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tropic hatch Aug 14, 2024, 8:15 AM

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idk

tropic hatch Aug 15, 2024, 3:49 AM

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i dyed my hair today and i didn’t tell you and it’s so weird going to my phone and realizing i csnt tell you these things anymore i miss you i know you aren’t good for me but i miss you so much

tropic hatch Aug 15, 2024, 5:42 AM

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i need to ask for help

tropic hatch Aug 16, 2024, 9:00 AM

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it’s hard to picture that our future isn’t there anymore, i get happy and my heart drops because i realize we’re done. it feels like im not supposed to be happy

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am i supposed to be happy

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how am i

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i want to reach out badly to sit there and convince you that we could work we could make it work but i know that i would look stupid. i’d just be the one fixing things yet again, i try to remember what you treated me like and how i felt the whole relationship to stop me from texting you

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it hurts the most to know that you’re probably okay that you’re not feeling the same pain i am

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i need to go to my moms birthday dinner tomorrow what an i gonna say when they ask where you are

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how do i explain that we’re broken up and yet you still follow all my family

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i went to to spot where it all happened yesterday

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i dyed my hair and it made me hair and it’s always something i truly wanted to do

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but then i remember a part of me was only doing it so that i could have a distraction the entire day

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i try to remember that i don’t miss the way you treated me, i just miss your presence

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if we got back together nothing would change

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but it feels like a part of me is gone

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i sit here and wonder if it feels like that for you too

tropic hatch Aug 18, 2024, 8:15 AM

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no cuz why did i found out that you texted my mom happy birthday

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what do i even do with this information

tropic hatch Aug 18, 2024, 8:43 AM

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i hate it bc that gave me a little hope that you might just reach out

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why would you do thst

tropic hatch Aug 19, 2024, 8:20 AM

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something happened today and i wanted to text you so bad and tell you about it.

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do you even miss me at all

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do i cross your mind

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it’s actually been so exhausting, how did it come to this

tropic hatch Aug 21, 2024, 9:09 AM

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i had such a good day today and for some reason i decided to unblock you and saw that you followed your ex

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the worst thing i coulda done

tropic hatch Aug 21, 2024, 10:05 AM

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i think i might ask my family to block you,, its true when they say you see who they truly are after the break up

tropic hatch Aug 22, 2024, 6:19 AM

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my heart hurts so bad that i’m scared to get high

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i’ve been getting high to just help with the pain and i feel like it’s getting bad because im scared to get high because im doing so bad mentally

tropic hatch Aug 25, 2024, 7:54 AM

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i’m doing a little better, it feels like i can’t cry about it anymore

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and i can’t tell if it’s because im healing or because im numbing the pain

tropic hatch Aug 27, 2024, 7:57 AM

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you texted my best friend like he wouldn’t tell me that you did

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i don’t get you

tropic hatch Aug 27, 2024, 7:47 PM

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i would like to stop having dreams about you it’s exhausting

tropic hatch Aug 28, 2024, 1:18 PM

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told my friend about you today and it socks because you turned into this person i don’t recognize anymore :(

tropic hatch Aug 29, 2024, 9:18 AM

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tired of feeling like this

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this has actually been a good outlet for me tho 😼

tropic hatch Sep 1, 2024, 10:16 AM

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i’m getting the urge to check on you again so i’m just gonna try to write here instead

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it’s already been almost a month and it’s insane

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i wonder if you’re over me yet

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your birthday is coming up

tropic hatch Sep 2, 2024, 6:34 AM

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was doing so good till you texted me today

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why is it that every time i start to feel better about things you do some fuck shit like that

tropic hatch Sep 3, 2024, 9:48 AM

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feels like you’re already over me

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kinda hurt a

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but always

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anyways i have work drama

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one of my coworkers is getting way too comfortable making dirty jokes around me

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and it doesn’t really make me uncomfortable it’s kinda just funny

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but im trying to save money for a car now

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i think i wanna try working out to let all this pain and frustration out

tropic hatch Sep 11, 2024, 9:06 AM

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today was your birthday

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it feels weird

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i’m starting to think about you less, and i feel guilty forgetting you

tropic hatch Sep 14, 2024, 10:13 AM

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it still hurrs

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i wanna be over it already

tropic hatch Sep 19, 2024, 7:58 AM

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slowly getting better but still get the urge to check ur profile

tropic hatch Sep 24, 2024, 8:49 AM

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starting to hurt less

tropic hatch Dec 30, 2024, 10:29 AM

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it doesn’t hurt anymore :,)

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i just reread everything and it’s so crazy to see how far i came with this

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i found someone else and it’s so crazy because months ago me wouldn’t even think that i could ever stop hurting or get over you

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and i did

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and it’s the first time ive been proud of myself in a while

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i realize that i have a lot of pain inside me and it makes me come off as an angry person

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but really it’s just me screaming from the inside like i did when i was a child

tropic hatch Jan 9, 2025, 3:45 AM

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im over you but sometimes you still come into my head once in a while

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like when i remember the show we used to watch together and sometimes i wanna just text you and ask if you still watch it but then i remember you hate me and we couldn’t ever be friends

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and thats okay but i still wish you the best

tropic hatch Jan 15, 2025, 10:54 AM

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chat i am cooked

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😭😭😭

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i have a feeling i’m getting played tomorrow

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ive been talking to this guy for like 2 months and i sparked the what are we question and we’re supposed to talk tomorrow

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and i have a feeling it’s not gonna go well

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and all i wanna do is cry and laugh because how did 2025 just start and im already getting my heart broken

tropic hatch Jan 19, 2025, 11:45 AM

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chat i was cooked

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how did the year barely start and i’m already going through another heartbreak

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nah cuz why did he tell me he’s wasn’t ready for relationship after he was talking to me for 2 going on 3 months

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tell me why he literally said

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i’m not in the right headspace loyalty wise

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😁

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i think i’ve heard it all at this point

tropic hatch Jan 23, 2025, 9:50 AM

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feels like i’m going through this all over again lol

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i feel back to square one

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i don’t understand how you could look at me like that and not mean any of it

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in my dreams it’s real

tropic hatch Jan 23, 2025, 10:33 AM

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after everything i’m still tempted to go back and say sorry even tho ive done nothing wrong

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my old habits make me want to say please just tell me what i did wrong and i’ll fix it

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part of me hopes that one day you’ll show up like you used to

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part of me hope you’d show up today saying i’m sorry

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saying let’s fix this

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you were supposed to be the good one

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and when i tell all my friends about you they say that’s why you don’t like your coworker

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and i know and im tired of hearing the same lecture over and over again

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because if you would’ve seen how he looked at me you wouldn’t understand it either

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i don’t know how i’ll get through it this time

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because before you i used to just go to work and distract myself with whatever troubled me

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and now i can’t do that now i dread going to work

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i really didn’t want to go today

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and even tho i only saw you for 5 minutes i saw your face drop when you saw me

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and the funny thing is i’ve done nothing wrong

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nothing at all

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and yet it feels like all my fault

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you told me you couldn’t be loyal to me

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why do i never feel good enough

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none of this makes sense

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you told me to always text you when i got home when i worked

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and it feels weird that i didn’t do that

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what did i do wrong

tropic hatch Jan 23, 2025, 11:00 AM

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i want it to stop hurting

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i want this heart drop feeling to go away

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it feels exactly like last time

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when i would be doing a task and then suddenly i remember that we don’t talk anymore and i feel my heart drop

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i’ve been thinking really hard about moving jobs

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not only because of you but because of how much trauma it has actually caused me

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maybe i need to start over somewhere new

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somewhere where nobody knows me

tropic hatch Jan 25, 2025, 8:16 PM

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i am so fed up everything has gone wrong in the past couple days i can’t take it anymore

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😐

mortal cedar Jan 25, 2025, 9:01 PM

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get yo ahh a joint

tropic hatch Jan 26, 2025, 5:44 AM

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mortal cedar get yo ahh a joint

ACTTUUUALLLLLYYY

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anyways

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rain never used to make me sad

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