quick rivet
My life is f*****? miserable. I have nothing going on for me outside of what's behind screens. I have no irl friends because my city is f****** terrible and all the schools I went to were poor and garbage I LIVE IN THE HOOD in poverty I'm not anything like these f****** around here. And because of that I simply don't fit in. Either I'm BLACK and white people and people of other races don't want to fw me OR I'm not "black enough" and I'm "white washed" because I don't do the degenerate things they do or talk how they talk or wear what they wear etc etc.
And online isn't no f****** better. No one ever wants to get to know me deeper or take me seriously. I get left on read and flaked on whenever I plan to play a game with someone new.
And the current "friend group" I had went straight to hell because my friend I've known the longest ruined it all. She's a liar, catfisher, emotionally unstable, self-sabotage masochist weirdo. She decided to be in a secret relationship and not tell my guy friend or ANYONE in the group she was with someone. Then one day my guy friend was flirting with her when her mysterious boyfriend was in another call and it was a s*** show from there. It escalated to them THREATENING TO HARM EACH OTHER IN REAL LIFE!!! OVER A WEIRD GIRL!!
I'm facing real adversity and what used to be my refuge/safe space is exactly the f****** same. Just chaos and loneliness and isolation. Being treated like I'm crazy or the bad guy for calling s*** out as I see it.
My sister hates my guts for no good reason at all and she's been being an absolute a**hole to me taking shots at me at every chance she gets.
I'm tired of this. I don't truly have anyone. And no one truly has me right now. I'm suffering all alone no one is supporting me the way I need it I'm just surviving all on my own will power... I'm not sure how much longer I can take it...
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