I'll probably write summeries of the day and general feeling etc. Just a general reflection point for myself and a window into me for others.
#Komi's Journal
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February 29 2024-Today was average in the sense that nothing eventful happend. It is like it was the boring build-up to tomarrow which is assessments for band. I am nervous but not enough to be tembling. I hope it will go well and that is all I can do.
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Komi's Journal
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I feel energized today, I have meet so many new people and am determined to meet more everstill
I love it
I also need to remember to write in this more
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I was going to do so many things yesterday but I really just factory reset slept, If you know what I mean
If you don't I just mean that I slept and slept so well I forgot that existence existed for a second
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It has been way to long but I have something to talk about now. I was sitting outside on the bench and a bird came and landed on my shoulder, it didn't move or anything, it just sat there. I looked at it and it looked at me, it then flew away and left a feeling of curiosity behind. The bird had really cleared my head and made me see the park in a knew light, it was something extraordinary, for a single moment, I saw the world through eyes that were not burdened by anthing in my life, for a moment, I was truly at peace, all from a single little bird
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Beau's Journal
I keep forgetting to add stuffs in here but I am here now! Recently not much has happened, I started school again so there is that and I am kind of drowning in thw work but that is everyone. I still count my lucky stars for this place everyday and I love it here, I will write stuff more often in here, I just need to remember
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I am not good with this, but hello again, the last few days have been an emotional roller coaster but it reminded me of something. It told me that I need to remember my vow, to help anyone who needs it and make the world better than I found it, because if we don't do it, nobody will
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Komi's Journal
Well, again I forgot about this, but no longer! Things have come and gone in the past days, but the main thing is I still love this server and all of the people in it❤️
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Sleep hit hard today, last night is a blur but I remember somethings, don't know how I feel about them yet
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My faith in humanity gets restored everytime I come on here, today sucked and my bus got delayed because some people wanted to act stupid, but I came on here and had some conversations, and the day ends a good one
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Well, school was.....I can't describe it in one word but it went like this. Last week I did something really dumb honestly. I wrote a letter to a someone, and it wasn't a good letter. I basically told them I was broken and worthless and they should stay away. It was dumb because we didn't even really talk much and I don't have many friends here anyway. Well the letter got to the assistant principle somehow and it caused me to be called down to the counseling office. They asked me if I was okay and said I was fine, they told me that they still had to tell my parents. Now I don't talk with my parents at home much, and I was scared that they were going to react in some negative way, that was obviously not the case but I still was scared for some reason in that moment. I had a breakdown in english class and I straight had to be removed from the classroom, after that, I was called to be picked up, I talked to my dad a little bit and my stepmom talked to me as well, and now I just feel embarrassed more than anything. I don't really know what to do at this point, my dad said we are going to start talking more and I am honestly scared to open up whatever it is that is inside, because it is foreign to me, I've always shoved things down and it isn't working anymore, now that I have to address these things, I don't even know what they are anymore
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Wow, the weather is getting so much better. clear skies fill you with determination
I'm feeling pumped and ready to go
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Today was a pretty good day, but I am sill sore from working out yesterday, this is honestly ridiculous
Other than that though, if you read this, have a nice day!
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You know, there are rare times where I find myself wondering why I do the things I do, why I decided to become a Plushie on here and do my very best to help those in need. But then I get messages, little snippets of people saying how they saw what I do around here and say thank you for all that I do, it's little things like that making all this worth it, as well as seeing all of you grow and it get better, being kind really is it's own reward and it costs nothing to do
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It's early.....it's friday...let's see it through the day to the weekend shall we
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bleh just bleh
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Feelings are going wack right now, I want to scream and yell out, but at the same time, I fear what would happen if I did
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It's getting warmer and greener and nicer and I'm feeling higher........wait, higher as in better not actually high
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Something changed, I feel it, deep inside, there is something in me that is screaming to be let out, but I don't know what it is, and therefore, I fear it
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We just going to go along with this one, for a moment. Now, I have a little more than a week left of school but I feel as if I am already ready to lie down and sleep forever, and that is just physically, Mentally there are so many things I need to take care of but above all else I need to finish this year with a bang, it's my last year of middle school and the only time left I have before becoming a Freshman, I don't really know how I feel about that yet, but we'll see, anyway, I hope anyone reading this has a nice day, and just remember, you are awesome and you got this! You are awesome and you got this! You are awesome and you got this!
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I don't like this feeling, it's a mixture of fear and pain a whole lot of other things, I ||cut again today, a little bit ago in fact|| I cleaned up and all that but I'm still going through what it left behind, and as long as this continues to spiral out of control, I'm scared of what comes next
I feel like I need to talk about this or do something to get better, but I don't know how to figure out what that something is, at least not alone
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Wow. I was not in a good place the last time I wrote in here. I can say that I'm definitely better now than I was then, but even still, I'm not really sure where I'm going. It's like I'm walking down an infinite path with no end in sight. But at the same time, I feel like this is the path I was made to walk, and it's not about where it leads, it's about what I do as I walk it.
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Febuary 25, 2026
I found a friend I started doing this roleplaying thing with, it's been pretty fun so far. I've also started playing Trench Crusade with another friend group which is kinda like Warhammer 40K. I got a competetion coming up that my team has throughly practiced for, and we'll fight to bring home first. I'm doing really well, and the future seems bright!
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March 3, 2026
Febuary absolutely flew by, and this grade year is getting ready to come to a close. They say time flies when you're having fun, but I think a better saying would be time flies when you stop paying attention. Had to raise some grades and stopped worring about how long, and bam! March.
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March something, idk, 2026
Lowk just feeling it. Idk
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Well, school was.....I can't describe it in one word but it went like this. Last...
Whoa, this is interesting. I mean...nothing came from this so I guess I was fine. #reflection
I mean, I'm fine now. Obviously I wasn't then but I guess I am now?
Someone told me that getting therapy at least once as a teen can help a lot, but I don't really know. Don't think I'd ever actually do that even if I forced myself