BODEN’S not so silly journal anymore | Huddle | Page 2

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:01 AM

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Nobody cheacked my journal

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Nobody pinged me in chat

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Nobody dmed me in the morning

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:02 AM

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I checked in the morning

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:02 AM

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Or for the full day

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:02 AM

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I did end up sleeping around 2am

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:02 AM

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Until I said something

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:02 AM

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And it was the first thing I did when I woke up, there was nothing.

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I spent all day worrying abt you.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:02 AM

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Then that’s when ppl asked me what heppened

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:03 AM

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red hollow I spent all day worrying abt you.

Maybe you, but I doubt others did

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:03 AM

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I scrolled through the entire chat from when I slept tk when I woke.

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Don't kys please man.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:03 AM

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Maybe only three ppl

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:03 AM

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Please man, don't do it.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:03 AM

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Man

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Aint no reason not to atp

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Laz left

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Logan left

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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You have an entire life ahead of you

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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Dogboy left

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Bro they all left

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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i’m still here.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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Oh sorry

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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i just don’t want to interrupt.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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I didn’t know

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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Ping any of them

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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i think ramen is making a lot of good points

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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They will respond

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We aren't simply going to leave

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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^

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:04 AM

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@untold nexus

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@robust drum

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:05 AM

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Now wait

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They may be busy at first

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But they will see it.

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They will try and help

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Remember last time?

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You pinged Logan and he was here, he would help you

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:06 AM

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Whats going on man?

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:06 AM

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Proving my point, I told you man. We care.

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:06 AM

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exactly

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:06 AM

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robust drum Whats going on man?

Boden is struggling again

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:06 AM

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Im here. Always said I would be. Even if I reply slowly sometimes

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:07 AM

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Man I can’t

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Idek what to say

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J feel like a broken record

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I just repeat myself again and again

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:08 AM

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and we’ll be there again and again

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:08 AM

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An nothing changed

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:08 AM

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it’s okay

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:08 AM

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I get the feeling. Feeling like this is a loop and it's God awful. But that loop winds up breaking at some point and you find your way out of it

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:08 AM

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^ absolutely

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:08 AM

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Life is very unpredictable

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One day you could be suffering

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The next could be blissful

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Nothing stays thebsame forever, there will be a change

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:09 AM

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You go through life and it's hardships to get to the good parts of it. Because those good and amazing parts of life make the pain worth it

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:10 AM

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Man Ive been fighting all my life

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Ts gotta end

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:10 AM

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It will end

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Eventually, it won't be easy

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But I promise you

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It has an end.

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:10 AM

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It does end. But not by you ending it yourself

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:12 AM

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absolutely

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:12 AM

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The shitty parts of life will get better. It does and always will

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:13 AM

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We aren't leaving man

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:13 AM

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Never will

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:14 AM

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There are others here

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We will help

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:14 AM

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Each step of a very long road if necessary

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:14 AM

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Please respond man

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:15 AM

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C'mon Bo

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:16 AM

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You're my priority man

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I prioritize on keeping you alive

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:17 AM

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I do too. All my friends. Every single one is important to me. And that includes you man

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In every way that includes you

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:17 AM

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^^^

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:18 AM

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robust drum I do too. All my friends. Every single one is important to me. And that includes...

Man

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You got better things to do

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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red hollow ^^^

So do you

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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tame zinc absolutely

Goes for you too

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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Nothing is more important than keeping my friend here man

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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jolly flume So do you

No, you're my priority

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I don't have anything better than keeping my friend alive

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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robust drum Nothing is more important than keeping my friend here man

Y’oull find someone else I’m sure

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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robust drum Nothing is more important than keeping my friend here man

exactly , i may not be contributing much but you guys are saying all of what i’m thinking

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:19 AM

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Your really cool

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:20 AM

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You deserve to live

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You deserve you experience life

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:20 AM

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Anyways

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:20 AM

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You will, we'll help you. Every step of the way.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:20 AM

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I guess that’s it

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:20 AM

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jolly flume I guess that’s it

No

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No its not kt

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:20 AM

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jolly flume Y’oull find someone else I’m sure

Just because more people exist doesn't make you less important. Each person is unique and you're a unique and awesome friend. I'm not leaving you alone in this

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:21 AM

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There are groups out there that can helo you, with anything yoyre going through

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:21 AM

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Bro yes it does

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I serve literally no pourpus

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:21 AM

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jolly flume Bro yes it does

No it does not.

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:22 AM

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jolly flume I serve literally no pourpus

You do, everyone does man. If you think you don't then maybe you can search for one?

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:22 AM

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red hollow You do, everyone does man. If you think you don't then maybe you can search for ...

Man Whats the point

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:22 AM

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Thats what I did, it worked

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:22 AM

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Hey y’all make sure Kanye makes a comeback

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:22 AM

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jolly flume Man Whats the point

It gives you something tk strive for

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Something to better yourself with

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:22 AM

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Oh let me know if BULLY sounds good too

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Idk

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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jolly flume Hey y’all make sure Kanye makes a comeback

No, youre not doing this man.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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Also wilk Yandhi release?

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Let me know

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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No.

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I'm not letting you die, please man.

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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None of are

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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boden, seriously don’t do this

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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https://open.spotify.com/track/7a0tTD7xdvKsNcJfMIDWp4?si=YnSosUNSTcmZ79zhOlmEGA&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

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SKY CITY

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:23 AM

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We're here and I'm hanging you out to dry like this.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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Do heaven got a penthouse. That I could rent out?

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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No.

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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Sorry

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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Please man, don't

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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It’s a song lyrics

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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Don't kys please, even if they are lyrics. Promise me man

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:24 AM

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Don't leave us man

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:25 AM

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please don’t

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:25 AM

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C'mon Bo
Please

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:25 AM

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Please man

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:26 AM

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Please

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:26 AM

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https://open.spotify.com/album/2Ek1q2haOnxVqhvVKqMvJe?si=SnoJMipoQVyMvLx6ZwgiPg

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ye

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:27 AM

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Please dude

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Although it may seem worth it

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Its not

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:27 AM

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It's not worth. Ever

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:27 AM

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@robust drum you said it

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Can’t really stop someone who has their mind set on it

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So don’t blame yourselves

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:27 AM

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Please

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:27 AM

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Love y’all

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:27 AM

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Please fucking please don't

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Please

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:28 AM

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jolly flume Can’t really stop someone who has their mind set on it

But I know you're not 100% set
You know the pain it'll cause and that there is a genuine chance it'll work out. C'mon Bo

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:28 AM

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Stay away from drugs and live long ☮️✌️

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:28 AM

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You've failed time and time again for a reason, don't you think its a sign?

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 2:28 AM

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red hollow You've failed time and time again for a reason, don't you think its a sign?

This time it will be different

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:28 AM

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Don't you think its a sign to live?

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Think about it.

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:29 AM

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jolly flume This time it will be different

No

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Please

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:29 AM

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jolly flume This time it will be different

No
End of story no

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You gotta stay here man

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:29 AM

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My guy, youre still young

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:30 AM

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With us

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:30 AM

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keep moving forward, boden
we know you’re not 100% set on it. so keep moving forward. it will get better. you have your whole life ahead of you, don’t end it when it’s just beginning

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:30 AM

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We can help through this dawg

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:30 AM

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Your life is just beginning, when yoy are older. I guarantee something will be different. This is just a small rough patch.

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Please

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:31 AM

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Exactly
We can help you through and show you that it'll get better as you get older

tame zinc May 23, 2025, 2:31 AM

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^^^^^^^^^^^

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please stay with us

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:32 AM

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Please man

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C'mon Bo

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Don't do it

red hollow May 23, 2025, 2:34 AM

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robust drum C'mon Bo

Boden reacted to a message

robust drum May 23, 2025, 2:34 AM

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I saw
Just stay with us man

untold nexus May 23, 2025, 10:41 AM

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We're all here for you Boden

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Excited to see you when you wake up huddleheartshape

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I'm sorry for not being there last night

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 12:09 PM

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Hey journal

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I’m alive unfortunately

cedar lintel May 23, 2025, 12:42 PM

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i’m so happy you’re still here :)

untold nexus May 23, 2025, 4:52 PM

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jolly flume I’m alive unfortunately

I'm glad you're here

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 10:04 PM

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If you guys wanna know what I listen to basically every day here you go https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ?si=Uze5Xdo9SumJVvi03SJPpw&pi=uKXL5EzoRDCpb

Spotify

TAKEYOURTIME🕰️

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 10:05 PM

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untold nexus I'm glad you're here

Guess it’s nice someone feels that way even if I don’t haha

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 10:43 PM

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Bro me and Logan legit the only pure hip hop head here cuh 😭

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I cannot speak music w anyone but Logan

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https://open.spotify.com/album/7gsWAHLeT0w7es6FofOXk1?si=da29nIDqTA61fB3Dxwug5w

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The Life Of Pablo

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10/10 album

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Listen to it rn

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robust drum May 23, 2025, 10:56 PM

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jolly flume Bro me and Logan legit the only pure hip hop head here cuh 😭

Hip-hop is my life

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 10:57 PM

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“PEOPLE TRYNA SAY IM GOING CRAZY IN TWITTER. MY FRIENDS BEST ADVISE WAS TO STAY LOW 🗣️🔥”

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“THE UNTIMATE GEMINI HAS SURVIVED… I WASNT SPOSED TO MAKE IT PAST 25… 🗣️🔥”

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 10:57 PM

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robust drum Hip-hop is my life

I knowwww

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But it’s literally all I listen to

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Like all

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I don’t listen to anything else

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Maybe rock occasionally

robust drum May 23, 2025, 10:59 PM

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jolly flume I don’t listen to anything else

I listen to a lot of other genres but hip-hop is my life and soul

jolly flume May 23, 2025, 10:59 PM

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robust drum I listen to a lot of other genres but hip-hop is my life and soul

Yuhhhh

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That’s why I said you and me

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I legit don’t know anyone else here who would listen to a song I recommend them lol

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https://open.spotify.com/track/1o0kWPueYo94LIjPYOE5Nf?si=eubSVQAZQSS5pMcjjUsQHA&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

Saint Pablo

cedar lintel May 23, 2025, 11:23 PM

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jolly flume Guess it’s nice someone feels that way even if I don’t haha

i feel that way too!! 😔

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 12:26 AM

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cedar lintel i feel that way too!! 😔

I’m sorry you feel that way ☹️

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 12:30 AM

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don’t apologize??

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we’re all happy you’re here :))

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 12:49 AM

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cedar lintel don’t apologize??

Nah I just know how you feel

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One of Kanye best albums https://open.spotify.com/album/3WFTGIO6E3Xh4paEOBY9OU?si=FnJUkUWOScaDOvQ_IVBl2w

Spotify

808s & Heartbreak

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 12:52 AM

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😭😭

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 1:07 AM

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https://open.spotify.com/track/3g9UquSEBErZiXSDa02YfG?si=6xlVb2ZURTOvCcmJDU2nIQ&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

BACK TO ME

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This song good asf

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One of the better songs on vultures 1

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Why do I feel like this every night

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I don’t even want to bother you guys

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Cus you guys gotta be getting annoyed atp

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Cus like every other night I’m asking for help

robust drum May 24, 2025, 1:22 AM

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jolly flume Cus like every other night I’m asking for help

It's ok man
Id rather help then lose you

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 1:22 AM

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Damn.

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 1:22 AM

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robust drum It's ok man Id rather help then lose you

Oh hey man

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Yeah.

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Idk

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I just feel like you guys would start getting annoyed

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Bc it’s every other night that I have a crisis

red hollow May 24, 2025, 1:23 AM

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Anything to keep you alive man

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I'm not annoyed with you

robust drum May 24, 2025, 1:23 AM

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Same

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 1:24 AM

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Like and most times

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I just don’t know what to say

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Bc Ive said basically everything bro

robust drum May 24, 2025, 1:25 AM

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It's ok. I just don't wanna lose you man

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 1:26 AM

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Thanks (I think, I’m really bad w affection)

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I just

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I ain’t know

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Man idk what to say

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Even when I do know what to say

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I don’t feel any better

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Like idk Whats wrong w me

red hollow May 24, 2025, 1:27 AM

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I'm not trying to be rude but I kind of want to say this

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If the brain focuses on one thing it begins to learn it, like an instrument or drawing. Eventually it'll just be there. A key part of your mind

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I' not sure if it will work for you, but it worked for me. I thought of the most positive thing I could think of. And focused on it for days

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 1:29 AM

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I don’t have anything positive to focus on man

red hollow May 24, 2025, 1:29 AM

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It doesn't have to be real

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Maybe a show you like, or a happy setting yoy can think of

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:21 AM

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Man fuck life

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I hate this

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So much

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But I don’t want to cause you pain

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You as in you guys

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But it’s getting hard guys

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Really hard

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Idk if YOULL see this before I go to sleep

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I find nothing enjoyable

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@untold nexus I think your the only person online right now

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Maybe @robust drum or @tame zinc

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:28 AM

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im here

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:28 AM

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But I know ramen is asleep and I don’t wanna wake him

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:28 AM

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jolly flume Maybe <@744897081130614925> or <@300814280587083777>

Im here

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:28 AM

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Hey guys

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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helloooo

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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God I hate doing this

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Broooo

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Fuckkkk

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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im sorry you're not doing well hugs

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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Ts makes me so idk

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I don’t know man

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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https://tenor.com/view/cat-cuddle-cat-cuddle-cat-cuddling-gif-21947726

Tenor

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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Kitty cats

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Hehe

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Cute

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Man

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I’m a peice of shit

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:29 AM

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That's not true

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Boden do you have any pets

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:30 AM

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You only know me online

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:30 AM

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jolly flume I’m a peice of shit

Not true chu_hug

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:30 AM

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untold nexus Boden do you have any pets

My cat is a dick but my dog is old

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Shes a good girl

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But shes about 11

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:30 AM

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She'd miss you so much

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:30 AM

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Maybe

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:30 AM

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She definitely would

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:31 AM

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But I’m sure she’d find a better home

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:31 AM

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She would think you abandoned her

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:31 AM

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jolly flume But I’m sure she’d find a better home

Just remember I'm not gonna lose you alright. I need you here man

untold nexus May 24, 2025, 2:31 AM

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She needs you and so do we

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:32 AM

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robust drum Just remember I'm not gonna lose you alright. I need you here man

Man you got a lot more friends here

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:32 AM

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jolly flume Man you got a lot more friends here

Doesn't mean I don't need you. You saw my journal and how I was talking last night. I wouldn't have done all that if I didn't need you here man

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:33 AM

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I guess your right.

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Man

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But like

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It’s so damn hard

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Ive been nothing but selfless my whole damn life

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Or tried to be

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And look where it got me

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:33 AM

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I know it is. God I do. But you can push through it

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:34 AM

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untold nexus She needs you and so do we

It just

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It’s so hard man

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:34 AM

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robust drum I know it is. God I do. But you can push through it

I don’t know man

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My will so weak

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So damn weak

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I grew up to damn fast

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And my brain can’t fucking deal w it

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Maybe that’s why I can’t cope w stuff

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I don’t know.

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I don’t know much.

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robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:36 AM

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I understand but just keep trying man. Please

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:36 AM

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robust drum I understand but just keep trying man. Please

I want to

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And I will

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It’s just

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So damn hard

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:36 AM

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Ramen is already beyond stressed about you. And I need you here because you're my friend

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:36 AM

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jolly flume So damn hard

I know it is. And I'll be here to help you each and every time you need it

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:36 AM

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He’s really struggling.

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I want to help him

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I want to help everyone

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But I end up making things worse most times

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:38 AM

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Just staying here is help enough. He really thought he lost you and another friend last night. He went through it. So staying here will help him the most

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:41 AM

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Yeah.

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I don’t know

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I just

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I was gonna say sumn but I’m not gonna

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Bc it’s to weird

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Not anything weird weird

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It woulda sounded weird

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:43 AM

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If you want you can dm it to me Incase you don't wanna say it here

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:45 AM

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robust drum If you want you can dm it to me Incase you don't wanna say it here

Nah it’s just that it would sound weird if I said it

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:46 AM

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If you're sure. Just remember I won't judge but I'm also not going to push you

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:46 AM

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Yeah I think imma just keep it to myself

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 2:46 AM

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no one is judging you

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:46 AM

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Nah man

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I just

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It would sound weird

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:47 AM

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jolly flume Yeah I think imma just keep it to myself

Absolutely. It's ok to

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:47 AM

#

It’s not weird

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Itnwould just sound weird

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And there is no point of me saying it

#

Because i wouldn’t be able to follow through w it anyways

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:47 AM

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It's ok to keep it to yourself. No need to say anything you don't wanna

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:48 AM

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Yeah

#

Yeah

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“30 hours girl…”

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https://open.spotify.com/track/2CHmgtK8OCL28WtIK96u4N?si=HP9GWNU4Qu2G7-GRPhuAGg&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

30 Hours

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I could sleep to this song.

#

It’s nice

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 2:50 AM

#

you really like kayne don’t you?

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:50 AM

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cedar lintel you **really** like kayne don’t you?

Yeah… 😅

#

Ive probably given him to much money

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 2:51 AM

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probably

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:53 AM

#

Really wishing I was dead rn

#

Like damn

#

#

Damn

#

Here we go again

#

Just

#

Arararfagagavaa

#

I hate it

#

!rank

severe galleonBOT May 24, 2025, 2:54 AM

#

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:54 AM

#

#

This how I he sitting at the edge of my bed rn

#

Just

#

Thinking

#

Abt

#

Bad stuff

#

#

#

Man

#

Ts hard

#

Real hard

#

I wanna cry so badly

#

But I can’t

#

Because I don’t know

#

I guess I just can’t

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:57 AM

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jolly flume I guess I just can’t

chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:57 AM

#

It fucking sucks

#

Idek

#

Why

#

I just can’t

#

Like

#

I don’t think anything happened to me that caused this

#

But

#

It fucking sucks

#

I’m chilling in bed w a big jug of water

#

Well

#

Not bed

#

A couch which is my bed

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:58 AM

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robust drum <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:10858398...

Shi I thought you left man

#

How long have you been here?

robust drum May 24, 2025, 2:59 AM

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jolly flume Shi I thought you left man

Im here till I go to bed

#

Which wont be for multiple hours

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 2:59 AM

#

I’ll prolly go to bed soon ngl

#

But until then I’m here

#

Oh matrix is here

#

Hey dude

#

Hru

#

You can talk you know lol

#

I’m really thirsty

#

huddlekittygiggle

#

Imma drink from big jug

#

It’s got a bit of a weird taste

#

But it’s alright

#

👍

#

Wish I had lemonade

#

Cri

#

Bro I swear I’m bipolar

#

I was just having a crisis now my biggest problem is I don’t have lemonade

#

What the hell?

#

I’m tired

#

Like really sleepy

#

But I don’t wanna sleep

#

Bc I dunno

#

I’m like that

#

#

Random camera roll

#

panda_cry

#

Man

#

I’m getting sad again

#

hMM

#

I wish it was like that MATTIX

#

You could just say no and it would go away ha

#

Sadly that’s not the case

#

You are persistent matrix

#

Haha

#

It’s kinda silly

#

In a good way

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 3:51 AM

#

God damnit

#

I feel like such shit

#

Why?

#

I dunno

#

I feel like im spiraling

#

I’m way to tired

#

I need to wake up

#

Awe yikes

#

Guys I’m struggling

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 3:53 AM

#

do you want to talk ab it?

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 3:53 AM

#

I mean

#

What havnt I said

#

Also I know your really struggling right now

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And I don’t wanna make it any worse

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 3:54 AM

#

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 3:54 AM

#

cedar lintel

Uhh

#

Man

#

See

#

That’s what’s up w me

#

I care abt others way more than me

#

😅

#

But uh

#

I don’t know

#

I know your really hurting right now

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 3:55 AM

#

same goes for me too

#

start talking

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 3:55 AM

#

I mean

#

What havnt I said

#

Well

#

I feel like

#

Such a shitty human

#

I’ve done nothing but bad in this world

#

I wake up knowing I’m worthless

#

It’s hard to get out of bed

#

It’s hard to receive help when I know they could be doing something productive

#

I feel that I’m wasting everyone’s time

#

My chest is always heavy

#

All I think about is killing myself

#

Every time I try helping someone

#

It usually ends up w them dead

#

And I can’t help but think it’s my fault

#

My will is weak

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 3:58 AM

#

jolly flume I’ve done nothing but bad in this world

why do you say this?

#

and you’re not wasting anyones time

#

it’s not your fault you tried the best you could

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 4:00 AM

#

cedar lintel it’s not your fault you tried the best you could

Even if that’s true it still affects someone mentally

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 4:01 AM

#

i understand that, your feelings are valid

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 4:02 AM

#

Well imma go to sleep

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 4:02 AM

#

okay goodnight boden i hope you feel better

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 4:02 AM

#

So write anything and I’ll read it when I wake

cedar lintel May 24, 2025, 4:02 AM

#

we’re all here for you 🫂

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 4:02 AM

#

cedar lintel we’re all here for you 🫂

Same to you.

#

Goodnight mads

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 5:05 PM

#

For of the day. Sorry abt the hair. Just got outta the shower

red hollow May 24, 2025, 5:09 PM

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jolly flume For of the day. Sorry abt the hair. Just got outta the shower

Peak shirt

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 5:09 PM

#

red hollow Peak shirt

Yessir

red hollow May 24, 2025, 5:09 PM

#

Heavily fw Nirvana

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 7:44 PM

#

https://open.spotify.com/track/2PFNTHR4sA8m9rPPtYXhl7?si=CL8eB06uSfSgBVG8CHFy9g&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

Heard 'Em Say

jolly flume May 24, 2025, 9:01 PM

#

https://open.spotify.com/track/1oNaDXXu9I4UCJ8Fh0Hfjg?si=LIvrZ9ahSu-S52Zq92-XEg&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

DO IT

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 12:53 AM

#

Why are ppl stupid

#

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 1:31 AM

#

Man I told someone my real age and now scared them off I think

#

I’m never telling nobody my age again bro

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 1:31 AM

#

jolly flume Man I told someone my real age and now scared them off I think

Not bc I’m old but bc I’m young

tame zinc May 25, 2025, 1:32 AM

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jolly flume Not bc I’m old but bc I’m young

wdym you’re not a 78 year old man?!!!

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 1:32 AM

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tame zinc wdym you’re not a 78 year old man?!!!

Nah man beive it or not

#

I’m actually 77

#

Hehe

tame zinc May 25, 2025, 1:33 AM

#

so young…

#

i’m 90 😞

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 1:33 AM

#

tame zinc i’m 90 😞

To be that age again…

tame zinc May 25, 2025, 1:34 AM

#

jolly flume To be that age again…

ikr i’m so youthful and childlike 🎀🎀

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 1:34 AM

#

tame zinc ikr i’m so youthful and childlike 🎀🎀

Yuhhhhh 🔥

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 1:54 AM

#

“Her body like the wild Wild West” 🗣️🔥🗣️

#

Man

#

Idk why I pretend to be happy

#

Maybe it’s so ppl won’t worry abt me

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https://open.spotify.com/track/432hUIl3ISDeytYW5XBQ5h?si=MYgVOL3ITXGvyN5d7km2IQ&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

Wolves

#

“Lost and… beat up… down there dancing. I found you, somewhere… right down there… right round there” 🗣️😔

#

Life of Pablo is one of Kanye’s best albums

#

Which/one

#

#

This song describes my feelings https://open.spotify.com/track/5CGS4UovzA7ftCJkLVXQju?si=flW39cf1TJWkuVhiIf2yDw&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A7gsWAHLeT0w7es6FofOXk1

Spotify

I Love Kanye

#

Fuck I love this song https://open.spotify.com/track/30Zcjs7pgEkmJA1lEbGSWT?si=Tf70xR3wT_SYt2b31nUOow&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A7gsWAHLeT0w7es6FofOXk1

Spotify

FML

#

“Want you to go ahead and fuck my life up…” 🗣️🔥

#

“You ain’t seen anything crazy as… this ni*ga off his lexapro” 🗣️🔥

#

Bars

#

What am I like this

#

I’m like dying

#

And just posting song lyrics

#

What the hell is wrong with me

#

Why don’t I reach out for help

#

I don’t know

#

https://open.spotify.com/track/66Q3fAmSX5eHamgbKa9alP?si=tKJUOCF1RLGZiMMEY9flPw&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A7gsWAHLeT0w7es6FofOXk1

Spotify

Real Friends

#

#

Man

#

Idk how much I can take

#

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ?si=sA6TnUYLTt6j0d2Tf1I_Nw&pi=rmkbGkKmT92ID

Spotify

TAKEYOURTIME🕰️

#

There is my personal playlist if any of y’all wonder what I listen to

#

I doubt y’all care tho lol

#

Bro man

#

It’s so hard to relate to ppl here

#

I feel so alienated

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 2:37 AM

#

I really don’t wanna ruin the mood in the other journal

#

But

#

Tonight might be the night

#

I just

#

Can’t do this anymore

robust drum May 25, 2025, 2:38 AM

#

jolly flume Tonight might be the night

Never again
Clear?

red hollow May 25, 2025, 2:38 AM

#

Please don't

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 2:39 AM

#

Sorry man

#

I don’t know

#

It’s really hard

robust drum May 25, 2025, 2:40 AM

#

jolly flume I don’t know

I know
But never again. Alright? Id be lying if I said earlier this week isn't why I like this rn. And I'm definitely not sober enough to talk about this. But just remember we need you here dawg

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 2:41 AM

#

I’m sorry

robust drum May 25, 2025, 2:41 AM

#

It's ok

#

I'm having fun

#

Just remember we need you ok

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 2:42 AM

#

Nah man I mean

#

I just

#

I don’t know man

#

I want it all to end

#

I can’t pretend to be happy

#

It sucks

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 3:07 AM

#

Man

robust drum May 25, 2025, 3:08 AM

#

Before i turn my phone off
I wanted to make sure alright
I better hear from you in the morning

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 3:10 AM

#

Yeah

#

I don’t know if that will happen

robust drum May 25, 2025, 3:10 AM

#

It better
I aint waking up to yu gone

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 3:16 AM

#

I don’t know man

#

Man fuck this

#

#

MAN FUCK THIS SHIT

#

I CANT

#

TAKE

#

THIS ANYMORE

#

BRO

#

I CANT

#

#

FUCK THISSS

#

I FUCKING HATE THIS

#

GOD DAMNIT

#

I have nobody

red hollow May 25, 2025, 3:29 AM

#

I'm here if it means anything

#

I don't think i'd be much helo rn though

#

But I can try

#

I may fall asleep soon, i'm sorry if I do

cedar lintel May 25, 2025, 6:06 AM

#

jolly flume Man I told someone my real age and now scared them off I think

girl why you talking about me? 😭 you didn’t scare me off i was doing something lol

#

it’s just a little weird for me to talk to someone who is younger than me. i’m sorry if i made you uncomfortable. i’m an “adult” now but i don’t feel like one at all. i still feel like a teenager.

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 8:38 PM

#

Got my ass beat last night

#

Lmao worth it

#

Best pussy ever

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 10:06 PM

#

Found this

jolly flume May 25, 2025, 10:07 PM

#

jolly flume

Imagine pissing from here

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 12:53 AM

#

Logan idk what your talking abt that Cudi fell off

#

You gotta be smoking meth

#

Lmao

#

No offense

#

Cudi aint washed

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 1:47 AM

#

Chat died so I’m here

#

Hey journal

#

https://open.spotify.com/track/53WWD2BBC6Jcip8wy5CniE?si=6oNfuu8HSeazN04MC8cICg&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

cLOUDs

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 3:24 PM

#

Divorced dad rock hell yeah 🗣️🔥

#

My wife left me hehe

#

But I got the kids so let’s goooo

#

NOT BASED ON A REAL STORY (yet)

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 5:47 PM

#

Man I can’t fucking take this shit

cedar lintel May 26, 2025, 6:05 PM

#

whats wrong?

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 6:43 PM

#

Bro I dont have much motivation to be here anymore

#

But I don’t wanna leave because I don’t know what I would do without it

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 7:17 PM

#

I want it to end so bad brooooooooo

#

Depression blows

cedar lintel May 26, 2025, 8:09 PM

#

you don’t know why you feel this way?

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 8:39 PM

#

cedar lintel you don’t know why you feel this way?

Nah bro not like this

#

I have zero motivation to do literally anything

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 9:07 PM

#

!rank

severe galleonBOT May 26, 2025, 9:08 PM

#

jolly flume May 26, 2025, 9:33 PM

#

Bro how do ppl create friendships outside of a server

#

Like in DMs

#

Like bruh

#

How

#

Like why the hell you dming mw for no reason

#

But yeah

#

TAHTS all I’m thinking of rn

jolly flume May 27, 2025, 1:31 AM

#

The song I made is to long to be here

#

Sad

#

I don’t wanna pay for nitro

jolly flume May 28, 2025, 8:02 PM

#

German underground rap goes hard asf

#

Like legit

#

I’m not joking

#

It fucks

#

Hard

jolly flume May 28, 2025, 8:53 PM

#

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 1:23 AM

#

I’ll talk to her and tell her jokes and then we go our separate ways and I’ll be like “wish I could date her fr. Oh well.”

#

#

Bro I hate having feelings for this girl

#

Whyyyyyyyyy

#

I can’t stop thinking about her

#

Chat

#

God damnit

#

@robust drum sb_ would you make a song abt me if I died?

#

Just asking

#

Don’t worry abt hurting my feeling big dawg

robust drum May 29, 2025, 1:47 AM

#

jolly flume <@744897081130614925> sb_ would you make a song abt me if I died?

Probably. And wrong Logan btw 😭

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 1:49 AM

#

robust drum Probably. And wrong Logan btw 😭

Oh shiiiii

red hollow May 29, 2025, 1:51 AM

#

Evil logan

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 2:07 AM

#

I hate being in love

#

It’s stupid

#

Like

#

ARABGSTAGAGDGGSBSNSHDHSNSHSGSHBDHDUDBDBDGSHSBSJAIZJDNDBEBWNWJSIDJBFVRYWUWJS

#

Like hro I be thinking abt her all the time

#

But like

#

I don’t wanna make things weird between us

#

So like

#

It’s tearing me up

#

She won’t get out of my mind

#

Like I be kicking my feet and shii when I talk to her

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 12:23 PM

#

https://open.spotify.com/track/6WSBZroxQaO3FYEpT2ACFH?si=G-4PiS33SRCfTfVMyZmhIA&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

Baptized In Fire

#

Fit of the day kinda mid Ngl

#

Put on my nice shoes today!

#

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 8:45 PM

#

Got my shoes a bit dirty today

#

Cri Cri

#

https://open.spotify.com/track/2L47m9erkB5KBZcaqWtYen?si=gEzpD25HSsCT-33IEJ7jeg&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

Big Brother

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 11:22 PM

#

Man.

#

Today I was gonna ask her

#

But I don’t think she’s looking for a relationship

#

Fuck bro

#

That don’t change how I feel abt her

#

I DID IT

#

I TOLD HER

#

SHE IS RESPONDING

#

She said no

#

But you know what?

#

She was chill asf

#

And she said we can still be friends

robust drum May 29, 2025, 11:40 PM

#

jolly flume She said no

hugs

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 11:40 PM

#

robust drum <:hugs:992823004532842516>

It’s all good

#

I’m just glad I could tell her my feelings

#

And hell

#

After she rejected me we just started joking

#

Fuck yeah man

#

I feel a lot better knowing I don’t have to bottle that shit uo anymore

#

Hope I never feel like that again

#

Taht was terrible

#

Lmaooo

untold nexus May 29, 2025, 11:43 PM

#

YAY IM GLAD

#

Glad you can still be friends

red hollow May 29, 2025, 11:44 PM

#

She may have said no, but at least thats a weight lifted right?

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 11:49 PM

#

I’m still not telling who it is tho

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 11:50 PM

#

red hollow She may have said no, but at least thats a weight lifted right?

Yeah

#

I actually feel pretty good

red hollow May 29, 2025, 11:50 PM

#

I'm glad youre okay

#

Still here for you though

jolly flume May 29, 2025, 11:53 PM

#

Thanks man

#

Means a lot

red hollow May 29, 2025, 11:54 PM

#

Np :)

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 12:28 AM

#

Nvm chat

#

I think. It’s that it don’t change that I like her

#

Still

#

So I was happy that we could still be friends

#

But now it’s just damn

#

You feel me?

#

And it’s not like I put blame in her at all

#

Like at all

#

If she reads this I really don’t want her to feel bad

#

Bu anyways

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 12:29 AM

#

jolly flume And it’s not like I put blame in her at all

I feel like it’s me you know?

#

Like damn

#

Shit

#

Like man… I like her a lot. Too bad I can’t be with her.

#

And damn

#

But at least we still friends so that’s chill asf

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 1:47 AM

#

Why do I feel like this

#

I thought I would be happy

#

I don’t think it has anything to do with her

#

I’m just in a depressive state right now

#

I mean. When am I not right?

#

Fuck dude.

#

I don’t know how much longer I can do this

#

!rank

severe galleonBOT May 30, 2025, 2:00 AM

#

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 2:01 AM

#

Depressive session over

#

I think

#

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 12:02 PM

#

Genuinely started tthinking abt cutting myself 100000 🔥

#

Like man I think abt killing myself every day but like damn

#

Can’t seem to work

#

Like ever

#

So the second best thing

#

Man I hope school is okay

#

Cus I do not feel good

#

I am shitty asf

#

#

That’s what I feel like

#

Man

#

Wow

#

This is hard

#

I wanna die so bad lol

#

Like damn

#

Oh to have a gun rn

#

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:00 PM

#

Wore tf out

#

Need a hair cut Ngl

#

My hair is long asf

#

DID YALL KNOW I USED TI HAVE CORNROWS DUDE

#

I DONT THINK I TOLD YALL LMAOOO

#

I HAD THEM FOR FOOTBALL CUS MY HAIR WAS LONG AND I DIDNT WANNA CUT IT

#

Anyways, Boden face reveal before gta 6

#

What a world we live in

cedar lintel May 30, 2025, 10:15 PM

#

🤓

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:15 PM

#

cedar lintel 🤓

🥀 damn gang 🥀😔

#

No more face reveals

#

OH SHIT

cedar lintel May 30, 2025, 10:15 PM

#

LMFAO

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:15 PM

#

What’s up lazzz

untold nexus May 30, 2025, 10:15 PM

#

VERY CUTE /P BUT NO UNCENSORED FACES 😠 😠

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:16 PM

#

How you doing

untold nexus May 30, 2025, 10:16 PM

#

LMAO

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:16 PM

#

untold nexus VERY CUTE /P BUT NO UNCENSORED FACES 😠 😠

Whaaaaat?

cedar lintel May 30, 2025, 10:16 PM

#

i agree

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:16 PM

#

What are you talking abt man

untold nexus May 30, 2025, 10:16 PM

#

https://tenor.com/view/cat-gif-14525171131594481514

Tenor

cedar lintel May 30, 2025, 10:17 PM

#

😭😭

#

i know what you look like boden

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:17 PM

#

cedar lintel i know what you look like boden

Yup you do

#

I took taht picture last night at 10 pm

#

My hair looks like shit

#

But eh

#

Oh wait no I never took an image I mean

#

YALL schizo or sum

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:18 PM

#

untold nexus https://tenor.com/view/cat-gif-14525171131594481514

That’s me tryna force a smile

cedar lintel May 30, 2025, 10:18 PM

#

are we gaslighting rn?

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:20 PM

#

NUH uh

#

jolly flume May 30, 2025, 10:46 PM

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Putting this here cus I can’t download it

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 12:09 AM

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Made this a while ago

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Just didn’t think I posted it

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The first bit is rly mid but just give it time

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 12:38 AM

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i fw it

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 12:43 AM

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jolly flume i fw it

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jolly flume May 31, 2025, 2:11 AM

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Man

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What is the point of life

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Genuinely

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Pills looking good rn

cedar lintel May 31, 2025, 12:20 PM

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no they don’t

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 4:46 PM

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Puffin on zootiez in Chicago 🗣️🔥

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 8:01 PM

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https://open.spotify.com/track/1gqkRc9WtOpnGIqxf2Hvzr?si=T6q7bJQzQxuG1eB-jKjCMw&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A0jWEotRU18MkGGjSzJMnBZ

Spotify

On Sight

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Tomorrow I might go out of the city to see some horses

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Go on a retreat

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Try to relax 👍

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 10:04 PM

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jolly flume Tomorrow I might go out of the city to see some horses

omg i used to love horses when i lived in kentucky

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they're very delicate creatures

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just dont stand behind them, they may kick you

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 10:24 PM

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“I wish I was special you’re so fucking special, but I’m a creep..”

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 10:27 PM

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jolly flume omg i used to love horses when i lived in kentucky

His name is apparently Yankee

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He seems chill

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 11:09 PM

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But I think it’s kinda stupid how ppl say that they can coexist when you go to any major city and it’s only pride, nothing contains any men’s mental health awareness. Just saying, pride is put over men’s mental health during June and that’s a fact.

jolly flume May 31, 2025, 11:42 PM

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Man I’m bouta kms

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That’s fucking stupid

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Just went through 37 mins of straight harassment

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Got blocked by one of my closest friends

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I’m apparently a fucking villain now

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Over something I said THAT WAS MY FUCKING OPIONION AND I FUCKING STATED THAT

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like my bad I guess I can’t be myself

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Now I feel like I alienated myself from my closest friends here

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Over my opinion

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“Anything you lose being real was fake”

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I guess that’s what’s up

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Ppl were on my side

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So ig they are real

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Ig imma see who still fw me

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And who don’t

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See who is fake

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Watching ppl talk abt you as if you don’t exist is awesome

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👍

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So cool

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It’s fun to watch

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Getting called stupid and immature

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So awesome

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Mind of you by my best friends in this server

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So that’s pretty neat

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Shi I lost a lot

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Guess they where fake

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They fucking loss

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That it

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Tonight’s the night

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Shoulda just stfu

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Shouldnt have said anything

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But nah

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My retartedd ass had to say sum

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I’m killing myself

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I lost my friends

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I lost my dignity

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I lost so much over my opinion

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I can’t do this anymore

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I’m killing myself tonight

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Nobody will stop me

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Wanna cry so bad but I can’t

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What the hell is wrong with me

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I fucking hate myself

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I can’t keep living like this

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https://open.spotify.com/episode/7aba9LhLwaca9ZWJFOqEHD?si=YJt_ffsLTeeXVQIB-YNeRA&context=spotify%3Ashow%3A38y0xt2MXwAUWFFS5HuHdg

Spotify

Never see me again

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If y’all know what this song means

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You know Whats gonna happen

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Congrats

robust drum Jun 1, 2025, 12:17 AM

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jolly flume If y’all know what this song means

Mate please dont. I swear to God I wasn't talking about you. I wasn't even a part of the argument in the lounge man.

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 12:19 AM

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robust drum Mate please dont. I swear to God I wasn't talking about you. I wasn't even a par...

Nah it aint abt you

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You didn’t do nun

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It’s me

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It’s a really good song

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Should bump it

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It’s actually a podcast episode

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So you don’t have to worry abt giving Kanye money lol

robust drum Jun 1, 2025, 12:21 AM

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jolly flume It’s me

You didn't do anything either man. And fuck I'm so sorry if I made you feel worse man. Because it genuinely wasn't my goal and I wouldn't ever talk bad about you

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 12:22 AM

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robust drum You didn't do anything either man. And fuck I'm so sorry if I made you feel wors...

Nah I said shit I shouldn’t have

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But god forbid I speak abt my opinion lol

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Damn this song is good

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https://open.spotify.com/episode/7aba9LhLwaca9ZWJFOqEHD?si=dcLogCCdQGCWcLCOFNHefQ&context=spotify%3Ashow%3A38y0xt2MXwAUWFFS5HuHdg

Spotify

Never see me again

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Awesome

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I feel like I’m lying

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I don’t even know if imma make it through the next three hours lol

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And I feel like I’m lying to doggo

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But I don’t want him to worry

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I hate seeing ppl in distress

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All I want is ppl to be happy

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Even if that means if I’m miserable

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It’s worth seeing them smile

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It really is

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:08 AM

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I don’t like seeing ppl sad or in distress

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That’s why I almost never vent to anybody directly

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 1:12 AM

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jolly flume All I want is ppl to be happy

i want you to be happy too you deserve to be happy just like everyone else

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:12 AM

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cedar lintel i want you to be happy too you deserve to be happy just like everyone else

But I want ppl to be happy more

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If I can make everyone around me happy then I’m content

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Even if that means I’m miserable

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 1:12 AM

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you make me happy

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i don’t want you to be miserable

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im always here if you need to talk

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pls don’t hesitate to dm me

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:16 AM

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Okay

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I’m glad I can make you happy tho panda_happy

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 1:16 AM

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are you feeling okay?

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:17 AM

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cedar lintel are you feeling okay?

No.

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You can backread the journal if you wanna

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Ppl told me it was upsetting to read tho

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 1:20 AM

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do you wanna talk in dms

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:20 AM

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I don’t rly wanna talk abt anything man

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 1:21 AM

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you sure? im here for you

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hugs

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:22 AM

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I’m sure

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 1:24 AM

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okay if you change your mind just dm me :)

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 1:24 AM

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Okay

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 2:58 AM

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Okay I don’t think imma kms

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I think I’m chilling rn

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I sleep

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 2:49 PM

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Happy pride huddlepride and mens mental health month 💪

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Gonna be a good month

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Everybody need Yandhi

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That’s my new name if you couldn’t tell lol

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Yandhi but rly fucked uo

red hollow Jun 1, 2025, 3:27 PM

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jolly flume Happy pride <:huddlepride:848938817271627826> and mens mental health month 💪

I forgot it was mens mentao health month ngl

cedar lintel Jun 1, 2025, 6:34 PM

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https://www.instagram.com/p/DKXbhRbMiwY/?igsh=a2pybTVzdXRiMHQ0

fightthroughmentalhealth

June is Men’s Mental Health Month, a reminder that strength isn’t about bottling things up or pretending everything’s fine. It’s about having the courage to talk, to feel, to ask for help when you need it.
Too many men are suffering in silence, thinking vulnerability makes them weak. Truth is, it takes real guts to face your mind and ope...

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 9:28 PM

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cedar lintel https://www.instagram.com/p/DKXbhRbMiwY/?igsh=a2pybTVzdXRiMHQ0

This what I’m saying

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Thank you

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 9:44 PM

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Hung out w some horses today

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It was hella nice getting outta the city

untold nexus Jun 1, 2025, 10:00 PM

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AWWWW

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THAYS SO COOL

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 10:29 PM

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A man hitting a woman is scum

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Regardless of she hit first you walk tf away

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I don’t care

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You lay your hands on any woman you are a scummy, cowardly horrible person

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You never hit a woman

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You treat women with the upmost respect

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Even if they don’t respect you

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It’s fucking disapline

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Learn it

red hollow Jun 1, 2025, 10:41 PM

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jolly flume Learn it

Someone finally says jt

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 10:42 PM

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Yes bro

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And if you think of even laying hands on a female I fucking hate you

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Your a terrible person

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This is coming from a CIS male too

red hollow Jun 1, 2025, 10:42 PM

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Why can't mfs like not resort to violence

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 10:43 PM

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Violence solved nothing

red hollow Jun 1, 2025, 10:43 PM

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Especially avainst a woman, I hwte ut when they get away with that

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 10:43 PM

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It’s a cowardly action

red hollow Jun 1, 2025, 10:43 PM

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Idfc how young you are, you hit a woman I pray for your death

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 10:43 PM

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Yes

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You deserve hell

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Like your a downright terrible motherfucking person

red hollow Jun 1, 2025, 10:44 PM

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Those ppl are absolute fucking degenerates

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Ppl like those don't change, and they get what they deserve always

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 10:46 PM

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Yes bro

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 11:28 PM

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Hell yeah

jolly flume Jun 1, 2025, 11:52 PM

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I’m feeling pretty depressed today

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 12:14 AM

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Bro

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Max is saying I called him slurs

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But that’s a fucking lie 😭

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Like what?

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I’ve only said the r-word

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And it’s never been directed to him

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So idek what he’s on

cedar lintel Jun 2, 2025, 12:29 AM

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jolly flume

we already know what you look like 🥀

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 12:29 AM

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cedar lintel we already know what you look like 🥀

Not everyone

cedar lintel Jun 2, 2025, 12:29 AM

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I DO

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 12:30 AM

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cedar lintel I DO

You do… hMM hMM

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 2:29 AM

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I fucking hate myself

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Bro idek why I relapsed

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78 days down the fucking drain

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Holy fuck I hate myself

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 3:18 AM

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@tame zinc what app do you use to track your sobriety

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And does it cost money

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 3:36 AM

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I’m out of cough syrup

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I don’t know what I’m going to do

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I need it

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Bro

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I’m gonna start cutting myself as an alternative

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Fuck bro

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I can’t without DXM

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It’s the only thing that makes me feel good

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Fuuuuuucck

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 12:42 PM

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Bruh

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I’m not excited for school

cedar lintel Jun 2, 2025, 3:02 PM

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jolly flume I’m not excited for school

real

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 10:28 PM

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Yay

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I’m disappointed in myself

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I was 78 days clean

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 10:54 PM

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Bro

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Idek what to say

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I just feel so alone rn

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Like damn

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My finger hurts idek why

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I think cus I bit my nails to short

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Lalalala

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Listening to idek what to call this

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TY DOLLA $IGN IS SO UNDERRATED

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“We gonna make it through the stormmmm” 🗣️🔥

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I don’t know how to help anyone

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All I end up doing is make things worse

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I should just stop doing anything

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I ruin most things

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 11:32 PM

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Cap

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Yes I do

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You don’t know me like that

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Cap

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Both y’all are capping off to hell

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Bro Ive only made shi worse here

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I’ve heard stories about what it was like before I arrived

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And man

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Seems like everyone was way more happy

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Anyways

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Should prolly stfu

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People look at me and think “man, he’s a nice guy, he gives good advice, he’s funny, he smiles, he’s gotta be happy”

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But like

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Damn

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I’m fucked up bro

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My will is gone

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I’m fucking depressed to shit

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I’m addicted to cough syrup

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Yeah

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Idk what else to say

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All I wanna do is kms

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That’s all

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For this to end

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Wow

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You rly are persistent

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You can talk here if you want

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It says in the discription

fast thicket Jun 2, 2025, 11:44 PM

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👋

jolly flume Jun 2, 2025, 11:44 PM

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Hey man

#BODEN’S not so silly journal anymore