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cunning olive Feb 11, 2025, 4:16 AM

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percy

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pefcy

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percy

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percu

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percy

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percy

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percy

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percy

cunning olive Feb 11, 2025, 4:55 AM

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GIVE ME A BREAK

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OH MY GOD

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GIVE

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ME

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A

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BREAK.

cunning olive Feb 11, 2025, 6:17 AM

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it’s all my fault

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i need a timeout thankfully ik what to dk

cunning olive Feb 11, 2025, 9:25 PM

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i love how i ||stabbed|| ms like 25 times and i’m still alive

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in my house too

cunning olive Feb 11, 2025, 9:26 PM

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cunning olive it’s all my fault

i let her hurt me

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i’ll die someday

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and i cannot wait.

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fuck you destiny

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i love yo

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you

cunning olive Feb 12, 2025, 6:33 AM

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cut my hair

cunning olive Feb 12, 2025, 7:45 AM

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…

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i’m gonna get bullied again

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i cut it too short

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FUCK

cunning olive Feb 12, 2025, 10:49 AM

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well being up this long sure is less than ideal

cunning olive Feb 12, 2025, 7:11 PM

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coughs audibly

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live laugh love madi

cunning olive Feb 14, 2025, 2:27 AM

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cunning olive Feb 14, 2025, 3:53 AM

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fuck gender

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☺️

cunning olive Feb 14, 2025, 8:25 PM

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YOU SNITCH

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SNITCH

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SNITCH

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SNITCH

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SNITCH.

cunning olive Feb 15, 2025, 2:21 AM

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SHES ALIVE

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DESTINY

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SHES ALUVE

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YES

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YES

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YESYSS

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HSSSYS

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YES

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YES

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YES

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YSS

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YE

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SS

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YES

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YSS

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YES

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EYS

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YES

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YES

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YESY

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YES.

cunning olive Feb 16, 2025, 12:17 AM

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might apply for mod tbh

cunning olive Feb 16, 2025, 8:21 PM

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cosmin, hey! yeah, i’m feeling a bit better, i appreciate you checking in Joy

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a lot lmao 😭 but i’m still here! :3

cunning olive Feb 17, 2025, 7:00 AM

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||my mother rummaged through my shit two days ago and took my boxcutter, kill me now 😍||

cunning olive Feb 17, 2025, 7:30 AM

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i found another!!!

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Joy

cunning olive Feb 18, 2025, 2:31 AM

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period cramps are coming for my ass

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ugh wtf

cunning olive Feb 18, 2025, 7:49 AM

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pfp change

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go listen to madilyn mei

cunning olive Feb 19, 2025, 3:06 AM

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go listen to sarah kinsley

cunning olive Feb 19, 2025, 8:54 AM

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chat

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first trans

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now i may be gay

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.

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i want a bf ☹️

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cunning olive Feb 19, 2025, 11:36 PM

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my monthly reminder that i’ll never be a cis man has returned

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wtf bri

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o

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i chose a relatively uncommon name (not kai) and now i feel invalid as a trans individual for some reason?

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wtv if i make it to be an old man i can have a super sillyfun name

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!rank

signal bronzeBOT Feb 19, 2025, 11:39 PM

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cunning olive Feb 19, 2025, 11:40 PM

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yayyaayayay

cunning olive Feb 20, 2025, 3:50 AM

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i am the brother with the nintendo 64

cunning olive Feb 20, 2025, 7:05 AM

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i want a bf

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i want a bf

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i want a bf

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i want a bf

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i want a bf

cunning olive Feb 21, 2025, 5:03 AM

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where tf did my 2 pings go

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anyways

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i kandified my favourite pair of converse

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:3

cunning olive Feb 21, 2025, 5:05 AM

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cunning olive i chose a relatively uncommon name (not kai) and now i feel invalid as a trans i...

there is a stereotype of transmascs typically choosing quite common names, such as james, leo, oliver, etc. and i chose an uncommon one lol, so now i feel invalid

but i’m choosing my middle name to be more common so i feel better now

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maybe one day i’ll do a name reveal

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heh

cunning olive Feb 21, 2025, 7:46 AM

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i’m liquid smooth /lur

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lyr

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i want a pinterest worthy bedroom bro

cunning olive Feb 22, 2025, 2:42 AM

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cunning olive maybe one day i’ll do a name reveal

two likes and i’ll do it /ref /hj

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anyways

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lowkey wanna pierce my ears ms but my mom would obliterate me

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kandi brain

cunning olive Feb 22, 2025, 3:28 AM

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class of 2013. audiotree live

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i listen to it

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and remember

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how i hate my mom sometimes

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but

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i’ll always crawl back to her

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for good fuck’s sake

cunning olive Feb 22, 2025, 5:23 AM

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henry you fucking mysogynist

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”men carry millions of babies everyday and we don’t complain”

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bitch you can go fucking fall into a pit anya’s ghost style except you don’t get saved

cunning olive Feb 22, 2025, 11:29 PM

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he’s been gaslighting me 😍 chat should i block him?

cunning olive Feb 22, 2025, 11:30 PM

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cunning olive two likes and i’ll do it /ref /hj

LMAO??

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blocked out name bc it’s his @ and his pfp is…is not

cunning olive Feb 23, 2025, 2:17 AM

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CHAPTER EIGHT

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OTWF

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YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

cunning olive Feb 23, 2025, 5:39 AM

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nothing like carving your birth initials into your leg bc you’ll never be a cis man

cunning olive Feb 23, 2025, 5:58 AM

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HE ASKED ME IF MY PERIOD WAS MAKING ME UPSET 💀💀💀💀

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BLOCKED

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Joy

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anyways

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got some pretty little lines decorating my leg rn

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fuck you henry

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:3

cunning olive Feb 23, 2025, 6:03 AM

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cunning olive got some pretty little lines decorating my leg rn

stacking them makes me feel better rather than letting them go fuckin crazy

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plus they can hide under shorts

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i want long shorts thi

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tho

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i might go shopping tomorrow

cunning olive Feb 23, 2025, 6:51 AM

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i’ve been blocked by fernandfuck 🔥🔥

cunning olive Feb 23, 2025, 8:13 AM

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i’m gonna appeal my friend’s ban

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i really want it appealed

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they’re so fun to talk to and i love them sm

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<33333

cunning olive Feb 24, 2025, 9:26 PM

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SHE LEFT ME.
HE GROOMED ME.
HE IGNORED ME.
SHE MANIPULATED ME.
SHE HATED ME.
HE HATES ME.

cunning olive Feb 24, 2025, 10:13 PM

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GOT ANOTHER VAPE

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😍😍

cunning olive Feb 25, 2025, 7:33 PM

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I GOT A GHOSTPING HERE :(

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yall can just dm

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i won’t respond but dont ghostping me sobs

cunning olive Feb 25, 2025, 11:03 PM

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made up with fernando

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fun fact

cunning olive Feb 26, 2025, 6:33 AM

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i should kill myself

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i’m turning dms back off.

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!rank

signal bronzeBOT Feb 26, 2025, 6:33 AM

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cunning olive Feb 26, 2025, 6:33 AM

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oh well that’s fucking lovely

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i’m so fat

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and igly

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uglt

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ugly

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disgusting

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i hate myself

cunning olive Feb 27, 2025, 2:10 AM

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holy

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so many reactions

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WHOS THERE

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WHAT

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HUH

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HI?

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WHOS THERE

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OOOH LANG

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well hello there

cunning olive Feb 27, 2025, 8:57 PM

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hello my pony beads

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(idk)

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how are all of you today

cunning olive Feb 28, 2025, 12:20 AM

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IF I KEEP GETTING GHOSTPINGED IM GONNA CRASHOUT

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i’m doing absolute ass btw

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😼

cunning olive Feb 28, 2025, 12:21 AM

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cunning olive hello my pony beads

kandi is made using pony beads

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and

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and my journal is named kandi brain

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teehee

cunning olive Feb 28, 2025, 4:32 AM

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did i love tou

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you

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or did i love the IDEA of you.

cunning olive Mar 1, 2025, 12:49 AM

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stop with the ghostpings

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i’m so fucking ugly

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i look disgusting

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i eat too much

cunning olive Mar 1, 2025, 12:50 AM

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cunning olive stop with the ghostpings

stop fucking responding with pings on

cunning olive Mar 1, 2025, 3:57 AM

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lowkey wanna face reveal but that’s not allowed here

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cunning olive Mar 1, 2025, 3:59 AM

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cunning olive i’m doing absolute ass btw

excuse me?

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why u telling me to fuck off in my own journal

cunning olive Mar 2, 2025, 5:22 AM

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yeah thanks

cunning olive Mar 5, 2025, 4:05 AM

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and i sit on the curb cause its the prettiest night

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(drunk walk home, mitski)

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!rank

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ufj

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ufh

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get online sobs

cunning olive Mar 6, 2025, 1:37 AM

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she’s done now.

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new one

cunning olive Mar 9, 2025, 4:00 AM

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aaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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DID YOU GET ENOUGH LOVE MY LITTLE DOVE WHY DO YOU FUCKING CRY

cunning olive Mar 11, 2025, 5:48 AM

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soooooo

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found 6 ||blades||

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anyways

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cunning olive Mar 14, 2025, 2:59 AM

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oh my baby

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he ||cut|| himself

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oh baby

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i’m so sorry cole

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my poor baby

cunning olive Mar 16, 2025, 10:57 PM

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cunning olive Mar 22, 2025, 9:20 PM

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welcome back viaano

cunning olive Mar 27, 2025, 4:01 AM

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i fucking hate school

cunning olive Apr 5, 2025, 8:08 PM

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HE FUCKING BLOCKED ME AGAIN

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FERNANDO FUCKING BLOCKED ME AGAIN

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WHAT THE FUCK

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WHAT THE ACTUAL FYCK

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WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO?????

cunning olive Apr 9, 2025, 1:29 AM

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got my ||vape|| back

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life is good <3

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i hate myself but wtv

cunning olive Apr 26, 2025, 10:34 PM

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mb chat i’m fine

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i exist

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i’m good yes

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life took a turn for the better

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||i also failed another attempt but we ignore that 💀||

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but thank you for checking in!! :)

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i just genuinely forgot that i had a discord for awhile

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ngl

cunning olive Apr 26, 2025, 10:39 PM

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cunning olive ||i also failed another attempt but we ignore that 💀||

atp i’m invincible (i’ve ||overdosed|| on this 5 times now no shit)

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and anyways i have a solid reason to not ||die|| for now

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as long as he fucking RESPONDS to me goddamnit

cunning olive Apr 28, 2025, 1:52 AM

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CHAT HE RESPONDEDDD

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UGHHHH IM SO IN LOVE

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💕

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anywayys

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||i’m so hungry that i feel sick||

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i don’t remember the last time i had a proper meal ngl

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i feel terrible

cunning olive Apr 29, 2025, 12:24 AM

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UGGHGHFHFHF THIS MAN

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I LOVE HIMMMMM

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AAAAAAAA

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I CANT GET HIM OFF MY MIND BROOO

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if only we weren’t 14 months apart…sighh 😔😔

cunning olive Apr 29, 2025, 9:55 PM

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HUH?

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COSMIN WHAT 😭😭

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WHAF ABOUT PARENTS TEN??

cunning olive May 6, 2025, 12:59 AM

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ghost ping ☹️

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i wanna burn cds for my new cd player

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also thank you therapist

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”you can love your mother and hate what she’s done”

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i can love people and hate what they’ve done

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so can everyone else

cunning olive May 6, 2025, 1:04 AM

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cunning olive and anyways i have a solid reason to not ||die|| for now

begins cackling as not only have i fallen out of love with him i’m hating life again 😼

cunning olive May 10, 2025, 3:37 AM

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i need him to want me

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he’s the sweetest guy i’ve ever met

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oh and he’s also freaking STRAIGHT

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😔

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tspmo

cunning olive May 11, 2025, 10:19 PM

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i love him so much

cunning olive May 17, 2025, 3:14 AM

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he doesn’t like me back

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should’ve expected that ngl

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maybe it’s the way he looks at me

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!rank

signal bronzeBOT May 17, 2025, 3:15 AM

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cunning olive May 17, 2025, 3:15 AM

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nice

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mmmmmaaaaarrrrryyyyy mmmmmeeeee

cunning olive May 19, 2025, 2:23 AM

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THE SUNKEL WEEK PROMPTS HAVE BEEN ANNOUNCED

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💕

cunning olive May 21, 2025, 2:24 AM

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finally cut cole out.

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kindly too

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and he’s being rude about it and it’s making me so sad

cunning olive May 22, 2025, 4:24 AM

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i loveee knowing that he’s shittalking the FUCK out of me

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to all his “friends”

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at least i have a higher fucking chance of getting the loml than he does

cunning olive May 25, 2025, 2:15 AM

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i love cavetown :3

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one like and i’ll drop my favourite artists

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trust..

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and songs

cunning olive May 28, 2025, 12:47 AM

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cunning olive one like and i’ll drop my favourite artists

BETTTT

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mitski
sarah kinsley
cavetown
conan gray
alex g
mitski
madilyn mei
jack stauber
hozier
florence + the machine
mitski
mitski
mitski
tv girl

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and mitski

cunning olive May 28, 2025, 12:52 AM

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cunning olive and songs

carry me out - mitski
sweater weather - the neighborhood
505 - arctic monkeys
mary jane - robyn.210
the entirety of who really cares - tv girl
the water’s fine! - liana flores
watermelon - john + jane q. public
what’s going on?! - madilyn mei
saint bernard - lincoln
sublime - sarah kinsley
predator - the crane wives
it’s oh so quiet - björk

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and more but this is just a handful

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i love basically all of mitski’s songs btw

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like retired from sad new job in business is okay but i like some of it (i want you, goodbye my danish sweetheart, class of 2013…)

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aster’s journal

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holy shit 31 axolotl

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i’m percieved..

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😨

cunning olive Jun 5, 2025, 4:31 AM

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i could just

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ugh

cunning olive Jun 5, 2025, 4:31 AM

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cunning olive carry me out - mitski sweater weather - the neighborhood 505 - arctic monkeys ma...

every fucking conan gray song

cunning olive Jun 5, 2025, 4:32 AM

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cunning olive mitski sarah kinsley cavetown conan gray alex g mitski madilyn mei jack stauber...

conan gray
conan gray
conan gray
conan gray
conan gray

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and more conan gray

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i was so different a year agi

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ago

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had my first kiss
was pretty
thought i was a girl

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i really hate my mom

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kel
sunny
basil
aubrey
omori
mari
h e r o .

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still mad that my mom’s not letting me go to the wishbone pajama tour

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i was gonna pay her back but no i would’ve gotten “too overwhelmed” uh what

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no?

cunning olive Jun 15, 2025, 1:35 AM

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hi

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almost done w school

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today i learned that i can actually sing the ballad of jane doe

cunning olive Jun 28, 2025, 7:19 PM

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BOO hello

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i love my bsf

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i am so locked in

cunning olive Jul 1, 2025, 6:42 PM

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AND WELCOME BACK

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TO ||I WANNA DIE||

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YEAHHHHHHH

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anyways

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:3

cunning olive Jul 2, 2025, 8:34 PM

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hhhhh

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anyway

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s

cunning olive Aug 1, 2025, 9:16 PM

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IM ALIVE

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hi

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RAINBOW!!!

cunning olive Aug 21, 2025, 7:34 PM

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cough

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hi

cunning olive Aug 24, 2025, 1:08 AM

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conan gray

cunning olive Sep 10, 2025, 2:25 AM

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hey

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schools going well

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im doing

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fine

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for the most part at least

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therapy every week now

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Joy

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i dont really like using discord but i dont wanna make any yall think im in dangee

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r

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bye bye yall ill come back…hopefully within a month!!

bold kernel Oct 5, 2025, 7:21 PM

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Yeah I don't use Discord much too

cunning olive Nov 6, 2025, 10:25 PM

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cunning olive bye bye yall ill come back…hopefully within a month!!

two months later

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so let’s see

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uh

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yeah i’m leaving huddle lmao yall stay safe

pulsar bolt Dec 9, 2025, 9:56 PM

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1010 ending

bright heron Dec 18, 2025, 12:18 AM

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hi gUESS WHOS BACK. ITS ME.

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yes i am august

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aster

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blaaah blah blah

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uh. coughs

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genuinely wasnt gonna come back but. heh

bright heron Dec 18, 2025, 12:20 AM

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cunning olive kel sunny basil aubrey omori mari h e r o .

kel, basil, sunny, aubrey/hero, mari

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uhhh

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was this a mistake

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maybe

#aster’s journal