I really want someone to rely on more than a friend, and it's been a struggle a really bad struggle with everything. The girl that I thought was the one for me got with someone else after saying she missed me three weeks prior, and know I'm stuck. It hurts so bad.
#I'm tired. My heart aches.
gloomy dirge
versed swift
hi, wanna get into detail ?
gloomy dirge
Yeah sure, you can ask questions if its okay with you I like answering questions
versed swift
were you and the girl in a relationship of any kind ?
talking stage ?
did you like her, and dis she know ?
gloomy dirge
We were dating for 4 months
gloomy dirge
After we broke up (and it was my fault ofc) she said she missed me but we obviously couldnt get back together because of her parents and then a week later she got with someone else and I found out like 2 hours ago
I've been crying since
Well for context we broke up in September and she said she missed me a week ago, and then she got with someone else yesterday or smth
And I found out today
versed swift
After we broke up (and it was my fault ofc) she said she missed me but we obviou...
do her parents know that you guys broke up ?
or about you generally ?
gloomy dirge
do her parents know that you guys broke up ?
Yeah they hate me
And I can agree because I was a terrible everything
I'm just difficult to love.
versed swift
hey
dont say that
youre just a kid
that wanted the best for her
youre still learning
and she was too
maybe her parents just didnt want her to have a relationship
gloomy dirge
maybe her parents just didnt want her to have a relationship
They do and I screwed it up
Completely.
versed swift
and you arent difficult to love
okay ?
man, love ?
it happens naturally
love means being committed to someone
and if she didnt acvept you for who you are completely, then i dont think thats love
you'll know when youre time to have a new relationship will come
for now, heal, and im here to help
ill help distract you
gloomy dirge
I've always wanted to be loved conditionally by someone that prioritizes me
She gave up on me because I kept getting upset over the stupidest things
And she got with one of my close friends that I know isn't good for her at all
versed swift
She gave up on me because I kept getting upset over the stupidest things
listen
if she loved you
gloomy dirge
And I found out by actually reaching out to her and finding out someone else was saying "I love you" in her tiktoks
versed swift
she wouldve accept the part of you that gets easily upset
gloomy dirge
I guess so
She said I hurt her too much though from what I would say when I was upset.
And it's true cause I get passive aggressive when I'm upset and I couldn't control it
It just hurts my heart aches and it's gotten worse over the course of the 3 months
This is the only thing thats affecting me and the only thing I want..
Someone that will be there for me and prioritize me and love me conditionally
And it's affecting both my mental and physical health
That's why I came here ig
versed swift
i mean i want to be your friend, if thats enough
gloomy dirge
Do you mind me asking what ur pronouns are so I don't mix anything up 😅