#I can never be happy again

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graceful bridge
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Literally sobbing while writing this right now but i feel like shit and just wanna sit in my feelings or something i guess.
I dont understand. i genuinely cant bring myself to understand it. How come you say you cant be happy? Im doing everything for you, im always excited with you, loving you, laughing and smiling with you. We make plans together, cry together, comfort each other. help each other. I would do anything for you, I would drop everything just to take care of you when you were sick, but Jacob STILL gets in the way. i feel so betrayed, i feel worthless, like ill never be good enough. it doesnt matter what i do, im never better than HIM in your eyes, why is it that you still love him??? I DONT GET IT. HE. HURT. YOU. On so many levels, he beat, yelled, cheated, mocked, insulted, lied, manipulated, abandoned, and LEFT you. so HOW is it that you still miss him?? why do you dream about him every night, and tell me every morning? You are the love of my life, nothing could make me hate you. so WHY do you say you cant be happy? that you cant love me? why dont you want to put effort in? why are you always looking for the easy way out? why do you use him to hurt me? to try and get me to hate you? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY???? you always told me you love me, that im perfect, the most special thing to you. that you needed me, that you cant live without me, that im the best thing you've ever had. so why do say that you hate me sometimes, or that ill never be better than HIM, i can never love anyone like i can love you. you were supposed to be my first and only love. T^T T^T T^T

eternal narwhal
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Girl I said the same thing too✌️💔

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I thought it was the end of the world when my partner was leaving me

eternal narwhal
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You can think about the past as much as you want but don't go back to it

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You love a flower so much that you forgot to water your own"