Okay, I'mma start off with just one of the things I worry about or just think about myself. I began to realize something like, I feel a certain dopamine rush when I put people down at school yk, maybe Insult or a shove. Even on a trip, it gives me like a high of dopamine hit through my head when I do certain things toward the kids in my class. I'm just saying what I wanna say here cause I'm confused about myself, and my mom is just not getting me anything. Mental fuckin health support in Okinawa is a joke, just saying be happy or some other bullshit. And I come to think deeply Abt myself, I like getting praise, I hate when people get more attention. And I rlly hate when I'm just a fuckin background guy in everything, and I wanna be in the spotlight for fuckin once. But I dunno it feels so fuckin confusing and I ask ppl, some say I'm just selfish some say I'm plain rude. And some other guys say I might be a narcissist, and I dunno what to believe like shit. I wanna be somethin better than the rest of those retards at my school but at the same time, it feels dull and devoid of shit. Bonus, I think I'm just not socially aware in most cases, I don't know social cues, I don't know how to filter myself it blurts out every time. Like I can see a gal and call her Cynthia, or I pick on the usual kid I target. And maybe throw him in the trash for once, I know it's all fucked up to say for some of y'all but. At some point I don't feel like I'm saying anything wrong, it's just me speaking what I know. And how I think
#Am I a bully?
lost forum
Idk dude, it seems more like you're hungry for attention no offense
unreal torrent
Idk dude, it seems more like you're hungry for attention no offense
Well icl u right Abt dat
lost forum
Well icl u right Abt dat
Yeah lowk just try find another way of getting attention
unreal torrent
Yeah lowk just try find another way of getting attention
Well I try getting attention from my mom, which she is busy. I try getting some attention in the area where I live but it feels rather isolating then social, even met some of the people from school and I had to keep up the more aggressive part that I always show. but I just