#Aelore's Galaxy

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cold cradle
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The things I do to resist myself from reading a story that will probably destroy my mental health sighhhh

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😭😭😭like why can't the author leave the couple happy and healthy and finish the fucking story???

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CHERRY BLOSSOMS AFTER WINTER IM LOOKING AT YOU

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Dhusjsjakwlalalskcjekoeeoriirir

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What do you wanttttttttt if you want to pay the bills go make another story 😭

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Stop torturing my babiessss

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Also Didn't go to exercise today 😭

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UGHH i hate myself, I'll wake up early tomorrow to make it up for it

cold cradle
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I should stop reading high school romances because what do you mean i never got to experience that???? 😭😭😭

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I ALSO WANT HUGS AND KISSES AND WANT A CLINGY BF AND BE ABLE TO GO THE GARDEN FOR SECRET DATES HUHUHIJIIJJUHUHUUHH

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😭😭😭😭oh well gotta study now bye journal

cold cradle
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Yayayayayayayyaya I did a good amount of exercise today i feel amazing

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It really boosted my happiness levels hwhhe

cold cradle
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God i hate today my mom pressures me so much and the fact there's ahigh possibility that I might have to take a drop scares me more because rn i don't think I can crack the exam FUCKKKK I'm so paralyzed by fear and anger and resentment

cold cradle
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When I'm older, I'll be so much stronger

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I won't let other's success demean my own

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I'm trying really really hard, i wish it turns out to be fruitful

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Today will be a busy day, I'll spend most of maybe 2-3 hours completing my notebooks and studying chemistry and kinematics

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UGHH I have an extra class tomorrow NOOO

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Anyways I sent all the work I needed to send so I guess I'm free from that, I'll just need to check my diary for additional stuff, gotta complete English work first 😭 I'll ask the syllabus from her too

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I'll need to clean my Google gallery too, maybe I'll do it in the van tomorrow oh I'll also have to buy chips and something to eat during the class, I'll ask for pineapple and some chips

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I'll also have some pizza today heheh!!

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Oh but I'll go for exercising too

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I'll pester her day after tomorrow to go to the gym with me for some workout

cold cradle
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I feel tired my mom expects so much from me and even my family does but I'm so scared I'll let them down and they won't love me anymore

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I can't get good marks in fucking mocks i feel like absolute shit, i wish I was as dedicated as my peers

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I don't want to go to school tomorrow, I want to stay at home and do my work

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I have to do chemistry notes and reading, maths notes and exercise 1.1 and computer notes in my book for more convience

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Hmmm I'll try to complete this today and do some physics questions later UGHH

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Oh right i also have to send work to 2 friends of mine hmm and i have to organise my table which I'll do rn

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I have lost my love for reading, I can read only the ongoing series but can't get into any new ones sigh but I guess that's good for me

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I don't feel the euphoria which I did which I used to feel before now it just seems empty

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Also I'm having so many vivid dreams lately it's hard to tell them apart from reality

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UGHH I need to exercise, hoping it's a holiday tomorrow so I can go to the gymmm

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Also people existing and living their lives are so cool to see and observe

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I love feeling like a part of a machine

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LOLL that's so weird to say hahaha, but I hope now that my motivation to read has gone I can do more questions than before ok byeeee

cold cradle
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I WENT TO THE GYM TODAY I FEEL SO FUCKING AWESOME RAHHHH

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The moms over there complimented me for being pretty ahsjkfkfkgkfkfk

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Hehe now just gotta keep up the motivation to go every 6 days and do little by little! Also giving up on snacks is easy but not sweets :(( I crave a strawberry ice cream so bad huhuhuuhu

cold cradle
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OOOH GETTING NEW HEADPHONES BUT I FEEL SO BAD BECAUSE I DONT THINK I DESERVE BTW I LOVE MY FAMILY UGHHHHH

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MY SIS IS SOO CUTE AND MY MAUSI LOVES TO TALK TO ME BUT I DONT WANNA LET THEM DOWN

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LETS GET FOOD GRADES THIS YEAR YASSSS

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AIMING FOR 95%+ IN BOARDS LETS FUCKING GO

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I NEED TO ASK FOR A DROP YEAR

ashen helm
cold cradle
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YESSS ANOTHER DAY AT FHE GYM COMPLETE FUCK YEAH

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But my legssssss i can't get up HUHUHIJIIJJUHUHUUHH

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And my shoulder pains toooo

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Thankfully i don't have to go on Monday loll

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But now i understand why people always brag about going to the gym 😭

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Ts not easy vro🫂

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Ajskskksksjs I'll have to avoid my mom's friends cause she annoying as fuckk

cold cradle
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I feel lonely

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When my mother asks me why I'm alive if I'm good for nothing i struggle to give a proper answer. She only loves me in the pretense of I might benefit her in some way and I was foolish enough to take it as a love that will never fade away.

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My brother got amazing marks which is good for him, but I'm jealous because I've never been able to reach what he has and i haven't heard my parents saying they are proud of me since so long. I don't think im worthy of everything i recieve.

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I feel bad wasting my life away in pity, but I don't have an anchor in my life to attach myself to. The ones I had were too effective and took me out of reality too well but now i scramble for another way to feel the same joy i used to, kind of like a drug addict, it just doesn't hit in that way anymore

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Hah... What am I even cribbing about, I'm an Asian student, of fucking course im doomed to being locked in my room studying for an exam that could either make or break my life

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I wish I wasn't the way i am

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But it's the only way I know how to be

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Idk how well I'll do tomorrow

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I have a mock exam

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But i really really don't want to study

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It all seems so pointless

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I think I have surrendered my soul to this life that's why I feel so empty all the time

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But I chose this way because it was less risky and more profitable and look where I'm now hahhahah

ashen helm
cold cradle
cold cradle
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It's tough to give up on a habit

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These days suck

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I have so much on my mind but nowhere to like....uh throw it away to vent it out to

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I wish I could stop thinking

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My mind feels infinitely times better when i stop these useless thoughts of kine

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I'm going to gym tomorrow I'll do upper body

cold cradle
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Idk whenever something says something bad to me I feel something burning up in my body, is it hate or sadness? I don't want to find out so I just starting reading comics and forget why I was crying or feeling like shit. Today in school I did really bad on a maths test and felt so depressed about it so I just sat a bit sadly there but then my friend? Came up to me and she asked what was wrong i didn't tell her anything but she told me her mother would get irritated if she cried and I used to think she had good parents and that's why she could go home with a smile but that illusion broke a little. I wanted to hear more about her family life but I didn't have the courage to ask her

ashen helm
cold cradle
ashen helm
cold cradle
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I have much to do tomorrow

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But I look at my life and ask is it even worth it? When I've spent so many precious moments just capturing them?

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I have school and then tution and then school again tomorrow and then tution the next day

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I don't want to sleep

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But I don't want to see or read stories that remind me of how pathetic I am when faced agint adversary

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I run away from things

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I'm so hopeless

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Why did I choose this stream fuck

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I don't like chemistry at all it's disgusting and shitty

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I wanted to work in cinema behind the cameras and the magiv

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I know I'm just glorifying it but it's so awesome

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I don't want to sit all day and do questions

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Shit i made a mistake and I can't undo it

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I have to do it but i don't want to

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FUCKKKKK

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I should go to the Gym

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It really improved my mood but I just slept???

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I can only go after friday tho

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Cause tomorrow is not possible at all

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And Saturday I can't cause of hometown and Monday the gym is closed

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Hmmm everyday except Monday and Saturday?

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That sounds nice I'll go on Friday

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I just hate myself feeling so demotivated because of my parents I know they mean but when they word things in such a way idk if the problem is that they can't speak properly or i can't understand

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Tbh I'm just ranting because nobody gives me any attention when I talk to them and when I talk to my mom she always dismisses me and my goddamn son of a bitch brother just rots away on YouTube and my father just gives me the pretense of sleep and nobody listens and i feel a bit lonely

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I'm thinking that a gap year is impossible because my mom doesn't want to live away from my father plus family is expecting me plus financial issues and yeah

cold cradle
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I only take pictures of flowers and the sky because they don't judge me when i cry. I realised that i instictively take pictures of what I love or what looks cool. I love my sister so I have pictures of them, but i never take pictures of my mom or my family it's a bit weird because I've never loved something that much to make me love for it or immortalise it

ashen helm
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really admire how u living and i will always support you here 81256nekoheart

cold cradle
cold cradle
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I feel like a ghost in my own home sometimes

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Nobody really cares underneath the surface about how I'm feeling

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Expressing my feelings only gives me lectures all the time

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I'm so tired

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Why did I choose science I'm struggling so much

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UGH

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Well it's not like I'm good at commerce or economics or anything. Bro Fuck the education system for giving us such limited choices

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I HATE physics

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With a passion

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The fuck do you mean assumptions and theorems, rotational motion especially and thermodynamics too

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What's the point of studying such useless shit??? Thermodynamics is so useless wdym calculate the pressure or work done here, don't we have devices for that???

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Dude I'm tired I don't wanna studyyy

ashen helm
cold cradle
cold cradle
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Hello

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I feel so lost

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I feel like I'm giving on my dreams for some fickle love

cold cradle
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Today my mom hit with a chair and threw a metal stand on me just because i banged the door and a little bit of loose concrete came out. I got a little bruise near my shoulder. I

cold cradle
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Real people disgust me

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I'm disgusted by myself

cold cradle
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There is not one human who I can truly love without hurting them or hurting myself

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Only fictional characters inspire me

cold cradle
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Is it ok to be this ungrateful and incompetent? I have everything i could ever want yet i fail miserably

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I love my family so so much because they care so much about me

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But at the same time, when my brother degrades, my father mocks or my mother bruises and hits me I feel like absolute shit