Is the backstory dramatic and riveting?
#Sein's Tavern
tardy steeple
elfin gulch
So ok, I quit med and actually planned to study something here in the big city, so I just move out and now trying to live independently here
Not that much of a backstory, but the point is I need to at least be able to take care of myself
I'll have to quit any job I have before February anyway
To decide my life
So yeah back to my masterplan, find a stable job I can at least do with my set of skills, practice drawing more and do commissions alongside my current job
Or don't even need to do commissions if my stable job does well
People keep suggesting me to do something related to English since that's the only thing I'm good at apparently
rapid sluice
hey sea, got any samples of your art?
rapid sluice
if you do, i'd suggest opening up an instagram for your art ASAP
instagram, pixiv, twitter, all that
elfin gulch
This is one, I'm not at the level of opening any of those
And I lost determination entering med
rapid sluice
This is one, I'm not at the level of opening any of those
you need to start doing marketing ASAP if you wanna do stuff like commissions
elfin gulch
Again, I'm not at the level, nor do I have enough resources to make them
(hence why I wanted a drawing pad)
rapid sluice
and besides, this pattern just means that no matter how good you get, you'll never open an account because you think you're not good enough lmao
elfin gulch
Apart from it being true cause artists always doubt their art, I need to learn the basics first and need to have an ok consistency of good art
If I spend like half a month trying, I just too aimless to try now
elfin gulch
Yeah I just saw artists with bad art doing commissions and I don't wanna be them
Still, that's my second concern
Cause I can still draw doing whatever, problem is how much can I draw
So I guess that's most things figured except for my romantic life
elfin gulch
Does it involve talking with people
tardy steeple
Tons!
elfin gulch
I I'm ah shy
tardy steeple
Sameers
But you get over it eventually
Put on makeup and it's like armor
It helps you be brave
elfin gulch
Well it is a nice choice I think
tardy steeple
elfin gulch
Put on makeup and it's like armor
Can I have an eye patch
keen jungle
Buh. I feel like shit. I've been a bit of an ass to my pops lately, he's been overly indulged in a project of his, building a miniature motorcycle for himself. Which is admittedly cool. I try to give interest and talk to him about it all, and it's almost like talking to a wall. Yeah, a few things get through.. iunno. He's strange.
That said, he's just.. odd. 60 with the mentality of a 12 year old. It's hard to conversate with him. I get shitty and snappy too often, and now just recently I'm finding out he's building it to gift to me because he's like.. gone into remission or something.
And I just.. iunno. I'm really hating on myself, but I also wish he would just like.. talk to me, be upfront
anywho
I've got not so great history with him to begin with. I feel a mess right now
raw lodge
That's tough
at lest he doesnt seem like a bad guy, and it sounds like he genuinely cares about you - in his own way
elfin gulch
Fuck this job
So basically when you work in the retail, you'll have to pay for your own uniforms, study to do their job (which is just you doing what they told you to) and they will fucking charge for it
If you quit after 6 months or less they will require you the teaching fee (which in the time you were learning stuff, you got paid fucking 2 hours worth of money a day even though you worked for 8) and now they charge me ⅓ of my monthly salary
And while I was learning they told me the fee was way less, ⅓ of that (or somehow I got mixed up 3 and 9 which don't really sound alike)
I wanna commit theft to them real bad rn
peak bobcat
my condolences, that really sucks
wtf you mean teaching fee lmao
what a scam
it's a min pay job it isn't rocket science
elfin gulch
Idk training? They just show me how to do stuff for 5 mins and made me do stuff
elfin gulch
it's a min pay job it isn't rocket science
So that's how you chop a fish, ok now that would be 300
peak bobcat
yeah I'm saying it's bs
training should be their responsibility anyways
if there's anything to train
elfin gulch
(there isn't)
elfin gulch
Yeah I'm doing it with my 10 friends
peak bobcat
how is training employee not part of their responsibility that's fucked up
elfin gulch
Luckily they will never work there cause it pays way less than average convenient stores
And you work more
peak bobcat
should've taken that convenience store gig then
elfin gulch
(I was a masochist)
peak bobcat
well hope you get a better job
elfin gulch
But yeah venting ends I'll have to deal with this now thanks that one Macht fan
peak bobcat
always ready to help
elfin gulch
Hope you recover from that
rapid sluice
Sounds like a scam
elfin gulch
Because it is
raw lodge
WTF
That shit is illegal most other places
Dont Vietnam have labor laws or smth, @elfin gulch ?
elfin gulch
We do, but I don't know laws
raw lodge
Law is boring too imo
elfin gulch
Plus even if it is suing them is too much of a trouble
elfin gulch
Also it's probably in one of the papers I signed (even though I have read them again and it's pretty cryptic in its own)
elfin gulch
Yeah, best I can do is tell everyone to avoid it
rapid sluice
Wait, you guys don't read the fine print?
raw lodge
Hey! Sea Doesnt, i do!
You would have thought that Sea had learned from his past mistakes, lol
elfin gulch
Wait, you guys don't read the fine print?
Again, not like I didn't, they was being cryptic about it
Like they say "you'll have to pay if this happens"
That varies from people to people
rapid sluice
have you got a copy of the contract?
elfin gulch
No it's digital contract
I only have a screenshot of it
rapid sluice
Like they say "you'll have to pay if this happens"
That varies from people to pe...
what clauses did they state in that?
elfin gulch
"you will be given x money for learning fee, if you don't quit before 6 months that money is yours"
rapid sluice
ah
raw lodge
Next time you sign something, you better get someone to give it a look
elfin gulch
Yeah that should be something I learn
The least thing I did was just taking screenshots
peak bobcat
"you will be given x money for learning fee, if you don't quit before 6 months t...
Now u learn it’s immediate red flag
Honestly any “training period” where you are not paid full salary should be illegal
rapid sluice
^^
And any job where you pay for training is gtfo territory
Especially min wage or low skill jobs
elfin gulch
Noted, thanks (I probably should have known it before)
tardy steeple
Teaching fees are meant to prevent workers from leaving
Because they experienced unspeakably high turnover
Likely due to shit conditions
elfin gulch
So a sign for me to turn back, thanks
elfin gulch
Ok this is urgent but
Any tips to uhh talk more with an acquaintance? I'm trying to help my crush to talk with her crush
elfin gulch
Huh nice (which is what I told her anyway)
rapid sluice
Ok this is urgent but
Any tips to uhh talk more with an acquaintance? I'm trying...
Man's literally trying to NTR himself
elfin gulch
Technically I'm not in a relationship anyway
So I'm just doing the friend part, helping
I probably will get cucked if I ever marry but good news is it's not likely to happen cause I'm self centered
This shit got a plot twist
rapid sluice
A murder?
rapid sluice
Transition?
sweet sundial
Her crush is your landlord?
sweet sundial
Sentai appeared?
rapid sluice
Amogus?
rapid sluice
She's actually using a fake crush to get you jealous in order to get with you?
sweet sundial
Now it's your crush, not her
rapid sluice
Her crush likes you?
sweet sundial
That's love triangle
"My crush's current crush ended up being my step-brother and is in love with me?!"
rapid sluice
"Eh?! My crush, the only classmate that's nice to me, suddenly became my step-sister!"
elfin gulch
Wow it's a whole other plot twist in here
sweet sundial
Now tell us the twist
elfin gulch
But yeah it's some personal stuff that I hope she can get over it (with Bennett Foddy)
peak bobcat
You guys should start career as writers
sweet sundial
I never take direct path to success Hikky
My web novels would be the hottest ones around
rapid sluice
You guys should start career as writers
Start uploading on syosetsu?
peak bobcat
That’s not my decision to make
elfin gulch
Where's that
raw lodge
Man's literally trying to NTR himself
elfin gulch
Oh yeah the possibilities of that happening is low now (according to the plot twist)
gritty lichen
Ok this is urgent but
Any tips to uhh talk more with an acquaintance? I'm trying...
Here is your tip: don't
elfin gulch
Aight thanks (I already did but hopefully that doesn't affect anything)
sweet sundial
I like how united we were here
rapid sluice
Oh yeah the possibilities of that happening is low now (according to the plot tw...
damn bro she's getting adopted in her crush's family?
raw lodge
no, she's sleeping with her brother
elfin gulch
What did I miss and have no intent of reading
rapid sluice
I like how united we were here
cuz its a bad idea lmao
keen jungle
Well fuck
I am a piece of shit.
My mom and I had an argument, and I walked off when I should of been helping her
And she fell off a ladder and probably shattered her ankle
I am a mess lol
elfin gulch
So do right now
Go help her
Only your by your actions that you don't feel like something that made hozy refused to use the toilet
My belief is instead of bringing up mistakes, I make worse ones so I can forget about that one
keen jungle
Oh no worries, I'm helping her get about and doing things for her. She's just.. odd
Diagnosed bipolar
And very mean very quick
elfin gulch
Parents are odd yeah, but also that's just 2 different generations, as long as it's not extreme you just need to be there and better her day
gritty lichen
Oh no worries, I'm helping her get about and doing things for her. She's just.. ...
Tbh it's a big task to help bipolar people and when they are manic they can be terrifying and degrading to you so it's a terrible situation to deal with
So don't blame yourself too much, you're trying your best but it's a lot of burden on your shoulders and sometime we are just human and we snapped
And imo walking off to disengage from a heating conversation is actually a healthy thing to do, it's just bad luck your mom felt off
keen jungle
So don't blame yourself too much, you're trying your best but it's a lot of burd...
Jokes aside.. I really appreciate this
I try to be a strong person, but I've been crying a lot. This means quite a bit to me
Thank you
rapid sluice
I try to be a strong person, but I've been crying a lot. This means quite a bit ...
It's ok to be vulnerable sometimes
Its a high stress situation
keen jungle
I dislike being vulnerable.
One of the main reasons I can't maintain a healthy partnership lol
raw lodge
Relateable, i dislike it too
rapid sluice
Made myself vomit for the first time in a long while
Doesn't feel good, but brain says otherwise
C'est la vie
peak bobcat
Anorexia
Is a debilitating mental and physical disorder that may severely affect one’s health
sweet sundial
Yeah, I know what it is
My cousin suffered from anorexia for few years
Now she's a dietician
raw lodge
Wow, what a character arc she's had!
tardy steeple
I hope you're taking steps to help. I know recovery isn't easy but it's important to not give in and continue recognizing it as unhealthy and bad behavior. @rapid sluice
Also it's probably bulimia not anorexia. Anorexia is when you don't eat food and are in the gym 24/7. Bulimia is when you throw food up, usually after binging or eating something unhealthy.
I know tons of people who have dealt with eating disorders, myself included.
If you ever need someone to help talk you out of bad choices drop me a DM. Can't promise I'll be around 24/7 but I hope you keep trying to be healthy. That means eating regular meals and keeping them down so your body can get the nutrients it needs and build your metabolism. Otherwise you'll end up really struggling in the future.
It's bad for your teeth and throat too.
And voice
sweet sundial
Iris seems like someone with a nice voice, we don't want to lose that
raw lodge
Have we ever heard Iris' voice?
sweet sundial
Nope
rapid sluice
I hope you're taking steps to help. I know recovery isn't easy but it's importan...
I am recovering, it's that sometimes, whenever I look into the mirror, I just start spiralling
tardy steeple
I know. Recovery is never a straight line
It's good to know you're recovering.
Remember to view the big picture and not the small moments.
rapid sluice
It's a cruel combination, inherent low self esteem resulting in myself having a need to be better than others in everything else; spilling into bulimia; and my wanting to transition
tardy steeple
Yeah, I understand at least some of it. There's a lot of pressure involved
rapid sluice
Did you know that the worst part of purging isn't the vomiting itself?
It's how the acid burns your throat, and the uncontrollable shivering that follows
The acid causes your eyes to tear up, so you're struggling around with your vision impaired, remnants of everything still dripping from your mouth
The occasional doubt if a second round is coming, so you can't move yourself
It's horrible
elfin gulch
It's hard to say something motivating but I know you're better than me Iris
And uhh that's enough reason to be more hopeful
raw lodge
It's hard to say something motivating but I know you're better than me Iris
Fr, at least it could have been worse 
elfin gulch
Nothing is worse than anything people have their own problems
But it's harder if you're me, not like in my situation, but simply me
elfin gulch
*she
raw lodge
Fixed
But dont be too harsh on yourself, Iris. And focus on doing things that You like and enjoy, that will.at least keep your mind busy and away from harmful thoughts
And if you dont have anything like that, then try and find em
elfin gulch
Isn't that like coping with the fact that you can't do anything
raw lodge
No, its not
Ofc she shouldnt run from her problems and Iris should confront them head on, cuz only then will she truly start heal amd progress
Thats what i did when i was in the dumps, and it helped immensely
rapid sluice
Thanks guys
rapid sluice
It's hard to say something motivating but I know you're better than me Iris
But frfr you shouldn't say this
I'm trying really hard to feel good about myself without putting others down
elfin gulch
It's ok when I do it cause I'm cool
raw lodge
rapid sluice
It's ok when I do it cause I'm cool
No like actually don't
raw lodge
We all like to make fun of him, even himself
rapid sluice
It's not a good idea to put yourself down (unless your ego is so overwhelming)
rapid sluice
Oh of course, but it's kinda hard to find the line sometimes
elfin gulch
Does self-eccentric count as egotistical
elfin gulch
Which comedians even use
Comedian requires you to have good comedy
raw lodge
It was just an example
Like Conan, uses self-deprication a LOT
and he's my fave talk show host
raw lodge
But yeah, i think for it to succeed, it has to NOT be something to deep about you
Like, dont use self deprecation when its something you're insecure about
or something along those lines
elfin gulch
Yeah because then it just feels awkward
Haha I've never touched someone for 15 years let alone woman
raw lodge
no worries! You touch yourself all the time!
peak bobcat
On that note how do people manage their time
Try their best
elfin gulch
Dang
I have like 100 stuff I wanna try now on top of my life problems, I blame the accessibility of the Internet
rapid sluice
On that note how do people manage their time
Depends on how you define manage their time
elfin gulch
As in managing their time to do stuff I spend a day watching Youtube and then malding about waking up at 4am then sleep til 10
rapid sluice
If by manage their time, you mean, finish work on time and nothing else, then just do X amount of work within Y number of days, and inevitably rush to do A amount of work in 1 day
raw lodge
Personally, you need to be very structured and have a plan for how you want your day to progress
elfin gulch
The later yeah
raw lodge
Like, what is most important for you to do this day and choose them like that
But im much more structured than most other people, that i know, so something else entirely might work for you
elfin gulch
Then I should really get a job before I can finish Yakuza 0 (which I haven't even started)
elfin gulch
Yeah
I'm planning to go back to med because I learned society the hard way
But also I will save some money to buy stuff that can help me cope with it in the meantime
Because the new semester isn't here yet
raw lodge
I sea
But idk if that's the best thing to do(going back to med)
I think you will hate life, and tbh, i dont think you have the determination to continue doing it
I for sure wouldn't
elfin gulch
I do now, since when you aren't that determined to leave either
Sure I would prefer doing stuff I can, but I just fucked up really badly that it's hard to just drop it out of the sudden, it happened right to what I feared
I might be dumb, but the worst I can expect most likely will happen to me beside traffic accident
I almost got killed plenty of times
Not like close, but close enough
raw lodge
I, personally, think it'd be better to do something you actually have an interest in and like to
When you do something just because, it often times doesn't end well
elfin gulch
I do too, Ace I do too
raw lodge
But i hope you're the exception
elfin gulch
But I guess the problem with modern time is you're not facing much hardship it's hard for you to find anything meaningful anymore
I do have stuff I want to do, but I never tried to do them as soon as possible, that probably shows that I don't have interest in anything
peak bobcat
That’s not a modern problem that’s an eternal mankind problem
elfin gulch
Well but if you're at war at least your goal is to help your country not war?
I wouldn't have a crisis if I struggle everyday for food
peak bobcat
Well but if you're at war at least your goal is to help your country not war?
That’s not a good thing either
Like, all quiet on the western front exists
peak bobcat
I wouldn't have a crisis if I struggle everyday for food
No your crisis would be getting enough to eat
elfin gulch
I just realized I bitched for 2 months and a half for not having enough food
peak bobcat
Reality has proven that even if you have billions of dollars and power above multitudes of mankind, your crises do not end
elfin gulch
Well yeah, I think it's cool to do med now, I probably didn't try enough, and now that I have another goal at least
Thanks for the help guys
I would prefer to deal my crisises with food
rapid sluice
Amogus syndrome be like:
Do I really want to transition or do I just wanna be a girl because I'm horny
rapid sluice
True, but I'd rather be horny as a woman
The clothes I've looked up and wishlisted are getting sluttier and sluttier
But like
Is my wanting to transition because I want to be fucked as a woman? Is it because of pure horny? Or is it because I just appreciate how women look more than men, and in search of being better looking, wanting to emulate that?
Or is there something deeper? Am I just making all of my issues up as a paper-thin justification for a selfish move?
peak bobcat
True, but I'd rather be horny as a woman
That’s my point. If you want to be horny as a woman then you’re a woman
Tho that’s some interesting points
If you have 1 hours 42 minutes of your life I can suggest this
elfin gulch
The clothes I've looked up and wishlisted are getting sluttier and sluttier
Men can wear slutty too, you wanting to dress slutty as a woman doesn't mean you're a man
My friend is especially into slutty men
rapid sluice
Men can wear slutty too, you wanting to dress slutty as a woman doesn't mean you...
Yes, but that's a contributing attribute to the horny theory
elfin gulch
Well it is has Hikari said, you don't want to be horny as man, but as a woman, and that counts
(sorry I'm not as horny as I show myself to be so I'm clueless about that)
rapid sluice
Well it is has Hikari said, you don't want to be horny as man, but as a woman, a...
But that's such a 'shallow' thing
elfin gulch
But I know you won't going through all that just because you're horny
That's like nitpicking if the choices you made were incorrect
All I'm saying is your horniness doesn't solely mean you are just horny as woman, but because you're a woman that you want to be so
rapid sluice
Amogus syndrome 😔
elfin gulch
That's sus
rapid sluice
😔
rapid sluice
Also it's insane that this is happening right now
Right after I met up with a friend and received drugs "to test the waters"
peak bobcat
U watched the envy vid?
There’s a part about envying of other women that might be relevant
rapid sluice
U watched the envy vid?
Not yet, am outside
elfin gulch
Hi outside when did you come out
rapid sluice
Hi outside when did you come out
Pretty I came out not long ago
rapid sluice
https://youtu.be/aPhrTOg1RUk
i was not expecting to be watching a video about incels and chads
peak bobcat
did you like it?
rapid sluice
did you like it?
Gonna have to rewatch it
rapid sluice
It's weird that reading 4tran is doing wonders for my spirits
peak bobcat
Reading what
rapid sluice
Reading what
4tran
its a subreddit for 4chan screenshots
and its for that good trans shit
peak bobcat
4chan 
rapid sluice
4chan <:FernTheFuck:775826036226129940>
that's the point!
its a hellhole, so anything wholesome is like a glass of water in the deserts of Qatar
raw lodge
Lmao, 4tran
rapid sluice
Lmao I told my sister that I wanna transition and she said "sure"
How is someone 2 years my junior already more supportive than my parents
rapid sluice
Tough luck for me then
Either I bring enough arguments to the table and negotiate, or I wait for them to die
rapid sluice
Once you gain independence you do whatever you want
True
But it's gonna be hard to get housing
Which is where the strategic marriage idea comes in ig
peak bobcat
Omg
elfin gulch
Sure
rapid sluice
Time to open up LibGen
sweet sundial
Which is where the strategic marriage idea comes in ig
Uhhh, I don't know If that's a good idea
peak bobcat
He said it!
rapid sluice
OK but
Left is public housing
I can apply for it if I'm married, or if I'm above 35 years old
peak bobcat
Okay lmao worst case scenario wait til you’re 35
Though I don’t think you wouldn’t be able to afford any kind of housing by then
sweet sundial
Isn't there any flat you could've rent with your pay from work?
Dunno how's the situation in your place
rapid sluice
God the part where she says that trans women envy other trans women makes so much sense to me now
It's literally why I had to stop watching PhilosophyTube
rapid sluice
~~so you’re saying I can recc you pre transition PhilosophyTube~~
Yes
I literally couldn't watch her video when she came out
peak bobcat
I seriously think some of her best videos were from that era, at least in terms of being mindopening
rapid sluice
Envy also sums up a lot about how I feel about other trans women
Even if they started at 27, or 32, because they could start
peak bobcat
God the part where she says that trans women envy other trans women makes so muc...
Yeah and I thought the part about how she was both sexually interested in trans women and also wanted to be like them and that was something she had to overcome by herself was relevant to your current struggle
rapid sluice
That's the thing
I don't know if I want women, or if I want to be a woman
Is it because I want women, that I want to be one?
peak bobcat
Well if you just want women, you can do that as a man
Like, chances may be higher that way based on statistics
rapid sluice
Maybe
rapid sluice
I hate how jealous I am of the trans women I see online that managed to get it so young, I'm talking like 14 years old young
That could've been me, should've been me
Why the fuck isn't it me?
elfin gulch
Might be me being a bit skeptical about the lgbt+ community by how I was brought up, but I believe you should only do the trans surgery at the age when you can vote and work, youngsters make mistakes, and I won't be surprised if misgender being one of them
raw lodge
I also personally think doing it at a very young age, where you are under-developed might give you repercussions
Just my opnion tho
peak bobcat
Yeah no because nobody is performing surgery on children
There are different steps to transition
Which is irrelevant right now anyways Iris is an adult
elfin gulch
Just saying! But also you can use fem hormone or smth at early age I think
tardy steeple
You have to go through several rounds of psychological evaluations and spend a year living as your preferred gender before any doctor will consider you for surgery.
So the idea that young trans children are getting surgery off the cuff is a bit weird
Given that you need to see, at minimum, two psychiatrists for evaluation.
tardy steeple
That could've been me, should've been me
Also, this is a normal feeling to have.
You're dealing with a lot because your country makes it harder to do specific things.
I can't stress this enough, the stuff you're saying is like....a direct copy of many of the things I often see in trans support groups. I helped run one for two years and my partner runs a server which has one now too.
You're not weird or bad for feeling envy. You're not wrong for feeling confused.
Give yourself time. It gets better. Set goals, work towards them slowly and cut yourself a break.
rapid sluice
You're dealing with a lot because your country makes it harder to do specific th...
I've read about so many people in places like Canada
I'm so jealous
tardy steeple
Yeah, it can be tough.
Have you thought of moving if possible?
Could be a long-term goal.
People and countries being transphobic or homophobic sucks mega super ass. I hope one day trans people aren't politicized to such an extent.
Until then though, country girls gotta make due. Be smart, pick your battles, and make a plan.
rapid sluice
People and countries being transphobic or homophobic sucks mega super ass. I hop...
Thinking about Germany
tardy steeple
Sprichst du Deutsche?
Idr if you're the one who has all the fun gun talk but I'd probably tone that down if you're thinking of moving to Germany lol
rapid sluice
Until then though, country girls gotta make due. Be smart, pick your battles, an...
I'm just so tired
tardy steeple
Yeah, it's exhausting living a lie
In a world that would punish you for the truth
That's why we fight for equal rights. Because it's unfair
rapid sluice
That, plus, I know I could just stop everything right now, it's not hard to do
tardy steeple
Yeah but
It's not
You can physically stop but like
Your brain would be like
Very upsetti spaghetti
rapid sluice
Oh no I mean dying
tardy steeple
Once the egg cracks it's hard to tape it back together
Oh
Well
Yeah
But they would be lame
rapid sluice
I can take that L
tardy steeple
Let me hit you with a hypothetical
It takes you 5-10 years to find a place where you can safely transition and then you transition and are happy.
How old are you rn?
rapid sluice
2003, so 19
tardy steeple
And the average life expectancy is like ... What? 76? Sooooooo
Worst case scenario
You have like 47 years of happiness
Living as your preferred gender
rapid sluice
But that's so thoroughly non-ideal
tardy steeple
That's if it takes you 10 years to move
Yeah
Not ideal but don't sacrifice 40+ years of happiness for the upfront struggle
Find ways to enjoy the small things
Work on yourself and your mental health
Transitioning is just one part of a whole. The positive habits, the mental health, all the good things you do now
Will still be around
When you finally get to a safe place where you can transition
rapid sluice
We'll see if that's able to hold me back when I end up in the military
tardy steeple
Think of the future when struggling through the present. All suffering is temporary just as all joy is. Instead build a strong foundation of centered self peace which will last through it all.
And hopefully
They know not to let you around any guns
Given your mental and physical state lol
rapid sluice
With how much I lie on the daily?
tardy steeple
rapid sluice
But thanks Bepperoni
rapid sluice
It gets better
I hope it does
tardy steeple
In the mean time
You can enjoy things like this
Beeg strong knight lady
Drown sorrows in lesbian romance and fiction
raw lodge
Yeah no because nobody is performing surgery on children
Mentally under-developed. Its just my opinion, and its not only to issues as the ones iris is going thru, but any big-life-changing decisions. But yeah, its not my life. Iris should do what they want. Was just sharing my 2 cents
rapid sluice
Mentally under-developed. Its just my opinion, and its not only to issues as the...
Mon ami, then the question shifts to who decides who is mentally under developed
raw lodge
Mon ami, then the question shifts to who decides who is mentally under developed
Idk, maybe a health professional.
I just read that there were some underage ppl that did the surgery
I think that might be too young
peak bobcat
Mentally under-developed. Its just my opinion, and its not only to issues as the...
let's put it this way, no matter what decision it is, it should be left to the person and their guardians, not the business of government
raw lodge
But then again, im not too educated on it
raw lodge
let's put it this way, no matter what decision it is, it should be left to the p...
Where did i say that it should be left to the governement, lol
peak bobcat
who do you think is gonna enforce what's banned on who lol
raw lodge
What
peak bobcat
not you that's for damn sure
raw lodge
Relax with the passive aggressiveness ffs
I havent told Iris to not do it
But to wait until her situation improves
rapid sluice
rapid sluice
I realise in hindsight that my liking of forced feminisation in hentai is probably a sign of my guilt
elfin gulch
rapid sluice
I wonder if the reason why I'm buying more 'slutty' clothes is because I'm seeking any sort of validation whether it's lust or other negative responsesv
elfin gulch
or you feel comfortable about your femininity and your body unconsciously to go out and acquire more exposing clothes
rapid sluice
or you feel comfortable about your femininity and your body unconsciously to go ...
Nahhh
Impossible
elfin gulch
I wonder if the reason why I'm buying more 'slutty' clothes is because I'm seeki...
Why would you need validations, yours is the most important
rapid sluice
Why would you need validations, yours is the most important
My god complex can only carry me so far sea
peak bobcat
My god complex can only carry me so far sea
That’s a weak ass god complex
elfin gulch
There are things you can just accept (and cope lol) in order to move on, the whole thing would crumble once you start doubting yourself and it leads to more depression and self-destruction
Buy even slutty clothes
Show them body
(Coming from me, a guy with a clothes kink)
elfin gulch
But but
I like watching people with clothes
elfin gulch
(not into slutty stuff, but almost the opposite)
elfin gulch
Don’t distract from Iris’s real struggles
You uhh, ok yeah I got distracted
elfin gulch
My god complex can only carry me so far sea
Still the main point is why your complex sucks, we will prove it
rapid sluice
Didn't get warded in a psych hospital HUZZAH
tardy steeple
Define it in this scenario?
As in like
You're mentally unstable to the point that you lose rights to a guardian?
rapid sluice
You're mentally unstable to the point that you lose rights to a guardian?
As in
I saw a psych and told her that I would be the executioner for several volunteers, and then kill myself once I got a gun in military
rapid sluice
Thank the lord I'm not
rapid sluice
Because if I got warded I'd just kill myself solo LMAO but she said she'll try to ask the military to give me a non-combat position
tardy steeple
Are you being forced into the military?
Cause you have to serve
Kinda thing
For the country
rapid sluice
Are you being forced into the military?
Yea
rapid sluice
Conscription
tardy steeple
There are probably easier ways to go for a non-combat position
But if it works, it works.
rapid sluice
No as in
I would rather not serve at all
But if I'm gonna have to serve
I will be an executioner
tardy steeple
By that do you mean just
You'll murder other people for no apparent raisin
Cause
That's pretty edgy
And also not based.
rapid sluice
You'll murder other people for no apparent raisin
No
I mean
I've gotten in contact with a depressed guy who's too scared to pull the trigger
peak bobcat
Oh yeah that’s just Iris’s unhinged libertarian side
tardy steeple
This is
Very real teen depression
I hope you figure it out. Sometimes you gotta hit rock bottom
peak bobcat
You learn new things everyday
tardy steeple
Hope it doesn't break you when you hit the floor and you find a chance to climb back up
This is what happens when you trap people in shitty anti LGBTQ+ cultures with poor support for mental health. Not surprised iris is spiraling into doomer edge lord murder suicide pact shit.
I went through it too, in Texas.
Luckily, I hit the bottom and was forced to do the hard work to fix the problems in my life.
Which I was only able to do because I had a support net in my direct family. Probably not the case for most.
rapid sluice
This is what happens when you trap people in shitty anti LGBTQ+ cultures with po...
Oh the suicide part is only because I'd be a murderer and I don't want to deal with the consequences
tardy steeple
Sure.
You should uhhhh get some help.
It'll be better to get help before you chance ruining your life rather than after.
rapid sluice
Even if I wanted to, help is either extremely expensive or 8 months delayed
plucky zenith
@elfin gulch but man, what absolute psychos
I would say I am a peace loving pretty nice guy, at least that is what I believe myself to be, but there are certaint kind of people that make me think a lot more vile than I would normally do
elfin gulch
Thankfully in a way he did get what he deserves, or at least his families that really affect him.
Beside being a psychotic police, he was also a horrible father, so much so that it's unfortunate to hear when her daughter that i was kind of fond with as a big sis, commited suicide after she could no longer handle the pressure well into her late college years
And that to the fact she is his only child
Still i definitely agreed with your stance, some people just aren't worth forgiving
plucky zenith
Beside being a psychotic police, he was also a horrible father, so much so that ...
I wish he suffers twice as much as his daughter suffered from him
elfin gulch
peak bobcat
Stay strong
rapid sluice
Tatakae
peak bobcat
Not like that
rapid sluice
But frfr I agree with Bepper
Don't throw away everything because of a few years
I'm the only one allowed to do that because I'll be throwing away multiple people's everything
You will triumph
Even the disciples of Jesus faltered
So stay strong, keep the lights in your eyes on, and go forth
peak bobcat
I'm the only one allowed to do that because I'll be throwing away multiple peopl...
You took the wrong lesson from Bepp
rapid sluice
You took the wrong lesson from Bepp <:FernTheFuck:775826036226129940>
Not the point
The point is jc
peak bobcat
Do not detract from the other 🐘
peak bobcat
I am literally one of the two people who can disagree
elfin gulch
I'm left completely out of everything
rapid sluice
I'm left completely out of everything
Are you getting scammed
rapid sluice
No about your conversation here
No like
Is your friend compensating you
sucking dick or something
For that interior design homework thing
elfin gulch
Huh no why
I will ask her something later
Or none at all
elfin gulch
Mmm
rapid sluice
it's not a race
Yeah if someone saying that manages to change my entire worldview, then they're magic
I need to do trans stuff ASAP to get optimum results
elfin gulch
Are that person naked and you censored that with a pic from Persona?
peak bobcat
It’s not a race in that rushing without guarantee or fall-back mechanism does more harm
rapid sluice
Are that person naked and you censored that with a pic from Persona?
No
I'm watching RTGame Daniel whilst reading and before the work rush
rapid sluice
It’s not a race in that rushing without guarantee or fall-back mechanism does mo...
Oh yeah of course
I ain't sea
peak bobcat
I ain't sea
BRUH
rapid sluice
BRUH
Sea went through the homelessness arc for me
But I've got contingencies
I've a few people in Malaysia who are willing to let me crash for a few days, so I cna flee the country if needed
And if I'm in need of urgent cash, I can just sell all my stocks
peak bobcat
Sea went through the homelessness arc for me
I know I was there
rapid sluice
I know I was there
peak bobcat
Buddy so ill-prepared it was fascinating to see
rapid sluice
Man's literally YOLO'd and regretted immediately
peak bobcat
Hopefully he copes better next time
peak bobcat
Eh I think on here alone ppl gave pretty decent advice (if broad). I just think he wasn’t prepared and organized enough, things which will improve with experience
If anything he gained a new perspective
And that is capitalism sucks, thanks for coming to my ted talk
rapid sluice
Eh I think on here alone ppl gave pretty decent advice (if broad). I just think ...
No as in
Before he said YOLO
peak bobcat
Yes. He did discuss it here before he went yolo
Idk about his irl acquaintances though
peak bobcat
Maybe I didn't care about sea before he YOLO'd
Oof for sea
But yeah I think he was just drained from med school and looking for any out
rapid sluice
Fair enough
peak bobcat
Just didn’t imagine ahead
elfin gulch
If anything he gained a new perspective
Can I be more honest?
Part of it is because my father reached out to me during the time, and I kept thinking if he deserves to have a debt right before his retirement, and part is because I don't have much confidence in myself (never did), so when my job gets a little rough (it's a pretty nice job also, I'm just bad) I just went yolo again
But yes most is because I didn't prepare anything, I don't have any idea of what I'm capable of doing that can fill my stomach. I can't imagine I'm exhausted from whatever I was doing cause I didn't do anything at all, I just feel like "I could be doing something else" and turns out I don't know and that just affects everyone around me, but at least I don't get emotional that much anymore
Anyway I don't go outside how do you seek therapy what if they judge me based on what I say to them
elfin gulch
Tbh it feels weird that he didn't ask anyone responsible for advice
Nah that's my parents they blame my friends for my behavior (while they even advised me to stay and do harder)
I don't blame anyone, I did this
rapid sluice
Part of it is because my father reached out to me during the time, and I kept th...
I believe you've grown after that arc
I don't think you'd have so much introspection if you hadn't gone through that
elfin gulch
Thanks I'll now follow a religion
Believing in something is more doable than in myself
rapid sluice
Thanks I'll now follow a religion
Believing in something is more doable than in ...
"Don't believe in yourself! Believe in the thing that believes in you!"
rapid sluice
Anyway how's stuff on your end
Tiring
Working in an office, and then in a supermarket for the weekends is draining
But I know I need to keep it up to contribute to the Greater Transition Fund so that's that
Thinking about quitting the supermarket job tbh
elfin gulch
(from my experiences you totally should but that depends on your place I think)
You should
rapid sluice
So is it Persona
The video is Persona yes
elfin gulch
Blasting Jazz
peak bobcat
Anyway I don't go outside how do you seek therapy what if they judge me based on...
The therapist job is not to judge that’s in the job description
peak bobcat
But yes most is because I didn't prepare anything, I don't have any idea of what...
That’s natural I think and you should still explore what you’d like to do but have a safety net or something to fall back on
It’s sad but it is society
elfin gulch
It’s sad but it is society
Thanks this is oddly motivating
elfin gulch
The therapist job is not to judge that’s in the job description
Hoping they can help me not thinking that
keen jungle
How goes it, gang?
Any mysteries to be solved?
No? Boo
I myself, over the last few months, have fallen to alcoholism. Having a rough time trying to talk about it.
I uh.. iunno.
Lost my job maybe three years ago at this point from a combo of my drinking and COVID related stress
Or rather, I quit.
Got fed up with skeleton crew nonsense and bad pay
Suppose, I just needed to vent a bit
My uh
Friends. Few I ever really trusted
Went through a lot of changests during and prior. So we've lost touch
One, well. He had issues like me. Abuser. had to go off to rehab, and can't really physically interact with us anymore. Temptations and such.
The other.. iunno. I can't even make a based call.
His pops passed when he was young, and it's been stress since.
Pretty sure he sees me as a fuck-up and.. well, considers me a friend but has nothing to do with me.
The last is like a big brother to me. He moved back home tho. We don't talk much anymore. Got the wife and fams going.
Guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself.
Been a rough few weeks
Anywho
Love you guys.
💜
Seeya in a week or two!
rapid sluice
Went through a lot of changests during and prior. So we've lost touch
People change
But that doesn't mean your history changed too
You were friends, you were close
What happened in your yesterday, that's what influences your today
And what you do today influences your tomorrow
You don't need to have everything under control
Unfortunately, alcoholism is common
People have and will continue to climb, and conquer that mountain
rapid sluice
One, well. He had issues like me. Abuser. had to go off to rehab, and can't real...
Temptations are the devils of everyday
And they will take Ws, quite often in fact
And ultimately its impossible to stop that, to stop that thought of being decadent
But you can take steps to slow it down
The first step is knowing that you need to take steps
I'm sure you've got this, Katsa
raw lodge
Awww, im sad you fell back into alchoholism,Katsa!
Especially after you decided to quit, but lifes a rollercoaster. You gotta hang tight, never giver up and keep going
Cuz the alternative is much worse imo. But i believe you got this!
sweet sundial
Love you guys.
It's sad how there's not much we can do for you, but just hang in there, Katsa.
We love you too 💜
keen jungle
💜💜
peak bobcat
sadly there's little to be done
rapid sluice
I'm at my grandmother's house rn
And I'm at a loss at what to do
Her memory is getting worse and worse
Her functions are declining
I've been trying to get her a referral to doctors, but it's slow
peak bobcat
yeah it's a scary thought to think about
and the sad thing is there's really little current medicine can do
rapid sluice
I've been talking to her
Abe she's just so delirious
She thought I was a decade younger
tardy steeple
Part of dealing with dementia is accepting their mind fog for what it is and just trying your best to have a pleasant time with them. Keep the vibes positive.
rapid sluice
Turns out old people falling is pretty dangerous
peak bobcat
Yep
It can indicate heart problems (heart the organs)
like a stroke
and they don't heal well from injuries
elfin gulch
Saw something that really stands out to me
Someone didn't brush their teeth for one and half a year and it was because of their mental health?
I personally had a phase where I did something similarly but I don't get being congratulated for having decent hygiene
rapid sluice
i brush my teeth everyday and no one congratulated me
elfin gulch
Yeah, are we in the age where when you do basic stuff and ppl congratulate you for it?
I mean I can agree that is supportive, but is the main problem was because they were traumatized so badly that they couldn't perform basic tasks or they looked for something to blame for with undiagnosed problems
raw lodge
i brush my teeth everyday and no one congratulated me
Congrats on brushing your teeth, boss.
elfin gulch
I don't have any problems, but I just got talked about how I should kill myself for the 10th or so time by my dad and I don't feel much anymore
Is that a good thing
rapid sluice
I don't have any problems, but I just got talked about how I should kill myself ...
are you asking if you not feeling much is good or if your dad telling you to kill yourself is good
elfin gulch
The first one
Cause I haven't changed much, so I feel like it's like hold true I guess?
rapid sluice
i mean you not feeling much can be several things
- you're not feeling anything at all 2) you've learnt to tune him out 3) a mix of both
elfin gulch
Guessing the last one as 1/ I do agree with him that something about me that I need to improve
2/ he talked about the wrong stuff for half an hour
Man never tried to ask me anything but study stuff and outright said he doesn't get me zamn
But I don't feel offended that much anymore, like after stuff like this I would vent somewhere and probably be all emotional that night
peak bobcat
Unless you're feeling suicide ideation I think it's not bad in and of itself if you don't find verbal abuse hurtful anymore
I guess it is kinda sad in a way but it can be good for your mental health
elfin gulch
Thanks hik
rapid sluice
But I don't feel offended that much anymore, like after stuff like this I would ...
Is it a
"It is what it is" or a "this again😔"
elfin gulch
Both!
elfin gulch
I acknowledge they're my problems but he only tackled the stuff that comes with it, and insisted that being the problem itself
elfin gulch
I thought after my dad scolded me for 2 hours about how bad the smell of my room is I thought I pissed and pooped on it or smth and was accustomed to it, it was just the smell of the whole floor and I'm always shut my door so didn't have much weird smells
peak bobcat
I mean if you live in it for a long time you wouldn’t notice the smell and also I don’t know why the fuck your dad is pissed about it unless he also sleeps there???
elfin gulch
I mean if you live in it for a long time you wouldn’t notice the smell and also ...
Probably trying to find a thing to talk me about it, this was what I meant when he talked about the wrong thing yet keep insisting on it
Like fun fact, my brother's room, which is next to my parents', smells even worse
Imagine telling me to kms but talked about a whole different thing I didn't do
tardy steeple
Shid and pid in his room
peak bobcat
Probably trying to find a thing to talk me about it, this was what I meant when ...
Idk but I imagine there are better subjects than abuse
elfin gulch
For the first time I'm glad I'm taller than most people in Vietnam
My fucking old man just fucking hit my 11 yo bro in the nose and made him fucking bleed
I swear if I see if again I will fucking hit him back
He wonders why his 2 childs are like this and then proceed to be the fucking worst shit the boy has ever seen through his life
I'm not sure if he didn't hit me because he thinks I'm too mature for that or keep saying I should kill myself for the 5th time will work
I can't probably take on a military man but I'll try
peak bobcat
damn that's child abuse
he should get some counselling service
and so should you and your brother really
elfin gulch
Yeah thanks, I might do that if it's a thing here in Vietnam
Like here you see children get that daily, I'm probably one of the few lucky ones since I didn't stray from my "good boy" role until now
peak bobcat
Sorry you had to go through that
elfin gulch
Thanks, he later on tried to be sorry while saying different things entirely
rapid sluice
For the first time I'm glad I'm taller than most people in Vietnam
My fucking ol...
Sheesh
Does this happen often?
elfin gulch
I'm not sure, cause he's always a fucking ass while he's drunk, but this time it was probably because I pissed him off so he went on my brother
elfin gulch
He also told me he would kill me multiple times but I guess it wouldn't be a bluff now
What's cps?
rapid sluice
What's cps?
Child protective services
Remember that you can call the police
It's called assault and battery
elfin gulch
How does witnessing work again
Cause my brother clearly shows signs of being ok despite all that
It's kinda funny in a way when I'm worrying about him
rapid sluice
How does witnessing work again
Cause my brother clearly shows signs of being ok ...
Doesn't matter if he's OK, it's still assault
elfin gulch
Yeah but what I meant is my source to it would only be "trust me", and my dad on the outside is like, a respectable man?
rapid sluice
So?
Fucking, Jeffery Epstein
But idk how the legal system in Vietnam works
How about your mother?
elfin gulch
She also screamed at him, telling him to shut up
elfin gulch
No what I meant is like she's with him on this one
rapid sluice
Oh
elfin gulch
They both blamed him being drunk and moved on
rapid sluice
I thought you meant she screamed and your father
elfin gulch
No she screamed at my brother
elfin gulch
Telling him to shut up, stop the cries
rapid sluice
This is how you raise fucked up children
elfin gulch
Lmao
elfin gulch
He already is
rapid sluice
Call the police if he hits him again
elfin gulch
But yeah most of that came from me actually
He's probably still pissed off because I dropped of med (even though I'm picking it on again, double tho this is the second time I do that)
He's still in a better relationship with my parents than I do
Like he hit my brother but talked about me
elfin gulch
Again, I do wonder how did he ask himself why his kids are like this
elfin gulch
Honestly? Put on some muscle and try to protect your brother
Nah the kid is spoiled I still dislike him
Also I'm always stay away from home, so I can't do anything
Dropping school and stay here is a rare occasion
I do feel guilty, but I hate them all together, and if possible I would leave them for good
I'll just try to come up with a better plan
I'm am asshole surprise surprise
rapid sluice
Nah the kid is spoiled I still dislike him
LMAO
elfin gulch
He's got a Macbook fuck him
peak bobcat
Wow that’s a can of worms
rapid sluice
I'm am asshole surprise surprise
Assholes breed assholes, ey?
peak bobcat
Seriously dysfunctional family vibe
This is something to be talked in therapy for decades to come
💀
elfin gulch
To be honest, not in an edgy way or smth, I have even more stuff that I probably will only keep to myself or talk in therapy, not really law breaking kinda stuff, but somewhat messed up and hard to say to other people
But yeah I'll save them for therapy
rapid sluice
To be honest, not in an edgy way or smth, I have even more stuff that I probably...
You can always talk to me if things are too hard
elfin gulch
No not like messed up things happened to me, I seek to them
rapid sluice
Only if you want to
elfin gulch
It's also embarrassing, I somehow got both at once so there's that
So yeah that's it goodnight tri-state area I'll watch something!
Thanks for the offer
rapid sluice
elfin gulch
Jesus my dad while drunk is wild lmao
A few days ago he mentioned how I'm fucking stink
Today he says "if you like to be clean so much get the fuck out"
elfin gulch
Mf has 2 boxes of beer and every time he's home he invites someone and drink
rapid sluice
Jesus
I'd suggest you ask him to tone it down, but I think it'd just result in him trying to whoop your ass
elfin gulch
At least I'm one step closer to being an anime character
elfin gulch
I'd suggest you ask him to tone it down, but I think it'd just result in him try...
Yeah
I don't mind punching him when I have a reason, but I'd rather not getting my ass beaten afterward
elfin gulch
He's in the military lmao
My family is used to it at this point, but I just had to point that out
Other than that, today he's harmless
elfin gulch
Nah don't need to I'm back to med after this week so away from them
They can hate each other
sweet sundial
Just survive the med school
elfin gulch
True
peak bobcat
Sea... my godless ass will pray for you to make a lot of money in the future and have your long deserved therapy
rapid sluice
^
elfin gulch
Thanks you too!
elfin gulch
You're religious?
sweet sundial
My ramen having ass won't pray, just believe in you
raw lodge
Sea should undergone his own personal anime training arc so he can defeat his great foe, Papa Sea
rapid sluice
tragic backstory sea
elfin gulch
At least I can forget everything with gaming! (Now I have fucked up lifestyle)
elfin gulch
I hate this
Why do people keep hoping on me like do they not know how useless I am
Why do people just give me pressures I didn't ask for, I didn't ask for your money
Did they think that will help me
It just shows how much you would be disappointed if I don't live up to that
Nah fuck it I will never use that money problems solved now I just need to actually try
rapid sluice
rapid sluice
Kinda hate how different my parents expectations are for myself and my sister
Me: "Maybe I don't wanna go to uni"
Them: "The pay difference between a diploma holder and a degree holder is very different."
My sister: "I kinda wanna just slack at home"
Them: "We can provide an allowance for you, just make sure to do the housework"
They dump all these expectations onto me, without even giving a thought to the few things that might stop me from killing myself
elfin gulch
It's hard to give someone comfort when their situation is "same"
But at least you have me so I understand that
rapid sluice
It's hard to give someone comfort when their situation is "same"
Same
What's with Asian families and misplaced expectations
rapid sluice
How do you guys know what you wanna do?
sweet sundial
There's no way to know
Things like laziness supress it sometimes so much I even have to force myself to do something, despite enjoying it a lot
elfin gulch
You can join one direction
sweet sundial
I'm just trying to stabilize my life and then become Independent
elfin gulch
Or take your time
It's not like everyday a 20yo person wakes up and knows what they were meant to do
sweet sundial
You don't have to decide everything in your life during your 20ties
Are you making money?
Good
That's actually all you need rn
rapid sluice
Or take your time
It's not like everyday a 20yo person wakes up and knows what t...
But I don't even know what I wanna do
elfin gulch
Yeah that's my point
Youth is time for you to pick smth up along the way
I just fucked myself up so badly that I will ignore that for the time being, but you don't have to
sweet sundial
But I don't even know what I wanna do
You don't have to know
rapid sluice
But I haven't picked anything up aside from Project Moon addiction
sweet sundial
There are so many people out there just living their life
Without searching for some unknown, proper destination of it
elfin gulch
Yeah not like everyone is Picasso drawing shits at 10 while the depressed guy learnt drawing at his 30s
The starry night guy
rapid sluice
Van Gogh?
elfin gulch
Yeah that
Or you just stick to what you're good at and be content with that I guess, that's how most people did it
rapid sluice
That's actually all you need rn
But idk what I wanna do in the future to continue making money
sweet sundial
Focus on making money where you can
Something may come your way
Also didn't you want to move out of your country?
Or did I get lost between you and Jc.
elfin gulch
No that's jc wanting to go to the uk but she doesn't really need money while Iris needs them for the boobs install
elfin gulch
But idk what I wanna do in the future to continue making money
You can uhh (don't ask me if I know I will have already)
Draw
But don't trust me, if you're still living you're doing it right
rapid sluice
Also didn't you want to move out of your country?
No I was the one that planned to die
elfin gulch
Dying is cringe ngl
sweet sundial
Yeah, wanting to die is quite cringe
rapid sluice
I never said I wasn't cringe
sweet sundial
We all did
Purpose in life is fake
Do you think me and Sea know what we want to do?
Naaaah, there's no way
elfin gulch
Probably Nick didn't want to be a math teacher but here we are
Or he did
Shame on him
elfin gulch
I heard some people say uni is one of the places you go to know what you truly want
rapid sluice
I heard some people say uni is one of the places you go to know what you truly w...
Yeah but what do I go to uni for
elfin gulch
Literature perhaps
rapid sluice
@elfin gulch oi you're applying for uni right
elfin gulch
idk i had agency apply for me
elfin gulch
geography
rapid sluice
I see
sweet sundial
You either take advanced uni dedicated to something that's paid well or you are passionate about
Or just uni to get the papers
elfin gulch
Can I do this
I mean for the stuff that I failed I straight up just didn't take a passing test, still
(for the stuff that I did I had no idea how)
Yeah I fucking can
raw lodge
Press F in the chat for sea
regal talon
F
elfin gulch
Yeah that's precisely why I got a perfect Fs
keen jungle
oh
Am dummy
I miss my friends. That's it. Each moved on with life and we only ever speak ocsssionly on a group messager. It feels rough not being able to fall back sometimes and ask for help. It's like everyone just needs to be independent. And again, fair. Life. Wives. Family.
I never grew up, I suppose.
Just miss them a lot
elfin gulch
That's how it works, friends come and go, it's hard to find ones you will still hang out now and then
They change, and so do you
sweet sundial
I feel you, not exactly missing my old friends, but times past. They were calmer, right now everything feels rushed to me, everchanging