BigFish2003 Fresh Journal Of Sadness and Positivity | Huddle | Page 1

coarse shoal Jul 7, 2025, 12:52 AM

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Hello

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i hope anyone listening to this is having a good day!!

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replies allowed!!

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Anyone who replies, thank you.

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gonna lay out some rules for my journal for myself and others to follow

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obviously no hate and no discouraging and helping is optional, it is not on you to help me but help when im sad is fine thats it!!

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tw: self harm thoughts and death and stuff like that

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i will mention all of that later on

coarse shoal Jul 7, 2025, 8:10 PM

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Im honestly not feeling the greatest to be honest mentally

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I feel like shit

coarse shoal Jul 7, 2025, 8:38 PM

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Also im probably gonna tell everyone that im trans

coarse shoal Jul 7, 2025, 8:59 PM

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Boden told for me

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Im happy to be trans

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I dont wanna hide it anymore but I cant take estrogen cause of my parents being homophobic and I have to wait till 18

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If I had supportive parents I could of start HRT but I cant now

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:32 AM

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i came out as trans

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to chat

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i feel so good

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and thank you to anyone who is reading

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anyway gonna put alot of text here tmrw

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:34 AM

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We proud of u boo 🫶

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:51 AM

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wait

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u care?

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:52 AM

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Duhh

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:53 AM

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thank you

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anywayss

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i have thoughts on suicide

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2025 has not been it for me

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alot of transphobia

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and homophobia towards me

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:54 AM

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Baby noo

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:54 AM

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and also my grades

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:54 AM

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You shouldn't care about what people say

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They're assholes

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:55 AM

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and i lust after girls

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and im weird

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i j**k it

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to much

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and i vape

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i am not happy with that and i cant stop i tried to hard

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:55 AM

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I believe in you

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:56 AM

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i dont myself

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i just give in

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and it feels so good

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and i get urges

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:56 AM

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You can try distracting yourself

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I'm here for you

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:57 AM

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any distracting ideas

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 12:58 AM

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Write

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Write here

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 12:59 AM

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other than that

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i cant do that forever and ever it will not help enough

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:00 AM

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Start hobbys

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Hobbies

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Draw

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Sing

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ANYTHING

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:01 AM

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ok

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im gonna smoke then and get high

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i heard it feels better than vaping

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:02 AM

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That will only damage your health

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:03 AM

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also

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someone said this

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to me

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:03 AM

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Please don't listen to it

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Delete it and never look at it again

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You deserve to live

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You deserve to BE

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You matte

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:04 AM

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be dead

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:04 AM

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Matter

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Like a LOT

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:04 AM

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i deserve to drop dead

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:04 AM

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coarse shoal be dead

NOO

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:04 AM

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jagged terrace Like a LOT

according to people no

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:04 AM

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No wtf no you don't

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I'm people bruv

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I don't think that

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:05 AM

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i like reading a book wbu

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:06 AM

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jagged terrace I don't think that

maybe u dont but everyone else thinks that even my siblings

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:06 AM

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coarse shoal i like reading a book wbu

I love books that should help distract u

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:06 AM

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stop wasting ur time on me

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please

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i dont matter that much

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:07 AM

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I'm not

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You do

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You matter

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:07 AM

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u could be doing anything elses

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:07 AM

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Bruh

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Don't listen to them

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:08 AM

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i got an idea

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:08 AM

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And no you matter more than anything else I could be doing rn

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:08 AM

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its brilliant

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it is life changing

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my idea is

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to give up

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on life

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:08 AM

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NO

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Bro no

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Please

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Dont

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I'm here for you

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You can get better

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You MATTERRRR

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:09 AM

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im not saying im gonna suicide

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but like

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giving up

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:09 AM

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How

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:10 AM

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just live and do whatever thats bad for me

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giving up anything good

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:10 AM

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NO

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Nro

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Bro

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That's slow suicide

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:10 AM

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how

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just stop

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go

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i dont wanna stress u out

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and make u stressed

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:11 AM

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You're not stressing me out

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I cate

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Care

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I care for you

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:11 AM

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seems like it

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chill out

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and leave

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do whateverr

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:12 AM

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Bro

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That's like

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Since 1-2hours ago

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:12 AM

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im not bro 😭

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:13 AM

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Mb

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Sorry

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:13 AM

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anyway

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i gotta clean my piercings soon so they dont get infected

jagged terrace Jul 8, 2025, 1:13 AM

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Okay

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Take care

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:14 AM

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alr

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leave

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thanks

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 1:43 AM

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i hate my life

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anything i tried doing doesnt work

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cant get into relationship

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i have no reason and will to live

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all these people are just saying to comfort me when they dont know me

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 2:22 AM

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Im narcissistic now

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I always have something bad

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 2:38 AM

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omfg

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i have a disorder

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and

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im crazy in the brain

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why am i not suprised

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Im gonna lust and j**k it and vape my life away

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I hate my ljfe

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Im crazy

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:/

coarse shoal Jul 8, 2025, 8:58 PM

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I hate my life

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Im gonna keep lusting vaping and stuff

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Even though eventually I will become more depressed

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It feels good

coarse shoal Jul 9, 2025, 1:35 AM

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and i cant stop

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no matter how hard i try

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i feel like shit

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i should honestly give up

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who cares if i give up

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no one

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no one caress

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im giving up on life

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im just gonna live life on my desires

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you only live life once

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im giving up

coarse shoal Jul 9, 2025, 1:53 AM

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i gave up vaping

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but i smoke now

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my lungs are cooked anyway

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who cares

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u only live once

coarse shoal Jul 10, 2025, 11:21 PM

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i feel fine for once

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but i lusted

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i kept going on the cycle

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and j*king it

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and stuff

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1 good thing 3 bad things

coarse shoal Jul 12, 2025, 12:01 AM

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Should I lust

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I feel like doing it and it feels so good

coarse shoal Jul 12, 2025, 5:39 AM

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Weekends I have free time gonna write in my journal more

coarse shoal Jul 14, 2025, 10:54 PM

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Hello

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Since I cant talk in main chat since im taking a mental break

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Ima chill here and vent my feelings

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I have thoughts of suicide (but don't worry I won't suicide!!)

coarse shoal Jul 26, 2025, 11:03 PM

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hi

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thinking about it

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what do i have?

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other than God?

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nothing

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who do i have nothing

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so i have no reason to be

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i have no reason to live

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my life is just sadnesss

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and i really cant do it

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someone convince me otherwise

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who do i have in terms of people that support me

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no one

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really

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