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vestal robin Feb 17, 2025, 6:21 PM

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I have so many thoughts in my head, but with no one to talk to about these things. I'm just a girl who wants to be heard so this is my space to vent and yap about everything going on in my life-the good, the bad and the ugly. I love to write and I hope journaling helps me let go of everything inside. Here I go... xoxo 💜 ✨

vestal robin Feb 17, 2025, 6:41 PM

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I like to cry, that sounds kinda pathetic ik, but I really do. My favorite time to cry is at night. I just wrap myself in the sheets, bury my face in my pillow and let the tears all flow out.

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Afterwards, I feel very relieved, like this big weight has been lifted off me and I'm so tired afterwards that I just fall asleep.

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Crying is so soothing.

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It's almost bedtime, and I can't wait to let it all out again, alone in my room...

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Sometimes I wish I could shout too

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Like, just scream.

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SCREAM

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There should be like, scream rooms or sumn.

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Scream in a room for like an hour

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I think those already exist though.

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But know what will be better?

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Standing on a high ground in a deserted place and screaming to the world "I WOULD BE FINE, SOMEDAY!"

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And I know I will. huddleheartshape

vestal robin Feb 18, 2025, 10:48 AM

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Today is a good day

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Okay, maybe good is an overstatement

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But it a normal day

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No bad thoughts, no overwhelming feeling of gloom...

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I feel okay, for the first time in a while

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Had a long convo with an online friend and we chatted and talked, and it feels like I have no worries in the world

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I realize that

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sometimes it really does help when you have someone to talk to

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To tell them about how you feel

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About how sad or lonely or depressed you are

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When I talked to him, I felt this heavy load lift off my chest and I was able to breathe again

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It's a nice feeling

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I don't have to keep it all bottled in

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And it feels good

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Very good. huddlecomfyblanket

vestal robin Feb 18, 2025, 8:51 PM

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I'm about to go sleep, didn't break down in tears today. Damn, that's an achievement.

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Wasn't really productive though, I skipped online classes today because I couldn't concentrate.

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Instead I watched some episodes of vampire diaries.

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And ate one of my favorite meals in the morning.

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And I also played games and texted in a gc.

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Now here I am, tucked in bed and about to go to sleep.

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I hope tomorrow is as normal as today was.

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No bad thoughts

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Just a normal day.

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Finally. huddlemoon

vestal robin Feb 19, 2025, 7:28 PM

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It's Wednesday night. I went to my granny's with my sisters and my mom this evening.

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And we're gonna be here till Sunday night

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Tbh, I really did not want to go

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Because there are so many people here

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And sometimes I just get tired of everyone

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But i had no choice

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And now I'm here

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Me, my two sisters, my cousin. an uncle, my mom and my grandparents

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And guess what?

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I think I'm actually enjoying it...like a lot

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I haven't felt so good in a while

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For the sake of my mental health, I thought it was okay to just lock myself up in my room and stay indoors, away from everyone and just be sad and lonely

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And the sad feelings still linger a bit, but it's different, I can smile and laugh genuinely without faking it. Is this what iit's like to be...||happy?||

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On the other hand, I'm also kinda scared

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That these good feelings are just temporary and I'l be back to square one very soon

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But for now, I'll just let myself hope and believe

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That maybe it's for good this time. grouphuggies

vestal robin Feb 19, 2025, 9:55 PM

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She just had to ruin it

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I swear she just had to

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I was so fine

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she just had to set me off and ruin my whole mood

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i don't feel so fine anymore

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i wish everybody would just leave me alone

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it seems like every little thing just triggers me to go into a crying bout

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and i've been keeping my cool all day

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but now, it's all coming back

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nobody really cares about me

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i feel alone

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i just want to talk to someone

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but i can't talk to anyone in my family about these things

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i'm sad

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i feel bad and helpless

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i hope that I feel better in the morning

vestal robin Feb 20, 2025, 7:53 PM

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A hug would heal me rn

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but even without one

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i hope i'll be okay

vestal robin Feb 21, 2025, 10:09 PM

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If there's one thing i hate the most, it's fake people

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as for me, i can see right through people

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and idk why people pretend to be something they're not

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It is well.

vestal robin Feb 22, 2025, 8:09 PM

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whenever people online/offline, talk about trying to do something bad to themselves (e.g,|| sh or trying to end their lives||) ,i always thought that it was for attention.

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But now, my thoughts are very different

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i feel very bad right now

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like very, very bad

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and i don't know what to do

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I just don't want to feel so weak and vulnerable anymore

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like there's so many thoughts

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but no one to talk to

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i don't know what to do

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I'm just tired...of living.

vestal robin Feb 22, 2025, 8:35 PM

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im tired fr

vestal robin Feb 22, 2025, 11:12 PM

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I WILL BE FINE.

vestal robin Feb 23, 2025, 7:37 PM

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I AM FINE!

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It's so nice having someone to talk to, even if it's a random online stranger.

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Idk how it works, but it just really helps.

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It's better to let it out and vent to someone, anyone, than to keep it in, because it would keep eating you up from inside.

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It did for me

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My mind doesn't feel so full anymore.

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I hope that things don't change, 'cause I love it this way.💜

vestal robin Feb 24, 2025, 10:14 PM

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I feel like I'm all alone in the world

vestal robin Feb 24, 2025, 10:29 PM

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I just want to hug somebody

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I haven't cried so much in a while

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it hurts

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but it is what it is

vestal robin Feb 26, 2025, 8:19 AM

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Apparently, I woke up on the good side of the bed today

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Like

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For no reason in particular, I just feel HAPPY!

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Like I've been grinning and smiling like a fool all morning

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And atp, i feel like if I stand on a skyscraper and jump, i would be able to fly

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not like in a bad way, lmao

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like, i feel i can do anything

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man

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i hope that this good feeling lasts

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vestal robin Feb 27, 2025, 7:36 PM

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It lasted...

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for a day.

vestal robin Feb 27, 2025, 8:09 PM

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nobody wants to talk to me

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i'm tired of pretending

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nobody actually cares

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everyone has their own problems to deal with

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mine doesnt even matter

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it never has

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and it never will

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i feel devastated

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these tears are probably gonna last for hours

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and yet

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i'm all alone.

vestal robin Mar 2, 2025, 6:32 PM

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Life sucks

vestal robin Mar 2, 2025, 7:29 PM

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im a loser and a failure

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i dont feel too good

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today has been a terrible day

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my head hurts and my face is raw from all the crying

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the ironic thing is that

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even with how bad i feel rn

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If anyone asks me, "how are you?"

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I would still say 'fine' or 'i'm good'

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bc i cant explain how i feel to anyone

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why am i like this? why can't i just be normal and be happy like everyone else?

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I'M GETTING WORSE EVERYDAY

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I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

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im sick and tired

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of everything and everyone

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please i just want to be fine, please pleasr when do i start to heal? when does this paiin go away ?

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i feel like i'm sloely dying inside

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my thoughts are bugging me

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this is not how i imagined my life would be at sixteen

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im pathetic

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i wonder how im able to survive

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every single day

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i go through this

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and yet, im still here

vestal robin Mar 4, 2025, 7:40 PM

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Came across this today, one of my old drawings...

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Reminded me of the time when i still had friends

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when i would talk and gist and hang out with them everyday

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but now?

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lol

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I'm **LONELY **in bold, capital letters

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Im not a bad person, i swear

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i just feel very detached from the world rn

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i feel like my life is just happening and im just a spectator

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i dont know how i manage to survive one day after another

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i feel tortured rn

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it hurts, like crazy

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funny thing is that if you knew me irl, you would never know

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im this very cool girl

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the friendly and funny one who's everyone's favorite

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but the sadness and feeling of loneliness is killing me from the inside out

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i just want to be okay

vestal robin Mar 8, 2025, 8:44 PM

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haha

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wtf

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is wrong with me?

vestal robin Mar 12, 2025, 7:41 PM

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I just want this all to end

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Everything

vestal robin Mar 16, 2025, 8:59 PM

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Nobody likes me

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I did my best

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I swear

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I did

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I can't take this pain

vestal robin Mar 18, 2025, 10:08 PM

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Life update: im still stuck here

vestal robin Mar 22, 2025, 7:55 PM

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Idek

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My life's the worst man

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Like

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Tbh

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No one csres

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About me

vestal robin Mar 23, 2025, 10:54 PM

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And I don't want to

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Cwre about anyone

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Else too

vestal robin Apr 7, 2025, 7:00 PM

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wish i could be numb

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how great it would be

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not to feel anything at all

vestal robin Apr 7, 2025, 9:40 PM

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Lowkey wanna js die

vestal robin Apr 12, 2025, 7:41 PM

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being lonely is one of the worst things in the world

vestal robin Apr 17, 2025, 10:23 PM

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please i just want to die

vestal robin Apr 27, 2025, 8:18 PM

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i'll be okay

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i won't die

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i'll survive

vestal robin May 4, 2025, 5:59 PM

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crying alone

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i feel so lonely

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i cant talk to anyone

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because

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i dont want people

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to think that im a

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attention seeker

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idk, am i? i dont know fr im just tired of being unheard dying in silence in this misery and agony

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its so hard

vestal robin May 5, 2025, 7:42 PM

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please please

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Make it stop

vestal robin May 8, 2025, 1:42 AM

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I feel like I'm going crazy

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I just want to talk to somebody

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That's all

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All I ever wanted was just to talk

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Why can't I talk

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I want to die

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Please

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I can't do this anymore

vestal robin May 28, 2025, 11:15 AM

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I've been doing...better?

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I hope it continues this way! Joy

vestal robin Jun 12, 2025, 4:07 PM

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Another relapse again

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I'm just so tired

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of everything

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I don't want to give up

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but yet

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I'm so tired

vestal robin Jun 13, 2025, 7:21 PM

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I feel conflicted

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Sometimes I just want to be like a jellyfish

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They don't think, don't feel and have no consciousness whatsoever

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But also

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I DO want to feel

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I want to experience life to the fullest, have a bright future, travel around the world, fall in love, have kids and make all my dreams come true

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But still

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With everything going on in my life lately, I feel like that dream is unattainable

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So I just wallow in my misery and hope for the worst

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To be honest, there are many times I hoped I would just die

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But now I realize

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I don't really want to die or be a jellyfish

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I just don't want to live this life

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THIS life

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I don't know what I'm saying right now or if this even makes sense

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I'm crying so much as I'm typing this

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I don't want to get to the stage where suicide becomes my only option

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I don't want to die really

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But it hurts so much keeping all these emotions inside

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And I wouldn't share with anyone because I don't want to be a burden

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But how much longer would this go on for?

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How much longer do I have to pretend I'm okay before I finally break?

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I'm just so tired.

naive anvil Jun 13, 2025, 9:10 PM

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Idk if you want people to type here but I came to read this because I’m tired too

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I don’t even know what caused this to happen to me but all of a sudden life just didn’t feel like life anymore. I stopped wanting to wake up, I stopped getting along with people

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And today my boyfriend told me he couldn’t keep doing it anymore

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He wanted to break up

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I’m so tired too

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And I feel so alone

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People tell me I have things to live for things to look forward to but I don’t see it. I’m too tired to even want to make it that far

vestal robin Jun 14, 2025, 5:15 AM

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naive anvil And I feel so alone

Can I dm?

naive anvil Jun 14, 2025, 3:47 PM

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Yes

naive anvil Jun 14, 2025, 3:47 PM

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vestal robin Can I dm?

Yes

vestal robin Jun 14, 2025, 6:51 PM

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Lowkey wanna just sleep tonight and never wake up again

vestal robin Jun 15, 2025, 7:09 PM

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I am VERY glad that I did wake up

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Today has been like the only normal day in forever

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I wouldn't say it was super amazing

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But it really wasn't bad at all

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I've had no intrusive thoughts and I've been doing pretty well

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Had a nice dinner

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And I'm watching a nice movie right now

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While bundled up in the sheets huddlecomfyblanket

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And I hope tomorrow is just like today

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Or even better

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Who knows?

vestal robin Jun 16, 2025, 6:55 PM

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It didn't last

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I'm a mess

vestal robin Jun 27, 2025, 6:37 PM

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crocheting+music=perfection

stark crow Jun 27, 2025, 6:51 PM

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music to my ears

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i love both those things

vestal robin Jun 29, 2025, 7:39 PM

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stark crow i love both those things

same :3

vestal robin Jul 2, 2025, 6:41 PM

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i dont even know what to say anymore

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im just so tired

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so numb

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when does this end?

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im tired of telling all my friends how sad and lonely i feel all the time

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someone said two days ago "why are you always depressed, when would you start to feel better?"

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and i felt bad so ill just lock up from now on

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keep my bad feelings to myself and put on a brave face

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ill do just that

vestal robin Jul 2, 2025, 7:07 PM

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im tired

stark crow Jul 6, 2025, 7:09 PM

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vestal robin keep my bad feelings to myself and put on a brave face

i did this for like two years. its not fun

#My safe space💜