Halima’s Diary

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Hii, I’m basically going to try to be consistent and use this as a journal/diary. Hopefully I can make some friends along the way and we can relate to each other.

Okay so

I realized something

But I don’t exactly know the solution to it yet

I realized every time I make a friendship with the opposite gender, I end up falling into obsession or love?

That’s actually crazy 😭

Because I hate that I do this

Anyways

I forgot to mention. I have bipolar 2. Major depression and anxiety.

Lmao

Anyways I’m making dinner 💕

I’m proud of myself for that

Cooking has always been somewhat of a passion of mine

But it’s more so to cook for someone. Not myself

I love the reactions

But I’m trying to gift myself something. Care

[dense star]

I can relate

It doesnt help that they act like they want you

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I feel like this will be hard to write in here because I go from talkative to extremely silent

Like ughhh😭

These big aahhh emojis got me giggling hahahah

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YESSS OH MY GOSH

That even fuels it more

I literally have to silence myself and tell myself no😭 cuz let’s not ruin a friendship 😂

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Its so hard bruh thats how it was and it ended

It became a relationship then we fought then we moved on

It ruins everything

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I’m so sorry ☹️ that sounds like the absolute worst. it genuinely does

Did it get better with you?

The obsession or love

I have a legit spending problem. I barely get paid and I still spend it on a lil treat. YALL LOOK WHAT I BOUGHT!! So pretty so pink so purple sooooo CUTTTETETE😭💕

I bought a few for my older sister and me

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Hii Halima, are you a Muslim?

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Yes

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Yeah I thought so. I am too😁

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MashaAllah. Very nice to meet you

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Yes mam.

Friends??

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Sure

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Alright accept my friend request then

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Woah damn okay 😭

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That was too quick ig😂😂

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Want me to unfriend😂

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Nope. We are friends now

There is no going back

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😧

Sounds legitness

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How are you doing BTW?

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I’m okay alhamdulillah. Can’t complain. You?

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Alhamdulillah, I am good too. Not a bad end to my day. I found a friend

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Aww. That sounds amazing

Have you found other Muslims on here?

I’m so curious

I’m not on much

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Not yet. You are the first one I am meeting

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Really?!

Honor of being the first 😂

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There is a religion channel. I am sure we can find some there but I never open it

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Haha how lucky you are!!

My first Muslim friend here

Now thank Allah for it😂

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I don’t think I follow it 🙁

I can’t find it

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Thank you Allah!!! 🗣️

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Ooo

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I thank you too Allah!!!

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It looks like there is a lock on it

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Oh I see..idk why that is

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I have to be chosen 😭

To get in

LMAO

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Lmao

Sadddd

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AWW I mean it’s okay

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Yes mam

I just defeated my friend 5 times in a row in chess

Pretty smart fr

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You know chess?!

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Yes I do!!

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Teach me please 🙏🏻

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Lmaoo

alright then!

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I have this obsession for it 😭

But I don’t even know a thing about it

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😭

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Except a series called Queens Gambit

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Alright when are we starting your classes?

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That series is SO FREAKING MMM good

Scrumptious

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Well what are you doing tomorrow?

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It's Sunday, so not much

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Perfect cuz I’m off work tomorrow 😛

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I like that word...scrumptious😋

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Alright then, you text me tomorrow

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Yes. I love that word to describe things 😂😂

[bronze gust]

Lmao..Imma use it to describe you one day😛

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Oh!

😭

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😂😂

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Chillllll

Allah is watching

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Oh! Yes he is!

Astagfirullah

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Astaghfirullah 🗣️

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Hehe

Alright girl..Imma head out...for now.. I will come back soon

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Alrighty

But

What’s your name?

Or nickname

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It's Adil

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Gotchu

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Yep!

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Yallah bye bye Adil

[bronze gust]

Khuda Hafiz Halima! I will wait for your text!

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Y’all… I’ve been off work for a full week and I haven’t picked up my books

How can this be?

I love them so much and yet I don’t feel like reading?

Cuz ima lazy ahh

I swear tomorrow is the day I go back to reading

Anywayz

I’m gonna watch a movie to sleep. Night night

Solid 8/10 day

Alhamdulillah

And got a new friend

Appreciate you Allah for that one

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Woke up early today

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And read a few pages of White Nights

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Goodness.. I feel so tired

I’ve been kind of like bed rotting all day

I was just doing so much everyday that I wanted to stay in bed

I go back to work tomorrow

Ugh

Let’s get that dough tho

I already can’t wait for payday 😭

And for therapy

I just need someone to talk to

The past few days, mentally has been not the best

My mom doesn’t like when I’m like this

She ends up telling me to do more

But that’s the thing. I do the chores. I give her money. I try my best with everything. But just when I fall down a little, I’m not allowed to

Maybe I do need to try harder

I just get so drained so fast

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Yo when I was taking out the trash a few minutes, the air like slapped me in the face. That shi felt good

Man I love the freezing weather

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Watching The Walking Dead before I go to work

It’s pretty good

I’m on season 10

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BOOTIFUL

My manager is soooo sweet. She offered to drive me home, but I wanted to walk in the cold. I find it comforting, especially on a chilly night. She acts tough but is secretly sweet—just focused on getting things done.

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I’m nearly done with A Little Life. This book is painfully beautiful and haunting. Truly, it's one of those novels that stays with you, lingering in your thoughts long after you've finished reading.

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I realized the past few days I’ve been having trouble with speaking

It bothers me

I was explaining something to my coworker today and she told me she couldn’t hear me and then she said she didn’t understand what I was saying

Tbh I haven’t always particularly liked talking or even writing

Maybe because I can’t form a sentence for shiii

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It was also the way she said that to me too. Man… her tone was brutal

It doesn’t help that she’s an old lady😭

Fuhh speech

I hate sentences

Sorry for idk venting out of nowhere

I swear I try to be optimistic

I think that this is also one of the reason why I struggle with having friends

I think so hard and make actual sense but then get drained and not wanting to talk until I feel better? 😭

Nah that’s crazy man

Oh! Also my sister found out the gender of her baby

It’s a boy

Yayy

I’m sooo happy and excited for her

I can’t wait to spoil him with cute outfits, shoes, and toy😭

Ggggawd

Baby shoes are sooo tiny and adorable

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My bed misses me, I just feel it dawg

2 more hours baby then I’m all yours 😍

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Gonna read a few more pages of A Little Life

Sadly, I can’t find my book light. So I can’t read in the dark

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Oh my Jude

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I wrote a poem