I’ve been with my boyfriend for nearly 5 months now (like tomorrow is exactly 5 months) and I just can’t help but still yearn for him uncontrollably. I’m so fucking attached and long for him yet he is so busy and when he isn’t he sometimes does his own things and idk I just feel like I’m constantly in the state of yearning. I just want my boy. Like rn we had the normal rounds. He says he is gonna play with Ralph for like an hour (it’s always longer than what he says so more like 2-3) and then come back to me. It just hurts cause I just got him back from his chores and such and yet he has to go again. Idk I always try to plan my chores and activities when he is busy. I just miss him. We have hardly talked all day and I crave him so fucking badly. It just hurts yaknow? It hurts to love somebody so badly but they are never here. I get to see him in person both days this weekend all day which is nice but we do this at least once a week so it’s normal. The issue is the lack of attention when long distance. Anyways, every time he detects when I start to cry when he leaves (I try to hide it but it’s hard cause I’m rather emotional) he likes to do this thing where he tries to comfort me and tries to make me not hurt from it but then proceeds to just go anyways. Like bro if you truly don’t want me to hurt you wouldn’t leave. And like why do you care about a friend from elementary school that you never talk to anyways? Why keep this friendship if yall talk once in a blue moon? I kid you not he said the last time they talked was 4 years ago. Like bro why bother then? Idk I just don’t get it and I kiss him so much and it pisses me off he pretends to wanna make me feel better but proceeds to leave knowing fully well his absence is what pins me.
#Yearning
opaque raft
green dust
please listen to this and get out of this obsession of him ik how stupid it sounds but it will RUIN your relationship
stop and make it equal
opaque raft
please listen to this and get out of this obsession of him ik how stupid it soun...
I can’t. Believe me, I’ve tried. It’s just the way my mind runs
green dust
i am the exact same
and i’ve lost the person i loved the most because of it
i am genuinely begging you if you really like this guy which ofcourse you do you have to learn how to manage it
opaque raft
i am genuinely begging you if you really like this guy which ofcourse you do you...
I sincerely doubt he will leave me over a thing like loving him too much. If anything I’m pondering the idea of finding somebody who loves as much as I do