transdome

[austere jay]

expensive ass scars i’m gonna show them off

[stable cradle]

I like the idea of tatting little fishies under them:3

[upper sage]

I didn’t even know ppl did that

[tardy creek]

@upper sage has leveled up! (1 ➜ 2)

[upper sage]

That’s so cool

[stable cradle]

imagine these guys swimming under the scars

[bronze ocean]

holy shit thats sick

[digital geyser]

slay

[zinc oriole]

I LOVE THIS SM

[balmy pond]

Yoooo same, my friend has antlers over his looks so fucking sick

[bronze ocean]

thinking about getting top surgery now

damn..

[snow loom]

all i gotta say is top surgery scars are hot

i have not seen people doing tats under them but that sounds badass

[spice sphinx]

Real and honest

[clever badge]

been one year since I came out

kinda crazy considering that nothing has changed one year passed so fast

most of what has changed is really good NJ legislature making me feel like I won't get banned out of existence which is rad

[balmy pond]

Super feel all of that

Coming up on my 1 year on e and its surreal to think of how much has changed and how much hasnt

Or even that I'm doing this at all

It gives me hope though, that despite everything theres a future for me and that I finally have the power to decide what that'll be

Once again again, lifes kinda cool sometimes

[balmy pond]

Best state in the union babeeee <3333, all praise to the Great Hallway 🙌🙌🙌

[zinc oriole]

I may consider moving to jersey tbh
I visited before when I lived in NY and I loved itttt

Also happy almost E birthday!!

[bronze ocean]

NJ seems cool ngl

slighted state

underrated

but they simply keep it real

[zinc oriole]

The rural areas of NJ are very beautiful

[hybrid lotus]

michigan has been real af lately

i feel comfy enough here when it comes to my trans safety

[chrome snow]

Michigan has been taking great steps in order to protect trans people.

I love it so much.

[balmy pond]

Holy shit shout out to Michigan

[balmy pond]

:0000 OMFG DO IT WE COULD BE NEIGHBORS

[bronze ocean]

is it cringe if i want to go to nj to see the clerks quick stop

[sturdy trail]

i go wif

[balmy pond]

But real tho I love this state so much. It can be expensive but u get a bit of everything and what natural places there are are gorgeous

Plus it's got, like, spunk I dunno. Only place in the world that could ever produce Bruce Springsteen

[bronze ocean]

holy shit

[balmy pond]

Yea wtf no I go 2 (has never seen clerks)

[bronze ocean]

bruce springsteen AND kevin smith

omg watch it

its so good

[balmy pond]

And avgn and the misfits

[balmy pond]

:0 it's on the list

[bronze ocean]

ah yes the list

[bronze ocean]

wait fr?

THE nerd?

[balmy pond]

Mhm

I went to high school in the town he grew up

[bronze ocean]

🖕 fuck kickassia 🖕 glory to new jersey

[balmy pond]

Praise be 🤚😔🤚

[zinc oriole]

HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY :,

[balmy pond]

HOPEFULLY 😭

[zinc oriole]

I graduate in hopefully 3 semesters so I will get to move soon :] (ideally

[bronze ocean]

the utter transphobia of having a hair in my throat

https://www.tumblr.com/obelixetcompagnie/714089392620322816

[balmy pond]

Holy shit congratulations!!!🥳

[zinc oriole]

TYYY ‼️‼️‼️ I am so close!

I could've graduated earlier but covid got in the way

[balmy pond]

I feel that damn, kept trying to put mine off lol

U got this!! Final stretch let's go ^o^

[zinc oriole]

LETS GOOOO WAHOO

[bronze ocean]

trans people are so lovely and beautiful

[wintry marten]

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[unborn atlas]

so real for real for real

[cold whale]

just survived a machine girl x 100 gecs pit 2 months post op i am proud of myself

[unborn atlas]

powerful

[chrome snow]

Literal god

[balmy pond]

Hey anyone have experience with filling out new hire docs as a pre doc change trans person?

I'm starting a new job on thursday and need to fill out all the I9 and W4 stuff

I assume i need to use my deadname since i haven't had my papers switched over yet but the autism got me thinking too specifically to move x_x

[zinc oriole]

On the job application and my resume I have my chosen name and I just explain to my employers after filling out the legal stuff that my legal name is different

And they just go yeah that's fine

Also if you're in jersey they'll be especially cool abt it

I'm in Virginia rn and they've even been fine with it

When I was in NY and applying for work too they didn't seem to mind

[misty harness]

Anything legal or tax related you have to use whats on your ID

Anything else can be your chosen name

You can ask your employer too

[balmy pond]

tytyty

yea thats what i figured

they already know im trans and r cool af (i actually think my supervisor is going to be trans too) so im not worried abt that, just dont wanna fuck anything up

[civic ibex]

update on circle med as a source of gender affirming care: they just charged me $300 for an appointment that was supposed to cost $25. Financially fucked me over big time with a “new patient in the office” fee. beware

[misty harness]

oof

i'm sorry to hear, thats shit

[chrome snow]

That's fucked up.

[bronze ocean]

wtf!!

thats so fucked up

[balmy pond]

(big whiff)

smells like freedom in here...

gotta love the surprise med bills to keep u on ur toes doncha kno

[chrome snow]

Ah, the US healthcare system.

[austere jay]

jesus i’m sorry man

[sturdy trail]

sotrue

[bronze ocean]

tale as old as time

[timid grail]

hi transdome very important question. does anyone have little dudes that are just you

my dudes that are me

[unborn atlas]

being trans I designed the little dude that I am

ore

[bronze ocean]

thats you fr

[unborn atlas]

that me

[zinc oriole]

I love being creatures and things

ultimate chimera :]

[spice sphinx]

Mari Lwyd :3

You must best me in a contest of poems lest I eat all of your food and drink all of your alcohol

[austere jay]

yes but post testosterone i feel less connected to them

i used to really latch onto characters but now the only ones i really relate to are like basically just guts and kaiman

i used to keep like detailed lists but now i’m like yeah whatever cool dudes

[inland schooner]

toro inoue. literally me

https://tenor.com/view/toroinoue-cat-playstation-toro-gif-26232647

[bronze ocean]

i dont really feel like any creechers, critters or the like are literally me but i do hope other people see me that way tbh

like if there were like aliens or something watching us and they saw me some weird alien dude was like this rat girl is literally me

[inland schooner]

i think of myself as sooo silly like :3

[proper igloo]

so true wayne

[bronze ocean]

wayne explosion

wayne hylics :3 face

[spice sphinx]

https://tenor.com/view/hylics-wayne-mason-lindroth-dance-gif-13703870

I was hyperfixated on hylics for so long

I joined the mg server shortly after that arc I think lol

In a different world there would be two goobers with hylics pfps here

[zinc oriole]

WAYNE EXPLOSION i explode into clay

wayne :3 would be so goofy in game

HYLICS IS SO WONDERFUL it has infected the minds of many (rightfully

[spice sphinx]

If you fuse wayne and somsnosa together you get jen :3

[vapid dune]

This was zenoby irl 100% honest zenoby was just a 2D black and white drawing of this character of hers

[vapid dune]

@balmy pond DID YOU FORGET SISTER

WERE AT 11 MONTHS BABY 1 MONTH AWAY FROM A YEAR ON THE GIRL JUICE

[balmy pond]

I DID NOT IVE JUST BEEN HYPE ABT LOTS OF STUFF

11 MONTHS BABEEEEEE

[vapid dune]

Next month on the same day we’ll be on the stuff for a whole year ❤️

I know ur gonna get white girl wasted at that show

I’ll see what I do

[balmy pond]

so fucking wasted oml

if they play provisional euphoria ill be inconsolable ;-;

[vapid dune]

Ah shit it lands on a Friday

[balmy pond]

in a good way

oh no do u work?

[vapid dune]

So I can’t do anything. That’s a work day

Yea fridays I basically never can have the day off

[balmy pond]

maybe u could convince them its for a special occasion?

cuz it is?

im sure with a months notice they can figure some shit out

[vapid dune]

“It’s my 1 year HRT anniversary pls lemme get fucked up”

[balmy pond]

YEAAAAA

well u dont have to say that but like

i dunno

lie and say its a regular anniversary or something?

birthdaY i dunno?

[zinc oriole]

IM

I THOUGHT

THIS SAID TRANS SPECTRUM FOR SOME REASON

?

EITHER WAY THIS STILL APPLIES TO ME LMA

LMAO

[balmy pond]

ngl i think it still works for most of us here

[chrome snow]

I'm on the fish part of the spectrum.

Also, I really hope that you are both able to celebrate your one year anniversaries.

:((

[zinc oriole]

TRUE YEAH

[balmy pond]

autism fish...

[vapid dune]

I’m somewhere between lizard and rat

[zinc oriole]

I am like fish and rat, sometimes frog

[balmy pond]

me irl

[zinc oriole]

:D

[balmy pond]

:3 moment

[inland schooner]

So real

[bronze ocean]

🐀

[austere jay]

next monday is 6 months on t

fucking insane if you ask me

[bronze ocean]

hell yeah

[balmy pond]

Big checkpoint, lets fucking go vinny

[zinc oriole]

CONGRATS FOR EVERYBODYS MILESTONES RN :]

[wintry marten]

YESSSS LETSGOOO

[valid cloud]

I’m likeeee over 2 months now I think? I didn’t expect things to change this fast honestly. I feel like I’m speedrunning testosterone lol

[zinc oriole]

YEAHHHH YEAH YEAH

Testosterone speedrun

[bronze ocean]

i NEED to get t

[zinc oriole]

I GIVE U SOME

[bronze ocean]

YIPPIE

[zinc oriole]

YIPPEEEEE

[clear remnant]

Yooooo transdome :DD

[zinc oriole]

HELLOOO

[bronze ocean]

hii!! :D

welcome to the other t-dome

[valid cloud]

Yay trans gender

[chrome snow]

YOOOOO

https://www.reddit.com/r/news/comments/12n9k92/colorado_offers_safe_haven_for_abortion/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

BIG COLORADO W

[austere jay]

hello transdome just got word my testosterone levels are too high

does anyone have experience with this am i fucked or are we chilling

[unborn atlas]

can't they be modified?

[zinc oriole]

You will be ok! They will suggest you decrease your dose until they're back to normal

It's just to make sure you don't get the blood issues but you won't die or get sick etc

Like blood pressure

[austere jay]

the heart attack warning they gave me scared me a little i won’t lie

[bronze ocean]

i dont think having too high levels for a short period of time doesnt have such a high risk but it is definitely good to get down to a safer range asap ofc

[spice sphinx]

My estrogen is too high we coolin 😎👍

[bronze ocean]

is it acc too high or too high according to wpath which has way too low ranges

epic wpath moment is saying trans women should be in postmenopausal estrogen ranges for their entire adult life

[austere jay]

unsure what they’re basing it on but i’ve been really struggling with acne and just feeling generally shitty for the past few weeks so it sort of makes sense

hormones been going weird

[bronze ocean]

hope u can wrangle them to a nicer level for u

[austere jay]

probably just going back down to .25 but honestly i don’t care as long as i’m safe and transitioning correctly

i have my whole life to take testosterone i don’t need to see immediate results at the cost of my health

[spice sphinx]

Oh yeah no it’s just that

I’m totally fine

[bronze ocean]

🤝

[spice sphinx]

I think generally most clinics that offer HRT that aren’t like exclusively trans healthcare centers they’re gonna compare you to post menopausal women because that’s what the service is usually for

[misty harness]

transgender war crimes lfgggg

[unborn atlas]

wh

[misty harness]

misgender my gf and I will hit your house with an agm65 maverick precision missile strike

in the gay shark plane

[chrome snow]

BASED (on gay shark plane attacks)

[unborn atlas]

we 👏 need 👏 more 👏 trans 👏 drone 👏 pilots!

[bronze ocean]

I Sexually Identify As An Attack Helicopter/Helicopter Story (2020)

[unborn atlas]

noisy, inefficient, kept around because of toxmasc boomers who think they're badass?

[bronze ocean]

no like the short story :3

[unborn atlas]

I dunno that story

WAIT was that the person who was harassed off the internet

[bronze ocean]

yeah :(

[unborn atlas]

a damn shame

[misty harness]

forever in cognitive dissonance between despising all conflict and wishing war machines were never built, and finding beauty in the machines themselves for being the extreme high end of what human engineering can accomplish

i just want metal bird go woosh

😭

https://tenor.com/view/nobody-asked-didnt-ask-i-didnt-ask-nobody-cares-dont-care-gif-23126736

[unborn atlas]

Kojima's Dilemma

[misty harness]

real

ace combat fans be like

[unborn atlas]

war is scary and terrifying and harrowing, but on the other hand, tanks are cool

[misty harness]

yeah

gundam 🤝 ace combat 🤝 metal gear

[unborn atlas]

ngl operator uniforms kinda 😳

[misty harness]

[austere jay]

i’m going to be so real i gage and despise war as any normal person would but military gear and vehicles looks pretty cool

[chrome snow]

Even though I'm pretty scared of heights, I really want to know how it feels like to fly in a jet.

[austere jay]

i used to want to fly planes for the military when i was like 10 but that went nowhere at all

don’t they have really specific requirements for pilots or am i remembering wrong

[chrome snow]

Yeah, in order to become a pilot, you have to go through a lot of stuff before you even get to sit in one.

[unborn atlas]

wargirlpilled

I mean like

[austere jay]

vinny yearns for combat

[unborn atlas]

fuck your guns but.......airsoft?

[austere jay]

i also heard you’re not allowed to have things like adhd and what not

[unborn atlas]

I held an airsoft P90 up here and it made me feel 😳

[bronze ocean]

you also gotta have like zero empathy n shit which might be a problem

[unborn atlas]

conflicted

[austere jay]

i’ve always wanted to get into airsoft but a) no money and b) no time

one day

[austere jay]

interesting but makes sense i guess

i remember vision issues also not being allowed for obvious reasons

[chrome snow]

Essentially, if you're neurodivergent.
You're not able to join the military.
It's a good thing.

[bronze ocean]

like those kids in syria won't bomb themselves

somebody's gotta do it

[austere jay]

really interesting, making me think about being a low empathy autistic person and if that would put you in better standing

i always thought it was funny how they made such a big fuss about banning trans people from the military for a while when it was like cool awesome didn’t want to join anyways thank you

[bronze ocean]

yeah tbh they should've like, been more inclusive

like, banned everyone from joining the military

[austere jay]

like please stop pissing your pants about trans people joining the army and stealing all its money to go on hrt we don’t care we don’t wanna be there

[austere jay]

retweet

[bronze ocean]

the idea of a government banning people from joining its military is kind of funny to me lmao

[austere jay]

like alright cool it’s your funeral pal

[chrome snow]

W

[spice sphinx]

Hey the revolution needs pilots too probably

Like yeah I get it don’t romanticize the violence and death and all

[misty harness]

yeah same, i wanted to be a pilot as a kid but there was no chance bc of health stuff lol

[spice sphinx]

But yknow sometimes you’re Fuck Your Guns and other days you’re Full Metal Dipshit

[misty harness]

so true

[austere jay]

bullet hell moment

[stable cradle]

transphobic mfs when I air strike their home in this

[misty harness]

"Mr Sarah <last name>, sir" is a new one

[chrome snow]

What the fuck?

Why would you ever need to use Mr and Sir to address the specific person?

Literally stupid.

[zinc oriole]

That's like out of the way levels of stupid on their part

[misty harness]

Shithead laughed at me when I said my name too

and then referred to "Sarah" in the third person for half the conversation

Fucking receptionist at my supposedly LGBT friendly psychiatrist office

[zinc oriole]

What the fuck that's awful

[sturdy trail]

every day i distrust psychiatrists more and more

[zinc oriole]

I hope you can find somewhere that respects you

Tbh I have given up on the mental health system lol

An office that I've been with since 2020 keeps deadnaming me

Even though it's only on my legal documents and not my profile

So I'm not going there anymore lol

[bronze ocean]

shit like this is so fucking common and like

99% of the time its completely on purpose

[zinc oriole]

Transphobes will go out of their way to be the biggest assholes possible I'm really sorry you went through that Sarah

It definitely is

The mental health industry, I'm not saying field bc it's an industry at this point, does not care about you when you are not paying them to care

And even when you do pay them they don't care

Ik people have had good experiences, but from my own and seeing what's happened to my trans friends and trans people I know it hasn't been great at all

[bronze ocean]

strongest reason people become anti-psychiatry is repeated interactions with the field of psychiatry 🤪

[chrome snow]

Our healthcare system is fucked up beyond believe.

[zinc oriole]

Yep!! Exactly

[zinc oriole]

The capitalist system has discovered it can monetize the mentally ill

Tbh

That's why they don't put genuine effort into mental Healthcare, aside from the fucked up state of Healthcare under this system

It's fucked up how I've done more for myself mentally than any therapist has for me

[vapid dune]

Wayne gets my way of thinking tbh tbh. I refuse to use a psychiatrist by all means and have done all my mental health improvement myself because it’s just so fueled by capitalism and borderline impossible to find someone who gives a shit beyond the money you provide for them

[bronze ocean]

REAL

[zinc oriole]

A lot of healing in therapy is on the basis of complacency rather than environmental based mental health. Because your mental state is very dependent on your environment. They don't give us tools to properly cope with that environment and build community support and thus we are given 'coping' skills that make us complacent with our state rather than tools we can use to get ourselves somewhere better

In my experience anyways

[balmy pond]

Yknow I never thought about it that way but that's so true isnt it? It's like they teach you temporary fixes the alleviate the pain in the moment but not deal with the source

I think you need someone that's on your level for it to work and that's soooooooo hard to do. I got super lucky and finding an enby therapist in the area and I think it's the first time I've ever made any legitimate progress with my mental health

Like even if u cant be sure if their intentions are pure you cant get anything out of it unless you're talking to someone who gets it, beyond a chapter in a textbook

[bronze ocean]

oh speaking of

[balmy pond]

In my opinion at least

[zinc oriole]

I'm really glad you found somebody that resonates with you, commonground and understanding is something thats really lacking in mental healthcare and its hard to make any progress when your therapist lacks the understanding or perspective to you specifically

[bronze ocean]

does anybody want a set of 4 (four) dbt workbooks

in zine printing format

[zinc oriole]

👁️

[bronze ocean]

me when i

i hope you know how to read this on a pdf reader!! :D

[balmy pond]

Fr, given how fucked up most queer people are like 90% of all therapists should be some derivative of gay

I wish there were more resources out there to seek those sorts of people out. Like I said, I got lucky in that the clinic I was going to just so happened to have a therapist there who's non-binary and wanted to take my case. It was almost by accident

[misty harness]

Therapy can be incredibly helpful if you find the right person, it's just so hard to find someone that works well with you

I've seen seven or eight at this point and only liked one

and she wasn't on my insurance so I had to stop seeing her after a few sessions

[zinc oriole]

THANK YOUUU SM

[misty harness]

I feel like most people don't understand the goal of therapy and expect most of the work to be done during the sessions, but it's really meant to be just a person to help guide you on improving yourself. 90% of the work of therapy is done between sessions, not during.

[bronze ocean]

np np!!

i got like a huge folder of zines

[misty harness]

There are many bad therapists though so I don't blame people for being totally distrustful of it

[bronze ocean]

but a lot of them are really niche anarchist stuff

[misty harness]

aight I wanna see those

as for psychiatry, meds are generally just supposed to help you cope, if it's helpful awesome if not then that's just how it is

Wellbutrin has done wonders for me but every ssri I took was awful

[zinc oriole]

For some reason theres a set division in place between patient and therapist, that the therapist needs to be somebody outside the realm of mental illness or struggle in order to best treat somebody whos struggling. its incredibly flawed, because how could somebody give you the tools that you need to succeed if they are outside that realm of experience? it isnt impossible of course, anybody is capable of being empathetic and understanding experiences to a point, but mental healthcare would improve if the common understanding between patients and therapists wasnt such a large gap.
also you are totally right sarah, people expect a lot of work to be done by the therapist themselves rather than processing things on their own or doing the hard/ugly parts of healing. its often unpleasant and progress isnt linear so people are often discouraged

[bronze ocean]

ok lemme curate a selection

[zinc oriole]

i need adhd meds so bad i can barely function lol

[austere jay]

man i need a therapist but a) expensive and b) no one will ever compare to my therapist in middle school and i can’t find her again/dunno if she sees adults

anna was the realest one of all time shout out

one of the first adults in my life to encourage me to express myself in my masculinity

[upper sage]

Random but friendly reminder that you do not need to fully transition to be valid or to pass. But of course if you want to that’s completely fine and up to you 👍

[unborn atlas]

byeah

in my case, transition isn't really a linear thing

transition never stop baybeeeee

[bronze ocean]

real!!!

[unborn atlas]

I am a

cocoon

that's getting big and wild

[sturdy trail]

https://twitter.com/melodaysong/status/1639360281301389312?s=61&t=urA1w5izfOXtIze-JHwujA

mel☁️🍄 (@melodaysong)

graph from a16z — mental health is the fastest-growing marketplace for startups, and by a long shot

"If we were to break it out as its own category, mental health would take the crown in terms of year-over-year GMV growth."

Likes

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Twitter · Mar 24, 2023, 8:15 PM

coincidentally just popped up on the tl

[bronze ocean]

tfw you know how bad things really are

[zinc oriole]

God it's sickening

Pisses me off

[sturdy trail]

fuck validity all my homies are invalid under cisheteropatriarchy and we love that

[bronze ocean]

REAL!!!!!

[misty harness]

got my nails done like this for the first time and I love it hehehe

[balmy pond]

prettyyy~~~

[chrome snow]

Nice!

[unborn atlas]

I'm watching the big lebowski and this one girl

[zinc oriole]

I LOVE THE BIG LEBOWSKI

[unborn atlas]

👀 ❓

[zinc oriole]

She's swag....

[bronze ocean]

shes so transgendered

also the big lebowski rules its such a good movie

[unborn atlas]

it's dense

good tho

[zinc oriole]

I got such severe gender from lebowski when I was 14 that my first drink as a 21 y/o was a white Russian lol

[unborn atlas]

we shared a White Russian as we watched it

[zinc oriole]

HELL YEAH

They're so delicious

I like heavy cream in mine specifically

[bronze ocean]

many such cases!!

did you make it with creamer

[zinc oriole]

Made it with the heavy cream they sell in cartons

The one u can use for baking and stuff

[bronze ocean]

ohhh

sounds scrumptious

ive only had it with half and half which is like

really really good

[zinc oriole]

The scrumptious indeed :]

OOO THAT SOUNDS GOOD

[bronze ocean]

might make it with like

that thicker oat milk for like

barista purposes

the thick oats

[zinc oriole]

I love the chobani extra creamy oatmilk

It's so goooof

THICK OAT

[bronze ocean]

i will report back with my findings

🧐

[zinc oriole]

👁

I wait patiently...

[bronze ocean]

Dr. C. Rat and W. Hylics research paper on the usage of oat-based dairy replacement products in popular cocktails

[zinc oriole]

:]]] ✍️

That's literally such a good idea though

[inland schooner]

gave my boyfrien a kis yesterday :3

[final heart]

I dont normally say much in this forum for obvious reason, but as a psych student I will say that the therapy system is kinda fucked up because of this same exact reason. Most of my major has been about things like human rights and spotting behaviours but almost never about the therapeutic setting because it's 500% too expensive for anyone in my country anyway to improve their mental health that way.

Which in a way, I'm kind of glad of, because more people SHOULD realize that things like being open minded and tolerant improves mental health more than a $500 weekly trip to a shrink.

[spice sphinx]

Also in a psych major rn, also firmly agree

Making therapy a good to be sold and marketed is disgusting garbage fueled by the neoliberal hell we live in

[stable cradle]

speaking as someone who has been helped by therapy a fuck ton, it’s so fucking nasty that it’s such a business venture yknow

I went to a place that had ppl still in school learning how to be a therapist so the money hunger that could be at fault for other therapists’ shit work was probably not there to that same degree. (idk tho i’m making guesses admittedly)

[spice sphinx]

Ehh I mean the actual real world nature of these things is that yeah you’ll have some therapists who care and are good and some who aren’t. It’s the same idea as having a piggy be a decent human being every once and a while. Good people or at least people who want to do good will exist in all sorts of places, it’s just that the institutions they’re apart of are shit and immoral and wrong.

[stable cradle]

that’s valid

[spice sphinx]

Not a very fair comparison considering the morality of the existence of police and the nature of police work is yknow

Kind of a big deal

[stable cradle]

yeaa but the points still there

good(esque) ppl working for shit institutions

esque more targeted towards the blue side

[spice sphinx]

Yeah

I had a random state trooper in middle of nowhere georgia that pulled me over automatically clock me as a trans woman and referred to me as “ms valentine” and everything despite having my drivers license in his hand. Super respectful and very nice and let me be on my way with no trouble.

But it’s just a dice roll really

Had it been the middle of the night, had it been a different cop, I may not have been so lucky as to drive off.

[stable cradle]

oh absolutely, i’ve heard so many horror stories with therapists

had a a few cops come into my house once back when I lived in illinois bc the garage was left open. middle of the night, no knocking, only flashlights suggesting someone was there. shit was WEIRD but not out of character

[spice sphinx]

Jfc

God I hate the state

[final heart]

Also, last time I paid for therapy I know I wasn't thinking "Wow, this is going so good. I can't wait to pay for this again."

[clever badge]

cops: see something slightly out of the ordinary
their response: exceed every rule in place because they think they are above the law
gain: ?????

[austere jay]

at doctors rn to take my t dose down

i think it’s funny that i hit elevated levels of t so fast because last time i was like right on track

just too much of a high testosterone male i guess

speaking on cops i am so careful to obey traffic laws and shit and avoid them at all costs because i’m stealth enough right now to pass as male gif the second they get their hands on my id im terrified

i don’t seek out therapy at all anymore too cuz i’ve only found one trans friendly therapist and idk how to contact her again / cannot pay for it

i don’t trust mental health professionals unfortunately

too much like highschool counselors for my liking

[zinc oriole]

All of this

It's very scary existing in public rn or trying to get any support

Ive been looking more into trans history and it seems like surprisingly enough trans people were safer compared to now. Shit was worse but was better in some regards

We had our privacy and accessing hrt is so much harder now and restricted

[austere jay]

it’s getting so dangerous my older brother is actively pushing for me to get hand gun training and an open carry permit when i hit 21

like cisgender 30 something year old christian is pushing for ME to get a gun because even he can recognize how fucking awful it’s getting and is gonna get

we ball regardless tho i guess

[zinc oriole]

Things are really scary but the fight isn't over

I don't think it's the end

If some states can push back against these laws then there's still hope. As long as we exist we will endure

[austere jay]

probably not but self defense is becoming far more critical than it has been in past years i feel

the trans safe haven bills give me hope but it’s also like damn i’m only gonna be able to live in blue states for the rest of my life huh

[zinc oriole]

It's so bullshit. We exist everywhere and always will. As much as I wanna leave VA for separate reasons than the political dangers, I'm gonna stay a bit longer and exist as much as I can in public

Regardless of how unsafe it is

People are constantly upset with me being masc presenting and gnc and I'm proving we will exist no matter what

I'm spiteful at this point

It sucks that people are told the solution is to just leave bc it isn't feasible for everybody

[sturdy trail]

reminds me of this

[zinc oriole]

"I was not raised as a gender but as a bug of a child to be smashed" God this resonates

[sturdy trail]

real

[zinc oriole]

Saving this

Ty for sending it

[sturdy trail]

🙏

[zinc oriole]

We are as much a part of life as every other human and other being on earth. Transgenderism is natural to the animal kingdom, but is not acknowledged by humans as natural/science

Animals, while through different methods, undergo changing their sex like all the time. Fish, lions, frogs, snakes, and more.

The parameters surrounding human sex is such a confinement. I hope humanity moves forward one day with its classification

Other than from a morality standpoint, transphobia just isn't justified

[bronze ocean]

lets kill them

[zinc oriole]

I have an image hold on

[bronze ocean]

TRUE

smashing transphobes with a big rock

[zinc oriole]

Boulder time

[bronze ocean]

small boulder the size of a large boulder >:)

[zinc oriole]

Small pebble little pea sized rock that is the biggest meteor

[balmy pond]

Adjustable size boulder

One size fits all :3

At a baby shower rn

Meeting the whole family probably wasnt the best place to wear a dress in public for the first time but fuck it we ball

[zinc oriole]

I BELIEVE IN UUUU

I hope it goes well :D

[balmy pond]

thank uuuuuuuuuuu

I think its ok?

I dunno people been friendly, but my gay spidey sense is going nuts rn

anxious af rn ngl

[zinc oriole]

I'm glad they've been nice! Usually people with ill intent can't hide it for long

So if it's been ok smth tells me it will continue to be!

[balmy pond]

Yeah honestly think now that most of the people r gone I'm like good. Big groups of new people r ooph

The aunties r sweet tho c:

[chrome snow]

That's gud!

[unborn atlas]

hey I'm thinking about genduh

and the tension between boymoding and legitimate genderfluidity

[bronze ocean]

wha

[balmy pond]

I get that tbh. There r times I'm not all that sure if I boymode out of fear or if I lowkey fuck with that presentation

I think it's mostly the former, cuz I've never worn boy clothes that make me uncontrollably giggle and grin and bounce around the room :3

Its exhausting tho, always interrogating yourself abt what it is ur feeling at a given moment

[unborn atlas]

I love men

and I pretend to be one for safety/lack of confrontation/privilege?

but I dunno if I am genuinely one

[balmy pond]

real

[bronze ocean]

ohh i see i see

ive thought about this kinda thing a lot too but i think i've truly come to the personal conclusion that i do like liquidating my gender

[unborn atlas]

I feel like my presentation isn't up to standard

I like those trans women who are kind of

I dunno how to describe it

Francine Bridge, Ivy Bloodsad

Laura Les even

[spice sphinx]

Wdym

[unborn atlas]

like sorta

not high femme

"masculine" is loaded

[spice sphinx]

Ehhhhhh

Butch might be a better term

[zinc oriole]

Maybe more tomboy?

[spice sphinx]

Kinda yeah I guess

[zinc oriole]

Butch is usually for harder masc presentations I feel

[bronze ocean]

none of those three are butch

im sorry but im gatekeeping hard today

[spice sphinx]

I mean the labels are completely arbitrary

[zinc oriole]

I was gonna say the same yeah

Butch is very specific though

[bronze ocean]

butch is like

[zinc oriole]

For both men and women (or nonbinary ppl

[bronze ocean]

more of a lesbian thing

[unborn atlas]

https://twitter.com/BLOODSADx/status/1630125012077379585?t=qrWkq7-_EchCp32OSXiV7Q&s=19

ivy ❌❌ (@BLOODSADx)

#1 @maximumgraves

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227

Twitter · Feb 27, 2023, 8:37 AM

[zinc oriole]

Gay men also use the term

[bronze ocean]

if were being fr

[unborn atlas]

this bit on the side

[upper sage]

I thought men used bear?

[bronze ocean]

bear is a body type

[upper sage]

Oh

[unborn atlas]

there's this video of Ivy smoking a cigar and speaking in a mobster voice and it's very 😳

[bronze ocean]

generally speaking

[zinc oriole]

Gay men use the terms femme, butch, etc

It was bigger around the 80s for gay men to use the term though

[bronze ocean]

oh fair i had never heard of gay men using butch but it makes sense ye

[zinc oriole]

Especially in leather communities

[unborn atlas]

iunno just dumpy trans women in hoodies with stubble and deep voices

[bronze ocean]

oh yeah im picking up what ur putting down

but idk its like, i guess tomboy(-ish) comes closest to this kind of gender expression

[spice sphinx]

Define “dumpy”

[unborn atlas]

https://twitter.com/BLOODSADx/status/1628460278651420672?t=aGCrcaMMNRX29kLFbfwThg&s=19

ivy ❌❌ (@BLOODSADx)

https://t.co/5e3jP9PkCP

▶ Play video

Twitter · Feb 22, 2023, 6:22 PM

she's so fucking funny

[bronze ocean]

im entranced by her musings for sure

[unborn atlas]

actually

[bronze ocean]

everyone go read manifesto by ivy ruth bloodsad

[unborn atlas]

a term she uses is "clocky"

which is pretty funny to me

[spice sphinx]

Hm

[bronze ocean]

real true and felt

[hybrid lotus]

my transition goal is tomboy marceline so i get what ur putting down

[unborn atlas]

I should grow my hair out and go skrilly

[spice sphinx]

I generally present as pretty high femme maybe a liiiittle tomboy but I never plan on doing voice training

It’s my voice I like keeping it it’s mine

[hybrid lotus]

if i get my femme voice down i could see myself swapping between the two

especially for songwriting

[spice sphinx]

Venture bros was so real for dr ms the monarch idgaf

[unborn atlas]

I gotta post the classics I'm not sorry

https://fxtwitter.com/BLOODSADx/status/1570850328266014720?t=H5KjCX_lF8S_kIoF3uY3sQ&s=19

TGIRL SWAG

[unborn atlas]

honestly I love that

I love my voice too much to change it

and my boyfriend loves it too so that's all I need

[spice sphinx]

You have a very cool voice zenoby it’s sick that you like it

[unborn atlas]

aw 😊

[balmy pond]

This app hard oml marceline unlocked so many things in me

[unborn atlas]

I got Marceline stickers on my computer

[bronze ocean]

as a child you idolize marceline but growing up you realize huntress wizard makes more sense

ahh... huntress wizard...

[balmy pond]

I dunno. Going in I wanted to go for a tomboyish thing but as I get further in my transition I'm learning to embrace my femininity more and more

[unborn atlas]

huntress wizard pretty good

I like dresses

[balmy pond]

Same :3

It's like b4 going on e I couldn't stand them because they just emphasized all the masculine features I hated but now it feels soooooooo nice

[unborn atlas]

BLACK DRESSES AYOOO 🔥 ☮️ 🔥

[balmy pond]

YES

[unborn atlas]

I actually love my huge shoulders also

I wanna get a chest tattoo

[bronze ocean]

i need to get a nose bridge piercing

[balmy pond]

Same tbh! I used to hate them but now they're starting to get cute

I feel like my proportions are just abt perfect which is like shocking

||I guess tits could be a bit bigger but whatevs||

[balmy pond]

I wanna get "there was a HOLE here. It's gone now" over my heart c:

[unborn atlas]

haha hole

🕳️

[balmy pond]

:0

[austere jay]

shout out lovely transfemme at the planned parenthood who complimented my machine girl hat

drove a van with a sticker that said “i’m out of estrogen and i have a gun”

i want to be their friend so badly

[chrome snow]

That is so fucking dope.

[unborn atlas]

fuck dude that rocks

[austere jay]

just the coolest person ever

trans masc and trans femme both at the same clinic for hrt is a fucking awesome moment for me

usually only see trans mascs there

[unborn atlas]

solidarity

[unborn atlas]

huh really?

[austere jay]

i also don’t look around the lobby too much, but i’ve noticed it’s majority cis women and visibly trans masc people

not sure why

[unborn atlas]

maybe you don't have transfemme gaydar

"yeah there are just all these cis women at the gender clinic"

(I'm messing but tell me if I'm being too mean)

[austere jay]

not being mean when i say cis that’s because overhear them asking about afab treatment

[unborn atlas]

ohhh

[opaque frost]

Honestly was heartbroken the 21st when I got the news of the attorney general releasing that bs emergency bill to ban hrt for minors and restrict it extremely for adults

I can’t summarize it all here and I encourage yall to read an article yourself

But as an Illinois resident who gets my stuff from across the River, it’s really frustrating. Honestly I can’t believe this is real still

Telling my parents I was right and that there was a reason I started hrt so soon after coming out to them (twas in the closet for years)

It still doesn’t feel good to be right yknow? I am still holding out hope though. The WashU care team is amazing and I have had numerous discussions with my doctor about procedures for prescribing hrt and the benefits of it. This was mainly to show my parents that no, they do not just give you a t vial or e pill when you walk in cuz you asked very nicely. I wish them all the best as we seem to be up against a bitter hateful force. I wish all of y’all trans Missourians or people who get their healthcare there too the best as well. Hard times may be ahead but we are stronger together

[unborn atlas]

community is powerful

[spice sphinx]

Affirmations a friend sent me :3

[balmy pond]

Hey @trans mascs in the audience, do u have tips and tricks for binding or like recs for stuff?

My partners trying it out but theyve had kind of a hard time with it :/

[stable cradle]

(UPDATE ignore this gc2b is bad) I use gc2b binders personally!!

they give u measuring instructions and wearing instructions all on the site

[balmy pond]

ok tyyyyyyy!!! <3333

[inland schooner]

maybe not gc2b they have droppedi n quality i hear, i personally use ones from australian brands because i prefer to support local businesses, but i also use a spectrum outfitters long binder!!

theres also transtape/kt tape if u dont like binders. i personally use kt tape i steal from my local grocer becuz i do alot of sport!

[balmy pond]

yeah they recently picked some up but it didn't work the best 😦

[inland schooner]

thats alright!! it might not work the best for all guys, but it does take a bit of practice to work!

[balmy pond]

word

alright ill report my findings, tysm!!

really love all the info they have on spectrum's website :0

[unborn atlas]

please be careful binding!

my ex binded improperly and his ribs ended up getting all loose, it was scary

[austere jay]

trans tape is awesome would recommend

i switched from full time binder use to full time tape use i prefer it far more than any binder i’ve tried

there’s a bit of a learning curve but once you learn the right method for your body you can kind of achieve a kind of pec shape that i really like

[unborn atlas]

trans men are stronger than the troops I swear

I wore my ex's binder before I even had boobs and I couldn't withstand it

anime voice: th-this technique....!

[austere jay]

was always easier for me since i like pressure

felt like a deep hug that i could wear all day it was pretty easy for me

trans tape is nice tho it frees up a lot of that pressure and feels a little easier to move around in

[unborn atlas]

attack mode

[inland schooner]

for sure

[inland schooner]

real

constantly in attack mode

[unborn atlas]

from a transfeminine perspective

I've found wearing a bra has this almost tactical sort of "girding" effect

I feel like I'm ready to put on armor

[unborn atlas]

makes me feel

[inland schooner]

real for that

i accidentally clicked on my mums messages with her boyfriend while getting to my sisters messages to send silly cat photos and he sends her ben shapiro and apparently "trans-able" shit
like you cannot be serious

[unborn atlas]

sux

[digital geyser]

i dont bind but spectrum are the ones i hear the best things about usually

i’d also recommend sports bras for days off from binding, i live in them and while they aren’t as good as a binder, it’s nice and comfortable and better than other bra types

and make sure they aren’t binding for more than 8 hours or sleeping in the binder (those are very common bits of advice so they’re probably already aware of that)

[zinc oriole]

Speaking of transtape, is the site back up?

Idk if it's just my devices but every time I try going to the site it doesn't load up at all :(

[spice sphinx]

Real

[austere jay]

unsure i haven’t been on in a while

like one roll of it lasts me months i rarely visit

[zinc oriole]

😢 hopefully it'll be back up soon

[valid cloud]

I use trans tape

I really really reslly advise against gc2b personally because that shit gave me pluracy and warped my rib cage even with me obeying binding rules

And wearing the correct size

ALSO I bought a roll recently so the site works 4 me

[austere jay]

true and real

didn’t realize how much damage it did until i started working out

i haven’t gotten checked out just cuz i’m afraid

[valid cloud]

Same

Well I had to for the pluracy but yea my torso also just looks funny now and my breathing is like stunted forever I think

[bronze ocean]

what's pluracy

[sturdy trail]

i thimk pleurisy

the thing with the lungs

[zinc oriole]

I'd recommend underworks for binders!

[valid cloud]

Something something the lining of your lungs becomes inflamed. Basically it feels like someone is smashing your ribs with a hammer every second of the day and you can’t breathe

[bronze ocean]

ow..

[valid cloud]

You can get ut from pneumonia I think? Idk but I got it from binding

LITERALLT THE WORST EVER

[bronze ocean]

thats fucked up that you got that from binding

[valid cloud]

I WAS SO MAD CUZ I OBEYED ALL THE RULES 💀

[bronze ocean]

🖕 fuck gc2b 🖕

[valid cloud]

YEA

[sturdy trail]

underworks barely worked for me compared to gc2b but i might have weird funky tit or something

the one time i had pleurisy is when i would wear binder for too long like more than 8 hours but it went away on its own

[stable cradle]

oh damn! time 2 switch binders lmao

once I don’t have to worry abt school gym class (aka once i’m done w this school year) im gonna look more into transtape bc I won’t need to be able to change into it in like 5 min max

nvm looking into it rn lol

[inland schooner]

Yeah for sure it's a big hand, I go to gym in it and shower in it and find it works awesome. My only tip is don't pull it too hard (like try to make urself super flat by straining it or using too much) cuz it can hurt. Just MAKE SURE TO REMOVE IT WITH OIL!!! Or else you will literally rip off skin

Also if recommend to shave if you have any hair on your chest because that shit hurts

[stable cradle]

will keep in mind🫡 also it would be less visible than a binder which is a huge pro

[inland schooner]

Only any oil works I've even used canola oil but who wants cooking oil on them? I use baby oil or this weird olive oil that's clear(??)

[stable cradle]

also transtape.life is the correct site right??

[inland schooner]

Oh definitely. I use to be do anxious about the binder end being visible, got a long one but still worried. It works great

Let me check

Yep!

[stable cradle]

oo ty!!

[inland schooner]

It does come with oil of u get the starter pac but if you have a larger chest, you may need more.
I personally use KT tape I steal and it works just fine. Transtape is too pricy imo (for me, am australian)

[inland schooner]

The voices in my head tell me to say facts don't care about your feelings (he keeps sending my mum Ben shapiro)

[inland schooner]

He sent me a multi paragraph message on why men and women are different and how the left is brainwashing childreb

Bpringgg

[sturdy trail]

sports are just a front for their bioessentialism and banishing trans people from public life

brainwashing children implies they have no agency and is some anita bryant shit

more people should pie reactionary pundit ghouls in the face

[inland schooner]

clearly i was brainwashed the moment i got on the internet because seeing one trans person made me transgender (obviously)

he didnt even refute my point though which shows he knows im right jsut went on about how men and women are different like no wayyy

[stable cradle]

transphobes who think I got brainwashed finding out that i’ve felt this way since literally b4 I can remember (telling my mom “I want to be a boy when I grow up” when I was abt 4)

[chrome snow]

Anybody who legitimately thinks that children are being brainwashed into transitioning is a fucked in the head.

There's no gentle way of putting it.

[stable cradle]

absolutely. you gotta be off the shits to genuinely believe that and not just say it as a grifter

[upper sage]

Excuse me transdome for not interacting and for my second time saying random shit.. BUT
Is it just me or is Bowser every transmacs goals??
Like I wanna be big and masculine and kidnap ppl so my son can have a mother/father figure!!

[austere jay]

i swear on my life i’ve send more changes a few weeks into going back down to .25 dose of t than i did three months up at .3

[inland schooner]

i got my bloods back and my T was at 47 nmol/L and oestrdial at 173 💀 had to go back down to .25 too from .3

[sturdy trail]

tee bee aych i feel like they don’t care whether kids r actually getting brainwashed or not or their hypocrisy they just don’t want to allow children agency

if they actually were being brainwashed they wouldn’t care

[stable cradle]

yeaahhh I think ur right

its just something for them to hide behind

[sturdy trail]

real

[inland schooner]

literally like how the fuck do you get to that

[inland schooner]

yeah and then lets make child brides :D!!!

the real pedophiles are the ones that thing children have intelligence and thoughts /s

[zinc oriole]

It's never been about 'protecting' children. No anti lgbt issue or bigoted right wing stance has ever been about protecting kids, it's been about maintaining the control they have over children's autonomy so they can fuck them over into adulthood

To upkeep their status and instill puritanical and harmful values

[unborn atlas]

I think it's wild that conservatives use all this rhetoric about "mutilating children" but are pretty quiet about circumcision

[inland schooner]

blah blah blah few messages later graham ( my mums boyfriend) whips out the suicide card talking about my mum
"your mum hasnt been a very strong guide because shes just been scared of suicidal possibilites. That's a cruel and selfish way to get her on (my) side"

but its true though, like, ive had a ||failed suicide attempt that resulted in me going to hospital|| before (which is why my mum is so afraid of not being supportive apparently) but yeah. literally it was directly influenced by my distress on my physical appearance and being a woman. i dont get his point, to think about the people around me?

sorry, i hope you all dont mind me sharing this here, but i dont know or have other places to share this. people like him frustrate me to no ends. if theres any issue with this let me know and i can stop posting these

[celest plume]

yo, fuck graham

[cold whale]

^^

[stable cradle]

mgcord meetup to beat up graham

[chrome snow]

It's on site with Graham.

[balmy pond]

We beatin on Graham tn?!??

Also in hype news

MY PARTNER JUST GOT A REFFERAL FOR A GENDER CLINIC

[stable cradle]

WOOOOOO

[chrome snow]

W

[bronze ocean]

LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[misty harness]

yooooooooooooooooooooo hell yeah

[inland schooner]

top surgery pre op appointment today :3

[bronze ocean]

hell yeah!!

[chrome snow]

WWW

[austere jay]

LETS GOOO

update on my pursuit of shorts that fit me well as a trans man, i’ve accumulated 8 pairs of shorts and 2 swim trunks which i think is enough for the warmer weather

quite pleased

[stable cradle]

WIOOOOOOOO

[opaque frost]

Got asked by my friends coworker if me or my other friend was her boyfriend

And my other friend is her bf, but it felt real good because I'm p sure I got perceived as a cis dude !!!

It feels good being perceived as a cis man, but I also have been realizing that since I pass more I do gotta pay attention to how I do things now

I'm very socially awkward so I worry sometimes I'll come off as a creepy dude, rather than before when I was seen as a really anxious teen girl

Even with that fear it seems I am being seen as a "safe" man to be around in public, in the sense that I don't look like the country/hypebeast bigotted 20ish year old men around here

when me being nice/polite makes strangers like me?!?!?

[unborn atlas]

so uh

what does progesterone do exactly?

[bronze ocean]

its linked to breast development in afab puberty and some trans women take it to mimics those developments with varying results

nobody is really sure how much to take and when, if you should cycle it, etc.

as with all transgender healthcare, there are barely any if any at all papers on it

[zinc oriole]

the best resources ive gotten are trans people talking abt their own experiences online when it comes to hrt tbh

[unborn atlas]

I'm 32 now, is it too late for me?

[inland schooner]

Never too late!

[chrome snow]

It's never too late!

[zinc oriole]

^^^^

[unborn atlas]

sure

[zinc oriole]

everybodys body responds differently to hrt, regardless of age. its never too late to do anything hormone related

[unborn atlas]

but it's a puberty drug, right?

I already had my second puberty

I dunno how it works tbh

[zinc oriole]

it may just stimulate growth regardless. that is all i know from transfems i know irl

because they are around your age as well and they have noticed changes

[bronze ocean]

how long have you been on hrt for

[unborn atlas]

about 5 years

[bronze ocean]

ok so ur not really done

[unborn atlas]

👀 when am I done

[bronze ocean]

well i guess if we're talking about breast development, tanner stage 5

[unborn atlas]

when's that??

[bronze ocean]

when you reach it :)

[unborn atlas]

help

[bronze ocean]

🤪

[unborn atlas]

what is/when is tanner stage 5???

[bronze ocean]

in this context fully developed breasts after puberty

its the last stage

but there are like no studies on this because they all end at 3 years because of stupid academic bullshit and people dont give a shit about trans people so there is no conclusive data on when you reach

id say see if you can score some prog and mess around with it for like a month or 3 and see how you feel thats what i did

[unborn atlas]

my endo won't get it for me

[bronze ocean]

yeah mine wont either

but idk what the deal is in aus like customs n shit

[unborn atlas]

I don't know!!

[inland schooner]

U could prob Diy it if you were up to that

Arguably from a trans man perspective you have less sources avaliable but they r solid

[unborn atlas]

I'm just worried that

if I do it and my endo finds out and gets shitty about it

[inland schooner]

I find that Australian gps or endos don't give a fuck

Atleast my gp didnt. You're an adult just be informed and do your research

[unborn atlas]

mine is a lil conservative

he also only knows one way to transition people

and doesn't wanna branch out

[inland schooner]

Oh weird

Have you considered getting a new endo? Or is he your only option

[unborn atlas]

I dunno where else I would look

I don't really have a local support network anymore

[sturdy trail]

more people should emphasize how important support networks are for trans people esp for this stuff and a lot of trans people are ostracized out of them

trans underground hrt railroad when

[inland schooner]

You live in perth, right? I could probably find an endo

[unborn atlas]

chyeah

where are you?

[inland schooner]

Bris/ Gc areas, but I've done lotta research regardless in my hopes to find an endo

[unborn atlas]

hella

[inland schooner]

Just from reddit. I'll look more into it once I'm home

[unborn atlas]

nedlands! really....

"hard to get into"

[inland schooner]

That's just WA, not specifically perth

[unborn atlas]

what does that tangibly mean

[inland schooner]

Tangibly to be understood or seen or something

Something that's seen?

[inland schooner]

That your endo or something ?

Whether you want to go on there or not, reddit is good for info. I use transgenderau usually
https://www.reddit.com/r/transgenderau/wiki/resources-wa/

[unborn atlas]

no I have someone else

I just stay in nedlands

didn't know there was an endo round there

[unborn atlas]

oh yep I found my endo in this list

[digital geyser]

this 1980s trans rep i came across is really good

[zinc oriole]

THIS IS VERY SWEET

We have always existed and I love seeing people archive us being in the public eye from decades ago. Whether it's through media, public groups, magazines, whatever. It warms my heart and gives me hope that we'll always be here

[spice sphinx]

Dawg I NEED to get my psychology masters or something because wtf is this 😭

Why do psychologists always have some catch either they’re easy to get but shit or hard to get and good or some blend of the two

We deserve better

[chrome snow]

I dont wanna cry at work

Its so kind and loving

:((

[digital geyser]

yeah its like the joy of learning about historical trans people, like their strength to not only realise that in a time before being trans had a name or a lot of information out there, but to sacrifice the security of being hidden to come out and transition

i recently learnt the person who wrote little women, though they never came out, was likely transmasculine for example

https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2022/05/little-women-author-louisa-may-alcott-transgender-man/

lgbt history in general is so neglected and trans history even more so when you do find it it's so powerful

[zinc oriole]

Omg!! I did not know that either. And I agree with all that you've said. It's sad that people act like we don't have history like other people in our community. As if we started only existing after the 2010s and like there's no recorded information of us

[digital geyser]

fr, like some cis queer people act like trans ppl weren't at stonewall fighting for the rights of the whole community

(and that was particularly bipoc trans women)

[bronze ocean]

https://twitter.com/_cynocephaly/status/1652061927323971585?s=20

cynocephaly (@_cynocephaly)

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(account posts/rt mature art idk if thats an issue or if i need a disclaimer but im just putting that here)

[sturdy trail]

goes crayzee

[tardy creek]

@sturdy trail has leveled up! (11 ➜ 12)

[zinc oriole]

THIS IS WONDERFUL!!

[bronze ocean]

isnt it just?? its so fucking good

[zinc oriole]

I need to make more trans themed art so baddddaurghh

The only thing I've made that kinda counts is a werewolf themed pic

But that's more subtle

[bronze ocean]

blasts ur brain with transgender art waves

[zinc oriole]

Most of the trans art I make is of masculine trans dudes but it's never exclusively pride art

Just bc I have trans ocs and stuff

[digital geyser]

same ive had like two overtly trans drawings and one was just me putting a trans flag in the back of a drawing of botw link

[zinc oriole]

Trans link is so real :]

[digital geyser]

link is transmasculine and transfeminine gender envy solidarity

i posted him once on r/transitiongoals or smth and had transfeminine people commenting he was so gender fjkljds

[upper sage]

What’s transfeminine?

[sturdy trail]

like transmasc but fem

[sturdy trail]

reddit………………….

[bronze ocean]

smashing reddit with the biggest rock

[sturdy trail]

me me me

[bronze ocean]

gives you a turn on the rock

[sturdy trail]

weeeee

[digital geyser]

trans reddit is pretty good. i dont rlly use it anymore but egg_irl helped me get through years of issues with accepting myself…even though by that point i had been openly trans online for about 2 years

obviously a good chunk of reddit is a cesspool but i personally didnt have many bad experiences on trans reddit

[sturdy trail]

i’m not really one of those people that think “egg culture” is a real problem it’s just the stuff on r/traaaaaa that gets pretty grimacing emoji

[digital geyser]

what kinda stuff? i havent been on there in a while tbf

i posted some memes to traaa but i was mainly on egg, that one subreddit for posting like picrews etc and transtryouts helping ppl figure out the best names n pronouns etc

also on one about dunking on terf content until someone pointed out it was causing me serious mental distress so i left it

(they would just post full terf posts etc so it was a lot)

but i havent rlly been on reddit much since like early 2021

[sturdy trail]

it’s really just a lot of relying on validation which i feel like shouldn’t be the main priority and it just feels sterile and corny and a lot of stereotypes and what “trans culture” Is Supposed To Be and its notorious problem and having only transbians and zero transmascs

[digital geyser]

oh yeah true, i dont think it was quite that bad as a transmasc but you definitely notice that distinct ratio on trans reddit in general of trans feminine people to transmascs

but i mean at the time i felt other services had the exact opposite thing, like i used to be super active on instagram and i rarely if ever encountered a trans person on there who wasn’t transmasc or afab nonbinary

[sturdy trail]

well i feel like it’s mainly transbians specifically cuz it’s all about uwu thigh highs and polycules and there’s no like stuff about trans women with men which unfortunately u can usually only find on 4chan if u want to find people posting about it

[digital geyser]

ah right i see

[bronze ocean]

yea i felt the same way with r/traa stuff

its just a very insular niche community that still tries to be inclusive but that just causes anybody who falls outside the boat to adjust the way they act or just leave

[sturdy trail]

ya exactly

[digital geyser]

i did see people getting mad at transmascs for adapting transfeminine memes (with credit) to apply to them even though there was otherwise a lack of transmasc content there

or hopping on originally transfeminine meme bandwagons

[bronze ocean]

thats such a stupid thing to get mad over holy shit

[sturdy trail]

people credit memes 😟

[digital geyser]

i did that once and thankfully no one on egg_irl got mad at me for it

[digital geyser]

i did the time i did it cuz i’d literalyl just reversed the exact same transfeminine meme i had seen

so it was about like chest dysphoria or smtj so i just reversed the wording

[bronze ocean]

but like even as a white trans woman with the means to promote a hobby of video game consumption i still felt alienated by a lot of the culture on there

so i cant imagine what its like if u fall outside of that

[digital geyser]

its like how things are on tiktok’s and particularly instagram’s transmasculine community. it’s like ur either a full transitioned passing man or like dyed hair neon lights kinda stereotype, i feel like as a community we want to make those stereotypes to intensify those senses, at the expenses of the diversity we have yk

[opaque frost]

As a white queer this is rich coming from me, and a lot of my friends still are white trans peeps too lol. However, me hanging out with chronically online white queers for a majority of my latter highschool years really was so grating

I have gone out of my way to talk to other queers at my college and I just really realized that my hs friend group was super narrow minded

[digital geyser]

(nothing wrong with either of those types btw)

not to mention all the bullying of “cringe” trans people on tiktok but thats a whole other matter

[opaque frost]

Real

[digital geyser]

tiktok is a cesspool all on its own and i hate it so much (i use it everyday)

[opaque frost]

I blame TikTok for starting labeling discourse again

[digital geyser]

at least we’re out of kalvin garragh era i think he’s almost completely irrelavant now

[sturdy trail]

i feel like tiktok has captured like eternal 2016 stuff like i don’t think the kalvin garrah vs uwu neopronoun person stuff is relevant anymore

jinx

[digital geyser]

fjdjg

neopronoun discourse comes back every year its one of those annual discourses kgkdkg

[opaque frost]

I’m trying to find a way to type a good description of my hs ex friends

Because I wanna be careful about how I frame it

[digital geyser]

like: oh great here it is again….like we didnt already conclude the same thing 50 times on the side of the community i am on

[bronze ocean]

FACTS

[digital geyser]

have u seen the ppl who draw damien and skye (if u dont know what this is you’re living the life) as a couple i love them

that comic did so much damage to me and i saw it from a cisgender woman gatekeeping trans identity in 2018

[opaque frost]

So there was a lot of nb folks who were afab and still went by she/they. They were fine with stealthing often/basically presented as women in public. I still see them as nonbinary, they are, they are trans. However they failed to understand as a trans masc who was actively attempting to transition and stealth, that my trans experience was different

They wouldn’t understand why me getting misgendered hurt more yknow?

[sturdy trail]

this is extremely accurate to my experience too i feel

[opaque frost]

And whenever I accidentally slipped up in convo and referred to them as woman or girls, and I would quickly correct myself and move on, yknow, as you do

They wouldn’t let me hear the end of it

BUT

Whenever they misgendered me

Which happened more often, and I would like to add they met me after I was out

They would blubber and apology despite me just trying to move on in the convo cuz slip ups happen

[bronze ocean]

christ

[opaque frost]

I understand their frustrations in my slip ups, but the fact that they really had no understanding that they did the same thing was just

[digital geyser]

god

[opaque frost]

Baffling

Again they are nb, trans

I hate when I tell people this and they go “oh so they were fake trans diet women?”

No they were just dicks

Nb still, just assholes who didn’t understand that their trans experience wasn’t the same

[sturdy trail]

these people have always been the ones to kick me out of queer spaces too and spread rumors to further the ostracization

[opaque frost]

OH MY GOD REAL

they literally framed me as a perverted sex freak

Cuz I also made sex jokes with them as high schoolers do

[sturdy trail]

also a lot of them pull the “i’m trans and also a woman” thing to try to say they get transmisogyny

[sturdy trail]

r we the same person

[opaque frost]

Oh my god

STOPPPP

WHy is this common

ALSO ONE THING THE FUCKERS DID

Whenever I would discuss misogyny as a trans masc they’d be like

[digital geyser]

im so glad ive never known people like that

[opaque frost]

“But you don’t experience it? You’re a trans masc?”

I’m

[sturdy trail]

ya they treat all identities as static

[bronze ocean]

https://tenor.com/view/kill-steve-harvey-family-feud-yes-kill-gif-22934983

[sturdy trail]

so real

[bronze ocean]

killing them with a reinforced extra heavy copy of wipping girl

[digital geyser]

ah yes. my experiences as a feminine presenting person went away the moment i realised i want to take testosterone

just poof gone

no more misogyny

[opaque frost]

It’s great they saw me as so masculine I guess but they basically treated me like a cis guy fully (or when it was convenient)

[digital geyser]

god im sorry u had to deal with those people

[opaque frost]

Thanks, I mean the good thing is I’m out of hs now

[digital geyser]

most of the trans ppl ive known irl were super cool and im realising i was lucky with that. i was kinda like the og trans person there so i watched all them realise while i was just there existing the whole time

my year group is also very cishetero compared to others at my school lol

[opaque frost]

I worry some of those a year below me will attend my community college but hopefully their frontal lobes developed more and they grew as people

[digital geyser]

“og” as in i realised first

[digital geyser]

so true lets hope

[opaque frost]

The ones in my year though? Still ignorant bastards

Fuck them lmao

[digital geyser]

man

[opaque frost]

The others get a year waiting period before I grow disdained of them

YOU GOt one year to go through a redemption arch bitch

Do it or get away from me

[digital geyser]

oh wait i did know one guy a few years below me who was a very toxic kalvin garrah stan among other things

like i had a kalvin phase but all of it was projected inward. he projected his hatred of other trans people squarely outward

and it was horrid

he used it to mock our mutual friends and the whole thing was just super horrible

[opaque frost]

I had a transmed phase in middle school since the first other trans people I met were transmed

It made me push down my transness more and I didn’t come out till sophomore year

[digital geyser]

no fr it was so bad for me

[opaque frost]

But thankfully we all grew up, I have reconnected with them and one felt really guilty but I had to be like “we were just kids man, we’ve changed”

[digital geyser]

i came out as trans properly, after over a year of questioning, but would always say “but i don’t know for sure” as if i were self diagnosed transgender or smth bc i viewed it like a mental disorder

[opaque frost]

I just refused to acknowledge I wanted to go on hrt

I was trying to fit an ideal I thought my parents would like

[digital geyser]

and it took me two years to finally go “no im not questioning, im struggling because i was genderfluid the whole time and my gender just fluxes between masc and neutral so of course im not always gonna be a manly man man”

[opaque frost]

THIS

Glad you were able to figure it out a bit tho

[digital geyser]

yeah i never rlly knew anyone like this

it was more like “oh wait a minute half of our longtime friend group was trans all along”

“oops”

shoutout to the one guy whose on T now i dont talk to him or any of them mich anymore but im so happy for him

[bronze ocean]

its crazy to me that ppl know like other queer people in high school

[opaque frost]

I have found a better group of fellow trans queers thankfully, but some locals make me want to bite my hand sometimes

It really pisses me off cuz a few queers from highschool are believing in the rumors my fucking ex friend/abuser ig has spread

despite the fact he’s a predatory cis white guy

[digital geyser]

its getting more and more common the younger people are. im in my last year of high school and in the younger year groups so many of them wear pride pins and i just feel so happy for them bc what like 5 years ago i was getting yelled at for liking girls by my classmates and i was one of only a small group of queer ppl, many of whom were bullied

[sturdy trail]

unfortunately they r still getting bullied

[opaque frost]

I’m glad kids are realizing it doesn’t matter who you like anymore, I mean bullying will still happen but hopefully not based around gender identity and sexuality as much

[digital geyser]

like we have openly gay teachers working here now, i had a trainee literature teacher last year who talked openly about her wife and stuff

[digital geyser]

yeah thats what i mean i feel like things are more open now than they were

[sturdy trail]

a lot of the openly gay ones will get doxxed and fired by libsoftiktok or whoever or get a fake sex scandal made about them or both

[digital geyser]

im in the uk we dont rlly have that

[sturdy trail]

the harassment has adapted with the times

[opaque frost]

I also feel like some of my local queers, not all thankfully, but a good amount are just so

[digital geyser]

although they are trying to make it so trans kids cant be called their names without their parents consent or smth, which was already my school’s policy

[opaque frost]

Snakey

[sturdy trail]

ya it feels like a cruel trick

[digital geyser]

but thats cuz its terf island yk

[sturdy trail]

they r doing similar stuff in lithuania and hungary and bulgaria iirc

[digital geyser]

transphobia is more talk less action here than in the states

[opaque frost]

I get staying safe and all, but you and me are in the same boat motherfucker

[digital geyser]

yeah hungary has been rlly bad for years

idk about the others

hungary like banned being trans a few years ago

[sturdy trail]

doesn’t jk rowling collab with the state a lot

[opaque frost]

:(

[digital geyser]

not precisely, but they like her ideas

[sturdy trail]

radfems did the same stuff in the 80s

[digital geyser]

all recent prime ministers have been transphobes and obviously they blocked scotland passing the gender recognition certificate form a few months ago

[sturdy trail]

ya so it does have its share of action

[digital geyser]

liz truss in particular i basiclaly only knew her for transphobia

but she got outlasted by a vegetable anyway so