emotional complications

[alpine basin]

I have a very difficult time expressing myself, like i say one thing but it gets taken in a bad way. and i feel like when it happens i get sent back to a dangerous state of despair of my inability to communicate properly. As someone with APS and MDD those mental states pile onto it and it just feels like im swallowing barbed wire. especially when i try to vocalize how i feel when episodes come on, im looking for some help.

[outer silo]

Im sorry this must suck

It sucks not being able to say how you feel

I the people who take it the wrong way might now be the people u wanna be around depending on how its taken/ dealt with

And im always here if u need to speak ur mine or talk

[alpine basin]

yeah it does, but atleast things are going in the right direction for me currently (im having a diamond ring made to propose to my lover+

sorry my cat lol

[prisma jungle]

If the despair is caused by you being misunderstood, have you tried talking to your SO about this to establish some sort of phrase like:
"Can I rephrase that".

Or do you think getting a chance to try again would help?

[alpine basin]

i do just sometimes things go over his head (he has autism)

but i do make up any mistake i make

as best as i can anyway

[outer silo]

Yeah, hopefully it keeps going up

[pliant flint]

What's APS and MDD

[alpine basin]

attenuated psychosis syndrome and major depressive disorder

[pliant flint]

Ah I see , hope you're visiting doctors for that

[alpine basin]

i am, its a slow ride but its giving results.

[pliant flint]

Then leave the matter to the experts and follow their lead. That's the best approach.