it's currently 1am and i have to go somewhere at 6am so ill try to be as quick as possible and read the replies when i get home later in the day but, one night while i was setting up my selling business, my ex from when i was in junior highschool suddenly added me on facebook. I was so shocked because,, we didn't end on good terms, and you can consider her my first love. I wasn't be able to give her the time and effort, and above all things, love and affection, then 2 years, nearly three years later actually since its almost 2026, just two nights ago she added me on Facebook, my heart dropped, as well as my stomach, I nearly had an outburst of anxiety.
I had hundreds, or thousands of questions running through my mind, why would she add me? did she need something? I hesitated to press accept, yet it didn't even take me two moments. Then after I accepted, she sent me a message, asking to play valorant?.. But valorant is the literal reason why we broke up. I kept playing, and not talking to her like how I should've been, but after we broke up, games didn't appeal to me as much anymore. I was really heartbroken after we broke up, and I kept wondering what I did wrong, so I read books, watched videos about relationships (Psych2go(ps not an advertisement)) just so I could find out what I did wrong, then over time the more we didn't talk (because we went no contact she blocked me i think) the more time i had to think about my actions and realize my mistake, but then she came back after nearly three years, and my heart is pounding at the messages she sends me and it drives me insane. Yet at the same time, I don't want to assume that she likes me?? it's all so confusing, but more than anything, I don't want to rush our relationship, I want to see if she likes what I bring to the table, and I don't want to be marked as lovebombing or any of the sorts. It just feels.. so weird, I don't know what to do.
#my ex came back
fervent knot
I just need advice I suppose. I forgot to mention that I'm now in my last year of senior highschool, and we live in the same province, not city though, then by next year we'd both be in college. Back in junior high, she's a girl who used to take her studies and grades seriously, and it amazed me how smart, diligent, and amazing she was, but apparently she recently got into a school that has a low grad rate, and she's a group leader at the same time they have back subj, stem student, so then I figured she's been burnt out and has been trying her best to maintain grades that lets her graduate atleast, then I was shocked to find out that she's the one playing and trying out games now ?.. :'3
more than anything i want to be there for her though, even if our interests and humor dont align as much,, god its so hard to talk about feelings 
and i want to talk to her more but its just so hard because itd end up becoming awkward and,, uh, its because i always talk in english while she talks in our native language, which im terrible at, like im whitewashed 
thats why i said our humor doesnt align
wicked sigil
and i want to talk to her more but its just so hard because itd end up becoming ...
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