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pulsar tiger
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Okay 3 more weeks of skl

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But Monday off

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So 14 days

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I can’t be bothered

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I need to finish csm and danganronpa

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Or however u spell it

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I found time to watch ybc and not other animes

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Diabolical

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Damn I need to start reading too

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I lowkey wonder if I can talk abt peoples relationships or not

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Like on here

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Bc there’s one really complicated one

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And I have no words anymore

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But yk what?

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Their choice

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I probs won’t speak abt it in detail to not get like

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In trouble or whatever

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But

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How are u breaking up with something for the second time,talking shit abt him and then reaching out to him bc u still love him the whole time or whatever,then when he’s moved on,u get pissed for a short while,he started to catch feelings again bc she starts reaching out again,and then some other guy likes her and she’s with I’m 24/7 but then telling others she won’t date him bc ‘he has no personality’

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And her ex is js left hanging again

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Like not my business obv

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But bro??

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She’s so sweet sometimes but so like

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Idk

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She hears u did one thing or smth and full on talks shit abt u or whatever

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Can speak from experience

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But she’s lowkey so fake

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And everyone loves her

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I can’t even say I hate her bc I feel bad for her I na way bc of her past

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But like

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She lowkey pisses me off sometimes

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Anywayss

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Oh I need to finish Tokyo ghoul too

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I actually really want to

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It’s js that I started so much stuff

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And Crunchy roll PMO so I deleted it

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I’m js gonna use websites

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And risk getting a virus or wtv

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Bc I’m not watching 7 ADs every 10mins or less.

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I’m such a yapper it’s actually horrendous

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Anywhere but in class

pulsar tiger
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There’s someone in this server dming people abt collaboration and money or smth

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I mean idk if they’re messaging others but they DMed me

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But not even meaningful,js wanted to say it

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I love having pets

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My dogs sleeping on me rn

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I’m pretty sure she’s turning 2 in a few days

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Well 2 weeks or smth

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Wait or 3

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I honestly can’t remember what year we got her

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Feels like ages

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But yeah

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I sit in my room

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Js on my chair playing on the PS or smth

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She comes into my room

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Sits in front of my chair and stares at me

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Sometimes even whimpers

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And then the second I look at her and say something she jumps on me

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I actually love her so so much

sleek mesa
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Thats cute

pulsar tiger
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I love my cat too but he spends most the day outside and usually sleeps downstairs.Although yesterday he also did climb onto my chair and sat between me and one of the armrest and half lay on me.That was the first time he ever did that

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He also got his ass beat by another cat a few days earlier,has a bit of fur missing on one side of his face with two scratches there and like a hole between his ear and head.His face is covered in dirt and paws in blood or smth

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Yet he still wants to go out smh

pulsar tiger
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Still there

pulsar tiger
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I lowk need ppl/friends to give a shit abt me bc this kinda life is boring af

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I wanna go out I’m bored of only going to skl or rotting in my room all day

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And I need monster

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I’m the only one awake rn and I’m so bored

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Like house wise

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Just spent the last hour or so scrolling on tiktok

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Icl

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I love the pony boy dance

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The edits

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Peak

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So many people haven’t been in school ALL week

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Like huh

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I knew what I wanted for Christmas

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But now idek

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Like I still want those stuff

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But like

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Idk anymore

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Atp Idec

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If I rlly think abt it,I don’t need anything

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All the stuff. I wanted was just to fill my boredom or whatever else

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What’s the point of wasting money on that smh

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Damn I need to get ready for bed but I’m already in bed and don’t want to get up

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I think I might try hang out w my bsf on Sunday

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If not then I’m js gonna take a break from journals again

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Bc it’s rlly just awkward typing this all

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And also a waste of time in a way

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The same as writing in notes tbh

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Plus this is all basically js yaps

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Who tf needs to know any of this

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But yeah,hopefully I get a monster soonYummers

pulsar tiger
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Okay

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I said ill shut up

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But omg

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I went to the shops

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Still have £30 from my grandma

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I go B&M

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And I get a few stuff

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And then I go to the toys with my sister

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They often have anime figures and funko pops there

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I go

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And omg

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There was one figure I didn’t know

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The other one “my hero academia villains”

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SHIGARAKI

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when I tell u I grabbed it so fast

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£15

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Idc

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I got it

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I feel like I’m gonna regret it bc it is in fact just a figure

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But

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Idc rn

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I can sell it one day if I change my mind in a few years

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But I grabbed it so fast

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I didn’t wanna spend too much so I put away a few stuff I picked up like powder or lashes and stuff

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And so I got

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A so perfume and shigaraki figure

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And that perfume

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It smells so good bro

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But the figure

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AHHHHH

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So happy bro

fresh wharf
pulsar tiger
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But I saw a pretty cool one

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U can change his positions too

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It’s the same figure

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But £64

pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
pulsar tiger
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Well £65

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But still

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Is that how much u have or what??

fresh wharf
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yessirrr

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i would get it but i wanna save up for

pulsar tiger
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How does someone get that much money

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Like what

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And damn

fresh wharf
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college Yummers

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actually

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magician keeps his secrets

pulsar tiger
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Well damn

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Still shocking

pulsar tiger
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Yayay trying to do my own nails

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For the first time tho

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So they look ass

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Plus the fell is glittery

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So it looks lowk worse

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I don’t even have an inspo

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My sister helped do my wrist hand as I’m right handed

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But she doesn’t feel well so I’m trying to do the designs myself which sucks

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I did one of a sukuna nail pic

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I might do one of Choso

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I csnt do a straight line with my left hand.

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Crashing out so bad rn

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Hate these nails icl but no turning back now

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Istg if I get in trouble at skl

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Js Stupid

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Idek what to do once I finish the design

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Bc everyone went to bed

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And only my mom and sister did the nails themselves earlier

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I csnt text my aunt either

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My hands r so shaking omd

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And my aunt wants me to take over her salon

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Nice one

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Gosh this is o stressing

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I csnt get it right

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And my mom will probs be pissed that I’m doing designs like that

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And that I’m not done yet

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If she comes downstairs

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Omddd

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I only have pink and gold colours

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So I left the pink gel

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And used gold for designs

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Bc tf else am I meant to do

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My sister has white but won’t let me use it

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My mom comes downstairs

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Oh she’s pissed

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Told me to get rid off the gold,put it under the lamp so the gels hardens properly and just clean up

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She told me to do it tmr when I’m home alone all day w my 2 sisters and she has all the steps and stuff

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The golds not even bad ffs

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Now I’m js pissed

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Shouldn’t have even started these nails bc tf

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Yk what

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I’m not getting rid of the gold

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I’ll just let it dry

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And clean up

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See how I feel abt it tmr in day light

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My nails are super short bc I bite/pick on them a lot

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And a lot of the gel hardened on the skin

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Like on both where the nail usually is and normal skin

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And it hurts af

pulsar tiger
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Well

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I’m starting to think they do in fact kinda look ass

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Still pissed tho

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The shapes uneven a bit bc I still had to file them

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But decided to do it after th design

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The designs weren’t even finished

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Yeah the gold looks ass on the pink

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Well shit

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I csnt wash the gold off

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I’m so tempted to just take th nails off

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I might js file off the gold and put a different base colour

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Or just use white instead of gold

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Well shit that pissed me off tho

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I don’t see myself being a hair dresser or nail artist

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Idk y my aunt expects me to

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Oh well

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Not like I have a dream job or anything

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Might as well go with it

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But I still have I think 3 years

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I sound dramatic to thinking abt it now when I have so long

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Smh

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NO I can’t pick a song I want to listen to on Spotify

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Hey so why am I on delivered for 19h

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People

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Smh

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Oh yeah and now my mom came into my room,looked at the nails under the bedroom light(white light) and was like “oh they’re actually not that bad”

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I need to start drawing my bsfs birthday thing

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Idk I’m drawing her Obanai and mitsuri

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Dying

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So yeah!

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I need the Christmas holidays rn bro

pulsar tiger
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My phone chargers not working.

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Bro my phone is still

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And it keeps saying it’s charging

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Then not

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Then that it is again

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And so on

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I love music so much

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I don’t get how people pick only one fav song or artist

pulsar tiger
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Bro

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Idek why my dream was

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Like

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Idk I think I was in Poland with my mom and dad

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And my dad was talking abt smth

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And we walked past some of the apartments

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And some older couple yelled hello and stuff

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Said I look like my grandma(from my dads side) when she was younger

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I always get told I look like my mom

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Then idk I was talking abt dying my hair again

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And like

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I met someone on here before

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They were the first person to talk to me on here

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We were friends for only a few months,I always tried to help them

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Didn’t speak abt myself tho

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And they got upset/mad

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At one point we didn’t speak for a few days and then we had a short convo

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Then they unadded me

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And I was like damn okay tf

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But I left it there

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They always had my display name (the flower) in their pronouns

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They still do

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And idk why

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Maybe js for a decoration

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But in the dream he reached out again

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And I was confused n stuff

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Then they started talking abt how they’re in hospital rn bc they were struggling rlly bad (yk)

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And like there was more to my dream but I can’t remember much

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They’re still on this server

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They have a journal,I don’t follow it but check time to time

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I was gonna like reach out to try comfort them a bit

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I did it

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But then felt awkward and deleted my message

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I kinda enjoyed talking with him

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And lowkey expected it,most people I met on this server we talked for a short while,I was there for them an then we js stopped talking

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Not saying he wasn’t there for me but the outcome was always the same

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But yk what

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If that’s how he wants it to be then so be it

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Yk he didn’t unadd me by accident

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Or I don’t believe so

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Bc I didn’t even knew he unadded me

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Until he send a request again

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But when I checked friend requests, it was gone

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Anyways

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Monday off skl

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Yay

pulsar tiger
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Yk what’s lowk pissing me off

pulsar tiger
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And it’s like

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I went out of my way so many times for him and then he js unadds me and shit and now goes on abt being alone

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Like okay you do you then

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Well we last spoke a month ago

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Damn it’s only been a month

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It bothers me that they’re still not doing good

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But at the same time I don’t really wanna reach out

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That’s stupid

pulsar tiger
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Alr time to fix the nails and do the other hand

pulsar tiger
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Yay jjk based,one of choso,one for megumi,sukuna,Inumaki and Geto!

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Need to defo work on base tho bc it’s messy

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Man skl tmr

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Airbuds for last week

fresh wharf
pulsar tiger
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Omd my fucking PlayStation isn’t working

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I spent 4 hours on a genshin archon quest

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To get stupid primos

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560

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I have 13h left to get them

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I complete rh quest

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Just doing some after talks

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‘Lost connection’

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Same on my phone

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WiFi acting up

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Istg

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I can’t reset the router bc it’s downstairs and idk how

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Even Roblox doesn’t work

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NO

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My demon soul simulator

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Smh

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Won’t get to do the Mugen train and get rewards

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Well shit

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OMG

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NVM WIFI WORKS

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says connection test everything is successful

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Heck yeah

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Quest was peak tho

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I love the cutscene

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Omg Rerir’s design

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I love it

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My friend said it looks basic

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Idk I love it

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But he’s a bad guy

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But we got like a lot of info and scena from his past

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And damn I feel bad

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I don’t think it’s the darkest one in genshin

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But still sad

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But his design is so cool

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The cutscenes?

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Heck yeah

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Awesome

pulsar tiger
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I js realised that looked wrong

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But anyways

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Man I’m tired and my head hurts

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Today’s lessons aren’t the worse tho

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I need to get used to nails again

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Took me like 13mins to get my uniform on tf

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I need to new skl jumper

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I’ve had mine for 4 years

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The materials different now and stuff like that

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But it’s fine for now I think

pulsar tiger
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Hahaha

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I got my monster

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Didn’t get a new flavour this time

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Got ultra strawberry dreams and got it in some bottle

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Man I had 4 people ask me for some

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But it’s okay I still have half

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Might drink if tmr tho

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I don’t feel well today

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I feel nauseous for the past few hours but now it’s worse

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And I’ve been so tired all day

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At one point my whole body hurt

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So I might try to nap

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Brooo

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In health and social I’m kinda close to the board

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But either way

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I sit kinda side ways

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But I can’t stare at the screen for too long

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My eyes go funny

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They feel weird,my sigh goes weird and my eyes hurt

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So I have to keep looking away from the board

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It’s annoying

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I kinda want another monster..

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If I do end up drinking this one today then I’ll buy a new one tmr

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Especially since it fr helps with staying up

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My friends been using her phone for all her mocks

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Then she gets hyped when she gets a high score

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And I’m like bro

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It js pisses me off afp

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Atp

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Bc it’s the mocks bro

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Maybe it’s worry bc ik she won’t be able to use her phone for the actual exams

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Who knows

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Idc what she gets anymore

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I actually studied so

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Chat

blazing harborBOT
pulsar tiger
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Huh

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Oh

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Anyways

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Cool I guess?

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Wait I never knew that

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Anyways

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I want piercings SO bad

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Like idc if they make me look

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Idk

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Either lesbian or ‘emo’ or some shit

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Piercings r sick

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I rlly need an eyebrow

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Tongue piercings look so cool usually

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I used to always want one

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But I’m scared what if I swallow it

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And the pain obv

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Or what if they mess up and smth goes wrong

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Smh

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It’s okay we stick to eyebrow

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Bro..

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My bsf called me a rusty funko pop

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Bc of how I turn my head

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When someone says smth

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Like that slow turn

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That was a new one,never got called that

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Oh I had a history cover

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A polish giy

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Guy

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I can’t type if u can’t tell

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And I’m the only polish kid in my history class

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And I was doing my work bc my friend was sleeping

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And he asked for my name

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Then he starts talking abt my last name and if I can speak polish

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And then he sat on the table in front of me and kept switching between English and polish

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We talked for I think 20mins

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It was mostly him talking

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My other two friends behind me later told me they were watching me

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And like all I did was nod and say ‘mhm’ or ‘yeah’

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And how I kept looking away every few seconds

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I can’t hold eye contact

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Especially not with teacher

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And this guy loves eye contact,kept trying to make it

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Felt bad but yeah

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I did talk myself a bit tho

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So

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I feel slightly better bc of that

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And most people were busy having their own convos so I wasn’t getting stared at

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Genuinely hate being polish sometimes

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The teacher keeps saying ‘remember be proud of being polish’ etc

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Why should I be proud if no one likes polish people bro

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But I get it

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He’s genuinely a nice guy

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I think I’m just too awkward

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Now I feel bad again

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But tbh I didn’t know how to react to some stuff he said

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He was very

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Idk

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Is stereotyped the word?

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Idk

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He kept going on later abt religion and immigrants

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And I was like oh?

pulsar tiger
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I can’t believe she’s going to be 2 soon

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I’ve had her for almost 2 years

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I really can’t believe it

pulsar tiger
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Poetry.

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I don’t mind it

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It’s pretty interesting

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But bro

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I’m doing it in English rn

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And

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I have one poem book/anthology, everyone does

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Yk go through the poem as a class

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I thought it was messy so I asked for a new booklet to restart

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We had a cover lesson tho and we were using GCSE level poetry guides

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To js add anything we needed

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I decided to keep the new poem booklet for the GCSE notes

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Js copy out the book

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Bc I can’t buy the guide

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And my teacher said I can use the guide for however long I need as long as I bring it back

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So I’m tryna copy it

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And man it’s messy

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And I hate it even more

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And I lost motivation

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I’ve only done one poem

fresh wharf
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wait are you like doing a bunch of poems for your gcse exams

pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
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i did the same but bro wtf i did not do FIFTEEN

pulsar tiger
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And we don’t know what poem

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Obv

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There’s family and love ones and bro I cba

fresh wharf
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yeah its kind of like maths where they feed you as much information as possible for the worst case scenario that the one you research isn't on the exam

pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
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i dont remember how many i did

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maybe 8 ?

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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Wait js so out of curiosity,do u remember any of the poem titles?

fresh wharf
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if i saw them i would recognise them

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i think one was porphyria's lover and another was farmers bride

pulsar tiger
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Oh yeah I also have them

fresh wharf
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there was 2 sections and i only did the first which was love and relationship

pulsar tiger
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I cba to type the poems out wait

fresh wharf
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its prolly the same ones tho

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i think gcse papers do them every year

pulsar tiger
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That’s the full list

fresh wharf
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yeah no i definately remember them

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thats a pisstake i dont know where my notes are WAH

pulsar tiger
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I think I’m doing love’s philosophy next, finished all the family ones and I did letters from Yorkshire today

fresh wharf
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theres a lotta good resources online tho

fresh wharf
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wait aree you doing the 2nd section as well or just love and relationships

pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
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well ur gonna be doing them for your exams anyway

pulsar tiger
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And dw abt the notes lmao I wasn’t gonna ask, I was just curious if u do the same ones

fresh wharf
pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
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yea nvm all my books r in the attic

pulsar tiger
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I’ve done an inspector calls earlier this year,after these poem I think I’m doing some book, I think Jack and Hyde or smth but I’m not sure

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
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ya ok

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the least i can do is say i found climbing my grandfather the easiest

pulsar tiger
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Well shit I’m buying monster again tmr

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Idk what flavour this time,I’ll let my sister pick

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Monster didn’t do shit I’m exhausted

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Wtv I give up

pulsar tiger
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Tbh thought I’d have more but it’s fine

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Still good

pulsar tiger
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Heck yeah got this guy in the first 10 pulls(I had no more anyways)

IMG_4654.jpg
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Lowkey his animation boring

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But

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He’s lowk strong

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So it’s okay

pulsar tiger
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Oh man I MIGHT of just experienced sleep paralysis

pulsar tiger
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I can’t sleep now

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Jeez when I finally manage to fall asleep that shit happens

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I need to buy a monster tmr

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I need to get through the day and go to sleep early

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Bc that shit scared me

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And it’s influenced by sleep

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Idk if I should tell my parents though

pulsar tiger
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Idk depends on money

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Lowkey messed up bc I don’t have much

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And my friend asked when’s my birthday bc she wants to get me something, I didn’t tell her at first but she said she’ll ask my friend,I told her and then I decided to ask hers.Its in 6 days

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So now I’m trying to get her a gift for only max £10

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One thing she said she’s running out of I can’t get bc they only sell it at the shopping centre but that’s 20minutes and my mom won’t take me and my dads working all weekend

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And then

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One of my bsfs isn’t doing much for Christmas bc her parents r putting all money into her new house

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So I’m trying to get her a Christmas gift

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Oh well I’ll have to figure it out

pulsar tiger
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Man I’m pissed I actually wanted to try sleep for at least 4h today

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5am

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I need to be up at 6:30am

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Idk if I’ll be able to sleep

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Yk what I’ll keep listening to music and I’ll put my phone on charge

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I’ll lay on my side and try to sleep

pulsar tiger
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Tokyo ghoul season 2 started

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These characters r badass

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Peak

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I love it

pulsar tiger
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Oh yeah got the rest of the day off

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Had my appointment

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I’m getting serial casting in jan-Feb

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Idk what my dad will say

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But yeah

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U only had 3 lessons left (but 4h of skl) so I got to stay home

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Bc

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Yeah my dad won’t find out

ashen viper
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/gift person:@pulsar tiger type:8bit (x7) amount:1

pulsar tiger
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For a sec I thought it was Saturday bc I stayed home all day and got scared thinking tmr is already Sunday💔

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I need to try buy gifts tmr or Sunday

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Depends when my mom can take me

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Bc

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Idk I can’t go out like alone alone

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Only if I’m with someone even if it’s just my younger sister

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But I kinda get it

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But it would save her time if I went alone

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But it’s all good

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So I didn’t get to buy monster for the second time this week

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So Monday I’m probs gonna buy one

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I js realised I lowk haven’t spoken to my sister all day

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But she pissed me off today, we argued in the morning

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Like at 8am

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Then after skl she was still lowk pissed

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So I js cba so I ignored her

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When she did try speak to me

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Actually no

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We spoke a bit

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Idec tho if I’m being honest bc

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Last time she threw a bottle at me😭

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Oh Mikołajki today

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Idk who celebrates but whoever does then

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Happy Mikołajki?

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Idk how else do say it

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NO AAIT

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MY GENSHIN REWARD IS GONE

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I defeated a boss and went afk too long

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Flower disappeared right in front of my eyes

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Two more weeks

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Idk when the exam board gets revealed

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So

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Idk when I start my actual coursework in DT

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Lowk lost motivation bc like

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Idk what to do

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Like I already had do make my border design

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For the coursework

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Bc I need 20 pages

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My product thing

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And a mini version I THINK

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And like bro

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But we move on

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Oh yeah

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I went to sleep early last night

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Like

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At midnight

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New thing for me

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Slept till 6:30

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Bc I had to get up

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Man I’m so happy I got the day off after my appointment

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And my dad doesn’t know

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I’m so glad

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But then I slept an hour and few mins at home

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Restless sleep lowkey

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But it’s fine

#

Now I’m not tired

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1:10am

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I’m scared to like not sleep enough tho

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Bc I don’t want sleep paralysis again

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But then

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I lowk don’t like sleeping

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Actually no

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There’s pros and cons

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Pros:
Clear mind
Excuse for not responding(if it’s in the day)
Night passes quickly
And idk, just sleep in general

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No point going into the cons

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But I also just enjoy staying up

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Watching stuff or being on my phone

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Idk I like the vibe lowkey

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Idk

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Js listening to music all the time and idk

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Doing whatever else

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So now

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I have to try

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Idk decide

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Maybe I’ll stay up some days,catch up on it some days

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I tend to stay up as late as I can during the week,sleep after school and sleep all night on weekends

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That was how I balanced it or whatever

#

But for sleep paralysis so

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Oh yeah my dad thinks it’s bullshit

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Well obviously English isn’t his first language

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So I wasn’t sure how to explain it

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Wait idk what exactly he said

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But ik he was like

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what’s the word

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Idk just didn’t believe me and said it must’ve been a dream

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Oh yeah and that I should just keep my eyes open next time

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And other stuff

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But

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Who gives two shits

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That’s his opinion

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Why should I care

#

Not like he experienced it

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I’m gonna finish genshin dailies by doing bosses

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And

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Idk I think that’s if

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It*

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Idk I’m bored

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!rank

unique grailBOT
pulsar tiger
#

My only long charger isn’t working

#

But

#

I need to keep money for my two friends

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So

#

A friend and bsf have the same birthday

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Next week

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And I’m getting someone a Christmas gift

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Bc they won’t get anything this year

#

I only have £20

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I got my bsf a gift

#

I spend £17 I think

#

It was online

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And Black Friday sales

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And from china

#

So if was cheap

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Bc

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Free delivery

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So I’m praying it comes before Wednesday

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And then £20 to split between the other two

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I have stuff I haven’t opened or used but bought before,stuff they’d probs like

#

I might give them those too

#

Idk if that’s not like

#

Mean

#

Idk

#

I’m still getting them stuff tho

#

I want more days off skl

#

The doctor today said “oh yeah I’m sure u don’t wanna miss days of skl”

#

Right

#

I actually want to like lowk drop out💔

#

Bur it won’t do me any good

#

Actually

#

Yeah no it’ll only help my future job or whatever

#

Idek what I wanna do

#

I literally picked history,graphics and heath & social for shitty reasons

#

History: I had to pick between geography,history,French,Spanish and smth else I think.I haven’t done French in years,I’ve been doing Spanish for the last 3 years in school and like I don’t remember most stuff,geography I probs won’t need for a future job I’d pick, history I enjoy

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Health and social:
didn’t even know what it was.Thought I can get any job from if bc I thought it mean ‘health’- doctor etc
‘Social’- people in general so hairdresser etc

#

No

#

I think it’s just Doctor etc

#

But okay

#

It’s not bad

#

I was going to pick art

#

I like to draw

#

But

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My parents said art won’t get me anywhere

#

And they’ve never had to pick their options as they grew up in Poland so they couldn’t help me much

#

I don’t talk much to my older cousin in England and everyone else I know is younger

#

So I decided to pick graphics

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Why? Idk, my friend also picked it

#

All I really cared abt is not being alone in lesson

#

And thought maybe it wouldn’t be bad

#

She didn’t even get in the class

#

Her last year result was too low

#

But yeah

#

When I move to Poland

#

In 3 years max

#

My exams won’t even be worth anything there

#

And my aunt wants to put me in smth like apprenticeships

#

I think it’s that

#

Where I work and learn or smth

#

Shi I don’t even know

#

And then wants me to take over her hair and beauty salon

#

Okay

#

I don’t have any plans for the future so idm much

#

But it’s like

#

That’s what my sister wants to do tbh

#

I want her to have that and I want to work for smth myself lowkey

#

Anyways

#

Can u tell I’m bored?

#

I’m just yapping

#

Once again

fresh wharf
pulsar tiger
#

Literally me icl

#

Yoyoyoyo

#

I decided to do a 10 pull on standard banner

#

24 pity

#

Got a 5*

#

Yay

#

But it’s standard

#

I got Tighnari

#

I have him C2 now

#

So I got him 3 times in total

#

Lowk wish I got a standard I didn’t have yet

#

Like when or Diluc

#

Or qiqi(only have her on my alt acc)

pulsar tiger
#

Or mizuki C1

#

But it’s fine

#

Still glad

#

He’s not built tho so I doubt I’ll use him

#

I was literally thinking ‘there’s no way I’ll get a 5*, too low pity’

#

And then I saw gold

#

Yeah no I tried to think about if and I don’t have any fav artists

#

I listen to too many

#

But

#

I think the ones I listen to the most are:
Alex G,Lil Peep,the neighbourhood,Artemas,

#

I have others I listen to a lot too like:
ayesha, odetari, 2hollis, MSI, CAS, Sir Mix-A-Lot, TV Girl, AKUGETSU, ICP

#

Obv I listen to way more

#

But not fully,just like a few songs

#

But from these artists I like more than 5 which is something

#

Bc my playlists r a mess

#

But I also have separate playlists for the ones I’ve mentioned

#

But if u ask me to pick a fav song from each then that’s a no

#

Tbh I don’t have a music genre I prefer

#

There literally sm

#

I listen to

#

I think

#

Yeah

pulsar tiger
#

Oh I forgot mitski

#

Yk what I’ll leave my playlist bc if I go on more then I’ll start naming too many artists

#

Most artists I have less than 5 songs in my playlists

#

Minus the ones I’ve mentioned obv

#

Melanie Martinez was like

#

I loved her sm

#

Mostly her songs tho

#

Like all these years

#

And then the whole things started

#

It’s js sad

#

and then I love her songs and miss listening to them but feel bad

#

Bc of what she did

#

Imma be so fr

#

I didn’t look into it

#

I heard abt it

#

Js stopped listening to her

#

Well

#

Listened time to time but yeah

#

Lowkey getting sleepy

#

/ tired

#

2:24

#

Not bad

#

I wanna sleep before 2:50 tho

fresh wharf
#

twinning right now 3AM

pulsar tiger
# pulsar tiger I wanna sleep before 2:50 tho

Idk I’m very like paranoid after getting sleep paralysis.Actually,idk if paranoid is the word but I wanna sleep before it happened,and I’m lowk scared of sleeping now but hey, if wasn’t even that bad so idk why I’m complaining.Maybe I’ll stay up at one point, not today tho I am in fact getting tired

pulsar tiger
fresh wharf
#

idrk what else to say other than i hope it doesnt happen again

pulsar tiger
#

DW i probs wouldnt know what to say either, and thank you

#

I want a sick lighter

#

I lowkey wonder if I should’ve done split dye instead of highlights

#

I still like highlights tho

#

Maybe I’ll do split dye instead in the future

pulsar tiger
#

Doshdowhdoahsjs

#

My stomach hurts so bad

#

Gonna turn into a paracetamoloholic

#

Idk how else to put it

#

Man and I need to go to the shops

pulsar tiger
#

YAY

#

my bsfs order came

#

The cards a bit bent and smaller than I thought but it’s fine

#

The figure didn’t come in a box so I’ll leave it in bubble wrap

#

And wrap it up with colourful wrapping

#

Omg this is so childish but I love wrapping

#

Like both wrapping gifts and unwrapping

#

Everything else I got her is fine

#

But

#

The Geto acrylic stand is small

#

But it’s still fine

#

Now

#

For my friend I got:
mascara,kinder hippos,coconut hair thing idk,beauty blenders, perfume, monster(mango loco) and I’m gonna make her a rose out of cotton pads

#

Shit I forgot to look for a box

#

I might get her gum too bc she always asks for gum

#

I feel like it’s not much but I tried, I only had £10 and her bdays in 4 days

#

She said she never really gets gifts

#

I feel bad

#

And

#

My bsf

#

The Christmas gift is:
2 dif nail polish’s, hand scream,a makeup set, diamond painting, fake nails, pastels and a cotton pad rose too

#

My other bsf is also adding stuff for her

#

I was gonn buy her a book

#

But I have £2 left

#

And they’re usually £3+

#

And idk where to buy

#

But there’s a while to Christmas so maybe I’ll find it

#

I wanna make her a drawing too

pulsar tiger
#

Oh shi

#

Forgot abt mt parents

#

Shit

#

Idek what they want tho

#

Usually we just get them sets

#

Like body wash or perfume and stuff

pulsar tiger
#

Took more paracetamol

#

Bc it stopped hurting for a while but came back

#

I need to wrap the gifts

#

Yayayaya got a hot water bottle

#

Filled with boiling water

pulsar tiger
#

I’m so tired now for some reason

pulsar tiger
#

I haven’t eaten all day apart from a croissant kinda thing in the morning but I’m not hungry💔

#

My stomach hurts still so I’m gonna take paracetamol again

#

Oh yeah

#

Gifts are wrapped

#

Other r in the bags so

#

And I’m js drawing stuff to add into the gifts

pulsar tiger
#

Idk if I said this

#

The serial casting date is confirmed

#

14th jan

#

I’m cooked

#

I have school then

#

A whole week in class and possibly up to 6 weeks I’ll have the casts

#

Fml

#

I lowk wanna stay in the hub to avoid going to lessons

#

But then coming back to lesson would be awful

#

And my parents would be mad in missing out on lesson

#

Well I’d do my lessons in the hub

#

But the teachers go through it in lessons

#

Usually

#

Oh mann

#

There’s someone on this server who hasn’t been online for ages

#

Well

#

For a few months

#

I think they were the first to react to my journal and all

#

And now they’re just gone

#

Like in general

#

They’re nowhere bro

#

Didn’t know them but hope they’re okay

pulsar tiger
#

Tbh I literally write on here js to yap

#

No other reasons

#

Or whatever

#

There no exact point in this journal

#

Lowk might go off it again for a while

#

But fr this time

#

Idk how to feel abt skl, hate it but then also don’t because it’s one of the only times i socialise and speak to my friends, on the weekends or at home i have no reason to have dnd on, it’s like we all forget each other for the time being, but eh, two more weeks so I’ll go to school then spend two weeks at home just in bed, unless I’m invited out which is a 50/50 chance

#

Anyways now I’m going off

sleek mesa
pulsar tiger
#

Okay I typed before

#

But I delete it quickly

#

So I don’t think anyone saw

#

But I’m back I guess

#

At least for a while

#

Bc idek what I’m doing atp

#

Anyways

#

Man

#

A old friend I used to talk abt a lot in my other journal

#

And that I ended the friendship with 2 months ago

#

Reached out

#

And it’s like bro..

#

Idk how to feel yk

#

Like

#

Last they spoke to me they said they broke up w their online bf

#

And like

#

At first I felt heavy ending the friendship

#

But after blocking her on everything else and like, deleting her off my chat history (but keeping the messages saved)

#

I felt kind of okay w it

#

Now she messaged me yesterday

#

Or the day before

#

So a bit of like info

#

I had an acc back in 2022

#

Old cringe shit

#

Made it into like

#

Idk a random acc

#

I posted anything

#

That dint include anything abt my looks or stuff

#

And blocked any of the friends I had on it

#

Only she knew it and followed it

#

And like a week ago I posted like

#

Idk I saw this trend

#

“You adored me before” song

#

I forgot the name

#

Good looking I think

#

And like

#

How we used to text which led me to like ending the friendship

#

And how we used to

#

Obv name covered

#

Ik it’s like

#

Cringe as fuck or whatever

#

But hey sometimes u js gotta ykyk

#

And bro

#

We didn’t follow each other

#

I changed my Pfp

#

They message me abt it

#

And now I’m like brooo

#

And I feel bad bc what

#

Wait idk if I can show the message but I will

#

But like

#

If I can’t then I’ll delete it

#

And now I feel bad bc I gave a kinda short reply

#

And that they had to tell me that

#

Anywaysss

#

Maths test on Monday and I’m fucking cooked

#

But after next week I have two weeks off

#

So smth for smth i guess

#

I’m cooked for it bro

#

School or whatever fucking messages my dad that I have a test on Monday

#

Fml

#

Idek how to say what I’m trying to say

#

Oh yeah

#

I have to go to skl on Saturdays now starting January

#

Only 3h

#

But whatever

#

For my future for when I move to Poland I guess

#

If there’s one

#

Bro idek what I wanna do like

#

My bsf wants to be an actor

#

Has the looks

#

The talent

#

Everything

#

Has her goal set

#

Drama classes, both in skl and after skl

#

Oh yeah I made a cotton pad flower

#

Man why did she reach out

#

Now I’m gon be thinking abt it for days

#

Oh yeah I watched the Sean documentary

#

Never really was interested in him or anything so lowk shocked anyways

pulsar tiger
#

I feel like ill probs go off journals again soon

#

Man this sucks

#

Oh man I love too many artists

#

But like Lil Peep, TV Girl, those kind of artists just hit differently at night ykyk

#

This is such w fucking popular song but ‘it almost worked’ just peak

#

Idc

#

Popular for a reason

#

I do in fact hope shit works at one point

#

Watch I’ll probs be feeling fine tmr

#

It’s mostly js at night that this shi starts

pulsar tiger
#

I have an awful habit of yapping a lot and then deleting most of it

#

Trust me there was more to this chat

#

Well idk if it’s awful to other people, probs a relief they don’t have to read that much

#

But like still ykyk

#

NO

#

I could’ve got a Muichiro puzzle piece

#

But didn’t see I could switch it

#

And picked obanai

#

Still cool

#

But like bro…

#

2:09 am

#

I’m staying up today

#

MAYBE I’ll sleep tmr