sigh
#Johnnies mindscape wooooowww
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Forget about it
sorry
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ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why am i actually jealous
fuck
i lowkie dont give a shit if the person that wants to be with me is obsessive
cant believe im saying that
im such a void
gng im way too desperate for this shit
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Bro don’t worry abt it my man
Shes obviously a crazy bitch
Or shes leading him on
It’s very easy to see
Also a wise man said this
It wasn’t Kanye
But it’s still good
“When you look for love you never find it, but when you aren’t? Bang it hits you like a truck.”
So live your life man
Do what you love
And you will find love
Actually you won’t find it
It will find you
You goated twin
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You goated twin
thanks boden
im still trying to hold onto that whole thing. Ik it well. Its just that ive not been actively trying to find love, at all. Not from my last rejection
And nothing’s happened. I believe nobodys even considered me yet and i starting to rely on love and affection from others to keep me stable.
Like i can barely function properly when im around even the idea of love when its not involving me. Not in a bad way that is. And honestly, idc if theyre a dick or possessive or over protective or any of that shit. Its just the fact that i have someone in my world to share my life with and care for that matters to me
love still hasnt found me yet, but ill wait through hell and heaven to get it
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thanks boden<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>im still trying to hold onto that whol...
All I ask is that you just live your life
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i do, and i do it well.
Its just hard to get it out of my head
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all of the sudden im so slow and unwilling to move my body
Like not in a bad way
im in this weird ass position and I feel comfortable
Thank you guys
Really
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<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
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<:hugs:992823004532842516>
https://open.spotify.com/track/1ouB3z2ELggVzq1yyGbykt?si=kqziyUsXQHuFIitc_-8thQ
im really liking this. Its hitting my spots right
My headphones are going fucking nuts
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https://open.spotify.com/track/6fuHmczvpn23EMbxIHGawq?si=oHDFMp-USNmAbJSNLdH1zw
whys this actually so good
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johnbaseball99/Elo2’s journal of trepidation and joy
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its like 115 degrees for me
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damn
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so fucking tired
im glad i brought water
But i forgot to bring salt tablets so uurrrggggh
5 done
9 more
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done!
hahhhh
Made 150 today
:P
Worth it even in this heat
BbbbbfhfhdhdhhdhdhajGjjjj
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Looks cool
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this country so absolutely fucked up rn
i DOUBT theres NOT gonna be another RATM release
im expecting it
and im excited for it
this song absolutely fucks
Temptation by Imminence
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Left my coffee out for an hour or something just so it can get cold
i love cold coffee
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Ice coffee
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iced caramel macchiato
:3
I let the ice melt in it
so goooood
blehhhghhhlelelehhh
cofe
im gonna have another cup
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Im gonna draw ralsei :3
W
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ooggghhhhhh im so full
oogghh
wtf
this pineapple so good
ralsei with a toast
he will have the toast
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this pineapple so good
I hate pineapple so much 💔
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nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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Gib strawberry
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Wha 😭
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like im not joking i actually call it hubert
so like
“Hey want some hubert? I love eating hubert”
“Hubert tastes soooo good”
“IM HUNGRY i want hubert in my life”
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“IM HUNGRY i want hubert in my life”
😭😭
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its a good term
yeah
“Hubert tastes so good”
“Hey whats in your mouth?”
“Hubert.”
“Are you gay?”
“hubert.”
I NEED HUBERT IN MY LIFE
HUBERT IN MY MOUF
RAHHHHHHH
AND PAUL
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😭
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and whos paul you ask?
pineapple.
PAUL FROM THE OFFICE RAHHHHHH
I LOVE PIE APLE
like
Im not gay for paul though
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You're gay for everything
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😭
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WHA
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Same personally
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Oooh also one of my favorite shirts
:3
Its missing a couple buttons so like it keeps showing my chest and its irritating asf
been ages since ive worn a compression shirt
Im being fr right now
my middle school experience was NOT quite sfw
😭
not like i was a part of anything
i was a witness to ALOT of nasty shit
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i was a witness to ALOT of nasty shit
😭
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Miss balls
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Oh shi
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moss balls
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I've been summoned
THE RITUAL IS COMPLETE
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You have summoned the gay furry
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only one can summon another
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Truly beautiful
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You have summoned the gay furry
wait are we like the only 2 people here like that
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wait are we like the only 2 people here like that
Depends on what you mean
The only gay furries?
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yeah that
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That proto is gay
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forgot abt that😭
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Well bi
But still
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so from what i know
Me, you, that proto guy, and your bf
are the only ones i can say count
that i know of
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Lmfao
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little clip of game
This is off topic but do you wanna see a picture of a carrot I found at work that kinda looks like a dick? :3
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hmm sure
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Lmfao
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:3
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suddenly im a gardener..
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Lmfaoioio
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which is ironic because i do have a crop garden
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What do you grow
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I also cut radish. Sadly no funny lookin ones 🥀
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https://tenor.com/view/gang-fortnite-raven-team-leader-gif-9500471605536325946
HELL YEAH
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https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/733441796398645358/1183404810083508285/...
NOOO
PUT HIM BAAACK
Pls :3
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ME
LOGAN
BODEN
AND RAMEN
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Lowkie
I’ll be honest here
Unfortunately i do fit the femboy stereotype
Im a bottom heavy guy
I can be often very submissive
Im vulnerable almost constantly
I do in fact want to wear a skirt one day, and a collar
Im emotionally clingy and often rely on those close to me for my comfort
Im uncannily desperate for love, even the slightest bit of affection makes my day
Im way too fuckin soft, and an easy cry
Easily persuaded
Im stupid
Id literally do anything for a relationship
I yearn to be cherished and protected on an ungodly scale
But even though im built like one, im not one. Maybe not.
I am a very masculine person and its in my blood
i wish I wasn’t
sometimes it makes me feel less of myself
Almost on a constant level
If I can make someone happy, in any way possible, then Ive found my purpose
All just a bummer really
Ill have to live with this wether or not
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Im a bottom heavy guy
I can be often very submissive
Im vulnerable almost consta...
Being slightly feminine doesn't subtract from your masculinity. Take me for example. I'm a big guy. Very masculine, very large and very "tuff outside in the dirt"
But I want stuff like a collar
I'm emotionally clingy
Affection makes my day
I wanna be cherished and protected. But it doesn't take away from who you are or your masculinity. You can be both while still being a masculine guy. When I think of you that's what I think of. A masculine guy who's a little soft inside. And that's ok and that's good. It's who you are and there's nothing wrong with that. You're, you and it's makes you special. Because you are special
You may "fit" the femboy stereotype. But even though you do it doesn't take away from who and what you present yourself as.
Everything you described as a femboy stereotype doesn't take away from your masculinity.
Masculine guys who are soft are good people. Masculine guys who are vulnerable are good to open up to and don't bottle things up. You're not afraid to cry and you don't hold that in. These are good traits to have. Even if people take it a certain way. (Which they shouldn't)
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Everything you described as a femboy stereotype doesn't take away from your masc...
Thank you Logan, like really. I feel like a part of me just came back from seeing this, thank you.
You’re the most amazing person I’ve ever known
Tbh i feel better about myself now, that matters a whole lot to me, more than i can even say 
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Thank you Logan, like really. I feel like a part of me just came back from seein...
Remember that you are YOU
Everyone is special and unique. You're a masculine guy with a soft personality. And that's a good thing. You're special. You're amazing. You are you
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Mmbdadggygvbhhj toure honna make me cry to sleep,
Thank you so, so much. You’re the best friend I could ever have in the whole universe
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I'm just glad a stayed up a little later so I could see this :3
You're amazing just the way you are Johnny
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Youre amazing Logan, you actually got me sobbing rn
Im so fucking thankful i have you in my life
You’re amazing just the way you are too fren, and always will be
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Now you get some rest man
Ok?
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i promise, i hope you do too sorry for not responding i fell asleep
You’re amazing
Huggies
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“And now I've carried the weight
I've carried the weight Of your burden long enough
And I listened as you fabricate
'Til the truth just fades away
But it's you that starts to fade
It's become clear that you are just deadweight
That's been released to sink”
i love metalcore
“You can justify almost anything
If you are willing to be loud enough
But once you've spent everything
To change the world around you
Even if your voice is taken away
Such actions will still inspire
Most of us have given up
On these words that all sound the same
But l am still willing to believe
If you have done all that you can
Drained, spent, determined, intent
Now you've earned the right to be heard”
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Ooggfghhhhh absolutely fucking up my ears
the bass on these headphones are actually insane
skullcandy ANC 2
every song when the volumes high, my ears tune to the loudness so i keep on turning the volume up every time🗣️
burnt snow
skullcandy ANC 2
I think I might have the same
What do they look like
And are they noise canceling
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very noise canceling
Even without anc on, no music on: its hard to hear someone trying to talk to you
almost too good for its own good
People always get pissed off when i cant hear them
Dude holy fuck this song is insane
me ears rn
fuck this song makes my neck strain
Zemeth isbso fucking good
Actually insane
Gggfffffghhjh
Holy shit
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skullcandy ANC 2
Skull candy is so based
W brand
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Actually looks so nice bro
If I was w you rn would you give me beer
(I’m under 18 btw)
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im done from being on the lake finally
My perception is absolutely fucked
i fell off the boat 4 times
I have another 6 pack
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blasting fuckin dad rock out on speakers here
let em all know who i am
(Not a father)
yet
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(Not a father)
yet
Based yet
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W
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Only to shoot people who disrespect me or my friends
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I love dinosaur
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i have so many things that i can launch..
I look forward to it
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:3
https://open.spotify.com/track/3Ldj7Bm7rFW9RnenJkIMF8?si=lWPOqSNFQtGj5uBiGBl-JQ
holy fuck this song hits
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I look forward to it<:huddlewowsparkle:854758761839067147>
One knee sized cylinder of tungsten
:3
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:D!
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Great
I'm gonna drink into the abyss tonight
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Great
I'm gonna drink into the abyss tonight
im already borerlining it:3
im really happy your doing great, i still have so much to do today
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This music is really going crazy with how unable to move i am
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<:hugs:992823004532842516>
remember to stay safe while your drinking, try not to go too overboard. But do have fun while you’re at it!!
Go nuts:3
you’re amazing
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I NEEDA KNOW I NEEDA KNOW I NEED TO KNOW NOW
yLl im going to the moon
fuck earth, im gonna gay it out crazy style in space
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Dude holy shit
im ABSOLUTELY enjoying this music
Fuckin rap metal
Rage music
dark trap metal
aggressive
Not sure if youre into this sorta stuff logan, or boden
But im actually losing my shit over this
Somehow
like in a good way
GGGHHJJ
ngl i could sing this
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Not sure if youre into this sorta stuff logan, or boden
Rage music is the best kind of music
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About to go out and watch fireworks in like 30 minutes
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aweosmeeee:3
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And more beer
Done with the lake for once:3 and relaxing, probably gonna drink more tonight
Today was really funnn
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whats even better? MMMBB
A good day that also ends with gaming tf out while stoned
im thinkibbggg
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Trueeeeeee
I got my best friend to talk to
My boyfriend
My BEER
Fireworks
And it's not 100000000 degrees out
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something likeeeeee hhmmm what should i play tonight
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I got my best friend to talk to
My boyfriend
My BEER
Fireworks
And it's not 10...
absolute perfection
https://open.spotify.com/track/3xoEy1AI2f3GANfoeBKyq9?si=9ytsQjSGRKWXEL_XoA_P8g
mmmfdfffggghfhfhhchcjfhfhchfhfjhfhfjfjgghhhhhjjjj
the moment my cousin pops back in with tequila im locking him tf out of the house
thank you sir
delivery complete now shoo
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TEQUILA
YOU'RE A MAN OF CULTURE
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bright sun
You my good sir are a beautiful man of culture
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makes me all… “oghh everything looks so sexy i wanna lick it”
You my good sir are absolutely correct, and in likewise
we should all play jackbox with the others in the GC someday
gartic even
B
better YET
WE ALL PLAY GANG BEASTS
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Lmfao
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We'll see 
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Dih :3
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such wisdom…
If you had asked, my final words would be… “hell he’s probably gonna say dih or something”
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😭
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Yah
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if youd have to interpret my mindscape, like go inside it, what would it be like
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Probably separated into three rooms
Music
Collars
And MEN
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Probably separated into three rooms
Music
Collars
And ***MEN***
The remaining 4… are of the unspeakable. But 3 is fine, my own little chicomoztoc is to be left until someone discovers them.
Leave it to the aztecs
Music
Collars
Men
My poison, my antidote, and a stronger poison
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Truly
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This is beyond nice
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Only bad part about this is the mosquitoes
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Ye
I hear the most redneck people at our neighbors popping fireworks
I heard "yeehaw" unironiclly
Kitty
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Her name is Shiba :3
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adorable :3
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She needs with her claws tho so it kinda hurts 😭
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This cat is too
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Sameeeee
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Clingy bitey people :3 im a parasite. And a virus.
I cannot be contained
im a vampire
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:p
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I believe ive already exclaimed to be a vampire
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The gay vampire :3
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I suck :3
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no you’re awesome :3
-# i get it
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Chug
Chug
Chug
Chug
Chug
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More johnny more!
also ooooh Afourteen just popped on
And fuckin BLCKK
My queue is blessed
perfect for tonight’s marvelous events
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There's been fireworks that lit up the sky bro
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i dont got anyone using fireworks where im at ]:
Glad i brought my own
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W
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beer firework… when it explodes it rains alcohol over a 10 meter radius!!
totally NOT flammable!!
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YES
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got me lookin up at the sky with my tongue out and eyes closed like ahhhhhhhhmmm behlelelele
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I look up with my tongue out all the time
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id rather do it with purpose. Probably sitting down or…
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:p
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weird how im sitting down on the now muddy ground as the beer wettens the grass around me…
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The perfect life
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paradise
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Still tryna remember where tf i put my drinks😭
Try not to get too fucked up man, but do enjoyyy
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My ability to censor myself is fading quickly
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QUICK WHATS THE STUPIDIST THING ABOUT ME
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You're lack of self love :3
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I get that :3
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You
Are
Beautiful
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You are beautiful too my fren, in heart and spirit
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bronze rank…
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***WHOOOOOOOOOOOO***
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :3
fuck yes dude
i found em
for some reason in my pantry
warm as fuck
wait
drink em warm or cold..
Im up for ideas
Shit is nasty when warm
but i cant help it
all for the thrill of the chase
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11
Big fireworks
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already 4 in
Despite it being warm
tastes meh but its the tingle that keeps me going
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ONG
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Slow down Johnny
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okie
i sull
will
god thus music is hfiitting the spot rn
W combinationn
dawg
the moment i take my headphones off everytgsijhs gonna RING
so loud
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W
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duude
i feel like ones oh hfg f v of t
Thaes
thoses stypid stupid fat dogs
like
their full of soup and all
and their just fucking fat
stupid fucking dog
i like dogs
My blood sugars are rrealtl t high
13
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Be careful johnny ok
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be careful too logan
I am dw
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if eitherbif of us go to sleep ar some point
I wish yiu a greatttt night, and hopefully a light hangover
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Light hangovers are for pussssieeeeeessssss
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judzd just being im carefull, i think too much
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Don't worry
We'll both be ok
Promise
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:3
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I’m k ssb
im seeing shitbagain
i fucking hate thisi ihPpsns hPpen happens every single time
stupid drijj no i stupid drink
theyre not moving
i fing kii lole t m
i dont like thais i can hear breathing
ibfel like when u wiggle around one of thise slinkys
Bitcg stop crying alteady
i hate it dhen i cry
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It'll be ok
I promise
Are you inside?
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yeahh
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Breathe carefully for me
Are you in bed?
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i am now
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Good
Stay in bed and breathe slowly and intently.
Everything will be ok
I'm here
Not going anywhere
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thank yuy loganindonnuo what i do withoit you at all
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I'm here. Just stay calm because panicking will make it worse. I'm not leaving your side fren
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i wont i primuse , im never leave your side either ever
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I just don’t know
Im so confused
ehy i have hallucinations
Literaly no reason
Tactile, visual, auditory
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It doesn't make sense rn. But you can get through it. Get through the night ok
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I'm here. Remember that they're just hallucinations johnny. Not real.
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Im ok
Im alot better
Im being honest here. What you said really helped
Im sorry i didnt respond to you last night
I held my phone close to my heart and cried to sleep
Mu head hurts a whole lot, but im so much better
Thank yu logan
You’re truthfully amazing
Truly the best person i have in my life
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I held my phone close to my heart and cried to sleep
sorry if that sounds weird
i just took what you said to heart, youre an inspiration to me and i love being around you/p
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And Logan
If you think you were the one that triggered my hallucinations
You weren’t
None of this is on you
I promise you that
So please don’t feel bad about it fren
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I genuinely don’t know what id do without you
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Truly the best person i have in my life
I tru my best
I'm glad you're ok. You're extremely important to me
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I tru my best
I'm glad you're ok. You're extremely important to me
you’re extremely important to me too, one of my top priorities
I hope youre doing ok too, you deserve some downtime, some time to recharge and relax :3
im here, and ill always be with yu fren
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forever and always my fren,
my love has no limits nor bounds <33/p
im really sorry if i ruined last night for you
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im really sorry if i ruined last night for you
You didn't
Don't worry fren
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You didn't
Don't worry fren
im relievedthank you, so so much
Despite everything that went down last night, i had a good time
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I'm glad
And I'm also glad you're ok
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I'm glad
And I'm also glad you're ok
im glad youre doing okay too:33
you can tell me anything, im always free especially for you/p
i wish today will treat you kindly
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CAT :3 fucking fat bastard
Had a little workout earlier today too!
blood sugars are high againnnnn
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blood sugars are high againnnnn
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:D!
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Cooooooookc
dude im such a fatass
i ate almost the entire thing already
i think im still losing weight
Huggghhhhhhgh u
another season of total drama wtf
Hey
thst gay ass bird that I hate
MMMNNNNN
i have more hubert
hubert in my belly oggghhh
so much hubert
so tasty RAHHH
Dude i fucking love hubert
hubert in my mouf
RAHHHHHH EVERY MONTH IS PRIDE MONTH
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“throw yourself into the sea, and you will find yourself fighting to survive. you do not want to die but rather to kill what is within you”
I like that..
i get that
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im serious
unfu
Unfortunately
the beers what caused the whole shithole to happen last night
i feel like if i have any more itll come back
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things just suck
i live alone and the only person who actually comes is my cousin
Like 3, 4 times a week
not for very long tho
and im heavily relying on my friends in discord to make me feel good
relying on my friends to keep me sane
To keep me from hurting myself
To make me happy
to make me feel better
To even just have someone, anyone to talk to
because really, i have no one
and ive grown so lonely im starting to believe my friends are family
and they feel like family
I love them so much
with my heart, soul, and my spirit
i would die for them
my friends have so so much value in my life i couldnt imagine me going a day without them
and it pains me to know that has to happen sometimes
the only person i fully trust is Logan. Literally nobody else
Hes like a brother to me, little bro
im still waiting for my parents and other family to even message me, its been a year.
Also waiting on someone to even notice me when i drive out to the city. waiting for someone to be with, my partner, my boyfriend.
all those other guys i tried with really. Really slaughtered my confidence, and my perception of love.
But i forgive them
im not just surviving because of my stringy will to live
im surviving because of how god damn much i value my friends
my people
cold caramel macchiato to soothe my soul yet again
Im sorry if i sometimes seem too much
or if i seem like i rely too much on you guys
im trying
and its hard to do anything without ny friends
because you guys are the only people who actually care
about me and what I do
and that
…that’s irreplaceable
you, my frens, are undoubtedly mine, if thats okand i hope i can be yours too. Because you matter to me more the human mind can comprehend
I love you people, my people.
and i’d fight my way through hell and heaven to stay with you
/p
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Im sorry if i sometimes seem too much
You're never too much Johnny
Im glad you trust me as much as you do. Because im the same with you. I'll always be here with you when you need <33/p
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You're never too much Johnny
Im glad you trust me as much as you do. Because im...
im wordless
thank you so much Logan
thank you
youre the real best
my best
i hope things are okay for you fren
its okay if there not.. im still here fren. Arms always open <3/p
i really wish tomorrow is good for you
even if its just a tiny bit
bright sun
i hope things are okay for you fren
They're alright. The bill got passed so we have things to sort out and I have work TMR. But overall I'm ok and I'll live.
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They're alright. The bill got passed so we have things to sort out and I have wo...
god. im really sorry the bill passed..i hoped It didn’t.
I really wish I could fix that for you, that i could take all the problems away from you and youre life.
I don’t know what to do, but even still.. im here, and you don’t have to go through it alone, not now not ever ik things are getting really overwhelming and it’s complicated, I’ll still be with you Logan. Every single step of the way, through anything and everything
The bill, it pains me to know that it has to be real know, I want to do so much to help you through it. And i will.
Im really sorry it happened, all i can do rn is cry. I just want your life to get better so badly
But im proud of you for still pushing, i know how much you carry and i wanna carry it with you
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god. im really sorry the bill passed..i hoped It didn’t.
I really wish I could ...
We'll figure it out. Things have to get worse before they get better. I'll be ok. Especially with you here man
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I’ll be there, with you the entire damn time fren. You deserve to live a happy life, and id quite literally start a war with heaven and hell to make it come true im here
bright sun
Ill always be here for you too man. Regardless of my own hardships. We lift each other
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Ill always be here for you too man. Regardless of my own hardships. We lift each...
truly we lift together, and I won’t stop lifting.
I’ll carry you through it all with me if you got tired /p
never gonna leave you behind, even if this world goes to shit
bright sun
A revolution will come some day. I can guarantee it
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If it does, then i hope things will get better. Especially for you. And that you stay safe throughout, because ill be there to walk or run or crawl through it all with you
Your amazing logan
Big hugs
bright sun
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Even if it’s just through a digital screen, im cheering for you, believing in you because you are strong and such a beautiful person/p
you deserve everything this world has to offer
bright sun
As do you Johnny
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i dont fucking care if i get shot or arrested. if this whole thing ends up getting my friend hurt im actually about to burn down the flag in front of my local PD and fucking riot this shit.
I absolutely hate that Logan has to deal with all these problems while i live in wealth. I hate it. I hate it so much
This country’s gone to bullshit and the government doesnt know how to use it
Its so unfair
So. Unfair.
Logan and his family and his boyfriend deserve a good and better life SO much.
And i would ACTUALLY fight every army of heaven, all the demons in hell, every soldier on this earth, even the angels. Even jesus himself to give it to him
but all i can do is cry. And i cant stop…
and that frustrates me so much
If only i could bend reality
and like ive said before
i would genuinely give up all my wealth and happiness and give it to him
bright sun
i dont fucking care if i get shot or arrested. if this whole thing ends up getti...
It'll be ok Johnny
We'll be ok. We'll work through it. Our meet up may get delayed and my boyfriend moving in will be too. But we'll be ok. Things will adjust. It'll be hard but we deal with hard all the time. I have you here to talk to and be around. Everything will be ok
You want me to look positive. You need to do the same for me
Life is hard
But we manage
I'll be ok. I have you
My boyfriend
My friends
Life will move and I'll be ok. And st the end of it I'll give you a massive bear hug irl when it's over
bright sun
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im so happy and thankful youre here, im with you Logan. Through any fire, through anything. Well get through this together and well adapteven if itll take a while, even if its so overwhelming it hurts. I have you. And you have me
I dont want what we have to end, i dont ever want you to go, i couldnt even bring myself to the thought. Youve got me for eternity, and beyond
bright sun
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youre safe with me, with your bf, your family. And ill keep on fighting for you, and with you. For as long as it takes. Even if itll cripple me, you have more value in my life then anything i can genuinely think of
i hope you have a goodnight my fren please stay safe for me, ill be here in the morning. I really, really really wish tomorrow will go okay for you. Know that ill be thinking about you, and praying things will go well and soon to be resolved/p ill be here through all of it, for you, and with you
Sweet dreams my beautiful fren
bright sun
i hope you have a goodnight my fren<:hugs:992823004532842516> please stay safe f...
Goodnight Johnny
I love you dawg/p
bright sun
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nap
RAHHHH soo good
I luv you allll
Still in bed
Hhhhh
Ggggfaggggggghhh
I smell so good
Like a mix of rain and vanilla
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MORE MOUNTAIN BIKIJG RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DUDE HOLY FUCK THIS SONG AGAIN
MY HEADPHONES
SO FUCKING GOOD
IM FUCKING DYING VRI
MY EARS ARE BLESSED
IL M ACTUALLY BURSTING TO THIS MUDIC
the volume capability on thiese headphones are actually fucking CRAZY
Fuxkkk
and the bass
the bass on this song rn MMPGHHH
Dude im actually destroyyyyignggg my eard rrn
this dhit is fire
Rage music is the bestt
I LOVE IT WHEN IT HAS FUCKIG METAL IN THE BACK
GOOD MIX
GREAT MIX
nerd in mainchat
“DOK won't ever die
We never lie
I'll clarify
You horrified
We multiply
You occupied
We amplify
You petrified
We nullify
You know we got an alibi
We always high, we supa fly
Like mothafuckin satellites”
🗣️🔥🗣️🔥🗣️
“Music is my main bitch
And the language she speak dangerous
Blowin' out the bass how we bang shit
Break a mothafuckas face if he ain't shit
Too cool in that two tone
I'm like a toucan, with them loop holes
They don't understand me
Thats bane, bitch
Nonplain shit”
🗣️🗣️🔥
Nvm -Dropout Kings
ngll i gotta find someone whos got my taste in music:3333
Not like not partners
like friends
Well
Maybe partners who knows
DROPOUT KINGS ARE MY KING
BEST
YES
BEST SHIT EVER
I NEEDED A RAP METAL BAND SO BAND AND I GOT ONE
RIOT MUSIC
O
“Keep it f-ckin playa like a running back
Runnin back the lyrics to my shit cus I'm spittin that ether
New bitch a genius no cap, soul core blue hair blue
Fit so I feel like Vegeta”
Hyperfocusing rn
Holy shit this song is NUTS
The intro vro
Dudde these guys are like linkin park but with trap and ALOT AGGRESSIVER
BODEN WOULD LOVE THIS SHIT I THINK
IDK
I DONT KNOW HIS MUSIC TASTE WELL OTHER THEN KANYE
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https://open.spotify.com/artist/0COl8x4QKImQ0IBO8KjomQ?si=uXdwdCjFSdSUj86YGYQWqg
Thissss
So fucking good
Rap metal
Rage
burnt snow
What song do you recommend
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What song do you recommend
https://open.spotify.com/track/3NepZsHTRveJptUDgv5r17?si=qShcPSY8RuyCej5gOeZ94
ts ones my favorite:3
burnt snow
Bumping it on the speaker rn
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im on full volume rn
Im actually pulsing with this
burnt snow
I lowk think I cracked my phone screen bruh
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Whuh😭how
burnt snow
I missed a step last night coming home from work 😭
And tumbled a lil
My phone was in ma hand
I think that’s how
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Owch😭hope ur alright man
burnt snow
I’m chilling dw
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I barely listen to kanye and this reminded me of him fsr
😭
https://open.spotify.com/track/5mLytPan1w6D47Hz8INQOl?si=hCj0wBAsSXmqhXxOEme6EQ
burnt snow
I’ll listen to determine the realness of your statement
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im gonna be SO wrong😭lmfaoo
burnt snow
We will see
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Kanye doesnt sing metal
burnt snow
Hold up…
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I don’t think
burnt snow
Lowk liking this
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🗣️🗣️
burnt snow
I don’t think
Blood on the leaves is almost mental imo
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ill give it a lishten soon
burnt snow
Goated
Okay I think you were wrong abt it sounding like Kanye but hell yeah this is good
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Jssss this album is literally all im about like wtf https://open.spotify.com/album/4w4AFbXexjR37nluWhqCU8?si=AzlCm86uRE-W3Po06imtJA
alr i got some mountain biking to do
see ya boden
burnt snow
Peace out
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O oh hbvcz
hopy shit
Holy
Shu
im sorry
Im dr it gg
Hggg
everything hurt
So bad
Mmmmmggffyfdd
God
3 hours
Of mountain biking
bondpptop
Nonstop
holy shit my back hurts so much
imnfonna cry
i crashed 5 tomes
and blood sugars are fucking lowe
i feel like im gonna pass iug
god
i don have any water wtf
Im back at the car thougjj
im covered in mud
im swetay
sweaty
tirwd
Tired
burnt snow
Im back at the car thougjj
Hell yeah
burnt snow
Ooooooh
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Ooooooh
went on a double black diamond tday
search yo ‘stone age trail Duluth minnesota’ on YT
days wjay i got on
bur i wjenjd
burnt snow
So cool!!
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Hydrate and get your sugar up
IMMEDIATELY
dw i got it inder control
Everything just really hurts rn
ny back is completely blown out and i barely have the strength to stand
3 hours of biking
6 trails total
and know the trails where im at are ROCKY as fucking hell
i feel like i just lost a couple inches of height my spine hurts
bright sun
i feel like i just lost a couple inches of height my spine hurts
Cruel
But take some acetaminophen and you should be ok
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I’m got some pf that
I got back home
im just laying my ass down on the table
I feel like a wet torn rag but somehow comfy
Today was so fun though
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Cruel
But take some acetaminophen and you should be ok
i havem right here:3
it was rough but i got through it and it was worth it
i hope ur doing okay Logan
if not really then thats ok fren, im here
always here
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<:Fryhmmm:1156225313903235102>
My seat isnt always the kindestjust hoping the stem doesnt tear through it and up
sigh
Sinas got one too. Congrats fren
bright sun
i hope ur doing okay Logan<:hugs:992823004532842516>
Honestly I'm doing amazing
Knowing I don't have to worry about a home is just amazing
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Honestly I'm doing amazing
Knowing I don't have to worry about a home is just am...
im glad im so glad youre gonna have a house. You deserve it so much, and so so much more
Im genuinely, proud
bright sun
For the first time since election day I feel like I have a chance of a future
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For the first time since election day I feel like I have a chance of a future
i know you will, and right nows only the beginning things will get even better. I pray and believe it will, because you don’t just deserve it. It’s something you need
Youre amazing, im so happy your life is getting better, even if its little by little
and ill still be here
every little step of the way
im hoping your future will be great, and ill help you throughout it all
Ill be there, in your darkest and brightest moments
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*sigh*
Sinas got one too. Congrats fren
Lowkie wait till boden gets one
Itll happen
ltrlly everyone of my friends is in love
bright sun
ltrlly everyone of my friends is in love
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Yet again, with my friends, and my music to stop my head from thinking about love
its nice
im loving this band so much
Drown everything out and swim in possibilities of what you can become
Singing it will only make things quieter until you yell
yelling will only drain it further, and there pools another shade a blue
damn it im no poet
im just tired
bright sun
im just tired
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<:hugs:992823004532842516>
thank you so much for being here
tbh i feel safe around you/p
youre the only person who keeps coming back and im so, very thankful
Youre always doing such a good job, you’re actually amazing
bright sun
I try to be around for you as much as possible Johnny
Even if I can't be all the time
bright sun
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bright sun
I'm glad I can help when I can though.
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I'm glad I can help when I can though.
and im ever grateful for you, you’re always a help. And that’s priceless
truly, the best person I know
bright sun
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i feel so at peace right now
for once i feel normal
its nice..
im smiling
trying not to cry cause of how ethereal this feels
maybe its my music
but i know
its because of the people i love here/p
and my music loolll
love you guys so much more than anything in this world
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@burnt snow
Just curious but what do you think of this album, https://open.spotify.com/album/09natI8LumZF8kRgCuUSRe?si=u1wuMn8OS8ir_Jny1lqMXA
you dont have to
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43
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Sounds good:3
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<@864240810304471040> Whats your fav song
Ike in the album?
burnt snow
Yup
burnt snow
I like switchblade so far
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like it too, amazing guyi love em so much
burnt snow
gatekeepinggggg
Yo
Just finished the album
Holy moly
Very glad you recommended
Actually fuck heavy with that album
Fav sone either spine or dark
Probably dark
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Very glad you recommended
Np man
Glad you like it:3
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self consumed much in mainchat
bright sun
self consumed much in mainchat
Ik
bright sun
Same
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Can I join? :3
I let you slide for this one… welcome on
burnt snow
I let you slide for this one… welcome on
Dude.. fuck yes
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really don’t wanna do this again but things are loud rn so im gonna rant again
yet again with the relationship shit
im an odd one out, every friend group Ive been in, every person around. Theyre all taken
Some of them are REALLY over the board affectionate and freak as fuck
and some of them are friends of mine
And like
my head just hurts even trying to comprehend this
And i know its childish as fuck and petty and niche as ever but i always have these thoughts i LOCK up behind my head
Those like “whats so interesting about them?”
“Don’t you see how bad im hurting?”
“Why do you have to be so affectionate in public”
But i always rud of those thoughts because they hurt me, they’re derogatory and arrogant. And im not that kind of person
So i just stop
And shut down
Every time i see a couple pop in chat
Or when someone starts getting affectionate
not to me
Duh
and I don’t know if ill ever find someone
Cause of these modern world standards
like every person who has “femboy” in their bio have a HELL of a better time finding a partner
and it hurts knowing that
Because I don’t want to have to catfish
Even though im built like one i dont wanna be one
And im not
i have a bad feeling about all this too
That im starting to believe im schizoaffective or got some other kind of psychotic disorder
and that im gonna need someone to be there whenever things start going down
ik i have friends who’d especially help me through it and would stay until im safe
But its just not the same if someone who wants to be with you does it. Someone who really sees you and wants you
Mainchats already pushing the stake in my heart further
and im such an attention goblin
i always feel so bad and ashamed of myself when no one responds or if someone puts me down
And i feel so lonely and sad and frustrated and relieved all at the same time
But there’s nothing i can do.
All i can do is stay shackled in my pain and watch as peoples futures brighten
im never going to get a partner
Its just so so easy for others to get them
and im here either working my ass off just to be noticed all time or im not trying at all
Like why is it always so easy for everyone else
Ive genuinely never had that childhood crush thing going on
No one’s probably even brought me into the thought
And I don’t want to think that im going to live single forever
Its almost like listening to a curse conjur when i think that to myself