#I’m alone

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ashen dagger
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Loneliness isnt the “i have no one there”. It can be you have hundreds of people but they dont really care about you, or they could care but there not that person one your life that broke away from you. Im in the situation of all 3 someone i feel like i have someone and others is i feel like I have no one. I guess it all started with my ex breaking up with em for the 5th time and she was very manipulative and that made me think shes the only one… and now im just stuck in the past present and i dont know what the future could bring, if i could get someone that cares and i could be in an actual healthy relationship I would give up everything just for that. I don’t know what to do I feel blank most days it’s hard to describe. The worst part is night because we used to sleep together and cuddle but now I feel lonely. Like apart of me is gone I don’t know how to react, I’m so used to having someone else that my mind forgot when I was alone. To be honest I’m afraid…

shadow siren
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Wow, that sucks!

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Sorry to hear you say that, buddy.

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But keep your chin up, things get better!

unborn wing
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@ashen dagger wanna talk abt it

ashen dagger
sleek dune
ashen dagger
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Alright I guess it all started in at new years

sleek dune
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Jst tell me bro

ashen dagger
sleek dune
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Ofc take ur time

ashen dagger
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I need to type it out💀

sleek dune
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Ive got time

ashen dagger
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It all started on new years she wanted to “start fresh” I guess her idea of fresh wasn't with me so we broke up. After a month or less then hard to tell at this point. I noticed she was dating one of my long-time friends. And after that relationship, she ended up less than a day, and she got back with me. I was on guard I mean who wouldn't be and. One day I asked her about it and she tried to justify it by adding “I knew him longer” but that still broke me to this every day to the point where I fell into a deep depression, which I'm not sure if I'm fully out… and then we broke up again because she saw I was being distant (of course I am). And we worked on ourselves before she asked me out again, I hesitated because I didn't want her to do the same stuff over and over again (she was VERY controlling to the point where I couldn't talk to anyone but her and my family). And she has a past like everyone one so after sleeping on it, I decided to get back with her. And then I saw signs of her being controlling once more. So I decided to block her on everything trying to get her out of my live but she came back with a different account trying to fake it because some else was trying to try and get with me once more (this isn't the first time she has done this). I contacted a friend to help me and let me understand more because I'm slightly autistic so we where texting and I tried to fix the relationship and she found out someone was helping me and called me immature, and a bunch of rude stuff. I eventually had enough of it and blocked her and everything that I could I’m not in contact with her, but she said to the friendthat she was dating. manipulate her into dating her. Which I believe is false and she’s just making up so we can get back together. And now I’m sitting not trying to cry, but to be honest, I’m too tired to cry. I’ve cried too much to care anymore.

sleek dune
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Tbh i dont know what im supposed to do but it sounds like you didnt have had the best luck with ur girlfriend

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Im sry u had to go through all this

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Its close to 5 am in my country so im going to sleep now hope i could help u

ashen dagger
sleek dune
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Dont forget I love you for being you and standing fir yourself

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@ashen dagger

ashen dagger
unborn wing
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my lights went out

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sorry

ashen dagger
distant dew
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@ashen dagger Would you wanna dm?