#Mentally exhausted

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waxen merlin
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I am a good listener

shell plank
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Thank you

waxen merlin
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Im happy if i can help

shell plank
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I’ve deleted all social media for awhile now I’m just tired,

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My spelling is bad I’m not English originally

waxen merlin
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Its perfect

shell plank
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I’ve been up all night for a week now

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And it’s not usually me this

waxen merlin
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It might seem crazy but I think I understand it

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And pls dont take anything offensive what i say

shell plank
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Thank you that makes me burst tears, my family say they understand but they just see me

shell plank
waxen merlin
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I feel kinda the same way lately

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Tbh i think its the fault of society that you feel that way like why do ppl think they have the right to judge somebodys body sexuality and all this personal stuff and then ppl like you are ashamed and not the ones making you feel this way

shell plank
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Yea it’s definitely society, like I’ve felt like theyved destroy us then ones who’s already weak

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I love people, I see the would completely different

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I hate that people go through this

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it’s just getting worse

waxen merlin
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Yeah its jst self destructive

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And society is jst accepting it more or less

shell plank
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I watched a movie called terminator once, where they said it’s in the nature for humans to destroy themself.

waxen merlin
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Wise words

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Idk if i wanna start that topic yk

shell plank
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Same lol

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But if you feel the same like me, I’m also here to listen to you of course , and If you feel safer I can say a little about myself, I won’t say my real name but I say my second name is Lizzy, I’m turning 17, live in Scandinavia, it’s a lot of standards here. I love my dog, I feel like I’ve betrayed her lately. But I wanna be better for me and everyone.

waxen merlin
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I appreciate it but idk

shell plank
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I understand, you don’t have to, I’m myself not comfortable and have never talked to people this way. But I just felt so sad and destroyed after today, I didn’t know what to do, my mom won’t speak to me, and I don’t wanna get in the way for my siblings happiness.

waxen merlin
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I understand its not like i dont wont but

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I cried today

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For the first time in idk ever

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And not like a normal human being no i jst watched a bunch of sad reels and listened to Minecraft music

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Like whats wrong with me

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I sit infront of my setup everything I ve ever wanted and still nothing or nobody

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I have on friend and thats only like a laugh with friend

shell plank
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I don’t think there’s anything wrong with you. Or I know it’s nothing wrong about you. If anything, it sounds like you’ve been holding a lot in for a long time, and it finally came out. And honestly, the sad reels and Minecraft music part just sounds like you were looking for a way to let yourself feel what you’ve been trying not to feel. That doesn’t make you weird, it makes you human hehe

waxen merlin
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Ok ig

shell plank
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I know words doesn’t really help much when your feeling down

waxen merlin
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But ik there’s something wrong with me like rn I think you like me but we are jst having an normal conversation

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Like wth

shell plank
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Hm what do you mean?

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Just clear it up

waxen merlin
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If i see someone talkin with me for longer than a minute im like grabing them and not letting go until i realise it myself

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That nobody rlly wanted to talk to me in the first place

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And i have to put in so much effort just to be the depressed weirdo

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And still trying not to lose em but jst making it worse

shell plank
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First of all it’s nothing wrong with you, we all suffer depression differently some similar than others but still different. What I know how you feel and act is also a result of what you been thought in family and earlier childhood, and just personality.

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Some people form emotional attachments quickly through texting because frequent conversations can create a sense of closeness, comfort, and understanding. When someone feels listened to, understood, or emotionally supported, they can become attached even without spending much time together in person.

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It’s so not weird

waxen merlin
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Ok

shell plank
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Don’t be sad or angry pls when I say this I don’t wanna end this badly

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But

waxen merlin
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If id be angry at myself a sec later

waxen merlin
shell plank
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I care about you and I’m glad we talked, but I think we’re both struggling and trying to figure things out ourselves. I don’t think I’m the right person to help with everything, and I think it might be good for both of us to talk to someone who can give better support than we can. Maybe someone that has been thought it and is more confident in their recovery, because I know that I need it, and just someone to guide me through.

waxen merlin
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Your right

shell plank
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Can you promise me something

waxen merlin
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Ofc

shell plank
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For yourself and others including me just try to get better, in whatever way that feels right for you, I don’t know what you’re going through but I would hate to think that it won’t get better.❤️‍🩹

waxen merlin
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Ok

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I wish you all the best

obtuse hull
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yo

shell plank
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hello

obtuse hull
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hows everything going man

robust creek
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Hello. I am here to help if you need it

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My bad

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Didn't see the chat

obtuse hull
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u there lizzy?

shell plank
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It’s so much I’ve been through mentally and physically, so I’m in a state where it’s just led to a depression, and I just want to dig myself out of this hole, I feel like I’m digging my own grave right now, everyone is so tired of me, I’m a 16 year old girl who never thought would end up like this, I’m scared of being social and stepping outside, I’ve become more and more insecure bc of my as an example my thick hair which is thin now bc Ive suffered from anorexia undiagnosed still, but I just went through it all alone. I had such evil thoughts and insane. Right now I don’t regonize myself

obtuse hull
shell plank
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I’m a little scared of opening up

obtuse hull
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you feel safer doing it in dms?

shell plank
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no sorry

obtuse hull
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dw i forget things in like 2 to 3 days so i won't remember this talk

obtuse hull
shell plank
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I just want to feel confident and be myself again

obtuse hull
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and you feel shitty bc ppl hate u?

shell plank
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No no one hates me but I hate me and it just affects everyone to the state where they can’t help me anymore

obtuse hull
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i'm sorry but i can't rlly work without proper iformation but i'll try the best i can

shell plank
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I want to get out of depression and stop caring about what people think, because in the society it’s so much standards about how you should be,talk, look.

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Its so hard, today is the weakest I’ve ever felt

obtuse hull
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it still does i mean

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its human nature

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and thats the worst part.

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the standards in society

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thats all on social media

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majority of people don't follow that and for the ones that do

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well they were never meant to be able to find a partner

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there are 9 billion people in the world

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probably 10 now but

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god knows how many men or women are waiting for an exact person like you

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it's like the quote goes

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"you can be the most beautiful shade of green but it won't matter if their favorite color is blue"

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but even though you can't find one because of who you are.

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doesn't mean you chnage

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cause then the one person who was looking for a person like you

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will have no one to look for

shell plank
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Makes me so happy just that sentence

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I honestly didn’t think anyone would say anything that good ever

obtuse hull
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you will find someone

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and if you don't

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maybe in the next life

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but the point is

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you will find someone who's favorite color is green

shell plank
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The truth is for me I think I entered the wrong world when I met this one guy who went to my school on a texting app (snap), they complimented me in ways I didn’t want to be complimented for but I still let that come to my me, the only reasons a partner wanted me for I though was if I looked this way or acted this way, I don’t they will like me if I look like my normal self and act like me, I’m a people pleaser so I always want everyone the best, i cant say no. I mean he completely got to my mind. I got sick just bc of him, and other people who just judged me for nothing.

obtuse hull
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if he didn't love you for you being urself

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then he never truly loved you

shell plank
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What I also find sad is

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First of all Im a big empathic, so I care about people

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But it’s what the society has told especially the males what to love and how to be liked, because this guy he took injections, just to be more masculine even though he was already a man, and they also show a society where it’s all about partying money, I mean in my place where I live all teenagers can think about is money and skinny girls, and alcohol, I mean I see everyday on the bus people playing with money on games at their phone, how do we stop this. I mean I want to love someone for their awareness, intelligence and just kindness

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I feel sad for my brothers to grow up in a society like this

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I don’t want them to see the world like this

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Money is nothing you should brag about just to be liked, I mean I will like either way just if you’re a good person

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I’m very sensitive to what’s happening in the world. I care a lot about people and social issues, and it can be emotionally exhausting.

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@obtuse hull sorry for the long messages heheh

obtuse hull
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oh np

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my lights went out sorry @lizzyce

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unfortunately we cannot control this

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but despite living in a wolrd full of people like this

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there are many who disagree like you with what is going on

obtuse hull
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alrthough its painful

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we have to cut off these people and ignore whats going on in the world

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focus on your life

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i once was sensitive

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but then i made the grave mistake of slowly building walls around my emotions and it is suffocating

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so im not saying not to be sensitive

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infact i think sensitivity is a gift cause it lets you get your emotions out

obtuse hull
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like my sisters are gone abroad and im left alone

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not knowing what to do

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but remember

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since you are the oldest

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youare the idol to your siblings

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everymistake you made

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you will do your best for them not to do the same

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every time youneeded advice but didn't recieve it

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do it for your brothers

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be the parents your parents were never to you

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and then your brothers will be fine

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they'll find a partner to be with