Chapter One: Departure
||I've learned to justify it to myself, this severance. It'll overwhelm her, confuse her, and anyway, I've been gone so long from the country of my blood that there's really no point, no connection left.||
||In truth, I lean away from the faraway side of my daughter's lineage on her behalf because for more than forty years I've seen what carrying that weight means.||
||Great lines I just wanted to highlight. I imagine there's a little guilt in there, too. Giving up your lineage with your daughter, turning your back to it a little, so that your child might benefit from a Western lifestyle.||
||It was just what happened to certain places, to certain people: they became balls of pale white light. What mattered was, it wasn't us.||
||This made me think. It reminds me of a piece I'd read and genuinely don't remember where or when or from who, but basically discussing how morality plays with the constant stream of global news we now get with the invention of the internet and widespread media.||
||It debated whether we, as humans, were ever truly meant to experience such a constant flow of negative experiences from around the world, and how we're meant to process it. Murder, war, natural catastrophe. It's not something we have experienced globally for most of our existence as humans, and when faced with back-to-back news of horrors, is it morally wrong to succumb to a numb sort of feeling? And what is one supposed to do to avoid feeling helpless?||
||It is a hallmark of failing societies, I've learned, this requirement that one always be in possession of a valid reason to exist.||
||Rules, conventions, morals, reality itself: all exist so long as their existence is convenient to the preservation of power. Otherwise, they, like all else, are expendable.||
||I like these lines because they emphasize an idea I like seeing in similar media. People live in an area and then wars get built around them, and now those people have to explain themselves even when it is the government that has changed, not the people. Not their homes, their families, their history. But the people are meant to adapt to these new rules, new regulations and expectations. This has been happening for as long as we've had wars.||
||In the unfree world, the free world isn't a place or a policy or a way of living; it's a negation.||
||Even on a smaller scale this is true! It's not uncommon, at least from what I've seen, to have lower/middle class folks in my areas half-joke that they'll move to some other country for better healthcare, better dental. That by having these benefits, the entire nation is in itself better than America even without taking into consideration anything else about the other country because really that doesn't matter so much as the current absence of the basic needs being met.||
||But for now we argue, in this part of the world, the part not reduced to rubble, about how words make us feel.||
||I feel like this line alone summarizes the current state of political and social commentary—how it's more important that what you say won't get you "cancelled" rather than what you say actually mattering. Nitpick the little words, spend hours crafting the perfect handful of words for your social post, your news article. How some people care more about raging at others for not saying the right words rather than actually caring about the community that needs defending.||
||So far really great!! I do get a little lost in the memoiry areas, because sometimes I am not so sure it adds much to the political commentary, but they are interesting to read nevertheless.||