Looking for help, I think?

[rough juniper]

I’ve been struggling a lot so lemme vent a bit? I’m technically in a relationship, but it’s rly long distanced and he’s confusing. I have a few crushes outside of that relationship, but none seem to like me back. I did have a toxic ex that cheated on me, so that might contribute to something. I’m rly stressed with a lot of stuff that’s been going on, and nothing has helped like vacation or anything. My family likely stresses me the most with…basic family things. And they were (and still can be) rly abusive. I wanna do something with space and the planets, but I also wanna be a country girl. But those things don’t go together in most people’s logic. And I just feel hopeless. My mind always feels overstuffed, overwhelmed, overstimulated, literally exhausted. I tried talking to people, but no one helped, so I’m at a loss.

[fervent wigeon]

Having an online rls can sometimes be really exhausting and i don’t understand how you can have a couple of other crushes don’t you love your current partner? You should choose who you really want and what you’re willing to do in the future, you’re stressing most likely because your brain is overloaded with stuff you don’t know how to handle, you should just let go of some stuff for example choose between country girl or outer space and let go of the other and about the too stressed thing, you should just do stuff you love and do stuff that’ll make you forget all the other stuff

[rough juniper]

Thanks! I’m sure this can help with someone else. For me though, my heart is conflicted. Having more than one crush while dating someone actually is pretty common. It’s happened before. And me and my partner definitely just talked through it a lot. But he’s gotten a lot more…confusing as I said before, to the point where I can’t really understand his emotions like I used to, and I feel like I’m growing more of a resentment almost.

For my other thing, outer space and country are stuff I love equally. I guess outer space might be much higher in a way, but that country part still clings on a lot. I guess maybe my heart and stuff will change and I’m prob just overthinking everything. Thanks for your help though!

[wheat tusk]

You can do outer space in your young years and country girl when you’re retired you can’t do both things at the same time

[wheat tusk]

Is he ok with you wanting other guys

Ngl that’s very weird

[cursive pasture]

yo