Feeling Nothing?

[minor bough]

Hey, i have a small problem. i have the feeling, that i dont care for people close to me. For example my parents: they were gone a few days and i felt better. I did nothing special in that time, i just dint like spending time w them. I habe the feeling, that i dont care for people. My grandpa died few years ago. Sure, at first i was sad, but the next day i didnt care anymore. My best friend is currently in England, but i dont think of him, if im not reminded of him. And when i „do care“ its mostly just faking it to be „normal“. My parents always tell me to show more emotions, especially happiness, but there is nothing i could show. Why smile when there is nothing to be happy about? Furthemore i also have social anxiety and dont like partying, bc if too many people. I dont look for a girlfriend, let alone even care, bc i habe the feeling that I’ll never feel a connection, bc i never did. Sometimes my life feels just not worth it. I feel hollow and empty.

I would like to have someone to talk to, not to get advice, just to talk and exchange, bc my parents think its a phase and dont take it serious. Pls be 18+ and okay with ||suicidal|| topics.
Prefer female, bc don’t wanna open myself to male honestly, dont know why. DMs open

[crisp nexus]

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[peak mica]

@minor bough I unlocked the channel, it seems they flagged it due to the mention of ||suicide||. Just make sure you speak of the topic responsibly, and you'll be fine

[minor bough]

alr thank you. i thought i am responsible by mentioning it only a bit as a warning

[peak mica]

Oh no you are, that's why I unlocked! Just a little reminder incase a conversation takes place that gets out of hand on the topic, ya know? Ping staff if you need anything :)