Chapter 2 :
|| > I was living in a fake world, like the computer-generated ad for Advance Hill, merely acting the part of a mum friend. That would have been fine if I actually enjoyed it. But now, I was just trying to get through this unwanted role until the performance was over.
I feel so bad for sawa . Those ladies are NOT friendly at all and trying to downplay her just cuz she was popular back then .
I am able to relate to her character in a way that I don't know how to respond when someone compliments me . Most of the time , it feels like mocking ( it is , maybe 50% ) .
And responding through text can be worse thing you can do ngl . I feel like it can't deliver your tone and emotions well ( in contrast to talking in person )
Sawa was right when she said that woman could have talked to her in private instead of talking bad about her and her child in group . Mizuho is still a child , so it was okay to talk to her guardian but the way and environment was not suitable . She's a child after all , she will learn .
Also I can see how women have to choose between having a career and a family everytime , I think it's unfair cuz she was in the height of her career . But then reading about her thoughts afterwards , I'm glad she is happy with her choice. I guess in the end , she will work both part time and take care of mizuho ?
I wanted to be someone who could communicate well again.
But it wasn’t just about talking more.It was about being able to say what needed to be said.
‘I felt supported when you were the first to speak up.’
Akemi-san's character was nice to read , we can see that she is someone who cares less about what people think of her and just try to give her 100 % .
Sawa finds her behaviour comforting and encouraging.
I could be myself now, without pretence, and in a way that suited me. I wouldn’t let myself be swept up by the others any more. I would do what needed to be done and what I wanted to do, carefully, at my own pace.||