hopeless romantics

[gentle quarry]

I'm still going through this phase, but after all those interviews, I asked a mentors feedback and now I'm improving my application approach. After going through so many interviews, recruiting phases, and rejection, I can see that it's not only my fault. Everyone is looking for someone specific, competitions is huge, and there are people who are also determined to hire a specific type of person or even specific gender. So it's not even about luck some times. It's all about whether you will be the right fit for someone's team. Regardless of experience, background, and skill. So I'm not giving up. Every interview is another practice step, every rejection is another opportunity to apply somewhere better. And every day is another day of improvement.

And yes I am also applying places just because I need a job. But also because I need office experience. Even if it's not my dream job.

[last shale]

I definetley feel that, because I never had a "proper" job since I graduated undergrad 2 years ago, and I'm finally in a proper 40hr a week full time position -- its definetley not what I would like to be doing, but it gives me the stability financially and time wise that I can structure around. Even if it is not where you want to be when you begin, having a little bit of stability can help ease the cloudy mind to see what you need to do in order to move forward. It definetley did that for me, because now i realized that I need more time to build skills to land a position as a graphic designer or UX designer

[digital harbor]

I feel for you