Feels so good to find the song you're looking for
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Have to remind myself to try the melatonin gummies I got for free on last Sunday and see if they work well
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Why am I so careless?????
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I am so angry with myself. I can't go home because of myself.
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Please universe just give me a job. I don't want to fuck someone just to pay for the bills. I mean there's nothing wrong with sex workers, but I am not cut out for it. I do not have the heart to do that.
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God all that wasted money over applying jobs and I can't even apply now cause the universe is always fucking it up always.
Whatever. I am so sick and tired of planning and the planning never goes out in my favor.
I am gonna quit this fuck ass low paying job, then leave this fuck ass apartment and I am not going home. Fuck you God. You can sometimes be a bitch sometimes
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I keep praying on asking You God what to do and I just follow through the plan and always ask You about the plan then like always thwart it away in the last minute. Like how tf am I supposed to know what You want man??? You're being fucking vague about it????
I always get this push back from You. Why?????? Like I am seriously asking You why???????
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Dont mind me here i am just complaining about my own problems/job hunting
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Prepping myself for 2 weeks of no sleep
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Tbh looking through my manifestation collage, I don't find any pleasure checking on it anymore. Idk my priorities have changed. It seems so eerily shallow to dream of these things, and now the collage is just a fucking blank.
Does being well off makes me happy? I like living comfortably. I like the thought of not having to worry about money, but does it make me want to live?
No. Def not.
Money does not give me the motivation to live. It's the total opposite. It's draining me. I am just forced to do it because I have to worry about other people not wanting to die.
Like for example, do I really want a car?
I only like it due to its convenience. I prefer having it so I don't have to worry about my old ones having difficulty riding on commutes because public transpo is so horrible and unfriendly to old people.
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This is so frustrating. Wasted two hours over a typing test for a job that would pay me for only 7 dollars for an hour. 😭😭
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Lmao I think I need a break
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So duration is within 40-50 mins for the whole novena
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So obsessed with the art. The lines are so pretty and the heroine is so pretty
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Tried to include the soul of h**ler on my prayers because I thought no one would pray for his soul only to end up losing my metro card in the process
Had to censor his name because the guidelines wont let me type it
Okay noted universe, no Hit***
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I have to get my delivered frozen chicken. Idek if it's still frozen
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Laundry came in on time. Just started raining here. Some light rain now but will prob get stronger later at night
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Still a little bit of rain but the wind hmmm it's getting stronger. It's almost howling
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Another thing I like about storms is the quietness of the streets. Less noise and less people due to suspension of classes and work (except for private companies ofc)
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No you should be def suspicious of how the big tech companies use your data. Like girl that is so unfair. You're making me pay idk money to extend my drive space when you're basically making money over my data and selling it for ads and shit ☹️
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Pricked myself with the needle then some random wound in my hand came out of nowhere. Don't know where this came from lmao
Interesting retrograde I'm having
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Shit, I think I lost it or something
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My fucking hand fucking hurts
Really don't like lame ass people projecting their stuff to me like stfu and gtfo of my face
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Nothing like good food to ease the annoyance and anger away
They updated the playlist 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
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I need to move somewhere that has a furnished refrigerator so I could stock some groceries. I don't want to buy a refrigerator because moving it is such a hassle because I don't have a goddamn car.
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So sloppy at work today. Idk if its the cramps the brain fog or money problems that's making me unfocused
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If I can't listen to any shit with this phone I'm gonna dump it somewhere else. It's practically useless to me
And my fucking throat hurts
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Bloody hell can't sleep because of the news and the sweets
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Buy peppermint tea, do groceries, finish review, order new wireless buds
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Do groceries, finish review
Skinny girlypop having problems with the cold weather lmao
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Woke up feeling like I'm going to die from a panic attack after having the worst crashouts after wanting to stop myself from killing my own self. I barely ate anything for the past two days. I haven't gotten any decent sleep. And I am celebrating Christmas broke
I don't wanna go home anymore. I just wanna die
I do not feel any ounce of Christmas spirit anymore
I feel like another panic attack's gonna come
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Slept in my small childhood bed and didn't have back problems lmao. Hmm but I'm not used to the small beds anymore
Or the humidity
Hmm it's raining
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No one understands me. It is a goddamn fact. I usually see it as a bad thing, but I guess it has it perks sometimes
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If I can't get my food istg I will fucking riot
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No matter how frustrating the past few days are, I am not crying in the 1st day of the year. I will not cry in January 1st