#airhead's journal

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valid axle
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me to you twin

misty gorge
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omg 8000 messages

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yay

spare sable
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what

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happy valentines everyone

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i looove soggy cat

flat sun
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I love your soggy cat too

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WAIT

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PAUSE

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love love soggy cat

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he's pretty cool when he's dry too tho

flat sun
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snatches

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My neighbor cat got inside through the window tdy, I like screamed when I saw her

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flat sun
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AWWWWWWW

valid axle
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stop wiggling your peenar that is super duper nsfw

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oh how much i want to just vent about stuff but i dont like saying the same shit over and over

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im slowly killing myself

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day by day

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my minds so woozy rn idk what to uhhh

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i forgot what i was gonna do

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fuck

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i hate feeling like this tho

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one of the worst things ever

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fucking hate when im not in the mood to do anything

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because i want to do something but theres nothing i want to do

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i hate when i feel like im begging

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are zebras white with black stripes or black with white stripes

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lalalalalala

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are giraffes yellow with brown spots or brown with biiig yellow marks

valid axle
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I'm begging again

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just please make it stop

valid axle
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flat sun
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Huh

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Are you ok fren

valid axle
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I'D GO THROUGH MY LIFE'S WORTH OF PAIN JUST RELEASE THIS PLEASEEEE

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im stressing out sm and i cant find a distraction

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blasting shoegaze maybe........

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please just let it fade away soon

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i physically cant sleep rn

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my chest just keeps going and going

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its keeping me up

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i cant

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why do i always have to be surrounded by people until i actually need them

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pleas

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i think i'll just do one of the things i do best

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and thats talk

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im gooda t talking?

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i think

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i'd like to think so

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but anyway

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uhm

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a few days ago i think it was on the way home from college

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when i last had college

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i had this inhaler thing called a nasal stick

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it basically clears your nose during like cold weather when your nose gets stuffy

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i used it a lot back when i went out in winter

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js on my own

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it was a rough time for me because of all the horrible thoughts that ran through my head at that time too

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i had no other senses then because the cold numbed it out

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but all i could smell was the scent of the nasal stick

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and i used it again last time i went out and got such a strange nostalgic feeling blown back into me

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i don't want to go back to that

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i would burn the stick if i could

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physically it's helping me but mentally it's hurting me

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it's not 50-50 so why should i continue without it

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cannot be my relationship

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i'm happy where i am with my partner

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though i am stressing out a lot

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havent gotten a message since we got off a call which was around 10 ish

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and its now 1am......

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i dont think i can sleep until i get a reply

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i wish i didnt stress about it so much though

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she probably is js

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busy playing and not checking replies

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but i just stress so much it kills me inside

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i don't know what else to talk about....

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sorry

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just gonna go on my phone before it gets to me even more..

valid axle
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yeah i was just panicking

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im sorry

flat sun
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Yk you don't have to apologize

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Im actually quite happy to see you finally opening up even if it isn't to someone specifically

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And if that inhaler is really bothering you, you should probably throw it away and buy a whole other brand.

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It might js help so

valid axle
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blue lobstaaaaaaaaaa

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dududuuuuuu

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dududududuuuuduuuuu

flat sun
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Blue jelly

valid axle
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mmmmmmm

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bluebrry falvoured jelly

misty gorge
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get that thing OUT

misty gorge
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Nuh uh

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misty gorge
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misty gorge
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true..........

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BUT ENOUGH

misty gorge
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Why does the lime look so pissed off

valid axle
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hes jus grumpy

misty gorge
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he looks so stupid bro

misty gorge
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I will shoot him

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Beg for his life

misty gorge
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WHY WOULKD YOU DO THAT

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YOU MONSTER

misty gorge
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That wasn’t me

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It wasn’t on cctv

valid axle
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tis right there

misty gorge
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Liar

valid axle
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WORST NAP OF THE YEAR SO FAR

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i was tossing nd turning so fucking much

valid axle
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oh my god bruh its nearly 10am and ALL my friends r offline

valid axle
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this funny

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i'm truly trying my best so please give me the so-needed reassurance

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wait i like that i think i will put it in my bio later

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happy saturday yay

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i should stop stressing so much

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this feeling is gonna go away the moment i just get a reply

wooden gull
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i started playing again

wooden gull
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ok

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i add your riot give me your riot

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can i have your riot

wooden gull
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i gotta look it up 😭😭

valid axle
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ok

wooden gull
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i didnt play since 93'

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wow

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you old

wooden gull
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spare sable
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why is this low rank talking in my journal

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fucking cornballs

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how it feels to have a kd of 0-7 and then get told ez after i tried my best saddening

valid axle
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genuinely did so shit in the 2 games i played

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trying is not enough it seems

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since ive been playing for months including last yr

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valorant needs to DIE

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i had something i was gonna spend most my day doing but im not in the mood to anymore

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im js gonna buy another game atp

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need to blow off some steam

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maybe i just need some time to myself for a little while

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i hate waiting to be noticed

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i love

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i wont sell it

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ever

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i promise

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i thik itll help me cool off if i take an early shower today

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like rn

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wash my hair nd all

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in the long run I dont think anything or anyone could convince me otherwise that I am such a failure

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nothing I have done in the last like 5 years of my life has helped me

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just let me grow old and die already

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🕊

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just been spending them playing games

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am I good at any of those games

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no

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so have I really accomplished anything

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no

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I've been so doomed to fail ever since I realised my high school didn't help me whatsoever

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silly

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silly

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silly

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silly

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I FUCKING HATE SOME GAMES

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AND SOME PEOPLE

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BUT THEY'RE OK SO I LET IT SLIDE

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i catch axolotl ok?

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octopus

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biiig fish

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makes me wanna play animal crossing again

valid axle
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miss animal crossing

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she's been awfully quiet it makes me worry a bit

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im doing what i just think is best and giving her space

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i dont complain if she takes a while to respond

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as long as she's happy

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i'll really do anything just to keep things together i dont wanna lose anyone else

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it might genuinely break me

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i hope nothing happens

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i mjust so

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afraid

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im so afraid of being left again and being told it's for my own good

valid axle
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that's the wrong way to think

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it shouldn't be like "I'm doing my best so please stay"

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love is trust not begging

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it's more like "I will do my best for you regardless. I will continue to love on bad days"

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now goodnight

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looong day tomorrow

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today is gonna be long and rough...

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i feel so like

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overwhelmed

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idk why

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should i even go in this morning

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yeah

valid axle
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of course my morning lesson is cancelled bruh

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thank god i didnt leave early

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i think im gonna look through my joruanl

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im js gonna go to a random point and scroll down

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HOPEFULLY it doesnt haunt me

valid axle
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yo i think i wanna play this again

valid axle
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yeah thats just sad

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went through a lot of my journa

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I'll make sure this relationship works out

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I promise

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i think im gonna be ok

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apparently i have a dentist appointment thinker

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when did i agree to dat

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maybe in my last appointment i said like "oh yeah sure ill do my next one right now bla bla"

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which was like august btw

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i got a tooth ripped out

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it hurt for days

valid axle
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waiting for them to get hit with an orbital strike

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theres a specific person on this server who made some comments im not like fully sure if i should agree with

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but looking at their journal

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yeah i see it

valid axle
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i toooooooooooooooootally see it

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why does my chest hurt at this hour

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i hate themn

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hate them

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so fcuking much

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I HATE THEM SO MUCH

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like

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scratching my arms level of hate

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i like them as much as AM likes humanity

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should i explain the story of this book

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im kind of a larper so i should at least know more

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larperrrr

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its such a cool story tho

solid kiln
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Live action roleplayer?

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laaaaaaaaaaaaaaarp

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roblox is suffering so much that my favourite games are dying 🥹

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they used to stay above 1k....

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rip to doodle world too

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love how all my motivation to play goes away as soon as i get out of college

valid axle
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imma just fish

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I got bored

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ill remake my straw page again

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i gave up

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why cant i just be grateful that i have a relationship

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im the worst

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my chest burns

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just please dont

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leave me

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pleas

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please

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i dont want to be left alone again

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please dont go

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its not even that deep why does my brain have to take it seriously

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i hate my brain and everything else

valid axle
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depressive phase over

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sorry about that

valid axle
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its tiem

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monster hunter is coming back

valid axle
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yea nvm

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118 gb

valid axle
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yeah it's rough out here

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mh used to be like 80

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now it's up by 30???

valid axle
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not gonna have my pc for a bit

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miraidempaaaaa

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😕

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really need a confidence boost that'll get me going for the whole year

valid axle
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okay

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so

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basically ever since covid has ended, I've failed nearly all my courses at high-school, continued to fail my math exams, got cheated on, took 3 months off a grade, cut and burnt myself countless times in class, procrastinated for hours, skipped a lot of school and college

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but I'm going to use that to prove that I can continue after all that I've been given

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I've found what I'm going to die for so I will live for it

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I'm best turning that negativity into positivity

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do not let the clouds in the sky scare you!!!

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you are the sun!!!!!

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you will fall and rise again!!!!!!!

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YES!!!!!!!

valid axle
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it look like we about to find the moose man

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who tha hell is the moose man

valid axle
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trying to hold the pieces of my heart together

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i dont even wanna eat rn

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my stomach is full with this sick feeling

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it'll all go away if i just get a text

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so please

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im scared to share how i feel again

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praying for my life please do not take this girl away for me or i will not love again

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amen

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LIKE PLEASE

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LET ME HAVE THIS FOR ONCE

valid axle
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lost another fucking locker key

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can i do anything right

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guys i found it

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im back

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nvm i dont like that gif

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procrastination final boss

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was gonna shower at 6

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nd its 8

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some people really deserve the world

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i feel like at some point the feeling of not liking certain people is gonna get to me

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because i have to continue to deal with talking to them

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when all your least favourite people talking at once

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wammy

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my faith keeps going back and forth

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yeah im bored of waiting im gonna watch instagram then sleep

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goodnight

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HOLY FORESHADOWING

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I DOOOO

tight torrent
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WOAH

misty gorge
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Shenanigans

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yess

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misty gorge
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Shenanigans day 2:

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Liquid smoking >>>

valid axle
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the kirara transphobia has to stop bro

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lowk just wanna call them transphobes over and over to piss them off

wooden gull
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like its ur body or smz

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yes bro

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hating just to hate

wooden gull
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Shenanigans Day 3:

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i love my stupid chud life

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i want to play monster hunter

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but its nearly 120 gb now :(

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it sued to be like 80

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ffs

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all that just for it to still be a pain to run

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i miss jin dahaad

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i hate when i feel like im being put below someone else

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a lowly peasant convinced they're in the throne

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i'm just sinking

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-# sinking

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when i feel like this i js

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i dont know

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i dont wanna be happy until the mood goes away

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something is wrong with me

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oops

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ineed like something to talk about

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i wold like to yipper yapper

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about the um messages earlier

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sometimes my brain just tells me things

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horrible things

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like things that are super unlikely but im just tricked into constantly thinking about them

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but once my girlfriend talks to me that feeling sort of just fades off and it makes me feel a bit stupid because of how easy i switch up

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it's not her fault anyway

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i got a new game because i like the soundtracks a lot

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but im buying a console cus i need it too

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like an xbox one to plug into my pc

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i know you wont go but

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i'm so scared of losing you

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i'm trying my best so

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please don't disappear like everyone else did for me

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hello friends

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paying with contactless is so fun

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and easy

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this game is awesome

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in tha chud era

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so mentally drained rn omg

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today iom just tried

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neck was hurting all day

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and i had my head nfacing down which made it worse

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for 2-3 hrs

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today went well tho

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mussels and plaice

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i feel odd but i think thats js my body telling me to not go into college

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still gonna go tho

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neck still killing me

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i cannot go in today bro

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as much as i rlly want to

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yesteray it was hurting js enough in class

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it doesnt hurt that much but i just feel like i'll push myself too hard

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nvm i've changed my mind

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i'll go in for my later class

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hoping i have the energy to make it through the next hour or two

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oh nvm then i guess

solid kiln
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I see the orbs dw

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appreciated

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absolute twat this morning honked at me for not crossing when he took the fastest corner ive ever seen

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i helped with whatahcamacallit today tho

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uhmm

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prep for the college restaurant

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we all did diff things but i was given 2 tasks

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one was cutting up bread into small small chunks and then coating them in olive oil before cooking them in the oven

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then i made lemon mayonnaise

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yes guys lemon mayonnaise

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i put lemon zest and juice into mayonnaise and mixed it

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not even 2 letters

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wish she did text me more sometimes

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idk what to do or play rn

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i dont have the motive to play anything specific

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nothing to do

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😕

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dont really have anything mroe to talk abt

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kind of wish i did

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might js play mc for a bit to distract myself

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dunno why my heart feels so much tigher

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could not tell u why

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i js be stressing a lot

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i cant rn

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i jsut dont know

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theres nothing to do

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my heart cant handle this anymore

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i cant fucking

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do this

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i just need a distraction

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please

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anything

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make it stop

valid axle
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im abit better now

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just been playing lego batman most the day

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4 whole hours

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not batman

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js waiting 4 hrs

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should i just stop making myself expect things that wont happen?

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i think im gonna js take my mind off it by reading other ppls journals

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lets think about other things

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i want to think about things i can do that will make me feel good about myself

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what could i do to make me feel like im being a better person

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maybe i should write

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or look on pinterest

valid axle
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i've never gotten into it because its not something like that

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but dreamcore is so cool

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i also like the ones with messages on them

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i wish i could stay there forever

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i had a though ttoday whilst playing a dreamcore styled game

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i was in a cloudy world with a train that goes around and it was overflown with plants and flowers with buildings it stops at

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i wish i could stay there forever

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back in my era of wanting to crawl up into a ball

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it's just difficult sometimes

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i feel like i scream for help but my throat is shut tight

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not physically

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how do i make myself heard without seeking attention?

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i reach my arm out for a hand that hasn't even opened a finger

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sometimes i really do just want to scream or cry

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i can't do either

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my stomach hurts

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i just wish she would say something to me rn

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just say

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something

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anything

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it js stresses me out so fucking much

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i dont have anyone else to talk to right now

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my bsf is offline probably at school

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at this time all my friends are asleep

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whilst my heart keeps me up at night

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good morning universe

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or should i say huddle verse

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last night i was yellled at on discord for apparently ignoring someone

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god forbid me just not having a good answer

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gonna rip my hair out

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why does this happen to me

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hellochuds and chudettes

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ive been a bit hesitant on talking here sometims because of the messages i see when i scroll up

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but we're ok now

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it's 7:46 rn and im up early

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visiting my friend at a car boot sale today

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i bring a spoon but be eating cereal with my hands

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would talk butim like so exhausted

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EVERYONEEEEEE

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i think it's just laziness so i'll talk abit here again

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college has actually been really fun for me recently

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let me post some stuff i made

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ok i found them

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the first is plaice (fish) in a type of sauce mixed with parsley and the second are mussels with a sauce thats combined with chopped vegetables like chili, onion etc

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this is a raspberry bavarois with chantilly cream and some other decorations

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first one isn't mine but i took a pic for documentation, it's a pot roast beef with lamb kidneys and other vegetables like potato & carrot.

second one is a slow cooked pork chop with curry sauce

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made some pancakes too

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there's buttermilk, american and scottish drop pancakes

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holy shit they look so good wtf HOW

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thank u for blessing my eyes

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i need to make more PANCKAES

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they were so fun to make

proper rapids
proper rapids
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yes boi

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just gotta not burn them

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next time

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pet u can do it i believe in u :3

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when i can be bothered im gonna send other stuff ive made at college i js gotta find the names for them

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how it feels watching 15 year olds be 5'10 when im a strong 5'7 at nearly 18

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!rank

sweet stumpBOT
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oh lets go

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guys today i played elden ring

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bc i got it working again

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let me post a clip from it

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bc i played it with my friend

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i worry too much

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i think all in all

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i'm just where i want to be

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good morning lovelies

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i'm going to spend quite a bit of time playing elden ring i fear

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but its ok

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gotta survive today first

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from half 7 till like 1

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survived!!

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hai guys please dont remember you are loved and you're better than however you see yourself

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amen

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i just realised it says please dont remmeber

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please dont forget guys

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it looks so cool i gotta

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hello huddlemons

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last night i bought both the lego movie games

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only set me back by £5.14

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basically bought all 3 lego batmans for that price

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so i got 5 games for 10 bucks

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every day i'm closere to finsihing lego batman 3

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i'm over 50% done now

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me bc my goat got animated yesterday

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i'd rather have my veins filled with acid over guilt

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i have every reason to be upset and hateful but i wont be

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yeah i'm sure of it!

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i appreciate the little chud life i live!

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things making a turn for the better

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me on some kung fu shit

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jokes aside i got 2 whole weeks to myself with no idea what to do

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been playing elden ring tho

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i shall show clip from it

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nvm all my elden ring clips suck ass

valid axle
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apparently some people from a server missed me so i joined back

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highkey just being an attention wh*re and waiting to be noticed

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i'm still scared to be there though

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ever since i lost a friendship from trying to be a good friend

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i think i just joined so i could play on their minecraft server

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my neck is haunting me rn

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proper rapids
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litch

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been on minecraft aaaaalllll daaayyyy

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i'm back in that server but the person i argued w is still there

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they just haunt me i feel

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they replied to my gif and said 'omg i love this'

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but i just dont know if i should act like it never happened

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you know whats bizarre to me

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there's some ppl from this server that i find super cool and like

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not in a favouritism way ofc

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but anyway if wanted to be best friends on the spot i would say yes

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and talk 24/7

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i dont really know how to explain it but like i feel things are going down for me again

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as usual i'm losing motivation to play things so fast but

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today i just played mc for 9 hours straight

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fuck dude

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i could have at least studied or something

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even tho im on break

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i havent gone outside since wednesday last week

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night thoughts went crazay

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anyway gn

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i finished season1 of fate so ill continue it when i wake up

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accidentally made it to the front page

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still got an hr ans a half left but I'm so exhausted

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so fucking

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exhausted

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its still getting worse

valid axle
proper rapids
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CUTIE PIE

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whatsaheart on top

valid axle
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you tell me its okay but why do i continue to feel guilty?

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my bsf tries to convince me that it was always my partners that were the problem

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but i just feel like i'm such a problem and that i keep causing damage when i'm trying to do the opposite

proper rapids
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the first option happens more than you think

valid axle
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surely my partner is always the issue

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i can name 2 or 3 things wrong w all of them

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anyways

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it's so complicated but i'm getting there

next sable
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hi...

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hru dude

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there's no way monster hunter world has more players than monster hunter wilds

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lal,alalalallalala

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THIS IS SO COOL

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im using a new weapon now

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i used to use greatsword

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but now i use this one that switches between axe and sword

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not the happiest ending to the day ever but

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it's okay

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tomorrow will be nice

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It's been a while since I've heard otuka's voice

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the sky is probably really pretty right now

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she deserves more than I can give

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and she gives more than I deserve

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gm

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had a horrible dream

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one of the worst ever

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some people deadass gotta go

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this one girl i made up with

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talkied with onc

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never again

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shes like making freaky ass jokes w a dude

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and matching with 2 others

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i'm so afraid i'll say something when i'm trying to help and it'll end up stressing her out more

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but i'm doing the best i can which is communicate

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i just hope it works

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i hope i can just

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fix things

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i don't know how to word it

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we've been arguing so much it scares me sm

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i feel like sometimes i just say these things so she sees them but it's more than that

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it's me getting out what i properly tihnk

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i've been pushing myself but obviously it's not enough

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so i will push further!!!

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aside from that though i know she's trying her best so i should be doing just the same

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still baffles me how someone can even tolerate talking to me so much

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hi

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hi

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this guy knows ball

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AIZO AIZO 🗣️ 🗣️

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im amazing

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one million yummers

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too many yummer! 😓

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but 5 is bigger than 1

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i feel a random chest pain

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one i havent felt in a while

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not a clue why

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treating myself with my favourite drink today bc my mood has def been better

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haaappyyy thoughtsssss

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i got elden ring bc i wanted to surpass one of my old friends but its at a point where i genuinely dont tihnk im built for this 💔

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i told my other friend about this one boss and they said "oh yeah i beat it on like my 3rd try"

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and i'm still on like my 30th try

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bc im so fucking envious of them

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one thing is for sure though

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i'm not changing weapons

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scythe life tha best life

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sigh..

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you don't deserve to deal with me

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i dont even know how to word it im just being so distant

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but at the same time i feel i would rather be this way right now

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than pretend like everything is still the same

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sorted

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normally I'd be upset but I feel so peace at mind

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I got bigger fish to fry rn anyway

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on monster hunter

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this piss take of a monster

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I'm so close to beating him and I'm gonna feel so empty if I don't

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bc I'm still envious asf

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of my friend

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we not friends anymore but

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shes good aaf at elder ring and monster hunter

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all I really want to do is to surpass her because she's so much better than me ar everything

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but yes I'm now out of my relationship

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it feels like I don't care js because I'm not too bothered

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she's probably crying which makes me feel like im just not as emotional

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just recently I haven't had the energy

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that's why I stopped

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this is the first time I don't feel traditionally upset or have some sort of post-heartache

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either way I'm just going to move on

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it's best I just not think about putting myself through so much mental strain again

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lalalalala

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i cant fucking beat it still

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im trying

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im on my 10th try

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i js wanna delete the game and go back to wild

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yea ok im like uninstalling this shit

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going back to wilds

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cuz wilds is better by a mile

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can my last day before college be a fucking good one

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happy thoughts man

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i wish i could stay here forever

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ugh such a hassle

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i feel so burnt out now

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good morning

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i want your things in my roooom

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i miss you allll offffff the timeeee

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not going in tomorrow bc my teacher said to Yummers

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cuz of exams my main lesson is cancelled

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im so done with monster hunter rbo

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failed like 4 quests in a row

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bc i suck

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and my teamates leaving when i die

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fate is nothing but straight gas

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i'm so tired today

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i woke up at 6, left the house at basically 8, got to class at 9, finished at around 12, went to my grandmas house to drop off banana bread, went to the store to buy new earphones, then got home at 2pm

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and ive been playing where winds meet w my friend

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i dont know if she sees my journal ever or not but i've been like seeing a side of her open up that i didnt think would

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so yay

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Revenge

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i'm going to avenge my cat that someone killed on mc

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i'm going to give them everything and then take it away

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guys a song ive been waiting for the releease of is outttt

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FINALYYYY

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infinite yummers

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today i'm making

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uhhh idk actally

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might have tuesday off again

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i'm half way through fate//stay night

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tis awesome

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love saber

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from that one anime

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fragrant flower

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yeye

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she's scute

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shes awesome

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i could never watch romance though

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gonna ignore that one of my top 3 animes is a romance

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i play where winds meet

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ok

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hello friends

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today my aunt and uncles are coming around for her birthday

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we are eating salad and having bbq

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yum yum im going to eat ALL the coleslaw

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today is gonna be sooo long

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they all gone

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today was so draining

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and i also have cake to eat later

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TRIPLE YUMMERSSSS

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good morning huddlers and huddlettes

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i don't know if i should go into college today

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i have a sick feeling in my mouth

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it's like when you feel like you'll throw up at some point during the day

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theres been too much coleslaw hate recently

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i have a bowl of cereal but idek if i can finish iti

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i might genuinely spend 40 mins eating it

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bake it

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ykwim

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bake it into one of those cereal bars

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theyre rlly nice

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that sounds delish

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i'll just put it back for now

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still havent eaten one bite

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was there milk in it???

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wouldn't it just dissolve after a while?

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how do I tell you this

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i dont have milk with my cereal....

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oh...

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Thats okay

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What kind of cereal is it?

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I like to eat some cereals without milk

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sameee

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they're called choco hoops

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i think being a loser and being happy is the best thing i could take pride in

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bc i love being a loser

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i dont picture a loser the same way society does that's the thing

i don't think a loser is necessarily a bad thing, even though calling someone a loser is more often than not an insult. i think a loser could just be someone who doesn't fit standards of morals or society, because their standards are entirely different

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i think calling myself a loser is just me talking in a perspective against mine but going against social acceptance and still being happy is what makes it not a bad thing

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and because i never met the standards i wanted to meet i dont see how i can properly look in the mirror like i achieved everything

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i have friends who are really close to me and i enrolled to go to college again next year so i shouldnt complain

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thats all i need

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yay

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someone i never though i would never be friends with because i was so far out of their league to even look at them is like super close with me now

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showing kindness and interest simply takes people a long way

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crying

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r

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really need to make a new straw page or try a guns.lol page

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and then change my journal name

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yummy

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i woek up and immediately just went out

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shopping and grbabing medicine

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i like it

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wakiung up nd just going out

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!rank

sweet stumpBOT
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its so good

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i love it sm

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im watching ALL of fate

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i sent the song to like 3 of my friends

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how many of them replied to it

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uhhhhhh

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i woke up 4 hours ago but good morning!

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my train is delayed so i might be late for college

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😓

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not by that long tho

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but i wont be able to get changed in time before the lesson starts

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apologies i havent been talking in my journal much

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well not like i care if ppl read it anyway

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but i would like to use it more

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shhh

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i stubbed my toe so baddd its killingg meeee

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i dont want to miss out on more classssssss

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its been sat in cold water for a total of 50 mins today

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im gonna put an ice pack on later

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i cant miss tomorrow

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i wont allow it

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get better soon!!

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I'm just gonna

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transfer it to you ok?

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you got this

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WHAT

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HEY

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WHAT ABOUT MY CONSENT

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I DO NOT CONSENT!!!

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you got this kiwi

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have fun keeping your foot in cold water for an hour

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u can skip school

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fahh no

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i never skip college it's only if i'm genuinely ill or i feel whatever is wrong with me will get worse if i go in

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so ive been told

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May you only get common families in aot

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sighh

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i get it

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that still won't stop me from naming every pokemon off memory

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That's too much

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That's like so many

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golisopod wooper mankey pelipper nidorino spinda quaxly bombirdier swellow magneton spritzee golurk basculeigon

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its truly a blessing

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a talent

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we are all ears airhead

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I will obloterate you

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woah

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is that...

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that's right

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i made yummers today

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actually give it to me

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lalalala

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im gonna try and 100% all the trials in where winds meet

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basically u have to fight every boss with the same objective

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beat them without taking damage on the hardest difficulty

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i did the first one but the next get harder nd harder

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i've been trying to kill the 2nd easiest boss in the game

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on the hardest difficulty

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without getting hit once

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got this far as of now

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this is her second phase so im not doin awfully

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except i've only made it to her 2nd phase 7-8 times

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and iove been going at this for hrs

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its kay

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i try again tmr

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ive been watching fate most the morning

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did i tell you how much i like fate

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I LOVE SABERRRRR

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i havent finishd it yet im nowhere near done

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i finished zero and stay night so now im watching unlimited blade works

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watch order

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...

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ive been trying so hard js to get myself to play on the huddle mc server but dude

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i set up a nice little home

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that i'm happy with

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i stop playing until the server becomes super active again

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i join back

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people find my base

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and then magically half my pets are dead

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and also my house is being tampered