transdome

[frosty sky]

I deadass live with the most fucked up ideology what the fuck is an ideology

snapchat gave me cis woman ads ;(

[spring lynx]

dang

[frosty sky]

on snap i lost my masculinity conpletely

Becuz they give me da ads

Of excessive womanness

[spring lynx]

i think there was a day where it couldnt fucking figure me out so it gave me ads for plan b and bluechew back to back ☠️

[frosty sky]

Yt ads in 2021 were the worst

all i got back then were gay test and sketchy quizzes

And

I evn got slight nsfw :(((

[grand hearth]

the gay test ads are so funny lmaoooooo I don’t need a test to know brother

[elder saffron]

Lmao

bangs another girl hmmmmm am I gay?

NO ITS THE GOVERNMENT THATS GAY

[spring lynx]

both are true

you can be gay (positive) and the government can be gay (derogatory, 2000s era insult)

[granite barn]

The big thing is to keep at it. Even small improvements over time can help. Drink lots of water as you practice cause you WILL dry up fast early on. It was a bit of a strain on my throat at first but the more I’ve done it the longer I’ve been able to do it til I can just use my high voice all the time. It’s like a muscle, you gotta work it out, yaya!

[open knoll]

i’ve been on t for 5 years and i still have a high pitched voice. it’s a scam

i really need to voice train but i can’t keep at it consistently

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah voice training can still rlly help on t bc it affects everyone a lil diff

[random flax]

to add onto this further: faguettes eating baguettes

https://tenor.com/view/blackbeard-blackbeard-writing-taking-notes-writing-gif-17583038544116987898

[winter comet]

late and idk if anyone mentioned it but testopel just reminds me of implanted birth control

like it's outpatient and you might be bruised but it's not that bad

[winter comet]

nexplanon is the type i'm thinking about but it goes into the arm and is a small rod

[grand hearth]

yeah I just don’t like the idea of having to go get it done multiple times even if it’s months apart, just from personal preference. Didn’t like what I saw from watching a doc performing it even though it isn’t like, “bad” lmao

[solid oasis]

its surgical isnt it

I get where it can appear invasive, personally I wouldnt mind tho based off of description but i havent seen any of the vids lmao

[lofty nacelle]

Hear me out

[solid oasis]

👀 ❓

[lofty nacelle]

My name dumbass

[bronze ocean]

one big thing about any kind of hormone implants is that you'll need to kinda track how effective they are for you so that you're not getting an excessively large trough but that also kinda depends on how cooperative your endo is with your transitioning in general

important thing to keep in mind i think

[grand hearth]

yeah that’s part of why I’ve liked injections more so far

more discrete data points to know how your progress is going and if you need to tweak dosage etc

[solid oasis]

I do think diy still involves needleage though for T

By what I read

[lofty nacelle]

Popping your brain

With my mind

But nah I saw oral shit and others too with my Indian pharmacist

[solid oasis]

Or the most easy n cheap way I mean but I see

[lofty nacelle]

Oh

Yeah fs

[winter comet]

oral testosterone is sort of tricky bc while older types caused a lot of potential liver concerns/short lifespan of pills/coverage/yada yada i don't know if coverage/availability for the currently relatively common stuff is that great depending on country

[lofty nacelle]

So just needle yo self

[winter comet]

you won't believe how bewildered i was that my husband had a mostly full box of androderm that expired 10 years ago

[winter comet]

he's tried gel and patches and had bad topical reactions to both so he ended up needing injection anyway
i think its just the most reliable for a lot of people

[lofty nacelle]

Swear by da needle type shit

[grand hearth]

oral T also isn’t very bioavailable by comparison which is why it’s not used often

[lofty nacelle]

Yeahhhh I think that’s what my brother did for a good bit

[lofty nacelle]

My Spanish grandma saw me with a septum and a cat beanie

Actually think I popped Bigfoot pose creeping away

[lofty nacelle]

Also my coworker said I’m looking purr and softer:3

[frosty sky]

The U.S. Government fell off hard

[grand hearth]

was it ever that on

[frosty sky]

I dont thinkso

[lofty nacelle]

Soft government slimy even

[lofty nacelle]

Sorry I just wanted to share that one tbh

[elder saffron]

xD

[inland schooner]

Im meeting so many beautiful trans baddies this week

[elder saffron]

[lofty nacelle]

Living the dream

[bronze ocean]

hell yeah dog

[inland schooner]

I decided to download dating apps becuz im a workaholic and dont so anything outside of gym and work so its nice to meet new people :D

[true elm]

Have y'all ever gotten reverse clocked

Someone said something that implied I wasn't trans and then someone else said "that we know of" cuz they weren't trying to assume but then the original person said "yeah but probably not" 😭😭😭😭😭

[open knoll]

godspeed! i could never

[frosty sky]

That hurt mah brain

[inland schooner]

Thats fair but also like why not try yk :D?

[frosty sky]

me on a dating app?

Never

all i feel is lust.

[open knoll]

i would never get a single like

[grand hearth]

bonks u for not believing in yourself

also okcupid is a decent trans-friendly app btw

I met my gf of 2 years on there ^_^

[solid oasis]

I met mine of 8 years on deviantart

HELP

For us it was like a weird mutual we looked up to eachother thing then had very similar problems and sentiments at the world as a whole and then just like 🤝

[open knoll]

i don’t think i’ll ever meet my other half

no one has ever liked me

both irl and online

i’m now stuck with a mindset that i have to “prove myself” to get any positive attention from anyone and i can only hope that they think i’m good enough to stick around me

[grand hearth]

yeah that’s not gonna be sustainable in the long run tbh

[open knoll]

also not sustainable is if i can’t spend the rest of my life with someone

i don’t want it to be like that!

[grand hearth]

yeah but a good relationship doesn’t involve having to constantly prove urself

[open knoll]

well, no

i have to prove myself if i even want to have hopes of entering a relationship

[grand hearth]

May I ask how old you are?

[open knoll]

and even then people will certainly find someone better than me

[open knoll]

i’m in my early-mid 20s

[solid oasis]

OK I HAD TO GET TO MY DESKTOP this leads me to another thing;

I dont think you need an "other half" and its a weird weight thats like.. placed on people in society I think. If I ever lost my current partner to whatever circumstance I dont think i'd seek another, you can find similar value among friends who will hold you with a sort of equal worth, relationships in general are very fluid depending on your own + their definition anyway

I notice you're very hard on urself (I GET IT) but it sets u up with a sort of defeated mindset when going in which can be counterproductive to those feelings in a sense?

I used to be the same way heavily but then re-evaluated things over the years

[open knoll]

i’ve never been in a relationship and all of my friends are in one

it’s pretty much impossible to not be hard on myself

knowing they all have something i can never have

i have a yumeship that i don’t talk about ever outside of the fandom that yumeship belongs to because i’m embarrassed

[solid oasis]

There r many who have nobody and live fine like that tbh, in a way it comes with its own benefits? I really wanna place emphasis on like finding friends first or saying fuck it and trying to speak to / take social risks with whoever you cross. Todays one of my days where im not too anxious so ofc this fluctuates with my myself but. Hmm I have more I can say but im trying to think of the Words for it

I selfship w mark otherman (I have to say this every time its relevant bcs its also funny) I Totally get the embarrassment

[open knoll]

i don’t know why you bring up “there are people who are happily by themselves” because i am not that kind of person

[solid oasis]

Those are more fun for exploring dynamics + projection and i'd argue its almost normal n human to or not that deep tbh

[open knoll]

i isolated myself by choice in my early stages of transition bc it would cause me dysphoria to have anyone even look at my body, but after i got top surgery, i really wanted to get out there and meet new people, only to find out that everyone had already found theirs and had no desire to get to know me

i fear it’s too late

i’m too old to not have anyone

[solid oasis]

Just bcs its possible, and despite this sort of drive you have it can be worked on in a sense (I also wanna emphasize that I was very much the same way and almost worse about it. Very idealistic and hyper-attached to anyone I'd cross who'd fill that "void")

It takes a kind of mental training and positive self-talk, the more you kinda reaffirm in your own insecurities and negative thinking tbh itll just anchor you to that same pain

not meaning to sound harsh at all btw this is me wanting to help

[open knoll]

i just want to feel wanted and accepted by someone who can be close to me because i’ve never been allowed to get close to another person

idk how much i’ve talked about my relationship with my parents but it’s NOT a good relationship and we are distant

and have been since i was a teenager

and now i’m pretty sure i’m not allowed to be romantic

if i was, id have someone by now

yeah.
everyone i’ve ever talked to about this turned against me and didn’t want to associate with me anymore. am i just meant to suck it up and stay alone forever like i’m meant to be?

i really don’t want to accept it but to continue living is to accept it by default

[solid oasis]

Tbh it looks like there's a lot to unpack within the above^ hence why its a little difficult to respond, but; To understand what you'd mean there i'd need to know what you mean by that you're "never allowed" to get close. As for my own parents I separated from them at different times but cut them both off a bit after turning 18 to where they have no bearing over what I do anymore, ive currently been living with randos but im getting a place with 2 others soon (ppl I knew from hs)

[open knoll]

ive been living alone for almost 4 years now; the only time when i got a random roommate was when i dormed but the last two years ive been living with friends, or at least i thought they could be my friends. when they started dating, they turned against me

my only friend stopped hanging out with me when she got a girlfriend

i don’t think i can do roommates anymore because they will always make me jealous

[elder saffron]

Never in a million years would I have assumed Okcupid would be trans friendly

[open knoll]

i don’t understand how yall can do apps. i’m too scared to try because i’ll just get blasted for my looks prolly

i try my best to dress well but the attempts look pathetic at worst and mediocre at best

[elder saffron]

I literally met my gf through an original Xbox private server for PSO lol

[open knoll]

i’ve been on the internet for 11 years and i’ve made absolutely no lasting relationships from it

[elder saffron]

She was super helpful with teaching me things about the game then we friended each other on discord and it went from there

[open knoll]

at some point you just have to accept it’s not meant for you

for every person that finds love, there has to be someone who never does, and i really don’t understand why i have to be the latter

[solid oasis]

I had a bit of a rant I was going to post but tbh I think I may have already said it in dms or can expand upon it there if you wish. The way I "fixed" these sort of views was cumulative of multiple things, but "loneliness" kind of doesn't affect me anymore because I place less value in having one person to be my "other half" and instead more value in the friendships I alr have, I kind of just have my handful of people I talk to at different times and my servers

[open knoll]

i fear my only choice is to condition myself to not need love and belonging

but i don’t know how i will do that

[open knoll]

my friends don’t even wanna talk to me

i really am just meant to be alone, aren’t i

[solid oasis]

Also I know I say this as having a partner but truth is we've had falling-outs with half of it being to blame on my overbearingness btw. We've smoothened out already like 2 years ago but it used to be rough at times because if you depend on someone to fix you you still wont be satisfied as theres a baseline of continued idealization there

just a disclaimer, in realizing this its another reason why i'd rather just rotate my handful of friends rather than put all of that weight / expectation into one person

[solid oasis]

Naw. Again you can dm me for continued insight if you want I think i'll just end up yapping endlessly here

[open knoll]

i find that hard to believe

i go out to meet people but i get very sad if i find out they’re not single

(which is every person, by the way)

i’ve also done things like try to get my friends to set me up (they do not have anyone)

i’m dying in the trenches while all of my friends are living normal lives

like at this point i’m not even grateful to have a white collar job (well, i am grateful to have the job, but i’m not happy about what it took for me to get it)
because i had to work 200 times harder than the average person to get that job, and i also didn’t get it legitimately (nepotism)
what if i get fired in less than a month? especially because AI could so easily replace me

if i’m not at least better than most of my friends then i am nothing as a person

i don’t believe in using my newfound status as a member of society working a white collar job to find a partner either because basing your desirability on socioeconomic traits is red pill rhetoric

alright well
i have two exams today and i guess im going to bomb both of them because i’m so pathetic

[frosty sky]

Holy fuck i cant read this convo

[spring lynx]

call me trans the way im not cis

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/sailor-moon-usagi-anime-usagi-tsukino-serena-gif-15851581

5 fps transform

[spring lynx]

https://tenor.com/view/metroid-crystal-flash-samus-super-metroid-nintendo-gif-21978214

[frosty sky]

Fukouna girrrrrrrl fukouna giiiiiiiirl

https://tenor.com/view/kyubey-madoka-magica-puella-magi-madoka-magica-incubator-gif-27207714

me today

[left rivet]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-jumpscare-cat-dorbell-cat-meow-gif-11446899224917906803

[spring lynx]

real
how it feels having my manager yell at me for shit and then do fuckall to help out

[winter comet]

https://tenor.com/view/horse-walking-horse-vent-horse-flip-off-horse-flips-off-and-leaves-horse-venting-among-us-gif-927766623487829115

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/umamusume-agnes-tachyon-yes-nod-uma-musume-gif-14246277730057600737

[elder saffron]

[random flax]

i was considering that but now im just like. dude just fucking sterilize me

[winter comet]

honestly now that i'm nearing my 30s and i'm in a marriage where neither of us can get the other pregnant i should see if docs would humor me on getting my tubes tied

"what does your husband think" my husband has the same reproductive system as me

and if we somehow did want to have a child biologically, which will not happen, it would be him that carried

[frosty sky]

My brain hurt

[grand hearth]

yeah I’m headed towards needing a hysterectomy 😬 I’ve been caused too much pain by my own organs. We’re pretty sure it’s endometriosis at this point but all the boxes must be checked first. Gonna need a second Pap smear cuz somehow they flubbed the first one 🙃

[next harbor]

1000% recommend it if ur organs cause u literally any discomfort. they can slap that shit into most records and easily convince the insurance company bc pain is immeasurable

okay wait I say easily like that's universal, but still. (it should be!)

[grand hearth]

yep
thankfully my clinic is gender-affirming so I wasn’t given the “but what about kiiiids” talk lol

she seemed a lot more concerned about me yknow. Actually suffering every day. Lol

[open knoll]

i keep getting the “are you sexually active” talk

i wish i was but im not

and i keep bringing this up and they double down on it

i don’t understand doctors

[next harbor]

I got that talk three separate times by three separate doctors in three different states. don't give up, friends <3

[grand hearth]

it’s standard of care, there’s a lot of things that can happen with sexual activity, and sexually active status can change between visits. It sucks to have to answer every time but all you have to do is give a yes or no.

[open knoll]

i do answer “no” every time and they still double down

[grand hearth]

double down?

[next harbor]

that I don't get and sorta resent in a visceral way. what could u mean by that?

that is, I KNOW people double down (and it's not great)

[open knoll]

oh it’s like aggressively grilling me about my sexual history and activity

despite me literally saying i am celibate

i think a lot of people can’t fathom that as a possibility

[grand hearth]

yeah could be a checking boxes thing instead of actually adapting history taking to responses lol

[next harbor]

they go into your house and tell you how to arrange your furniture???

[open knoll]

thought the box checking would end with the first question but i suppose not

god damn it
these people are supposed to help you and yet are still told to ask you invasive questions at every step

[solid oasis]

gender

[frosty sky]

Fuck gender

Fuck genders

https://tenor.com/view/fei-se-explosion-boom-anime-girl-feise-gif-1546646357890906618

[lofty nacelle]

https://tenor.com/view/congratulations-gif-25246396

[frosty sky]

its a No Pope

[open knoll]

the way these people are dressed already makes me uncomfortable

[frosty sky]

I transition my gender how a DJ crossfade

VWOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUMMMM

https://tenor.com/view/ren-isuzu-magia-record-madoka-magica-magical-girl-transformation-gif-24000435

[open knoll]

i’m tired of gender honestly

it’s all a performance and performing is exhausting

[frosty sky]

Yeah instead of Male and Female there should be I and O

[lofty nacelle]

What gender subq or IM

[solid oasis]

they can technically serve as their own thing

i identify as im

[lofty nacelle]

Subq she/they kirktacular

God

[spring lynx]

misread that as kirkticular

[frosty sky]

If gender was an omegaverse thing in real life hoooooh boy

[lofty nacelle]

Perceive my words however your mind tells you to

I am a fourth dimensional gender fuck bound to this chungus ass third dimension

[frosty sky]

ne im 5d

[winter comet]

if omegaverse was real i would simply not exist

[frosty sky]

R.I.P.

[winter comet]

anyway if i had a dollar for every time someone brought it up in a sfw server i think id have like 10 dollars

[frosty sky]

💸 💸 💸 💸

[elder saffron]

Ya'll Ive won the internet

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/chiitan-gif-11539405926335589623

[digital tiger]

hi transgender people of machine girl

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/halo-halo2-elite-sangheili-greetings-gif-25839730

[digital tiger]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1348009008333717527/1465758192989503590/1310275469509394502.gif

How are we all doing today/tonight

[lofty nacelle]

Wort wort wort

Janecord is just talking abt the beef with dabo i feel so out of the loop

Aside from Jane kuru n Lucy I have no idea who anyone else is LMAO

Jane funny af for this tho

[pale umbra]

jjjjjjane

[frosty sky]

Chiitan loves gay and trans people I can vouch

[frosty sky]

I cant help but reference this song

I Want It I Need It

by death grips

Iykyk

[elder saffron]

Oh yeah no Im well aware but its really wild given what I even said that too when I quote shared lmao

[frosty sky]

Chiitan is all of our goats

If i ever go to japan one day my goal is to pull up and meet chiitan

[elder saffron]

I recently got myself a collar and putting it on was probably one of the most euphoric feelings Ive had in a while lmao

[frosty sky]

I need me one of those icl

My dad found out i had a collar and shit and it was thrown out or never to be seen again. It was sad

[frosty sky]

THAT IS COOL AF

Kuromi my beloved ♡

[solid oasis]

interesting post I saw lmaooo

come and see my chili queen

[winter comet]

this is literally just this particular woman thugging it out and having a crazy tolerance whether built up or not lol
i think sometimes people tend to be more prone to liking extreme spice if they are adrenaline seekers or something similar but i doubt that's sex correlated

[solid oasis]

like meeee

I love spicy

Building up a tolerance isn't hard if you do it right imo

like for anyone

[winter comet]

my mom, a cis woman
puts "capsaicin powder" in her food and doesn't think it's spicy unless it makes her cough

it's translated as capsaicin powder on the bottle but it's "oleoresin capsicum"

[lofty nacelle]

What

I do not know

[lofty nacelle]

Bruh wait what the fuck your mom is awesome

Fucking monster

[grand hearth]

Asian mom moment

She loves putting pepper flakes on everything

[solid oasis]

I do that but sometimes put too much and inhale it before I take a bite then cough to death

[grand hearth]

mom always makes Chex mix spicy and when I was snacking on it my partner wanted to eat some and I gave her a look (knowing her spice tolerance) and was like “yeah be careful this is spicy” and she went “hey I’m not THAT white”

2 minutes later she goes “yeah maybe I am that white” and runs to get water 💀

[bronze ocean]

dry spicy hits different for me ngl

[solid oasis]

lately ive been putting habanero in most of what I cook

mostly burger

[winter comet]

i do not enjoy spicy food at all

[frosty sky]

Spicy food is firey pain all the way to the end.

[lofty nacelle]

Thai chili flakes🤤 🤤

[frosty sky]

Bruuuuuuuu

I love eating Takis

Fuego

And blue heat

My favorite

I get high to them all the time when i eat them

No joke

[lofty nacelle]

Girl

[swift spruce]

i can't feel spice

the pain doesn't register for me

[lofty nacelle]

Why are you so fucked ip and twisted

[swift spruce]

it's just part of my dark and twisted backstory

u wouldn't get it

[lofty nacelle]

(Fuck she’s right I wouldn’t get it)

Do you have like a thing

[left rivet]

My mom loves spicy food but i can only handle a little

[swift spruce]

wym

[lofty nacelle]

Like a diagnosed thing that’s like your taste buds don’t pick up shit

Hot shit

[swift spruce]

no but my friends have done a bunch of experiments on me

[lofty nacelle]

Uhuh

[swift spruce]

i either developed a crazy tolerance overnight or just broke my mouth lol

it's weird cuz i can still feel the burn sort of down in my throat, but nowhere else

[lofty nacelle]

Do you think you know why you broke your mouth?

[swift spruce]

and even there it's very faint

[solid oasis]

I touched a spicy dorito to my eye once

[lofty nacelle]

Huh

That is weird

[lofty nacelle]

Hot Metal slag in your eye

[swift spruce]

no idea, it just happened one day when i ate chili and my parents were like "u weren't supposed to eat that that was ghost pepper chili" and i didn't even know

[lofty nacelle]

I just occasionally remember I know how to weld

And I go wow that was an arc I had

[lofty nacelle]

HUH

Bruh that ghost pepper is hot af too I had two once fuck that

[solid oasis]

I never had a ghost pep

Someone gifted me a Carolina reaper at a gas station I never tried it but he made a note like not to touch it

[swift spruce]

my friends made me drink ghost pepper extract once

[lofty nacelle]

What

[swift spruce]

nothing

[solid oasis]

I ended up giving it to someone else as a birthday gift

Bcs I had nothing but the pepper in my car

And I was like

[lofty nacelle]

Actually insane

[solid oasis]

Happy birthday Do you want this

[lofty nacelle]

So you have them

A random supposedly hot pepper

A man just have to you

At a gas station

?

[spring lynx]

found an electrolysis place near me that offers 60 min sessions for $95, so im gonna go for that in a couple weeks

[solid oasis]

I’d get weird stuff every once in awhile

[topaz rapids]

why are all the hot girls into electrochemistry all of a sudden

[solid oasis]

Also nice

[spring lynx]

i love ripping copper wires out of houses and scraping the zinc off of pennies for really shitty batteries

[grand hearth]

https://tenor.com/view/disco-elysium-electrochemistry-harry-du-bois-gif-4376796077744720059

[elder saffron]

We out here doing science on our bodies

Must shed this mortal flesh and become a cyborg

[topaz rapids]

truth nuke

[frosty sky]

Were all gonna lose our bodies some day so we gotta mod it as much as possible

So we always look euphoric in heaven or hell

[swift spruce]

real

[frosty sky]

My feeing when i wanna be gorl but i have hair everywhere so i become a hairy

[elder saffron]

Hey there's always a chance estrogen can thin your body hair out

My leg hair used to be thick but thinned out a lot after about a year on E

Same with my facial hair to an extent

[frosty sky]

Yeah i heard of that one

I had a pamphlet of all the side effects from E when i had an appointment not too long ago

[elder saffron]

I'd say it's a perk than a side effect xD that stuff is always so goofy

"Like omg this is gonna do this thing" then I'm just like:

https://tenor.com/view/thats-why-im-here-obi-wan-obi-wan-kenobi-star-wars-gif-18535648

[frosty sky]

Hehe i love perks

So perky

[golden plover]

Call me a masochist because that shit is great

[golden plover]

Can you send a picture of it?

[frosty sky]

I left it at my house and i am thousands of miles away

Maybe when i come back

[frosty sky]

Real shit

[grand hearth]

can confirm this happened to my gf, she used to be as hairy as I am now on T lmfao

she barely has any body hair left

[spring lynx]

theres a 50/50 chance that one of my managers at work has it out for me bc my estrogen levels mog hers

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/shylily-gif-24841587

Yuep i have to document now.

MONTHLY after DAY ONE.

Yippeee!!

[spring lynx]

my body hair got nuked (read:thinned out and almost transparent) p quickly on estrogen alone

the facial hair is the one thats just a motherfucker regardless

[frosty sky]

Facials a bitch

Cis women cant escape either

And thats why dermaplaning blades are a thing >:3

[elder saffron]

Yeah my leg hair turned blonde which was really unexpected

Tbh I think my hair color also turned lighter but I don't let my natural hair grow out enough to confirm that lol once my roots show they instantly get slapped with black dye

[frosty sky]

WILD!!!

[elder saffron]

Blood draw today let's goooooo (jk I hate having to do this)

[frosty sky]

Blood draws are scary

Cant believe ima come back to em one day

[elder saffron]

I just hate the process of checking in and then having to wait

And then hoping the person doing it doesn't suck lmao

[frosty sky]

My mom once showed me memes about blood draws

Something about hitting the vein first try and leaving no blood behind

Its like the type of action thats like Perfect!

In a video game sense

Like getting Green in NBA 2k

Kinda way

[elder saffron]

I've had some straight out if med school absolutely fuck my shit up its so painful

But then you get the ones like you said that do it perfectly

[frosty sky]

Yikkkkes!!!

[elder saffron]

Yeeeee

[frosty sky]

Does your arm hurt for long? I dont remember blood draws i only had two as a third grader

[elder saffron]

Nah its usually just a little sore afterwards

Doesn't last for very long

[frosty sky]

Nice

Jus likka vaccine

[grand hearth]

cw gross, blood

I remember this nurse at the health department was taking my blood for HepB testing and she did NOT keep her hand on the needle, and for some reason she was squatting on the floor doing something ||and the needle slipped out of my arm and splattered blood everywhere 💀|| she seemed more grateful she didn’t get a needlestick (understandably) than apologetic about, yknow, not doing the blood draw well lol

[solid oasis]

I dont like the stab part of a blood draw (I look away) but I find the rest of it interesting and one time i remember asking "would it be weird to get a picture" durng the draw and by that point it was alr weird

[grand hearth]

HAHA

You should get your phleb certification

I bet you’d enjoy doing that

[solid oasis]

mmmAYBE

probably

ill look into it on tha side

[grand hearth]

become a fellow vampire Snare

Join ussssssss

[solid oasis]

*becomes mosquito

close enough

[grand hearth]

there we go

yeah since I became very chronically ill I’ve gotten so much bloodwork done to the point where it’s just a thing I have to do regularly alongside blood for HRT so I’m very desensitized lmao

[solid oasis]

yea doing my injections really made me shrug off needles like but I also developed a weird clumsiness w it im not too sure why

maybe because of a few like fuckup instances

[grand hearth]

Tbf it’s easier to do on other people than urself

[solid oasis]

I was thinking so tbh

speaking of im going to my physician person thing today so we'll see if i can go back on and if it wont b crazy expensive. and if i could get better needles

[grand hearth]

Two wolves inside me

One wants to go out braless constantly
The other wants to strap em in

[solid oasis]

me me eme

[frosty sky]

Fuuuuuu

[grand hearth]

Yea she did the one thing you should never do while taking blood lmfao

[frosty sky]

My bloodwork is like peak

So like

If they fuck up

I might spray the shit out of them

They better not >:(

[grand hearth]

Idunno how they could fuck it up lol

[solid oasis]

Hahhaae I’m back on hrt

[lofty nacelle]

They took away my reaction images but fuck Yeha again

I’m so nerfed:((

[solid oasis]

The doctor is so nice actually and when I brought up the possibility of top surgery she actually knew?? How to get that rolling instead of feign ignorance about it with prev doctors I’ve been to damn

Idk if feign is the right term for the previous but she seems to actually know what to do or provide guidance unlike them

[solid oasis]

🦔

[lofty nacelle]

WAIT YOURE SO RIGHT

I CANT REACT WITH ITTTTT

[lofty nacelle]

Dude hell yeah that’s fucking awesome

[solid oasis]

Yeah she’s super friendly and Real

[lofty nacelle]

#needthat

Someone put me down

[solid oasis]

🧤 🧤 😷 💉 ok

[lofty nacelle]

Yipeee yipee

I have post mortem swag(I can react again)

[frosty sky]

That doctor knows ball

[elder saffron]

Real

Also fuck Tennessee

[minor turret]

schrodingers gender

[pale umbra]

woof

[frosty sky]

Meow

[elder saffron]

bunny noises

[minor turret]

slug slimy sounds

[lofty nacelle]

binturong noises

[frosty sky]

Witch SFX

[pale umbra]

https://gif.fxtwitter.com/tweet_video/G5NCXbUXkAAkin5.gif

[broken prism]

electricity noises!!

i honestly don’t even know what i am anymore so i imagine myself to be the electrical signals in my brain sometimes

[lofty nacelle]

Love seeing one of my old ass gym bros and getting called brian

It’s so awesome

After he actually blinded me with his headlights too

[frosty sky]

Was that a dox

That sounded like a dox

[lofty nacelle]

It’s a deadname

[frosty sky]

Yeah dox

[lofty nacelle]

What you want my middle n last too?

[frosty sky]

[lofty nacelle]

[frosty sky]

Me personally i would crash tf out and tell em to die

[lofty nacelle]

Idk

Unless it’s on purpose it’s kind of hard to for me to get upset AT them

Like it sucks but not like they’re trying to Pmo

I think at least

Prolly just too stupid or doesn’t care enough to look at my name on insta

[frosty sky]

U gotta ADVOCATE.

Intentional or not

[lofty nacelle]

I’m just too tired to gaf like I’m never gonna talk to these ppl outside of the rare sighting in the wild

When I pass they can either look like idiots or realize sum is up and ask

[solid oasis]

It’s ok my deadname is Dakota
-# though idc it sounds neutral enough

[solid oasis]

Real

[lofty nacelle]

https://tenor.com/view/dap-me-up-dap-uo-anime-gif-8334199194402267777

[frosty sky]

Thats ok too :p teehee

[solid oasis]

Also now that I’m back on hrt does anyone have any needles they recommend that I can buy in bulk

Doc swapped me to subdermal too

The prev ones I used kind of suck

[spring lynx]

i was intramuscular but i used #18 for drawing serum and #23 for injection
#18 mightve been too large since the seal wore away pretty quick on my vial, so you might wanna try #19 or #20

luckily, i kept all my supplies so i checked rq

also used a 1cc/mL luer lock syringe

[elder saffron]

I hate that 18 gets recommended for drawing cause yeah it does destroy the vials so much faster

[solid oasis]

THANK U

[elder saffron]

I have a recommended site gimme one sec

https://westendmedicalsupply.com/

I recommend anything BD branded

1cc/Ml is the way

Although I use slip tips instead of luer locks

Just a preference they all work the same

[spring lynx]

I wanna say I've seen #21 recommended for drawing up serum
you could also (probably) get away with using one #23 for draw and a new #23 for injection [Although this might depend heavily on the serum viscosity]

[lofty nacelle]

Damn I should rlly know more abt this huh

[spring lynx]

also not me getting interested in medicine again at 2am like a bum, studying merck educational materials, when my ass is rolling up midday monday to make fuckin salads and wraps for $15 an hour

[I might say fuck it and go for an EMT certification atp]

[lofty nacelle]

Is the # the gauge

[spring lynx]

yeah

[lofty nacelle]

Oh damn

I got #29s

[spring lynx]

works the same way as AWG [if not literal AWG scale] so lower number bigger needle

ngl

the larger needle makes me euphoric, lmao

[lofty nacelle]

Nah that’s type shit I’m jus the opposite

Tbf I’d def get euphoria from actually jamming it in like a stim pilot(ik that’s not actually how you do it but let me have this)

[spring lynx]

That's kinda close to how i did it and my levels wouldve knocked the average cisfem dead

like 560 when i got them measured that time

[lofty nacelle]

Wait like held in fist p much punching yourself?

[spring lynx]

A bit, yeah
Not full speed but it felt good

[lofty nacelle]

Hell yeah

[lofty nacelle]

Jesus Christ I still haven’t gotten my blood done ughhhh

[spring lynx]

I finally got my appointment scheduled for next saturday

and I just realized I work next saturday lmfao so i need to reschedule

[lofty nacelle]

I still gotta even call the damn place 😭

Tbh I forgot the name and I’m afraid of the scolding my plug is gonna give me

[spring lynx]

It's fiiiiiine

[lofty nacelle]

That what I’m saying

Can’t be worse than all the other substances I’ve consumed

[grand hearth]

Depending on the office your doc can just send in syringes and needles as a prescription to supply you

That’s what mine does anyway

[frosty sky]

My sensitive ass does NOT fw needles.

[lofty nacelle]

The humble Gatorade bottle

[frosty sky]

My hot take be like: Transmen more manlier than cis men because more of them get scars (and scars are tuff af)

[lofty nacelle]

Tw: needles in a Gatorade bottle

[frosty sky]

EEEYIIIIKES!!!

That actually goes tuff

[lofty nacelle]

My plug has a gallon thing of Minute Maid she uses

[frosty sky]

What if the trans version of “plug” is the endocrinologist instead of the plain old drug dealer that either gets robbed or killed by gangbangers

[lofty nacelle]

Mine jus bought me some carts n my estrogen

I jus call her my plug cuz I think it’s funny

[frosty sky]

I got one meeting left with the doctor till i move to cali

[lofty nacelle]

also most drug dealers are like a white dud in high school named Dylan

[frosty sky]

Good news im 18 yrs old by then

[frosty sky]

Fahhhh

[lofty nacelle]

At least in my experience

I’ve had a cool one that grew her own and my current hookup is actually an adult too

[frosty sky]

Nah its a scrawny dude who is also a druggie and shi

[lofty nacelle]

Which tbh idk how I feel abt buying weed from a minor

[frosty sky]

Yeah even minors do fucked up shit like the majority too

No one is immune.

[lofty nacelle]

I’m jus 22

Feels weird buying from a 16 y/o

[frosty sky]

[solid oasis]

I used to be that person

Lmao

[solid oasis]

Might be too late now but I’ll keep in mind in the future

[lofty nacelle]

Snare lore goes so hard

[frosty sky]

(Vine boom SFX)

[solid oasis]

I have a lot of lore inside of me

Probably a better way to say that

Whatever

[frosty sky]

Adore the lore

[lofty nacelle]

Nono this is the perfect way

[next harbor]

several of my organs have been replaced with more lore

[solid oasis]

Oh apparently the doc gave me some needles for now I didn’t even ask so that’s cool

[inland schooner]

Same #aro but like u can also just say that tbf

[frosty sky]

I fucked up my ability to romance

But i sort of relearned by reading shojo manga

(I am still lonely in the physical realm.)

[frosty sky]

No friends irl just family

[ripe burrow]

hi guys, i’m looking to find a new chest binder as the ones i have are pretty worn out, so i was wondering if anyone can recommend any brands?

i’m thinking of buying from the company wivov but i’ve heard some mixed reactions with the binders not holding up so well

[swift spruce]

the hoodie evolved

[scenic falcon]

Platano

[swift spruce]

met some cool girlz

[golden plover]

FEM&M!!

[swift spruce]

indeed :3

[frosty sky]

I fill up your unread with dread

[elder saffron]

I'm officially vegetarian again

[solid oasis]

🥬

I did my first subd injection that was yeah uhh very easy

Another thing I did wrong was apparently use the same exact spot for intramuscular for two years

[elder saffron]

Yeah you for sure wanna rotate injection sites

[solid oasis]

very funny reply I got

ok

we are darting it up in here

[solid oasis]

Yea the area im talking abt kind of became "firm" overtime so no wonder I was having issues w/that

[frosty sky]

Injecting shit reminds me of The Giver

Lowkey

[pale umbra]

gettin the jab

and yea

girlin it up

[frosty sky]

im sensitive to pain sadlee

so ima pop pills like a junkie instead

i save the jab for level testing

and vaccine

[elder saffron]

Straight girlin out here

[pale umbra]

injecting reminds me of ginger snaps

[frosty sky]

Ginger snaps reminds me of Machine Girl

Machine Girl reminds me of Ginger Claps

Ginger Claps reminds me of Brainrot

Brainrot reminds me of Tung Tung Sahur

Tung Tung Sahur reminds me of this

Machine Girl Ginger Claps Mixed With The Brainrot

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/ghost-an-iq-too-high-an-iq-too-low-smart-dumb-gif-8165603809975699407

[frosty sky]

Guys im voice training thru death grips rap

I sound like machine girl with no preset

[grand hearth]

I feel like death grips would be bad for voice training

Hurt your throat

[frosty sky]

Actually machine girl hurt my throat more than death grips lul

death grips is straight rap

Sometimes

Mg helped me reach new voice 0_0

I always got water too

I lied

It hurtz

[grand hearth]

lmao

[lofty nacelle]

Started getting “is this rlly you” when I get id’d now

Gender affirming but goddamn

[next harbor]

smh my boss was so close to they/theming me such that everyone else would. I just don't know many women with distinct moustaches. Like do they just think I'm self conscious ??

[frosty sky]

Gay

Gei desu

[elder saffron]

Some day I wanna be a Vtuber that can be a comforting space for other lgbtq people. A place free from reminders of how bad things are getting.

[frosty sky]

If i were a VTuber imagine I would host online DJ

[frosty sky]

If I were to become a VTuber i would make so much of a difference like Luma one day

[pale umbra]

vtubedome incomin.., watch oute world..

[elder saffron]

I saw this and thought of you lol @frosty sky

[left rivet]

I see it

[frosty sky]

This almost looks like my OC

I think im going to draw that thx for free inspo ^_^

[left rivet]

Cuute

[swift spruce]

i love transdome..

[spring lynx]

finally a place to restart my vtubing shit

[frosty sky]

I didnt pass at the convenience store….

失敗

[solid oasis]

Weird transphobia moments bcs I’m being forced around relatives (unexpectedly visiting) and ohhh boy I’ll update later

[solid oasis]

I no longer feel the need to update but yeah that was an unpleasant moment. anyway 🕷️🕷️🕷️🕷️🕷️spider attack

[elder saffron]

[open knoll]

wtf
snare finally fell for the green virus

[lofty nacelle]

No one is safe

[elder saffron]

Greeeen

I have no idea how to make my name display green

[open knoll]

slime role

u may have to take out some of your existing roles if they dominate over the green

[elder saffron]

.

[pale umbra]

no... snare.....,

[solid oasis]

#roles some of the like uhhh
specific ones that relate to things or animals give you a color

“Mutants” roleset

[solid oasis]

It won’t be long

[pale umbra]

youve changed... youve changed......

oh i thought this was psychodome

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/im-so-green-gif-2299086138707044250

[lofty nacelle]

YESSSSS LUMA

[open knoll]

yknow what this green propaganda reminds me of

kelp shakes from spongebob

[elder saffron]

Ive seen the light I must become green

[open knoll]

https://tenor.com/view/sbtd-spongebob-tower-defense-gif-8984188062704970085

[lofty nacelle]

TEAHHH YOU GET IT

[open knoll]

and then you turn into a hairy green monster who runs around town naked

[frosty sky]

I am green guys

Just the colorblind version

[left rivet]

Why are people green

[elder saffron]

We have seen the light

Come, photosynthesize with us

[lofty nacelle]

Greeened

[lofty nacelle]

Become green with us marin G

[elder saffron]

Become Marin Green Ultra

[lofty nacelle]

YESSS

[left rivet]

How could i say no to that

[elder saffron]

AYYY

[winter comet]

i got a primary care and my bloodwork came back normal so i think it's time to get on T

after 13 or so long years

🚬

[elder saffron]

Hype!

[left rivet]

Peeaak

[lofty nacelle]

LETS FUCKING GO

[winter comet]

it's very annoying to grow up in the south as a minor and be broke all the time and never have health insurance and then the health insurance you get on not covering hrt, basically just having a very unstable foundation to get on hrt

and our current government fucking sucks with papers
but i'm grown now, have been under my husband's insurance for a while, and i'm in a more trans friendly state

(and before anyone says i could have just diyed/to diy now, that is just not something i wanna do personally for myself. thank you)

my mother in law is also pretty good with navigating trans healthcare because she did it for my husband and my sister in law

so she has offered a bit of help

[elder saffron]

To add to the diy thing. I don't think some people realize how much harder it is to diy T due to it being a controlled substance so its also understandable to want to go legit

[winter comet]

ecksactly

i also have ocd so like.

whaddaya gonna do

my ocd coalesces very strongly around my health

[next harbor]

If I could give u some I would

Oops late to this one

[open knoll]

i’ve never felt more invalidated in a long time than i have now

[next harbor]

Is there any way we can help you feel more concrete about the sway of your life choices as you aim to sculpt who they left in their wake?

I lost a good friend recently and he helped me feel comfortable in my first steps as a trans thing. I realized I could have fun and love and celebrate just as much as other's had wanted to take away. He helped me feel seen and heard in what I had and wanted and idk sometimes it's good to sync in some way

[pale umbra]

i love you transdome

[next harbor]

I'm such a huge fan of T like idk I don't have to do much for all the muscle definition I'm getting. Wondering if that was just what was under the redistributed fat? Hmm

[grand hearth]

I think it’s a little bit of both fat redistribution and muscle growth because I definitely don’t fit some of my old clothes around the shoulders anymore lmfao

[solid oasis]

Yeah seconding

[winter comet]

my shoulders are already kinda huge i'm glad i size up

trying to fit "women's" jackets that are actually my size is kind of impossible

[next harbor]

Newest business scheme is a shop for big booty men

Caked

Caked Up is the brother store that sells used n thrift versions

[winter comet]

thankfully i have a flat ass but like, i still find it hard to fit men's pants because i have short legs

i'm not even short

very demoralizing to be built like a zora

i also had this weird pair of pants that was loose around the hips but tight on the thighs

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/legend-of-zelda-breath-of-the-wild-sidon-dont-give-up-i-believe-in-you-gif-16409246

[winter comet]

yeah i may as well become a gym rat so that i at LEAST look like sidon

my husband is kinda lazy (affectionate) but he was like "let's both get on T and become gym rats" and i was like "real shit?"

mostly his motive for getting back on t is that he's tired of having periods tho

valid

[frosty sky]

Swag

[solid oasis]

This is so valid tho

I’m so glad to have mine gone again soon lmao

[winter comet]

he got his voice drop and his beard so if it weren't for the fact that his period came back he would probably be fine off it

[solid oasis]

Yeah both of those were some anticipated changes on my end but I do wish the facial hair would spread a bit more (not that I plan to really sport it half the time tbh) but I’ve only been on it to see what it can do in 2 yrs

Sooo after a year hiatus I’m back on it and here we go

TMI yet not really ||I have big booba and well when I stopped t I think fat went back to that .. area I guess idk but they “filled out again” and it became difficult to tape / bind|| so I’m glad that if anything it’ll make it more manageable

I wish boob had a toggle on or off option

I don’t rly want top surgery yet sometimes I Really Do

[winter comet]

my husband has a huge beard it's crazy

[open knoll]

meeting people in person is dead

i may have to install a dating app which i’ve avoided for the longest time but it’s quite possibly my only hope

what’s a hopeless romantic who has no hope of finding love gotta do

[left rivet]

Same except for my voice like a slider or something

[solid oasis]

That too

[winter comet]

for me i want a very deep voice regardless of how i look

[elder saffron]

I need to sit down and revoice train so I can have a deep fem voice

It'd especially fit my Gothic ass too

[winter comet]

i speak from my chest instead of my head anyway so i kind of inadvertently achieved a "passable" voice as a teen but i'm old now so

[broken prism]

I feel like I could get a “passable” deeper voice if I really tried but sadly whenever i talk to people IRL it defaults to me… not sounding like that

At least I feel like I’m at a comfortable place where my voice normally feels androgynous (unless of course I’m actually talking to people idk)

[elder saffron]

I feel like thats kinda where my voice lands when talking to others

Like its just enough not to get me misgendered or weird looks

[next harbor]

I'm really loving the description "lazy (affectionate)" incredibly so

[mossy thicket]

Going to a new school with completely new people means I get to properly introduce myself as a man and I'm so stoked, but that also means if I disclose that im trans to teachers and staff that they might unknowingly reveal that to my parents

I think I might actually come out to my parents before I even start at the university

It starts in September anyway

[lofty nacelle]

Manifesting everything goin well for you 💚

[winter comet]

i have to beg him to take walks because he's very sedentary but i don't shame him for it

[next harbor]

Ppl really underestimate the power of taking someone on a walk

[mossy thicket]

Thank you Transgreendher

[open knoll]

LITERALLY

once i felt really upset bc i got a bad score on an exam but a friend offered to walk with me around a local park with a waterfall
depression instantly cured, life is looking up, nothing will stop me

[winter comet]

he gets bored because of the neighborhood even tho the neighborhood we live in is fuckin gorgeous

[left rivet]

That reminds me of when i was taking a walk at the park and my friend asked me what i was doing and i told him so he pulled up, before a few mins in he was like “why do you do this”

I dont think his brain can handle a nice peaceful quiet walk

[winter comet]

as someone who hates to sweat walking is like the easiest thing i can do that is better than no activity at all

[left rivet]

I like walking and swinging though i feel kinda embarrassed to swing when theres little kids there

The swing at my house is way too squeaky though

[frosty sky]

i had bad luck last night

Yesterday i was on VRC playing prison escape and for a stim i decided to rap the nyancat song

my dad walked in fuming demanding my headset and controllers :(((((

Worst part is this was NOT the first time i have been in this position!

[elder saffron]

Because you were singing?????

[frosty sky]

Maybe but

Its the nyan cat song

I was fricking MEOWING

Shit put me in a depression.

[winter comet]

honestly if there are no kids waiting to use the swings idc i will swing and i'm a grown ass man pushing 30

[frosty sky]

That shit was uncivilised af

[winter comet]

just as long as i'm not taking up space when kids are there playing

[frosty sky]

Swinging is fun

deadass im hardcore on the swing i would go over 190 degrees

[elder saffron]

Hey I actually practiced a little today

So this is my stats with how my voice currently is

And then what I get when I try to go for a lower fem voice

I just need to find a spot that I like and know will be passable for me and grind until it just comes naturally

[open knoll]

what app is this?

[elder saffron]

Vocular, I use it along side VocalPitchMonitor

[open knoll]

nice! i used a voice app (not this one) early into starting T to track progress of my voice changes but i might consider doing this one since it gives you comparisons

the musical note part is interesting cause i normally think i have a high pitched voice but when i tested my vocal range, the results showed i’m a bass

ig that’s different from musical note?

[teal dirge]

help me on my trans journey please :3 (mtf)

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/dragon-ball-goku-transform-super-saiyan-gif-15508420

[teal dirge]

oh hell yeah dragon ball

i was obsessed when i was like 5-7

[frosty sky]

i locked into DB and played the mobile games

Then i became madoka magica fan

After pirating it at 12 am till i got too sleepy at 4 am

Ohhh lordy how it changed me forevr

[teal dirge]

hell yeah

i love madoka magica

i’m gonna watch magia record soon

[frosty sky]

Worth it

[teal dirge]

reccomend me some good magical girl shows pleaseee

[frosty sky]

I finished szn 2

Im gonna lock in to final season soon

[teal dirge]

seen the films too

[frosty sky]

Still waiting for WALPURGISNACHT

[teal dirge]

holy fucking acronym

but they delayed it like crazy

don’t know what’s the wait

[frosty sky]

i think there was an entire generations worth of wait

For the movie

[teal dirge]

oh shit

wait this is the trans forum why are we talking about madoka magica

[frosty sky]

Because we trying to be girlz

[teal dirge]

i’m not playing skyrim why is discord lying to me

[frosty sky]

Magical girlz

[teal dirge]

oh i see the correlation

[frosty sky]

If kyubey exists

Instead of hormones

[teal dirge]

FUCK KYUBEY

[frosty sky]

Its grief seeds

For lyfe

[teal dirge]

this needs context

[frosty sky]

Spoiler alart

[teal dirge]

hell yeah

[frosty sky]

Im literally watching the NBA rn

[teal dirge]

basketball?

[frosty sky]

Yuep

[teal dirge]

never got into it

i was more of a ufc person because back in like 2022 at my cousins house they used to watch fights

[frosty sky]

Noice

[teal dirge]

and i got interested on what they’re doing

like why is sweaty shirtless man 1 pinning sweaty shirtless man 2 on the ground

[teal dirge]

yaoi

[frosty sky]

MlM

[teal dirge]

this is basically ufc it’s two men on top of eachother

i watch it for the boxing segments that stuff is cool

[frosty sky]

Fighting violence is kewwwwl

[teal dirge]

right?

since i grew up in kuwait i would experience a lot of fights

there was an underground fight club in my school actually

[frosty sky]

Woaw

[teal dirge]

i witnessed it without a clue

[frosty sky]

Iiiiive seen footage

[teal dirge]

i stay noided

[frosty sky]

Ive seen footage

[teal dirge]

i stay-

[frosty sky]

IIIIVE SEEN FOOOOOTAGE

[topaz rapids]

HOW COULD I MISS THIS

https://tenor.com/view/mc-ride-death-grips-my-reaction-to-that-information-my-reaction-you-might-think-gif-4075229977921684223

forever noided brah

[frosty sky]

Me after looking at death grips lyrics

[lofty nacelle]

Did estrogen change anyone else’s sense of taste

I like bitter coffee and pickles now it feels weird

[grand hearth]

being on testosterone has seemingly blunted my sense of smell lol

[lofty nacelle]

Huh I didn’t know T worked like the inverse like that with smell n shit

[open knoll]

i assume this is also what happens with people’s taste buds when they’re pregnant

[spring lynx]

yeag

more sensitive to things and insane cravings

[spring lynx]

my mom was a fiend for cheap shrimp ramen, pickles, and chocolate when she was expecting me

[elder saffron]

My ability to handle super spicy stuff changed for sure. I can still enjoy spicy foods but anything that's like habanero or ghost pepper an above I just can't handle it anymore lmao

[left rivet]

Oh then im cooked my sense of smell is already weak

[elder saffron]

Thats how it used to be for me pre-HRT then after a month of being on E I started to pick up on all kinds of smells I couldn't before then how I thought of scents changed too

[grand hearth]

yea lol

mom can smell a lot of things I just can’t anymore lmfao

[elder saffron]

Its always so wild to me how much hormones affect things even stuff you wouldn't think of

[swift spruce]

yeah they're magic

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah I’ve def noticed the scent thing customers have unlocked I level of stank I never even knew ppl could obtain

[lofty nacelle]

Oh shit wait I haven’t had any Thai food since like 10 days in😨

I need to seee

[lofty nacelle]

Also had a family sit there and argue in front of me if I was a man or a woman solid ass start to the day

[lofty nacelle]

Mfs rights in front of of me talkin bout is she a man??😭

[solid oasis]

*Manifests and starts sanding them

[frosty sky]

See this is why i should be a doctor

If they disrespect me i say

No treatment for you!!!

HAHAHA!

That scenario would be better if it were drugz

Like a DOCTOR****

[golden plover]

Hormones in a few months! :3

[frosty sky]

Noize

Ngl i might say the same thing for me too i just realized

[frosty sky]

[solid oasis]

Does T make you hungrier I feel hungry all the time now like wtf

Well it's basically a second puberty so I mark it as a yes

[next harbor]

yeah I feel hungrier, too, but I think it's also like idk it's made things that were normally unactionable, actionable

which is different! and good! in a lot of cool ways (at least for me)

also yeah like your body really likes to suck up nutrients when it feels anything at all redistribute. I feel like I was so hungry after my hysto for days and just couldn't eat much but craved everything

[solid oasis]

True true

I remember it being this way when I started it the first time

[next harbor]

Yeah I've only been on it two years but in that time I've grown hella moustache and so much more

Wish I'd had access to this as a teen! oh well

[solid oasis]

Yeah I was on for two then stopped for a year for smth out of my control and now I'm back on

[next harbor]

I can only imagine what it's like in the clouds, anywhere above 5ft tall

yooo congrats on being back on it!

[solid oasis]

YEA I feel a lot better abt it I'm hoping to get some more facial hair growth but we will see

That aaàand boob shrinkage pls i wanna bind easier

[next harbor]

THIS

[solid oasis]

Not that I want a beard or anything big no but moustache area would be nice all I have is this throat area patch/chin/sides lmao

[next harbor]

like now that I'm... ||deflating a bit...|| I feel less attached to my chest and plus I'd be a MENACE in the shirtless community

NOT THE PATCH

I was wondering like are we supposed to shave the weird sideburns??

idk what's professional in this day and age

i sound like a litch

[solid oasis]

I wish it was socially acceptable to be shirtless WITH boob out

Bcs I'd be so comfy like that but rip

I just hate wearing bras and stuff in general and binder use overtime has began 2 hurt

[solid oasis]

I think so

I've been late to doing so tho lmao

I just do whatever looks good tbh sometimes I leave them

But also my sense of looking good is poor

[next harbor]

that's okay, I'm sure with two of our poor fashion tastes we can combine into one whole stylish being

until then I'll just wear leather strap harnesses, which are somehow more tame than nothing at all, which is -natural-

How has your chest hair been if u don't mind me asking?

[next harbor]

I'm also low key upset in a progress sort of way that I might not be able to wear anything low cut soon. idk ppl don't seem to like seeing that I have a moustache or hairy legs and I can't imagine my hairy boobs/chest are any different to them, esp as I get more chest hair (which I dig, don't get me wrong)

[solid oasis]

hmm so it faded after that year off of T but it is pretty light i'd say

definitley There and grew w/the change of being on it for two years but not by much

[solid oasis]

yeah fuck

I think its cool/interesting/pretty when ppl look outside of the norm but most do Not share that sentiment unfortunately

[next harbor]

Yeah! I'm being more authentic these days and that feels like a big part of it now that I have an in-person job. I want people to ??? upon seeing me, in a helpful and constructive way or a shut up way bc we both work in the same building. More like "oh he's wearing a dress? and going into the women's restroom? That's fine tho [why does it matter]" like one coworker asked me privately about. I'm delighted to explain and happy that they'd care enough to want to know how best to refer to me as and what works! that rocks.

It feels like the right people are seeing me in the right way!

also yeah idk I find it really hot when people live intentionally, and anything outside what we were brought up to believe is gonna help me feel whole again haha

Trans healing

https://64.media.tumblr.com/0c1dbc6ca4725a8bf91c7bf3730b5400/6f7fef250cf678b3-78/s500x750/8599cf95ac4643ace445ba6928e4d717bb1783d1.gif

[frosty sky]

Swag

[next harbor]

right??

got that hylics wayne fit

[mossy thicket]

I got gender affirmed yesterday

After getting on the tram and saying goodbye to my bf, some old school friend spotted him and askef him if I was his boyfriend

[elder saffron]

Ayyyy

[frosty sky]

Bro i got the worst luck in my house.

My parents give me bullshit because I voice train talking to people on the internet

Yesterday was so good I didn’t even know I was doing it

My mom saying its fake and my dad is giving me so much bullshit

Trying to take away my shit if he catches me SPEAKING LIKE I WANT 😭😭😭😭

FML 😢😢😢😢

THIS WAS HAPPENING MULTIPLE TIMES

IM NOT STANDING IT ANYMORE

[next harbor]

I'm sure it's just the hair growth but does T got anyone wanting this for themselves...,., is it just me?

so itchy...

[solid oasis]

closest thing I can get to this is shower scrub brush

ohhh to be a chitinous animal and have a terrarium scrub brush

[frosty sky]

Backschrather!!!

[pale umbra]

keep seeing bleak news everywhere n i just want transdome to know i love you

[frosty sky]

I quit the news

Gives me a lot of rage

For no reason

[pale umbra]

thats fair

[solid oasis]

woh congrats

can I ask what is your method because ive been trying too lately but Cannot lock in

[tawny tree]

straight up eating less and living with the hunger

💀

i do intermittent fasting

and a full sugar cut, all with some cheating of course

+skateboarding

[solid oasis]

Oh well shit lol

Ideally id get more active but I find fasting/dealing with hunger to be difficult bcs I think it'll start to fuck with me cognitively which I dont like the feeling of(???) if that makes any sense, im pretty sensitive

[tawny tree]

I do either small meals daily or bigger meals every 2 days, not eating the other days, I switch it up so i don't go crazy

[solid oasis]

Gotcha. I just need to set a schedule for myself more than anything tbh or obey some kind of outline, thing is ill know what I need to do but im constantly forgetful and work on a sort of automatic drive unless a regimen literally written down / easy for me to see multiple times a day

[tawny tree]

I don't have a set time plan or anything because this is what caused failure for me

i just wing it with big intervals so it has effects

but i genereally eat in the evening anyways

just not the same hour always

i also don't have a job which makes having less energy not as impactful

i lucked out a bit

[solid oasis]

I c, usually with everything on my end I have to set a schedule/plan even down to focusing on projects or else its very easy for me to get sidetracked or lose what im doing

shidd

well thank u for answering and all I will keep in minddd

[tawny tree]

I just experimented

can't hurt to try :D

[solid oasis]

trew

[tawny tree]

set routines don't work for me currently because i can't keep up my other stuff, but losing weight helped in other aspects too ofc

the big thing to remember is that there is not catch all perfect method, and that you don't have to use a method forever

[tawny tree]

ofc!

oh also i switched from being vegetarian to being vegan

which means less instant slop food or takeout options

so i just eat a lot of veggies

w/rice

stir fry type shit

just veggies in everything

fresh or canned doesn't really matter

frozen is perfectly fine too

doesn't have to be much work

[solid oasis]

Makes sense, I need to improve on what I eat but the difficulty at the moment w/that is finding what's cheapest :7 at the same time i've kind of figured it out I just need to commit and meal prep tbh
(rice/lots of veg doesnt even sound expensive I just need to go look when I get the time and shop)

[tawny tree]

yeah it's fairly cheap

i have a rice cooker too, which takes off a bit of work

I steam broccoli in there too, alternatively i just boil it a bit in salt water, then i cut it up and put it in the pan with the rest

Musbrooms, Kidney Beans, Zucchini, sweet corn

just aaall in there

then I buy sauce in a glass or use tomatoes

also spices, pre mixed herbs, granulated garlic

shit like that

and MSG, it's a flavour enhancer

and vegan meat alternatives from time to time

you can just chop up a bunch of shit and you can eat that for 3 days

i don't do that though because i have no self control

luckily i live in a walkeable city so i can shop daily

[solid oasis]

oops I got taken away but TY for the insight again I shall commit

[solid oasis]

me too now thankfully

[candid ore]

msg 🤤

[next harbor]

also food pantries sometimes have meal prep stuff, too, or like frozen peas and shit if u tolerate that!

also trans people of machine girl, how do we feel about the middle name "Landed"? I'd be Ainon Landed Y. (the Y is a censored version but it's also a regular noun in english, which re-honors my fiancee's mom returning to our lives.) I might just absorb all the names tho that's also a very cool option

I'd imagine I'd have trouble putting my name in several forms if it wasn't just three words tho

I'll wait patiently and make change happen where I can. they/them openly on my cubicle and being everyone's moustache xeno-sir friend

wondering how long I will have to wait until I feel safe enough to tell anyone at my work anything like that, tho. They just get to they/them me. that's close enough to keep me safe in some sense

[candid ore]

it's a bit silly but people dont care about middle names past high school

if it has meaning to you the silliness doesnt matter at all tho

[next harbor]

thank you based lemon dip

my current one is stupid! why did all three kids get the same middle -and- last name? what?

who does that!

trans vengeance

https://giphy.com/gifs/mgr-mgrr-rules-of-nature-ZoC5ttQEQi5nqpeMHW

[candid ore]

i was named after a tv show character

and unfortunately shes also my favorite character in the show

[next harbor]

damn that's kinda badass tho

like at least you like her!!

[candid ore]

i've separated myself from my deadname enough to be able to like her

i used to hate her just because of her name 😔

i feel comfortable enough to share that the character is ||kaylee frye|| from firefly (censored it in case anyone doesnt really want to know)

she has so much aura 🔥🔥🔥

[topaz rapids]

eeeek congrats thats really impressive

[frosty sky]

I have a dilemma.

Im deadass turning into a system.

HOW THE FUCK did i get an idea for first name for IRL but then a completely different first and last name WITH MEANING????

But not for IRL

[teal dirge]

elaborate

[frosty sky]

I basically live a triple life

[teal dirge]

in a good way or…

[frosty sky]

It changes where i am and what kind of environment im in

Basicaly

[teal dirge]

ohhhhh that happens to me

[frosty sky]

Real

I have a dilemma sadly…………

I ended up getting a name but it lowkey overrides with another one I used IRL

I was thinking of a goal to legally change my first name…

But i found a last name

And then a first name to override my current

[teal dirge]

ohhhhh

yeah i get it

i’m not that level of trans YET

jm closeted to like most people

and plus no action towards my appearance

[broken prism]

hi transdome !!

[teal dirge]

helloooooo :3

does fmbot work here