Sofi’s safe place (maybe someone can help)

[wooden wave]

Hi, I’m not really sure how to start. I’m a young person, and I’ve been feeling really overwhelmed, like I can’t handle things anymore. There’s been a lot going on inside me for years — sadness, anxiety, overthinking — and it feels like no one truly sees it.

I’ve been feeling like this since I was about 10, and now it’s just getting heavier. I sometimes feel like a failure, like I disappoint everyone, even though I try so hard. I also deal with panic attacks, and I usually try to hide them because I don’t want anyone in my house to know.

There was a big fight in my house today. I told my mom about a problem with a friend, and she seemed to take my friend’s side. I felt hurt but kept it in. Later my brother started arguing with het, and now she’s crying. And even though it wasn’t my fault, I feel guilty anyway. I don’t know why. I feel like I make things worse even when I’m not trying to.

I tried calling a friend once during a panic attack, but she didn’t understand. I felt even more alone.

I don’t want to give up, but I’m tired. I don’t feel ready to tell my mom yet — she’s going through a lot, and I don’t want to be “more” for her to deal with. But I need help, and that’s why I’m here.

[hallow tapir]

You were really brave to speak up.
And walking through all that pain on your own…
that must’ve been incredibly hard.

It breaks my heart that you’re so worried about being "one more burden" to your mom.
But children like you—who carry so much—often need even more support, not less.

I’m sorry we can’t do more to help you in a real, practical way.
But at the very least, we can stay here with you—
to let you vent, to face this pain together.

Would you be willing to share more about anything related to your panic attacks?

[wooden wave]

Thank you so much. About the panick attacks, I normally get them when I start to think about everything that is happening, and also when I start to think that time is moving on fast. Also when I remember when I was a child, I was happy then.

[jovial sinew]

Did you ever tried listen to hertz music ?

https://youtu.be/nkkpE6xdcnU?si=EyxDvjBKVeYO0bNh

There all different kinds , for different feelings .. it’s the vibration of the music that calms your nervous system down .. you only have to breath and close your eyes. The vibrations do the rest.

[wooden wave]

Thanks I will try it out

Guys I wanna self harm so badly. I haven’t done THAT in like 6 months, but all the thoughts, I just want them away. It’s the only way to make them gone for now at least. I just had a panic attack and I feel so tired but sleepless at the same time. I’m tired, and I wanna give up.

[maiden vector]

I felt the same way last night and instead I drew all over my arm with washable marker. Of course it didn’t get rid of the feeing entirely but it really really helped and I was able to get my emotions out