I’m losing it

[prisma wyvern]

I’m going through a lot right now, getting rejected but the only person I’ve ever had feelings for, the nerves in my wrists getting fucked, going slowly more and more blind every year and everyone around me starting to grow distant, and on top of that because of my damn eye sight I can’t see much anything and I’m starting to become paranoid about things that aren’t there, and it’s getting hard to recognize people and I’m starting to constantly get itchy from the paranoia, to the point I’m barely getting any sleep, I can barely keep my eyes open and my doctor told me I’ve lost 12 pounds at an abnormally fast rate, I’m just so fucking tired and nothing makes me happy anymore, usually I blow away money for my friends and hobbies I care for (making chainmail for friends and myself) but since they are growing distant it feels useless and since my wrists are fucked I can’t do anything involving any single one of my hobbies including the chainmail

And you know, all I can do is laugh, not even a happy laugh, it’s like I’m starting to go insane, pain is starting to dissipate and I can’t feel anything, I keep trying to hold the mask up to make people think I’m happy, but I’m not, and I don’t know if I can lose anyone else, so many people around me have died

[rapid geyser]

Hey

[rapid geyser]

Would you like to talk with uh

Someone who has nothing to worry about

In life