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spice glade Jun 6, 2023, 12:26 AM

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i think i’ll be happier when i turn 18 because my parents can’t tell me what i can and cannot do. besides “their house, their rules” i can do whatever i want. i can do so much more at 18. so much more freedom than what i have right now.

spice glade Jun 6, 2023, 11:24 AM

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Prompt of today:
💌 Imagine you were able to snap your fingers and change one thing about the world, what would you change?

i wish people were nicer to each other

spice glade Jun 6, 2023, 2:19 PM

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the guy i was talking to (the one who led me on and ignored me) unfollowed me lol

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his loss but i wish we never met

spice glade Jun 7, 2023, 12:02 PM

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i can’t help but think that i’m not normal, normal people have friends

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i don’t have friends, i’m just left out at school

spice glade Jun 7, 2023, 10:08 PM

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my mom’s mental health issues are making mine worse bc she doesn’t want help

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i have a love/hate relationship with her

spice glade Jun 7, 2023, 10:56 PM

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Prompt of today:
💌 Is there one cover song you’ve heard that you wish people knew more?

Katey x Krista - Be Kind
(Original Artist: Halsey)

spice glade Jun 8, 2023, 4:18 AM

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can’t sleep lol

spice glade Jun 9, 2023, 12:03 AM

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sometimes i feel like i don’t have the energy or motivation to text people back. it’s making me lose friends because they don’t understand.

spice glade Jun 9, 2023, 3:07 PM

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i take the pacer test today and i’m honestly kinda freaking out about it. i have to get at least a 45 to get a 100% but it’s hard for me. i have asthma and an inhaler can only do so much. i looked it up to better prepare myself. i shouldn’t be focusing on anyone else other than myself. it’s not a race. as long as i get to the other side before it beeps, i can keep going. if i go too fast in the beginning, i’ll be out of breath quickly. it’s calming me down but i just don’t want to be the first person out.

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it’s kinda embarrassing ig. like one time team captains were picking teams, and i was the very last person to get picked. i remember i was really upset. i started crying. no one really knows who i am. i’ve been bullied so i just tend to stay away from people. i don’t want it to happen again. i mean, boys tease me, but i just always wear headphones to listen to music so i can drown everyone out.

spice glade Jun 10, 2023, 7:48 PM

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my parents are yelling at me to come out of my room, but that’s exactly why i stay in my room

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i have to study for finals and the only quiet place i can study is my room. but my parents don’t understand that.

spice glade Jun 10, 2023, 7:54 PM

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spice glade i take the pacer test today and i’m honestly kinda freaking out about it. i have...

update: i did the pacer test and i did better than i expected. i wasn’t the first person out. i was somewhere in the middle. i got a 31 on the pacer test. i’m proud of myself but to get a 100%, i needed a 45. i got a 62%. i don’t like F’s, but the pacer test is just unnecessary torture. i was practically dying at 31.

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i just want school to be over man

spice glade Jun 11, 2023, 4:12 PM

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currently at work and there’s too many employees working so i don’t really have much to do. like i’m getting paid $15 an hour just to stand around and do nothing. my supervisor might put me at a ride after my break but i don’t know.

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i’ve walked 8,553 steps so far today and i’ve only been here for three hours. i’m so tired and hot rn.

spice glade Jun 11, 2023, 4:35 PM

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bro i drank so much liquids i’m not even hungry

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currently waiting to clock back in and hopefully work one of the rides

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my hair is such a mess

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time to go back to work 🙃

spice glade Jun 11, 2023, 8:43 PM

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okay so work was okay, just very very tiring. i completed all of my fitness goals. (move: 581/500 cal, exercise: 118/60 min, stand: 9/8) and i also got 17,775 steps or 7.57 miles. it was quite a workout. on my break i was so full from drinking water, i wasn’t even hungry. and i’m not hungry rn. which is a good thing i guess. my mom has been noticing that i’ve been losing weight. personally, i do not see any physical change. however, the scale says otherwise. i’m not “fat”, but i’m also not “skinny” either. i’m pretty average. i just have a bigger chest. kinda insecure about it, but i’m glad people have noticed i’m losing weight.

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i think i’ve been losing weight bc i got sick recently and i completely lost my appetite around that time. i never really got it back. it could be a mix of my meds. i recently got off a medication and its common side effect is weight gain. and the medications i’m currently on is supposed to cause weight loss.

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i have no idea i am not a doctor

spice glade Jun 11, 2023, 10:33 PM

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Prompt of today:

💌 What was one memorable thing that happened this week?

this was last sunday, but i don’t have anything else. i was training to be a ride attendant at a rollercoaster. for every position, we have to train and take a test. it was a harder test than usual, but i passed. most of the rides i’m currently trained at only require one team member. so it’s nice working with other people.

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i was so proud of myself, i actually smiled and i don’t really like smiling tbh.

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#braces

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🤓

spice glade Jun 12, 2023, 2:58 PM

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it’s not done but i’m kinda happy w it

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they’re my cats

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i love them sm

spice glade Jun 12, 2023, 11:07 PM

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i just bought shoes off amazon and i don’t wanna b disappointed if they don’t fit

spice glade Jun 13, 2023, 10:35 AM

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i just bought two pairs of shoes, i think i’m impulsive spending and i wish i could stop bc i need money for a car

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cars are so expensive it’s like 5k-10k for a used starter car

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my parents don’t really buy me clothes or shoes, they want me to pay for it myself

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then they yell at me for spending money like what

spice glade Jun 13, 2023, 11:05 PM

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i just took a three hour nap and i genuinely thought it was the next day

spice glade Jun 14, 2023, 10:21 AM

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apparently my shoes are coming tomorrow and they haven’t even been shipped yet

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it’s been like 2 days

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i feel like everyone hates me and i don’t know why

spice glade Jun 15, 2023, 4:02 AM

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it’s currently midnight and i’m up painting bc i have to finish this before i go to school. and i have to study for my final which is first period.

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i feel so exhausted, i always take naps after school now. sometimes they last up to 4 hours. when i wake up, i get confused on what day it is. i thought it was the next day, but no it’s late at night.

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i’m not sure if i should go to bed now and wake up super early to finish or just stay up all night

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i decided to stay up until i get tired

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i also unfollowed a lot of people who unfollowed me. like if you going to unfollow me, remove me as a follower. you are not a celebrity, and i am not your fan.

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i hate people who do that

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i don’t even know why they unfollowed me

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their loss ig

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where is my @ 🖍️ new journal role 😭

spice glade Jun 15, 2023, 12:25 PM

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I GOT A 100% ON MY ART EXAMMM

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THERE WERE 64 QUESTIONS AND I GOT EVERY SINGLE ONE RIGHT

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AAAAAAAA

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a lot of people got close to 100%, so i’m not sure if i’m one of few people who got a 100%

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my grade in powerschool rn is a 100% for mp4 and a 99% for the semester

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sorry for caps i’m just so happy

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i currently have straight A’s for this semester yay

spice glade Jun 15, 2023, 3:33 PM

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my grade is at a 96% now instead of a 100% bc my teacher put a 92% for my painting

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it wasn’t so bad ig

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i don’t know how to paint bro

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no bc like why do grades go up a bit when you get a 100% but anything less your grade goes down drastically 😭😭

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i got a 100% on the final which bumped my grade from a 99% to 100% but a 92% brought my grade all the way down to a 96%

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i almost went home on the bus today but i forgot my mom was going to pick me up 😭😭

spice glade Jun 15, 2023, 4:41 PM

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i forgot today was thursday

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one pair of shoes is already delivered and another pair is on the way

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i hate impulsive spending

spice glade Jun 15, 2023, 9:47 PM

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i got new shoes today and they both fit i’m honestly really happy

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i don’t really like buying clothes and shoes online bc i don’t know if they’ll fit. and online returns are too complicated. but i would never find these shoes in an actual physical store.

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one pair was true to size and the other pair ran small and i’m smart bc i read the reviews

spice glade Jun 16, 2023, 9:44 AM

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ngl i’m kinda freaking out about next week. forget about my exams today, next week i take my drivers test (again). i failed the first time bc i “parked too far from the curb”. i kinda had a meltdown on the way home. bc i am a good driver. there are people on the road that should have never gotten a drivers license. i just want my license so i don’t have to be supervised anymore. and if i get my license, i can drive myself to school. AND i can drive myself to work. i don’t have to rely on someone else to drive me.

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the dmv people are so rude and they enjoy failing student drivers

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😭😭

spice glade Jun 16, 2023, 12:44 PM

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i took the math final and i think i did okay. i wouldn’t be shocked if i got an A or B. but anything lower would shock me. we were allowed to use a notecard so that helped a lot.

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my math grade is a 93% rn and if i want an 80% as a final grade, i would have to score a -37% on the exam so that’s a bit comforting. i do not like C’s.

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to get an 89% as a final grade, i would have to score a 53% on the final

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and 90% —> 63%

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i’m sure i did better than a 63%

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yay straight A’s for me :)

spice glade Jun 16, 2023, 1:06 PM

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my teacher just said the final grade is in 😭

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i’m so scared

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96%

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yay

spice glade Jun 16, 2023, 1:42 PM

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Prompt of today:

💌 Who is one person you really admire?

whoever is reading this :)

spice glade Jun 16, 2023, 3:45 PM

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passed all of my finals with A’s

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art final: 92% and 100%
english final/project: 100%
math final: 96%
pe/health exam: 100%

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i couldn’t even tell you how happy i am

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spice glade Jun 17, 2023, 3:00 PM

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i just brushed my teeth, used mouthwash, washed my face, did skincare, and used deodorant. these are normal things that i struggle to do every day. i wish i could just be normal. but i’m going manic rn. now i’m going to clean my room :)

spice glade Jun 17, 2023, 4:27 PM

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it’s annoying how people from school follow me on social media and i follow them back but i literally have no friends in school. i don’t even know why they follow me. i guess they need followers or something.

spice glade Jun 18, 2023, 1:47 PM

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i brushed my teeth this morning 3367catjump

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Prompt of today:

💌 What was one memorable thing that happened this week?

i passed alllll of my exams with straight A’s

spice glade Jun 18, 2023, 4:49 PM

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@spice glade how did you get in here 😭

spice glade Jun 18, 2023, 8:38 PM

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i just found out today that i have a new cousin :)

spice glade Jun 19, 2023, 1:59 AM

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drivers test tmrw kindaa scaredd

spice glade Jun 19, 2023, 2:52 AM

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thanks Mila

spice glade Jun 19, 2023, 1:46 PM

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drivers test in 2 hours i’m so fucking scared

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i can barely parallel parking without being too far from the curb or hitting the curb

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i can do everything else okay

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parallel parking between cones is so stupid

spice glade Jun 19, 2023, 2:03 PM

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manic to depressive ep

spice glade Jun 19, 2023, 4:02 PM

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I PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST

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i was bawling out my eyes this morning

spice glade Jun 19, 2023, 6:42 PM

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@spice glade who invited you

spice glade Jun 20, 2023, 12:58 PM

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sometimes i just feel like i hate everyone, and i think this is one of those times

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i don’t wanna watch this stupid slideshow

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idgaf about anyone in this room

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they all make me feel alone

spice glade Jun 20, 2023, 3:32 PM

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yearbook signing and not a damn signature in my yearbook

spice glade Jun 21, 2023, 1:45 PM

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last day of school yayyy

spice glade Jun 21, 2023, 1:46 PM

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spice glade manic to depressive ep

depressive to manic ep

spice glade Jun 21, 2023, 3:45 PM

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just got out of school no more school until September!’

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