how to stop emotions from controlling u?

[rigid idol]

they control everything from how my day will go to what i will do.
distractions arent helping me that much and idk what to do anymore, idk if theres even a solution.
they just feel so insanely strong and almost dangerous and at those times thinking rationally is just impossible almost.
can somebody please tell me if this is normal and if its not, how can i fix it?

i just want to feel numb

[strange thunder]

you are your emotions just embrace it

[rigid idol]

if i embrace them ill kill myself

theyre too intense