transdome

[random flax]

AT LEAST UR GETTING WHAT U WANT THO

[tribal gust]

matt lowkirk transition goals

[random flax]

briar we are lowkey one in the same

i will feel the pain when i get my tits chopped off

and you

you are feeling the pain of tits coming in

https://tenor.com/view/akakichi-no-eleven-bro-bad-news-i've-got-bad-news-for-you-hand-on-shoulder-gif-4737126791591033318

imagine i just did that ok

my sister in christ

[random flax]

REAL. SO FUCKING REAL

[lofty nacelle]

Like the others said I’m glad it’s happening it’s kinda like a piercing healing but GODDAMN

[random flax]

errrr

yes and no

i think

based off my own experiences

my septum piercing wasnt painful at all

i feel like thats. kind of abnormal????

[lofty nacelle]

Oh well damn I WISH

[random flax]

i have snakebites as well i got recently

maybe it depends on ur body im rlly not sure

as long as theres like. no redness or pus or something you're probably finezies

[lofty nacelle]

It does a lot tbh

[random flax]

yaa im not a piercer so i dont wanna act like i know 100000% of what's normal and what's not necessarily

[lofty nacelle]

Nah I more so meant the fact it’s kinda a long healing and annoying process but it’s so worth

[random flax]

ooh

4 a septum its not bad!!

snakebites r a teeny bit more annoying

theres more of a routine w it

and steps

[lofty nacelle]

Yeahhh I’m looking forward to but also dreading my angel bites a lil bit

[random flax]

im assuming the healing process is much like snake bites

[open knoll]

as a snakebite haver they say it shouldn’t be terribly painful bc the tissues they have to pierce are pretty thick

[random flax]

yaa the second one hurts tho

[lofty nacelle]

Probably the only diff is it’s the upper lip and kinda a diff needle placement afaik

[random flax]

the adrenaline like. numbs the first one almost

[open knoll]

yeah if you’re getting two at once it’ll be more painful mainly bc of the trauma caused by the first one

they say don’t get more than 3 at once

(some people don’t listen. i know bc i watch roly’s piercing shaming videos)

[random flax]

who's doing all that jesus christ

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I was gonna

[random flax]

i feel like nothing's more painful than a genital piercing tho that shit sounds so painful

i dont get the hype but yk u do u diva

[lofty nacelle]

I just didn’t have money but if I could’ve repierced my ears got my angel bits n septum in one go sounds just bang it all out

[open knoll]

oh god yeah
doesn’t that decrease the sensitivity too like

[random flax]

NO NO NO NOOOOOOO

JUST WAIT I BEG

DONT DO THAT ALL IN ONE SESSION THAT SOUNDS DRAINING

i feel like any reputable piercer would say NO 2 that

[open knoll]

oh absolutely

[lofty nacelle]

But it’s

[random flax]

that idk abt but i do not. want metal rubbing against my tdick ever

[lofty nacelle]

So swag…

[open knoll]

reputable piercers will refuse unreasonable sounding requests

[random flax]

you can get em done in different sessions, ear piercings r always so cheap dude

[open knoll]

those who accept anything just want your money and don’t care about your well being ;/

[lofty nacelle]

Honestly also bc the earrings literally felt like mothing when I did them

[random flax]

this ^^

thats piercings in general after a while

i remember 4 a few days i had 2 get used 2 the feeling of the septum ring and then after a while it felt like nothing was there

[open knoll]

ahaha i sometimes pluck my facial hair with a tweezer and it’s gotten less painful over time

same thing happens with snake bites

[lofty nacelle]

Like the only reason I fucked them is bc I put on heavy danglies too soon and I ripped the hole wide:/

[open knoll]

unfortunately they took much longer to heal than they said they would bc i had a bad stimming problem

playing with your piercings is too fun to pass up

[random flax]

JESUS

HOW HEAVY WERE THEY

THAT IS

FUCKING INSANE

[random flax]

i get that yaa my issue is like. biting the inside of my lip or my cheek or my nails

i actually dont ever fidget w my piercings surprisingly

i 4get they're there a lot of the time BAHAHAH

unless i bite on one of these long ass labrets while eating......

https://tenor.com/view/aniyabea-yt-man-stare-ab-yt-man-stare-aniyab-gif-10494397403125281154

[open knoll]

i wear black hoops rn but i need to switch over to silver studs or something for the corporate environment over the summer

[lofty nacelle]

P heavy ig idk they’re almost fully closed now so🤷‍♀️

[open knoll]

still kinda uncomfortable taking them out fully just in case

but also just bc they’re such a pain to put in

[random flax]

at some point i may.. do rings idk

i went w labrets first so cleaning will be easier and also i want. spikeys....

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I think it was more of a onto impatient wanting to wear the cool ones I bought

[random flax]

that's real

u js gotta wait a while

4 the cool stuff

[open knoll]

i actually got my snake bites when i was an intern and literally nobody questioned them the next time i went in to the office ;/ my mom was freaking the fuck out tho

[lofty nacelle]

Yeahhh

I can’t wait till I can replace my barbell with one of the rings with spikes on the bottom:3

[open knoll]

oooh yes

[lofty nacelle]

I also just like need to buy a ring already for my nostril

It’s been forvever since I’ve got it done I’ve just kept in the stud💀

[lofty nacelle]

just curious do any of yall feel like you get clocked more bc of the way you dress or nah

[solid oasis]

I think less often bcs of it tbh

[random flax]

sometimes

[solid oasis]

well depends wym by clocked

[random flax]

im alternative so

people do assume im a chick sometimes

also t appetite is fucking real

[lofty nacelle]

Like someone can tell your trans

Or just genderqueer in general ig

[solid oasis]

oh UH depends what Im wearing

[random flax]

that idk

[solid oasis]

but usually no

[random flax]

maybe

probably

[solid oasis]

bites off a little bit

[random flax]

this shit probably screams transgender 2 most people tho

[solid oasis]

WAIT IKR

[lofty nacelle]

This is what I’m saying

[solid oasis]

True

[random flax]

dude i ordered a whole ass pizza from 7/11

[solid oasis]

I used to eat whole pizzas all th time (im fat sory )

or like pizza would last me a day

sometimeds 2

[random flax]

i threw out one slice cuz i js thought it was yucky

[random flax]

ur lowkey real 4 that

im a stupid fucking skinny twink with arfid so i can eat a decent amount

of

junk food mostly

[solid oasis]

711 pizzas r nasty

[lofty nacelle]

Like

[random flax]

sometimes yes sometimes no

this time was. yes

[solid oasis]

peak

[lofty nacelle]

Hair only isn’t dyed and is scrangly bc I’m procrastinating cutting it

[random flax]

this pie in particular was kinda gross

[solid oasis]

I try to dress alt i need morer cloths tho (im def all black all the time though)

[random flax]

w the issbrokie tee its painfully obvious

[lofty nacelle]

Not even the hat LOL

[random flax]

the hat and the issbrokie shirt

i feel like you'll get clocked by the right people

[solid oasis]

what I try to achieve w my mg shirts

[lofty nacelle]

I think I did today tbh😭

Some dude that complimented it and knew it before gave me chocolate?

[solid oasis]

HELP

dude I used to get blunts from ppl when i worked at a gas station

[lofty nacelle]

Nah fr half the reason they’re like most of my wardrobe

[solid oasis]

things ive been given (sorry random) at the gas station

• A ghost pepper
• A mockup of a great depression water(?) pie
• Blunts and weed

• a metal sculpture

more i cant remember

A knife

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh it’s always an assortment of JR MG or ISSBROKIE merch I mainly wear as my top always baggy ass cargos and demonias or docs

[solid oasis]

I wish gas stations paid more id love to work night shift at one again (rural)

[lofty nacelle]

Nah this is fire tbh

Also it’s literally kinda why I got the shadow tattoo😭

[frosty sky]

Issbrokie mention

[frosty sky]

Im turning into a glorbo

[lofty nacelle]

Type shit twin

[spring lynx]

having a skin care routine is infinitely more gender affirming than i imagined

[lofty nacelle]

What do you do I’ve kinda been wanting to start one too:3

[spring lynx]

i kinda just cleared out the la roche posay moisturizers and cleansers at target as a start, lol
have some dove scalp stuff that works insanely well, rotating between aquaphor and nivea and la roche for my hands since they crack hella easily and im trying to harness the energies that let the grannies look like theyre 21 again
i also have some dove body lotion and body scrub when im feeling depressed af and need more to feel better

gonna use part of my paycheck next month for a sephora and ulta beauty perusal so i can get some urban decay shit finally

whoever makes sephora's best skin ever foundation, its runny as fuck if even a little bit of moisture hits it !!
so i'm hoping urban decay setting spray and a couple other things can prevent that while i save up for laser or electrolysis

[lofty nacelle]

Ty:3 I will look into these

[lofty nacelle]

I gotta do the same tbh my beard shadow is starting to like drive me up a fucking wall

[spring lynx]

its so fucking ass
had someone front of house today calling me sir and brother like
big dog i have fatter tits than your mom, stfu lil bro

even with a like
straight up grandpa style razor i still have a shadow bc of how fuckin dark my hair is compared to my terminally neet paleness

[lofty nacelle]

THIS OMFGGG

It pisses me off so much bc I have dark ass Latina amab hair

[spring lynx]

[lofty nacelle]

I just tell myself god gives his toughest battles to his hottest trans women atp

[spring lynx]

REAL

[lofty nacelle]

Literally getting through sm stuff just telling myself I’m gonna be so hot in like 2 years tho LMAO

[spring lynx]

feels like ive actually started this shit now even tho ive been on hrt for almost 4 years lmfao

esp since im finished with university and never have to deal with that shit again like, i can just go for it

[lofty nacelle]

Hell yeah!!

I’ve been on it for like almost 90 days atp my body just LOVES it so I’m going through shit like early af ngl

It’s awesome but has me kinda scared at the same time too ngl

[spring lynx]

yeah it rules in a v particular way
early on its like youre kinda getting into an intermediate androgynous phase which can be risky depending on the ppl you encounter

but damn do i live gambling

[lofty nacelle]

TYPE SHIT TWIN

[lofty nacelle]

Nah fr tho everything is kinda scary af rn but I also love it so🤷‍♀️

[frosty sky]

Chat ima get real for a moment

I already know the answer to this question cuz it's me and stuff but

Should I leave it to Estrogen to deal with body hair or should I leave it to another pill that blocks hair more faster that I forgot about but may fuck up your kidneys as a side effect

[bronze ocean]

elaborate

[misty harness]

what is the alternative youre talking about?

estrogen typically doesnt affect your body hair

once you have it, its there

[winter comet]

most people do laser or electrolysis for more thorough body hair management

[frosty sky]

Tried googling it's called Spironolactone(?)

Im only saying it because around four days ago i went with my mom to the doctor for some follow up

and like I zoned out for a hot minute after sort of saying body hair was like bothersome but I manage it

[frosty sky]

O okie

[spring lynx]

spiro can affect it, but youll have way better results by just shaving body hair or going for laser

[west anchor]

spiro sucks in my experience

[tawny tree]

disposeable razor does a better job than the phillips one blade damn

[spring lynx]

yeah.....

i only use it to clear out body hair atp

[west anchor]

use cream

[spring lynx]

hair removal cream can be risky bc some ppl get chemical burns from it

[west anchor]

i mean shaving cream

[spring lynx]

with a oneblade ?

[west anchor]

yea

[spring lynx]

ig you can

[west anchor]

i dont use shaving cream on my face most of the time but i do when use the oneblade on the body and tbf i dont use dispoable razors without cream

thats pain city

[spring lynx]

well yeah

[tawny tree]

i just do disposeable ones while im in the shower

im expecting a few cuts everytime

[spring lynx]

i usually do it warm bath/shower -> aveeno shaving gel -> twin blade shave -> (extra if i'm feeling real bad) multiblade razor shave -> aftershave moisturizer

used to do disposable razor blade shaves but i sliced the fuck out of my hand while dealing with the razor after it got stuck in the handle

the schick twin blade disposables are what im using rn bc i can get 3-4 days of shaving with each one easily if i keep up with it

[pale umbra]

aveeno shaving gel my beloved

[tawny tree]

looking into it...

[open knoll]

i like the way my body looks from the front but from the side i look like a chud

over the summer i’ll have to hit the gym but im not sure what i should be doing

[lofty nacelle]

Well what aesthetic are you going for

[open knoll]

i’m basically an out of shape twink and i need to become an in shape twink

[lofty nacelle]

So you want definition not size

?

[open knoll]

yeah ig so

[lofty nacelle]

More of a focus on upper or lower body?

Or jus overall

[lofty nacelle]

Where this is leading is I can just change my program around and send you one if you want

I’m having to switch off my like base level program soon af so I just have a like framework ready

(I used to be RLLY into gym stuff)

[spring lynx]

if you have an overall definition program for upper and lower body i'd appreciate it

[lofty nacelle]

Ok! This is the one I’m abt to write for myself tbh

[open knoll]

ooh i’d love that

[open knoll]

i think overall yeah

[lofty nacelle]

Ok where are y’all’s experience/activity levels yall would say?

This can be in DMs btw if either of yall would rather do it there idm either way

[spring lynx]

my experience is minimal and activity level is average, either way works too

[open knoll]

wdym by experience

activity level i would say is light
definitely not sedentary since i do a decent amount of walking

idm dms if you’re more comfortable that way

[bronze ocean]

no like what are you saying that you think the effects are to "deal with body hair" like

spironolactone has an antiandrogenic effect so it can affect the texture and thickness of your hair by blocking testosterone production it's not gonna like make your follicles die off or smth

[frosty sky]

oh okie

[winter comet]

especially bc afab bodies even within a "typical" hormonal range (i.e, cis presenting and without any hormonal conditions) aren't actually that hairless at all either

you will unfortunately have to actively partake in hair removal methods

if that's what you're going for

[bronze ocean]

that's true but the general absence of large amounts of DHT during puberty will make the body hair a lot less thick and dark and estrogen and t blockers only help with that so much after you've already gone through that sadly

[tribal gust]

uk people google is being useless do you guys know if/when you can get minoxidil

or Anything else that stimulates hair growth

[winter comet]

what im saying is that being totally hairless on the body to the degree that is achieved via hair removal is just not something someone without a condition will be able to achieve via hrt regardless of how they were born

like im kinda beating the point in that there's not a magic pill

[bronze ocean]

oh yeha im wjth you! i just wanted to specify how it works

[winter comet]

🙂‍↕️

i also hear spiro makes people have to pee constantly that seems like it sucks

[grand hearth]

Yeah spiro’s label use is as a diuretic so for ppl who are hypertensive/have heart failure, with the caveat being that you pee a LOT

since the idea is reducing the volume that your heart has to manage

[frosty sky]

yeah ive heard that from doctor

okay then no on the spiro from here too

i stick to the method of just manual removal >:3

(or not giving a fuk)

[scenic falcon]

What makes someone a chaser? Like, simply dating someone just cuz they're trans?

[open knoll]

when being trans is the only quality that makes them attracted to that person => they probably fetishize trans people

also implies that they probably think of trans and cis people belonging to a specific gender group differently

[spring lynx]

also tends to have a fixation on genitals

like chasers of transfems tend to fixate on pre-op/no-op transfems

[elder saffron]

It's a few things it can stem from someone being in denial of their own sexuality so trans women are a middle ground for them cause "she looks like a woman so I don't feel as gay for going after dick" typically these people might be gay but are too scared to admit it or treat trans women as an experiment to test if they like something. Usually it's men that tend to be chasers but you have cis women who do the same thing where they might go after trans women to "find out if they really like women" and then if they don't they then don't have to feel bad about themselves cause "they had a dick so not gay lmao" it's a long list of fetishizing and being to scared to confront themselves

[frosty sky]

Gender does not equal sexuality

for a fact

If u transitioned MtF and was like a rapper

no one said ur not allowed to make rap about the hoes anymore

thank my twt timeline

im a girl but i do not act girly

Does this mean im not a girl at heart?

NUPE!!!! 😆

I live by the weirdest convention ngl

[elder saffron]

Huh?

[spring lynx]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/240196923644968960/1493183770071924837/skibidicat.png?ex=69de0b40&is=69dcb9c0&hm=d768b2130cb0081e7efa2d55b41091f088c5a2ede4140598c276f2986eeebe75&

[frosty sky]

K I T Y

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1407297663522570240/1407348561846210601/bounce.gif

[open knoll]

i wish my parents understood this. they keep refusing to acknowledge i’m gay because “men have to date women” but then when i say gay people exist they say that no gay guy wants a trans guy

[frosty sky]

what the fuk

is this LGB without the T?

Nahhhhh fukk dat that's unwanted.

https://tenor.com/view/uma-musume-horse-uma-musume-of-disagreement-disagreement-disagree-gif-2389257190877099215

[open knoll]

very

there’s no use in arguing with them tho. they’re republicans. they can never be reasoned with

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah I gotta start wearing eyeliner everyday the confidence boost is crazy ngl

[elder saffron]

Out here drinking from the YukkoEX cup lol

[frosty sky]

i did this in school but due to being stuck at home i stopped. i never looked that amount of pretty again 😔 UNTIL NEXT TIME!!! :DDDDD

[frosty sky]

yoooo thats my goat

[lofty nacelle]

Damn:(((

[frosty sky]

2024 vs 2025 vs 2026 WHO WINS?

[lofty nacelle]

Hopefully you get out soon! Shits an amazing feeling FR

[frosty sky]

In the meantime my headphones give me a confidence boost

Somehow they trick my brain into making my head into better looking proportions

[lofty nacelle]

It’s juss accessories tbh

When you find one that makes you feel cute it’s awesome

[frosty sky]

Hold up i got this

[lofty nacelle]

This one is bc my friend told me to go to work dm the fact im flipping off the camera again💀

[lofty nacelle]

But like this hat does that for me tbh

Big boot baggy pant and sometimes beanie is gender affirming af to me idk why

[frosty sky]

Im like setting my shit up rn

[lofty nacelle]

You goood

[frosty sky]

they were NOT easy to put on.

actually im keeping this one ima delete all my other pics

Right now

Consider almost my face Doxxxxed!!!!! (not rly) 😆😆😆

You know what fuck what i just said about keeping it

Im editing ts

😤😤😤😤

[lofty nacelle]

Big fan of editing your photos now tbh

[spring lynx]

i dont have the gamersupps stuff but my plan is to stickerbomb my blender bottle so its aggressively transgender

[left rivet]

I have a friend who ive known for almost 10 years now i think, i think about a year ago was when i basically came out to my friends and stuff, but even to today i dont think ive ever heard her use my new name, like obviously we've known each other for a while so it could be hard to adjust, but whenever we're hanging out she just vaguely gestures to me instead, idk how im meant to bring this up or anything cause its just a slight thing that bothers me like i feel like im going crazy

[lofty nacelle]

Nah past 6 months unless you have some shit where you use both bc of parents or whatnot that’s not a slight thing that’s them choosing not to

I mean even then I’d say sooner tbh

[lofty nacelle]

I would just bring it up as they do it when yall are alone and you feel comfy with it

[left rivet]

Yea maybe ill find a time, i just dont want to sound like im forcing them but idk, i guess there isnt much i can do about that

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah fuck that dawg this sounds like it’s been weighing down on you for a while this is your identity and your life don’t let ppls stupid politics and refusal to respect who you are do that shit to you

[scenic falcon]

I think its weird how I just think of myself as the opposite gender, even tho no one else sees it. and the craziest part is I dont dress like the opposite gender nor do I look the part, like if u saw me irl you'd never know unless I told u. but I just see myself that way and its been that way for a long time.

also when I get gendered it's kinda weird for me cuz that's not my 'nouns?? but also being called the opposite nouns is weird too even tho I kinda use it on myself...das weird

[scenic falcon]

is this egg behavior??????

[grand hearth]

idunno, that’s for you to decide. I’d consider your self-concept being the opposite gender a pretty significant sign of transness, though

[scenic falcon]

well...shit

pretty sure the nail in the coffin is, I see myself as the opposite gender so much that I dont really try to change how I actually look to fit that mold cuz according to my brain: me simply thinking im that gendr = me looking and being that gendr

think this is the first time I said this to any1 ngl

[winter comet]

guy in another server grilled me on why i didn't have a dick when he picked up on the fact that i'm trans that server is fucking full to the brim with trans women. wake up man

[elder saffron]

💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀

I guess trans woman no longer exist after bottom surgery to them either

[lofty nacelle]

Very peculiar breed of ppl I’ve learned is weirdly common

[lofty nacelle]

I’ve started getting ma’am’d when ppl still see my face:3

I also got sir’d corrected to ma’am when I got close AND sang at by a 75 yr old woman that also spoke in poems

Who then ALSO said I have a beautiful soul and pretty face

[winter comet]

like its one thing to forget trans dudes like me exist but for some reason he did not pick up on every like, 3 users mentioning being on estrogen lol

[spring lynx]

im proudly on estrogen (read: new skincare routine, new perfumes, tattoo concepts, and interest in garment making/repair)

[halcyon plume]

Woahh a whole trans community in mg discord super dope

[lofty nacelle]

https://tenor.com/view/ulate-moth-trans-moth-moth-light-lamp-gif-1241474945407470801

[tawny tree]

fork found in kitchen

[left rivet]

Wow im surrounded by trans people

[topaz rapids]

we have you surrounded

[elder saffron]

Come out of the closet with your hands up!

[scenic falcon]

Man...I wish I could wear what I like without my mom either forcing me to change it or being judgemental about it

[frosty sky]

i never got to wear gender affirming clothes at home so i get cute stuff like sanrio and anime and ed hardy >_<

i never get to sound like a girl around family, so instead i sound like machine girl

voice training is not enough. put that shit on and MIX IT!!!!!!!!! 🤑

[lofty nacelle]

This new sense of smell is going to make me get fired istg

[grand hearth]

New????

[lofty nacelle]

My nose didn’t work this good before

[magic verge]

i've also heard of transfems being able to see more colors after starting E so i wonder if it's in a similar vein to this

[lofty nacelle]

Prolly I see shit a bit more vibrantly now too idk abt more colors tho

I also dk if that’s just mental like not miserable to be alive tho

[magic verge]

i think it's probably a mix of physical and mental changes

cis women are noted to generally have better senses of smell than cis men, and it's speculated to be a neurological thing, but it could also just be that because you're becoming more comfortable w yourself you're more attuned to your surroundings

same goes for the vision stuff, testosterone affects how the neurons in your visual cortex are organized

[solid oasis]

What the fucky

Much to consider though

I still don’t experience gender euphoria as much as I’d like but it def is a powerful thing lol

[lofty nacelle]

waow…

Tbh I gotta research more abt like when or why to get on an anti androgen

Like ik im gonna get on prog 6months to a year in but idk

Heard a lotta things abt spiro

[magic verge]

the main reason is because if your testosterone isn't sufficiently suppressed it kinda overrides any estrogen-based changes. antiandrogens are an easy way to do that, but monotherapy is also an option

my partner is on spiro, and it effectively nuked her T, but before she increased her E dose she basically had low hormones all across the board and was incredibly exhausted all the time

i don't think she's the biggest fan of it either, but like any medicine it either works for you or it doesn't. there are plenty of transfems out there who take spiro w/o issues

they're considering switching to bicalutamide or monotherapy

[lofty nacelle]

Hmmm

I’m on mono therapy rnn

I jus like want more tbh

[magic verge]

more estrogen‼️‼️‼️

[lofty nacelle]

Yes‼️‼️‼️

[magic verge]

practitioners have a tendency to underdose so definitely advocate for yourself if you want that ^_^

[lofty nacelle]

It’s just like all of it is in MY control but I don’t wanna hurt myself

[lofty nacelle]

I do diy

[magic verge]

oh word

i think it wouldn't be a bad idea to increase in small increments and see how you feel

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I also have to like actually start getting my blood done consistently

[magic verge]

lmao i just remembered we had a whole conversation about DIY. i forgor

oh yeah get your levels checked when you can

[lofty nacelle]

Yeahhh ik I just was broke af for a WHILE but I had the vial needles n everything so like

Wasn’t like I was gonna just stop yk

[magic verge]

entirely fair

[lofty nacelle]

My line is prolly gonna be get my blood shit done and then just go from there

Actually read into all the resources I have and see if I wanna increase my dose or get on prog 6month vs a year

Like monotherapy treating me good af ngl i just dk if that’s like just keep it or see what else we can do

ANYWAYS

point is if I’m on mono the better move would prolly just be up my dose rather than add an anti androgen?

[magic verge]

prolly

[lofty nacelle]

Awesome ty:3

Wait if you are getting an oversized shirt and plan on cropping it anyways

Does it matter if it’s women’s or men’s??

Like is either more or less flattering for a transfem

[magic verge]

i think it's up to you based on how fitted vs. baggy you'd want it to be

since it would be oversized either way i guess the difference wld be kinda subtle

[lofty nacelle]

Ughhh

Ok

I think? My size is a small I was gonna get some cheap m-Ls to just lounge in

I was def a medium when I powerlifted but idk I’ve only worn med above since

Also maybe be my embroidery practice pieces

Like I’d imagine medium would matter but idk abt large

[winter comet]

i think i independently have a really weird sense of smell and taste to preface, but i think its really funny when i (not on t yet) can smell things my husband (previously on t) cannot

[scenic falcon]

GAAAAAAHHH I WANNA B MAN‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[elder saffron]

Real

[misty harness]

true i love my wife

[misty harness]

yep this is why getting bloodwork is good. if mono suppresses your t enough, you dont need an antiandrogen which are usually where the negative side effects of hrt come from

[dull raft]

one of the biggest things i hate about living in the south is that all of your trans/queer friends will probably detransition or hide their queerness when they start dating a cishet guy

its happened to so many of my friends

a kid who used to be pan and openly weird now carries around a hello kitty stanley and doesnt wear their galaxy hoodies anymore

a kid who used to be bi and used neopronouns and had 8 names now usually goes by their deadname and she/her and no longer does their makeup like they used to

ive heard girls talk about how they wanna be feminine again now that theyre dating someone

and its just so so so nasty and yucky to me

cant you see????

theyre stealing you

[open knoll]

yeah it’s the fact they’re changing their entire personality for some guy

[dull raft]

yes exactly

and its always because of what the guy has said as well

[dull raft]

dating someone who looks and sounds like a republican that probably has a dont tread on me flag above his bed

[open knoll]

yikes

[dull raft]

dating someone who has made nasty and horrible "jokes" about women

about THEM even

[open knoll]

idk why my message didn’t send the first time

[solid oasis]

Ill spare the rant but I had a friend who did this and oohohohgh it hurts to see

[dull raft]

it really really does

[dull raft]

especially when ive begged this person to drop everyone and start anew because everyone in their friend group is responsible, not just their yucky excuse of a bf

only for them to drop me instead

[frosty sky]

thats a W HRT superpower

[frosty sky]

Typical America South

If ur gonna be cringe, do it all the way. no wishy washy allowed

[open knoll]

jesus fuck i think i’m going to need a hysterectomy

i keep having thoughts of ||things getting shoved into my cervix|| and the pain associated with it

how do i forget them

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-hammer-cat-being-hit-on-the-head-with-a-hammer-monjjunirawr-silly-cat-cat-hammered-gif-10390299470246788991

Shove things in your head

And probly Shove extreme bass sounds in your ear holes

https://tenor.com/view/loud-music-up-sound-on-gif-21854479

[open knoll]

i’m doing that rn!

[frosty sky]

Noice.

[spring lynx]

its so ass bc even the weirder queer groups are so goddamn vanilla after like
1 or 2 events

my wishy washy ass outweirds the mfs with the pride flags plastered all over their shit bc thats all they have

[open knoll]

oh my god
no wonder why i feel too weird even among weird people

never trust any queer group that isn’t tailored towards a specific niche

[spring lynx]

real

although i do need gayass commie decals for my car

preferably with godzilla involved

bc i feel like theres a chance that i might encounter more actually fun queer ppl if i take this approach

[open knoll]

i like making stuff but printing is something i haven’t fully tapped into

[spring lynx]

yeah, its not too bad from what ive heard. the main thing is just getting the equipment and supplies in the first place

[open knoll]

actually
i once got a free gay car decal from my college but i didn’t actually put it on my car because at the time i lived in a red area of my state and didn’t wanna get judged for it

now i’m in the city and it’s a lot more acceptable here except i have no car anymore

[spring lynx]

the gay group i was with that gave me a decal turned out to be so vanilla that the faculty advisor assigned to them, who lived through the aids epidemic, hated them for being so bland

she literally only stayed bc they didnt have anyone else and bc she was only the advisor, its not like she can singlehandedly change the group
but
i hope she did bc she was rad as fuck

[tribal gust]

i do not trust those who are gay but not queer, if that makes sense

corpo-gays creep me out

[solid oasis]

I cut off a few that are like that lol

[tribal gust]

reminds me. Of the time i saw a lesbian couple proudlu voting trump

What Are You Doing.

[solid oasis]

Starts peeling off my skin

but they gotta know what theyre doing

[tribal gust]

Like as much as I'm glad queerness has reached a point where some queers can live a regular life despite their identity.. it feels traitorous in a way

How are you gay in a high paying office job

"Palatable" queers specifically

[solid oasis]

it absolutely is and i kind of despise the infighting and people trying to invalidate one another esp in times like this

I try to understand ppl at different angles like, ofc I have my limits but then there are some gay ppl who only accept really bland concepts or throw others under the bus and I Hate Them

[solid oasis]

Yes

[open knoll]

oh for sure

[tribal gust]

"I'm not like those weird transgenders!" says the transgender in the transgender concentratiom camp with all the other transgenders

[open knoll]

last year i got dragged with another friend group to the corporate version of our city’s pride instead of the people’s pride

[tribal gust]

Hell Naw...

Rainbowashing makes me want to tear my skin off

Is that the term. It migbt be

[open knoll]

the corpo pride happens on both saturday and sunday but the other one only runs for like 5 hours on saturday and my friends wanted to go to pride on saturday

rainbow washing i’ve heard yeah

[solid oasis]

throwing others down to uplift yourself in the eyes of who only barely tolerate u themselves is so vile

theyd do away with you too if they could + (Edit: + imo theyd only see you as a token or a means to an end if they /do/ accept u)

[tribal gust]

cough. Brianna wu

[solid oasis]

idk but ik what ur saying

[open knoll]

“LGB DROP THE T”

what use does that do for you other than say you hate trans people

[tribal gust]

"LGB WITHOUT THE T" like our ancestors didnt all get the same pink triangle in nazi camps

[open knoll]

“it’s same-SEX attraction, not same-GENDER attraction” is just a complex way of wording that you hate trans people

[solid oasis]

im going to eat thes peowpl

[open knoll]

YEAH

[tribal gust]

Saw a butch lesbian terf once

Who was TAKING T

YOURE HALFWAY THERE BUDDY CALM YOUR MOUTH

[open knoll]

bro-

literal 4chan “hrt tomboy”

the repression is so strong i can feel it through the screen

[tribal gust]

4chan femboy reppers are all getting sent to the meat grinder.

[open knoll]

is it sad that the stereotypical 4chan femboy’s body type is the one i want to have

[tribal gust]

#Felt

Instead i got the hourglass of doom

God gives his saddest trans men the widest hips

[open knoll]

i like my hips but i got dips

i just gotta focus on flattening my stomach and probably work on my upper body as well

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah tbh I just learned this I’ve just done mono bc my “plug” bought a vial for me and said “stop complaining” LMAO

[lofty nacelle]

Ah shit I’ve gotta

Aghhhh

I still gotchu dw

[grand hearth]

hot take maybe but I think anyone should be able to HRT even if they might still align with their AGAB more

Like fuck it, you’re still a boy but want to be pretty? Take some fuckinnn E. if you want to be a masc girl take some fuckinnnn T. do what makes you happy, idgaf. You dont have to be trans to take hormones to align closer with your gender identity even if it’s still cis and trans people dont need to take hormones to be trans imo. I think a cis person who is gender nonconforming even if they still ID as cis should be “allowed” to do so

[open knoll]

i was gonna say something but i need to get a pic of my apartment’s gym first

[lofty nacelle]

Take that SHOULD be cold as ice tbh

[grand hearth]

yes

[lofty nacelle]

YEAH

YA DO

[open knoll]

oh yeah that’s very true

HRT is already available for cis people anyway

or are you talking about accessibility to cross-sex hormones for cis people bc i don’t know too well what that’s like

i imagine it would be the same process as any trans person under an informed consent model

[grand hearth]

I specifically mean trans hormones yeah

[open knoll]

yeah i’m all for it
even if most cis people arent gonna do it, there should always be the option to

[solid oasis]

YES

Kinda me

[lofty nacelle]

I think

It should be in the popcorn

Except like fr

[solid oasis]

Well I don’t align with afab as in assigned but Ina diff weirder sense but I’ve already rambled abt how I’m Genderfucked a lot at this point so

[lofty nacelle]

Do the roar

[solid oasis]

At the end of the day anyway hrt is more of a “gender affirming care” thing than “you have to ID with this specific label to take it”

[open knoll]

yeah

[lofty nacelle]

YESSS

[solid oasis]

aeough

[open knoll]

unless you live in an area where they still require documentation before you can get access to hrt

and even then diy is an option

[lofty nacelle]

DIY my beloved💕 💕

My beloved Gatorade bottle with 9 needles in it✨✨

[solid oasis]

come to think of it i think the reason why I procrastinated on T was bcs of that stigma of like, "oh u only take it if u wanna be transmasc" and i was like ok shit ok well im not exactly wanting to be Male so I guess I wont

now im glad i took it anyway

[lofty nacelle]

REALLL

I didn’t wanna go on estrogen for a while even tho I was transfem nb to start

[frosty sky]

My mother doesnt mind me taking hrt despite not accepting my girliness

Neither does my father

[open knoll]

i wanted to be on T even though i initially considered myself fully nb

but low dose so i could stop if i felt like my body was androgynized enough

eventually i just started to label myself as male

[frosty sky]

But this is lowkey only bc im close to 18 anyway

[grand hearth]

yeah like I’m still an enby but I’ve been on T for almost 3 yrs now
not a man just some fucking man-thing ^_^

[open knoll]

yeah my folks don’t support my medical transition but they didn’t try to stop me

it’s been 5 years of hormones and a top surgery and now i don’t need their input on anything

[frosty sky]

based

[solid oasis]

i am somehow genderfluid bigender and agender all at the same time *explodes everything

[open knoll]

i feel kinda lucky in a sense bc i knew what i wanted relatively early on and now i look pretty indistinguishable from a cis male if i didn’t dress very visibly alt

you can still get really far even without much money

[magic verge]

bigender and agender at the same time..... #justlikemefr

[solid oasis]

reawl 🔥

[magic verge]

today is my shot day yay

[open knoll]

(ignore that my top surgery bill is in collections and they’re still trying to get me)

[magic verge]

(closes my eyes)

[open knoll]

but i thought it was covered by insurance and i made sure it was

i don’t know why the copay is so high

[magic verge]

navigating the medical system is akin to torture

[frosty sky]

I say im a girl but im actually xenogender with it

[open knoll]

exactly

dude if these guys still want my medical bill in 30 years time maybe i’ll pity them enough to pay it back

[lofty nacelle]

I have a suggestion

[open knoll]

but i am a poor college student who won’t be making much out of school either

[frosty sky]

my mom held me off getting spiro in da chekup

[open knoll]

idk. i’d start with like $80k a year but it’s a 1099 contract role so i end up making $50k

[frosty sky]

is spiro just another way of sending your stomach into uzumaki

[grand hearth]

more like your kidneys

[solid oasis]

pissgirl

[solid oasis]

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS WHAT MY MIND WAS TRYING TO CONJURE HELP

[open knoll]

i am eating

[magic verge]

if only i could DIY the surgery and all the treatment for my disabilities

[solid oasis]

beautiful

[lofty nacelle]

Damn:(( one day

[magic verge]

flag of japan sweat stained pillow

[open knoll]

man

i wish i could DIY my way out of years and years and years of built up self hatred

when i joined this server, i had just lost the third friend group i found my way in over the past 2 years

[lofty nacelle]

Photoshoot with a cute outfit and you learn how to take photos

Worked for me at least

[solid oasis]

trying to see what i can do w/o medical insurance and i like how i fucked up my typign djkdkjf

just one

[lofty nacelle]

Buy the bitcoin twin

Visit the Indian pharmacy

[solid oasis]

So as I take it like

you go to informed consent clinic and go yes im ok w doing this

and then u just . buy it?? somehow somewhere?

ok maybe I should be reserving these questions for elsehwere (like the DIY server I joined) shoos myself

[grand hearth]

goodrx

[lofty nacelle]

AFAIK you just get it from the pharmacy

[grand hearth]

my insurance sadly does not cover

[magic verge]

actually i am partially DIYing my pain management by smoking fat doinks in amish

[grand hearth]

You still get the prescription you’d just have to pay the out of pocket/discounted w/ goodrx

[lofty nacelle]

YEAHHH MY GOAT

[open knoll]

goodrx is goated

[solid oasis]

Ouuugh I see (I know goodrx can help with costs)

[solid oasis]

oh wait so if a doc gave me it in the past I can just uh, ask for a refill just pay out myself?

[grand hearth]

probably yeah if you have the same doc

[solid oasis]

oo ok nods I think the last one i had mysteriously vanished but I'll try to call in to the same place and see what I can do

[frosty sky]

Pissgrl

[magic verge]

mysteriously vanished...... did you eat your last doctor snare it's okay i won't tell anyone

[frosty sky]

Sowwy but im not into peeing

[solid oasis]

perhaps

[frosty sky]

Land of the Falling Piss

Japiss

[lofty nacelle]

Address the vore

[solid oasis]

Lightly acknowledges it

[grand hearth]

Mysteriously stethoscope shaped throat:

[spring lynx]

me when im white

[spring lynx]

ive only met one estrogenized femboy and he's my one ex that isnt batshit crazy or use DID as an excuse

this isnt a slight at ppl with DID btw, this is v specifically abt one of my exes

[magic verge]

white queers/lgbt folk when they're white before anything else 🤩

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/ant-sad-stick-disappear-leaving-gif-3212333050776233083

Me being white

[magic verge]

i love white people. my partner is white

[elder saffron]

omg my partner is white too 🤩

[solid oasis]

I have skin

[magic verge]

there are definitely a lot of white queer (or otherwise marginalized people) who refuse to do any sort of antiracist work because they think being marginalized = being automatically exempt of bigotry

[left rivet]

The gsa at my school is kinda racist 😔

[magic verge]

either that or they just have more loyalty to. being white. don't know how else to word that

upholding white supremacy

[open knoll]

my uni’s queer student cultural center has had a history of being quite exclusive

[magic verge]

i have uni queer student union lore as well :/

[open knoll]

you’d think a bunch of awkward queers would be less prone to treating marginalized people differently but it has been the case for me

somehow the one other chinese “friend” i have gets along just fine with the queer student union

idk why people don’t like me

[magic verge]

friend in quotations

[left rivet]

I stopped going to mine cause it mostly just felt too cliquey

[elder saffron]

Sadly at the end of the day queer people are just.....people

[open knoll]

she stopped talking to me after getting into a relationship with my roommate at the time and now they both dislike me

i don’t know what i ever did to them aside from being an incel

[elder saffron]

My baby trans ass learned real quick that being trans or queer dont mean allyship

[left rivet]

Well even though its a club for queer people most of the people there were friends from theater

[open knoll]

sometimes the most vicious comments about a group of people are internalized thoughts of someone heavily repressing

[left rivet]

Yea same

[magic verge]

to make a long story short, i was on the board of mine and it had already had a history of being cliquey. i wanted meetings to be opportunities for further learning and so did the majority of the members. but when i brought up watching paris is burning etc. the treasurer at the time said something along the lines of "no one wants to watch something heavy like that". i did a bit of gentle pushback because i was like "well the members want to learn more and it'll be a good opportunity to teach about ballroom culture and lingo and mitigate misappropriation of it." and then they proceeded to accuse me of insubordination(?)

[left rivet]

One of my friends is queer but sometimes they make jokes making fun of neopronouns which feels a bit icky to me

[open knoll]

someone who hates themselves so much because they are x identity knows that identity better than someone who is not that identity hating on it

[left rivet]

Dang thats just sad

[solid oasis]

I hate when trying to genuinely talk about smth pressing is shoo'ed away bcs its too "heavy" or whatever like are u guys seriously that uncomfortable with a real problem/challenge like. Idk at a point that sounds like a problem of the self bcs to me thats not a valid reason to shut an important topic down

[open knoll]

i don’t know how to describe it but queer student union groups always end up being a specific flavor of queer that seems to be the socially acceptable standard of “queerness”

and it’s one with a whole bunch of toxicity as well somehow

[magic verge]

the insubordination comment was behind my back btw. the funniest fucking thing is that out of the three people on the electoral board i was like the only one that had a rapport with the members so two separate friends were like "hey they're talking shit about you"

goofy behavior

probably also worth noting that the president was an autistic transfem and during one meeting the treasurer was like, "joking around" and it didn't click for the prez so they ended up really uncomfortable and on the verge of tears and eventually the treasurer (tme btw) just goes "it was just a joke DUDE"

[lofty nacelle]

Hell even within the trans community there’s shit like trans meds etc.

[left rivet]

Geez just reading that made me cringe so much

Max insensitivity

[open knoll]

i haven’t heard of transmeds in years

[magic verge]

sooo many people in the trans community want to continue to uphold a gendered hierarchy but like. "trans inclusive" somehow

[solid oasis]

this grp sounds insufferable hepl me

[magic verge]

i felt fucking insane

[open knoll]

“women and nonbinary people” always feels like “women and women lite”

[left rivet]

Wait wdym about this

[open knoll]

or just “women and women”

[lofty nacelle]

Don’t even get me started bruh like even with the “women and NB inclusive” shit UGHH

[magic verge]

there's always an implicit "we mean cis women and NBs AFAB" with that shit 😭

[open knoll]

“women in STEM clubs” when a trans woman wants to join

[lofty nacelle]

Literally 💀

[elder saffron]

Some trans people wanna force the whole "you must look and act this way or I will question your gender identity"

[solid oasis]

those people have largely migrated to different spaces or smth bcs i rarely see them anymore (PERSONALLY.)

[magic verge]

like, there are a lot of trans people who just don't want to unpack their misogyny at all, or continue to treat the binary like it's something real and objective

[left rivet]

Oh damn

[magic verge]

snare ate them too

[open knoll]

seriously tho
who decided it’s valid to think cis people can be GNC but trans people can’t

[left rivet]

Tbh i think i feel that stuff internally too without realizing

[open knoll]

it makes no sense

[solid oasis]

but they do infuriate me lol i recall someone trying to say smth abt that in vc once and I went oh nO no no No. no

[left rivet]

Like judging myself on how i present

[magic verge]

the internalized stuff is something we all have to deal with, it just becomes a problem when you start to take it out on others

[left rivet]

Yeah

[open knoll]

i used to hold a lot of internalized transphobia bc i discovered i was GNC relatively early on in my medical transition and id always doubt that i could truly be feminine as a guy

[solid oasis]

Yes i did

[open knoll]

it certainly didn’t help that femboys were, like, popular on social media at the time and all of it was heavily dick-centric

[left rivet]

For me its that i feel kinda bad about being nb cause like its a weird feeling that im not 100% of anything

[magic verge]

felt this. i've never ID'd as a binary man, but i felt very pressured to act masculine early in my transition and eventually i was like "okay some of this misery i'm just putting on myself" and now i get to be on testosterone and also wear gothic lolita and jirai kei yay

[elder saffron]

Dont even get me started on trans women intentionally calling themselves femboys

[open knoll]

yeah i see that happening a lot

[solid oasis]

I loooove to challenge this too when its on the table I do think i have a good way of explaining this to ppl who need their eyes opened a bit more but its painful when like. They're not reciprocative to it

Ive had some genuinely listen to me and its Awesome when people actually take in my yappathons but in other (most) areas they treat me like a weird outlier. More notably this happens in different spaces irl, and once when i admined for a big game server it was so damn awkward n the misgendering was plentiful
(2-3 ppl were super chill tho esp the dude that liked dbz)

[open knoll]

i don’t really know what i want my style to be anymore

i just have a pretty minimal wardrobe that can match with anything

i do know i like nautical things tho

[lofty nacelle]

The pipeline of getting called a femboy in the 2010s owning it then egg cracking

[solid oasis]

Big Same

[lofty nacelle]

NOT ME BTW

I got called a twink

[elder saffron]

I mean thats different, but I cant tell you how many people Ive seen that solely identify as women just to call themselves that to promote their adult stuff

[open knoll]

i even think many of them don’t want to do this but do anyway because porn uses degrading terms a lot

and that’s the only way they’ll get views or smth

[magic verge]

yeah reclamation or being multigendered or something is one thing but i can definitely understand this sentiment. same with like... trap and similar words

[lofty nacelle]

🙂‍↕️

[elder saffron]

fetishization sells sadly, but it does hurt the community a little more than they realize by playing into it

[lofty nacelle]

I can put words to the exact thing without an essay rn:P

[open knoll]

how much of it is them genuinely perpetrating this because they want to vs how much of it is because they’re forced to?

cause especially with sex work i feel like that’s the last option anyone would go to for income

[magic verge]

this is also true

[solid oasis]

even subconsciously yeah

[lofty nacelle]

I mean tbf I know like four ppl that have genuinely almost started at least OF just for the hell of it

[magic verge]

i think it's a situation of like. you have every right to be uncomfortable around someone who does this but at the end of the day it's a consequence of the transmisogynistic world we live in etc.

[open knoll]

ig it depends but usually these kinds of people never commit to posting content or don’t get enough views

[open knoll]

and besides, you’ve never talked to this person at a close enough level to know how they truly feel about themselves or others or the situation they’re in

[lofty nacelle]

I mean idk if its good to base it off of views instead of just the fact its happening

[open knoll]

yeah ig so

no shame in giving it a shot

[lofty nacelle]

Idk there’s def levels to it

[solid oasis]

yeauh

[lofty nacelle]

In frrms of it being your only social media presence it jus bring a link in your insta etc

Terms

[magic verge]

entirely off topic but i want to go home to my lovely transgender husbandwife so she can give me my T shot. i hate being at work. this is transphobic

[lofty nacelle]

Also two of them didn’t commit bc one killed themself and the other was her partner at the time so

[magic verge]

oh that's awful

[elder saffron]

Having to work is very transphobic

(is currently getting ready for work)

[magic verge]

praying for you </3

[elder saffron]

[magic verge]

how could they do this to our trans baddies

[elder saffron]

XD

[magic verge]

after work i will get my T shot from my trans life partner and go home to my trans childhood friend of 10+ years and we are all getting dinner with our trans girl friend who is visiting after she moved away. bless my beautiful transgender life

[left rivet]

For some reason i read baddies as bodies

[magic verge]

this too though

my job is just a desk job but sitting at a desk all day is not particularly great for my body

[elder saffron]

Retail 🫠

[magic verge]

AUGHHHHH

[elder saffron]

At least spring break is over with

[magic verge]

i applaud anyone who works a front facing job. if i were you i would just start killing people. and also you should be allowed to do that

[open knoll]

i’m going to enter the white collar workforce in one month and also sit at a desk for 9 hours a day

i’m never going to meet people my age

[magic verge]

dude i'm the youngest person here i think 😭

my work friends are in their early 30s

not that that's old, but like, it's funny when people forget that i was born only several days after 9/11

and then get shocked by that

[lofty nacelle]

I also had doomed t4t yuri with this girl it was a whole thing

[open knoll]

when i interned last summer im pretty sure the youngest other guy in the office was like 28

i was 22

[lofty nacelle]

It’s whateva tho(just to clarify been coped with I don’t gotta get comforted)

[open knoll]

where do young people go after they graduate from college

[magic verge]

personally i was out of a job for like uh over a year after i graduated

[lofty nacelle]

I went to bars but I also dropped out:P

[open knoll]

i already feel disconnected from the rest of my peers unless they’re like grad students or whatever

[magic verge]

if you're a nerd you can find nerdy transgenders at your local game store

[lofty nacelle]

Alternative clubs CAN seriously be a good place to meet ppl tho

[magic verge]

this too

[open knoll]

i’ve been to so many of these places 😭 not a single person tried to start a conversation with me

[magic verge]

lowkey some of it is going to be you initiating and feeling like a fool

[open knoll]

also im very much a “dress to impress” type

[lofty nacelle]

Honestly just nywhere you can share interests with ppl

[open knoll]

always showing up to places in tons of kandi hoping it’s a conversation starter —> people excuse themselves after 30 seconds

this happens literally everywhere

[lofty nacelle]

I just forced myself to be the type to start conversations but idk how good or universal that advice is

[open knoll]

i tried being that

last mg show i went to i brought glow sticks and tons of kandi

[magic verge]

it's also just like. hard to make friends as an adult tbh

[open knoll]

am i fucked

[magic verge]

naur

keep bruteforcing it

[open knoll]

too late because i’ve already accepted it

[magic verge]

oh

well

do what you want

[open knoll]

it’s not what i want tho

[magic verge]

uhhhh (starts sweating)

[lofty nacelle]

Nah like misha said tbh you just gotta keep goin

[magic verge]

in all seriousness i've been there

[lofty nacelle]

Or find friends in other avenues

[open knoll]

do you ever feel like your circumstances are pointing you to one and only one thing that you absolutely dread but there is nothing you can do to help your situation even after trying so many times

[lofty nacelle]

It’s literally why I’m so active here bc my irls turned icky after the suicide thing

[open knoll]

i’ve gone through literally so many different niches and subcultures and i’ve never found true acceptance anywhere

YIKES

i think i saw it briefly here but
yeah
that’s not good

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I think it’s also realizing like

It’s like one in a million to find some where EVERYONE likes you

You find like one person then it blossoms from there

[magic verge]

even finding the one person can be hard too

[open knoll]

omg i cant even get started with that

it’s never happening

never fucking ever

[lofty nacelle]

Nah dude

It just takes time

[open knoll]

it’s not possible

[lofty nacelle]

Dawg.

I’m TELLING YOU

THERE ARE PPL OUT THERE THAT FW TOU

Literally impossible for there to be NONE

you just gotta have hope keep struggling through life

[open knoll]

well
i don’t really wanna say more

[magic verge]

i know it's not the same as having an IRL friend or space to be yourself in, but my DMs are open if you need it. i understand where those feelings are coming from and i don't wanna make it seem like you're silly for feeling the way you feel

[open knoll]

cause every time i do then people get mad

i hope i pull enough money after i graduate to live alone in a decent place without spiders

[magic verge]

i'm sure you've gone through enough to have the viewpoint you do

[open knoll]

oh yeah, definitely

[lofty nacelle]

Nah fr

[magic verge]

i am not mad at the very least :p

but yes we don't have to linger if you don't want to

[lofty nacelle]

You just gotta keep hope tho dawg society wants you to spiral and rot

Fuck that

[open knoll]

it’s difficult to hope when i can only hope for myself

the one irl friend i have that actively reaches out to me has also been an asshole to me

not too much but she’s said some weird stuff about how i can’t be aroace bc ive had crushes on people

[lofty nacelle]

I feel you heavy I’ve been there you also just gotta realize like

[magic verge]

weird and strange behavior

[lofty nacelle]

You made that pant chain thing bruh idk what all else you do in your free time but like

You’re fuckin awesome dawg

[magic verge]

you are always welcome in the transdome if nothing else

[open knoll]

yay!

i got into kandi making like a month ago bc as i started becoming more seriously active in the music scene i decided to start making stuff to give away at shows

and also stuff for myself bc diy is fun

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah dude like what that’s sick af

[open knoll]

i also needed a monotonous activity to do cause the other things i do are study and doomscroll. literally that’s it right now

i do digital art and writing but i can’t at the moment bc it can be mentally exhausting and im already exhausted from studying

[lofty nacelle]

If ppl around you don’t fw you that’s a them problem they ain’t all doing cool shit like that

[magic verge]

sometimes socializing and trying to establish friendships with others feels like a huge game of chicken

[lofty nacelle]

Helps me get through it all at least

[lofty nacelle]

It DOES omfg

[magic verge]

yeah having like one or two things to just devote all your attention to keeps the demons away

[lofty nacelle]

I’ve found it helps to just say fuck it all and just say/do what I want tbh

[magic verge]

got rid of twitter and instagram and tiktok #feelingzen

[open knoll]

hahahaha

[lofty nacelle]

Ppl that fw me stay ppl that don’t go

[magic verge]

(through gritted teeth) is somebody gonna match my freak.......?

[open knoll]

i don’t use twitter anymore
never used tiktok
instagram is how i found about the pw tour so i kinda don’t wanna get rid of my account

SEND ME BACK

I LOVEDTHAT SHOW

[magic verge]

ye i have my ig account up still but at one point i just deleted the app off of my phone because i kept looking at other people's posts and getting salty about how much they were doing 😭

[lofty nacelle]

I like posting cute pics tho:(

[magic verge]

keep cutepicposting!

[open knoll]

yeah!

[magic verge]

i just never would use my accounts for much so i didn't see a point if every time i would log on i'd get sad or pissed off

[open knoll]

ideally double check your privacy settings tho. we can’t let the robots get to the cute pics

[magic verge]

i am a robot. beep boop

[open knoll]

yeah

you can never really tell what’s real and what’s fake and even if it’s real, what loopholes were made to get there

[lofty nacelle]

I’m trans might as well already be half robot

[magic verge]

#biohacking

[lofty nacelle]

Cyberpunk body mods yadda yadda

YES

[magic verge]

we should be able to just take off our various body parts and switch them around when we feel like it

[lofty nacelle]

This is how I was tbh I just gained a sudden boost of confidence

[open knoll]

if you see someone with a $50k car and a house while they’re college aged, they either got rich parents or are in a shit ton of debt

and it’s usually debt

[magic verge]

dude there are so many fucking people who have the nicest car you've ever seen and then eat dirt and rocks and live in a shithole

[lofty nacelle]

Had one phoshoot behind my gym where I felt cunt💀

[open knoll]

people are using fucking klarna to buy groceries cause they spent huge bucks on other luxuries

[magic verge]

priorities

[lofty nacelle]

Also think it’s fucking hilarious seeing me NOW vs me when I powerlifted

[open knoll]

lmao

[magic verge]

just paid off my costco hotdog with affirm 💪

[open knoll]

imagine paying klarna for food that you digested 2 weeks ago

[lofty nacelle]

These ppl are always so weird to me

Same with phones tbh I’ve seen ppl broke bc they needed to upgrade

[magic verge]

their brains are weird in a different direction from ours

[open knoll]

yknow what i realized from all this

financial literacy is a privilege

[magic verge]

absolutely

[open knoll]

like
you’re probably way better off than a good chunk of people just by making your credit card payments on time

[lofty nacelle]

I nod along as if I haven’t done the same for branch merch multiple times

[magic verge]

to this end gambling is an inherently predatory industry that often preys upon people who are financially illiterate

[open knoll]

yes!

[lofty nacelle]

This!!

I’ve spent sm on cs cases im so lucky i still kinda can go even bc i realized how much it was

[magic verge]

my parents and i are all immigrants, and my dad has always relied upon my mom for the financials, because otherwise he just. takes loans to pay off loans. at one point he would've qualified for having a "gambling addiction". obviously english isn't his or my mom's first language

[open knoll]

i just wanna know how gambling addicts still manage to stay afloat after getting constantly milked dry

[magic verge]

credit card to pay for credit card / loan to pay for loan ad infinitum

find shit to sell

[open knoll]

i mean they probably got family or someone to stay with but

DAMN!!!!!

do they not let you get any more loans/credit cards after you’ve been in the cycle for long enough

i’d imagine it would be the case but idk, i’ve never had to go down that path

[magic verge]

there are places that will still pay out to you even if you have shit credit

usually because like. they're intending to collect on you or something, and they have really bad APR

[open knoll]

ahh

[magic verge]

capitalist hellscape

ok bye transdome for now i am FREE FROM WORK (breaking my chains)

[open knoll]

YAYYYY

i need to make dinner and then catch up on yesterday’s graphics lecture

[lofty nacelle]

I gotta go get lunch with my chud brother and talk abt something that he probably blew way out of proportion

[tribal gust]

being a pre everything poor young trans man is hell bru

and british

[open knoll]

especially british

[tribal gust]

my 3 options for hrt:

nhs (200 year waiting list, 3 billion diagnoses required, 17 "this is irreversible! you wont be able to have kids!!!" talks)

private (costs money. Nope. My mother would Never)

diy (best bet but i dont have a bank account NOR the money to put in it when i do)

[open knoll]

the whole “you’ll be infertile if you medically transition” thing is BULLSHIT

sure it impedes your reproductive function but it’s still possible despite it

if you talk to hormone providers that do informed consent they will tell you that hrt is not meant to be a contraceptive

[tribal gust]

"but what if you change your mind????" I have done irreversible damage to my body due to my lack of a male body and not once did I give a shit about the ramifications if it meant I pass

not to mention i do not gaf if im infertile. im an antinatalist bru

[open knoll]

real

i would never want to give birth regardless of my fertility status

just the thought of going through pain scares me

best i can do is adopt

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I kinda hope it makes me infertile

[tribal gust]

"you wont be able to have kids..." pregnancy is body horror to me. i have known enough care system kids to know that adoption and full time foster care is the ethical choice

also why do people act like losing the menstrual cycle is a bad thing lmfao

most cis women i know dont enjoy menstruating one bit

[open knoll]

hormone imbalances i think?

i don’t know
hormones are imbalanced during the cycle

[tribal gust]

i suppose

more progestorone or somwthing idk im in triple science but i dont pay attention

[open knoll]

my mom’s super irritable while on her cycle and not to mention the blood gets so messy

[tribal gust]

mocks next week and my ritalin cant get restocked til thurs.

[open knoll]

rip

[lofty nacelle]

Does anyone have advice for shaving the part under the septum

I am cutting myself up and these three stubborn hairs driving me up a WALL

(I have a healing septum piercing)

[golden plover]

Electric shaver

[lofty nacelle]

Ty:3

[late kayak]

Hi this is my first time talking here I am very scared

I hope everyone is doing ok^^

[spring lynx]

you too huh
the lore at mine was wild bc one of the officers had a tendency to throw uh
"parties" when new ppl joined
you can guess where this goes

parties in quotes bc idk if i can talk abt it in here lmao

that and the fact that the most avid dnd transfem proceeded to play a fucking centaur paladin
literal main character syndrome in what was supposed to be a chill oneshot
and then killed the skeleton that our bard successfully rizzed up bc of "her morals"

[elder saffron]

[late kayak]

Hi:)

[spring lynx]

also hello ^-^

but uh yeah my main takeaway has been to never trust any group that solely defines itself as being lgbt, bc that usually means thats their only personality trait

[elder saffron]

I feel like those group usually end up being overly gatekeepy

Don't get me wrong sometimes you gotta gatekeep but stuff like that not so much

[spring lynx]

gatekeepy in the most bizarre ways
like the one here would shit talk any form of kink at pride and im just like
motherfucker yall have like 5 puppygirls in the same room what the fuck do you mean

[elder saffron]

💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀

"it's different cause it's the gayyzzzzz"

[spring lynx]

like i posted smth with latex in their server and like
the immediate reaction was "this makes me uncomfy bc its kink related" and it wasnt even sexual, just me being like "damn, i wish it was more normalized to just be able to roam around with a latex undersuit bc it helps me not get overstimulated"

[elder saffron]

Latex is pretty cool but idk if I could wear it in public xD squeaks a lot

[spring lynx]

oh true
just get squeakier boots

theyll never know

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/excited-spongebob-excited-spongebob-sponeggobv-sponegbouv-gif-11137162548210108037

I have a latex bunny girl suit and bending anyway just makes noise an I hate it xD

[spring lynx]

lmao, painfully understandable

[winter comet]

these kinds of groups can often end up regurgitating purity culture and enforcing the status quo bc they often just learn progressive concepts but don't do any actual living with those principles

to put it less charitably they're usually hella sheltered lol

they learn the talk but not the walk

they would explode if they saw how gays in like, the 70s-90s self defined

[elder saffron]

The amount of young leftists that fall for the purity culture stuff scares me

[winter comet]

and this is coming from someone on the asexual spectrum, i think sometimes in certain contexts asexuals can hide their slut shaming attitudes behind the name of asexuality
there's gotta be nuance

[golden plover]

We are very scary

[late kayak]

I am extra scared now

[elder saffron]

All that stuff Fox News says about us? All true

[golden plover]

https://tenor.com/view/crabcat-cat-attack-orange-cat-crab-walk-gif-17922959470161368447

[solid oasis]

I’m gonna bring back smth I posted here once in regard to this

[winter comet]

this is a classic post i always like reading these lol
shout out to the bigendered boychick that resonates with me

[spring lynx]

literally what happened with the lesbian faculty advisor who was in her 50s

[solid oasis]

Also all of this rings painfully familiar of an ex friend I had of 8 years who like, kinda fits everything here and we ultimately ended up splitting bcs of various conflict but I would say this plays a part

They’re very “progressive” but also very uh sheltered and incredibly privilegedddd and seemed to get lowkey annoyed when I’d urge them to think in a perspective of others

But that’s a lot to get into

Idk exactly how to put it but it’s like the same thing with mental illness iirc they’d only keep around a “palatable “ company but anyone who was “uglier” were demons or unworthy of respect or support

Bro I’m having trouble typing bcs a cat 🐈 s begging for attentionJELP

[spring lynx]

26, 39, and 41 are so fucking real
literally how ive described myself before

[solid oasis]

So so big real

[spring lynx]

also highly highly recommend a 1990 documentary about NYC drag balls by Jennie Livingston
Its on the criterion channel and goodamn, rupaul really fucking did make being gay uncool

[elder saffron]

I hate RuPaul and no amount of them apologizing for their past actions will ever make me like them

[spring lynx]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paris_Is_Burning_(film)

[solid oasis]

Imma gonna add this to my list of things to check out

Omgg

Wait I think I’ve heard of this too

[spring lynx]

its so good, caught the last 30 mins before my shift a couple days ago

also tumblr cringe isnt new it just got repressed bc of course it did

embrace the cringe and actually find yourself

[winter comet]

i hate the type of person who would rather do nothing wrong than anything right

[lofty nacelle]

Oh yeah during lunch with my brother he brought up being genetically predisposed for mtf to be easier is this a thing

In better words can certain ppl/families be disposed to responding to a certain hormone better

[open knoll]

i have no clue? at first my thoughts went to like, intersex people with androgen insensitivity or something

[lofty nacelle]

This was my thought but like that’s neither of us

Brother is trans man btw for context

[open knoll]

i don’t know if there is a genetic predisposition to being trans actually because it gives hints of bioesssentialism

[lofty nacelle]

Nono like

He was trying to say either

[open knoll]

or is it just generally responding better to cross sex hormones?

[lofty nacelle]

A medically transitioning mtf is just easier with HRT than ftm

Or B our family specifically is disposed to respond to estrogen better

[open knoll]

oh huh

i don’t really know about that bc testosterone does suppress estrogen production

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah

[open knoll]

but also there are tons of cis guys with high pitched voices

sometimes you just end up getting the short end of the stick

[lofty nacelle]

Well honestly I thought it was like a dosing difference or he was doing sum stupid shit but

He said he got injections and he doesn’t smoke so it can’t be that

[open knoll]

changing your dose will not make changes come in faster or stronger lmao

[lofty nacelle]

Like too little

And he just said no when I asked if he wasn’t dosed properly or sum and the way he is I just wasn’t gonna ask much more abt that

He just goes with whatever his doctor says so

[open knoll]

he can ask his doctor for an increase in dose?

[lofty nacelle]

Well like idk

He was lowk complaining abt how well i responded to it In comparison to himself and after i asked if maybe he wasn’t dosed properly and underdosed then he went into the genetics thing

[open knoll]

oh wow

i guess it makes sense why he’d jump to that conclusion

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah just as he does he stated it like it was a researched fact and like idk how true that is but I don’t know that it’s not true

[scenic falcon]

yesterday I was super tired at like 3AM and also little bit crazy with wanting to b man...but I still wanna b man >:)

[lofty nacelle]

ESP like I get you can genetically be disposed to masculine or feminine features but idk abt response to taking cross sex hormones

[scenic falcon]

I dont think im at hormone changing level yet, I'm only in the realization part and dabbled in the crossdressing part like twice or somethin

[lofty nacelle]

But he was also saying just like in general mtf responds to hrt better and almost said it was just easier???

Like I’m not gonna get into that but if that’s what you’re saying shut up bro no reason to compare to begin with

[lofty nacelle]

When you’re within your means to begin it’s awesome

[scenic falcon]

yea...I just dont know how to go about it tho without someone knowing its me tryna look like a dood, and I got no guy clothes either 😭

[lofty nacelle]

I mean if you’re worried abt socially being clocked it’s kinda unavoidable at a point otherwise could always just start dressing more andro it’s like less of a sudden change

[scenic falcon]

I mean...I guess...😔 I also gotta figure out what haircut I wanna get that's masc without making me look weird or...not masc

I stg im a whole can of worms

[lofty nacelle]

I mean honest advice

If you’re 100% sure you’re at least safe to not get kicked out or assaulted by family it does a lot of good to just not care

Just do what makes you happy type shit

Idk your whole scenario tho so

[scenic falcon]

oop I got distracted lol

well for personal safety levels...my mom's chill with it, 1 other fam member I live with is also gay so they fine with it. But idk about the rest of them...feel like they're possibly fine with it too but idk could b wrong

[left rivet]

For me im sorta in equilibrium of safety like random people still misgender me when they first see me but i still feel confident in myself when i look in tbe mirror

Idk if “equilibrium of safety” makes any sense i just made that up

But ig is hard to predict how people will see you but ig for me living in a blue state makes it not so socially acceptable for people to be discriminatory even if they are inside

I mean depending on how safe you feel i think eventually just going for it like for me cutting my hair way shorter than before did a lot for my mental health (positively) even though i suck at committing to things

Sorry if none of that made sense😭

But yeah the hard truth is theres no way to look nonchalantly trans

Well

At the beginning at least

I think its fun to just own it

But that might also be too corny lol

[open knoll]

idk my only irl friend doesnt make any effort to pass

she complains to me a lot about being treated like a man and yet doesn’t want to put effort into at least being seen less like a man

i understand that the goal is for trans people to be treated equally to cis people without ever having to explain themselves but we are unfortunately not yet there

i’m passing myself but i got clocked immediately by my trans coworkers at my last job if that makes sense lol

and even then

hormones can only make you pass so much

people forget that your fashion sense also goes a long way in terms of how people perceive you… but i might pass less than i used to because i have long hair

[spring lynx]

thats why i gave up on passing bc like
i love dressing like a tomboy way too much to get more femme for others, if that makes sense

[open knoll]

EXACTLY

[spring lynx]

i just do my best to shave, take care of my skin, and style my hair
depending on the day, experiment with perfumes

[open knoll]

i hate it when people in general’s perception of a trans person’s validity is contingent on how well they fit into their gender roles

[tawny tree]

real shit

[spring lynx]

tbh i hope my vibe evokes this image with a hot pink filter and dancing touhou characters placed on top as well as a hint of lesbianness incomprehensible to the average person

[grand hearth]

this is a complicated idea but I would give this a soft “yes” to it being a thing

If the men in your family just don’t have a lot of body or facial hair that’s one helpful trait if an AMAB wants to transition and finds less body hair gender affirming, for example

On the other end, a trans man from the same family who wants to grow facial and body hair would have a hard time cuz he doesn’t have good genes that would predispose him to growing body hair well

Stuff like that, it really all depends. I think it’s possible to have traits in ur family that makes transitioning from one gender to another easier

Human bodies are very fucky an can be unpredictable tho, genetics doesn’t always determine everything

[lofty nacelle]

Ty:3 and so asides from genetic traits like you mentioned facial growth,hip width etc…there isn’t a like “the Johnson family responds to estrogen better”? Idk if that makes sense or not but:P

[grand hearth]

Mm idk, i think that’s largely determined by how much androgens are produced by the AMABs
Like if there’s a tendency to be a lot it might impact how long it might take being on estrogen before more effects are noticed

I don’t think there’s any single gene or factor that can determine that, and really I think transgender health and HRT is criminally under-studied

[next harbor]

https://static.wixstatic.com/media/91e3d5_19a291e857064e6fa7d1ef93b2fbbbbf~mv2.gif

[lofty nacelle]

Hard agree on HRT and transgender health are WAY too understudied

Also yeah that’s abt what I thought prolly sum my brother saw on TikTok and ran with tbh

[lofty nacelle]

Don’t stop Girlypop mentioned‼️‼️

[golden plover]

Game?

[lofty nacelle]

Don’t stop Girlypop

[golden plover]

Sure, but what's the game name?
-# /j

[grand hearth]

remember when they wanted the name to be incolatus or whatever

[lofty nacelle]

Unironically I didn’t see the /j shit got me for a sec