#Journal Journal Journal😃

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queen latch
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Hi, i don't want anyone of my friends to see this journal

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Okay, so, i'll begin i guess

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Journal Journal Journal😃

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I'm losing my best friend. I made a post in the journal how I'm sorry that i hurt him, i hate how i behave

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He got mad, we talked because he didn't want to upset me and

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said he'll be back tommorow

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now he's gone, still mad, still ignoring and doen't want to talk or even see me

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he said "I'm not being good for you, i'm cold and ignoring and i don't deserve" but he is still doing this

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I don't want to lose him, but does he?

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It feels like he's liyng, if he really really needed me, we would talk

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he would at least let me talk

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answer my questions

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well

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He doesn't

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and i know, he hates me

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now i am sure

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I'm not mad at him, i'm awful. He made the right choice

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But i wish he would at least tell me

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does he really want to continue our friendship?

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At least

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what i really wanted to say, i just forgot

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He got over me, simply left me, in a way of leaving a burden away

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I didnèt

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I'm still trying to talk, trying to save our friendship becuase i don't want to leave him i can't

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but

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it's a one way mirror

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Why should i try to talk to him, if he doen't want to, or even fucking hates me?

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i can't try anymore

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it won't help

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I can only wish that he texts me

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but i think, he won't

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ever

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I'm sorry

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here's the thing i talked about

queen latch
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As I see, he likes his other friends much more than me, he always did

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Why did he choose me?

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He always cared for other friends more than me, yet told me that "I'm important"

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that i matter to him

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that i'm his BEST FRIEND

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ho i am not

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I'm an awful friend

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i often thought i hurt him

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and i did, now for sure

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whatever he does now, i'll be much more careful after all

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We had a great friendship, but we both hurt each other a lot'

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I don't know about him

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but i don't want to hurt him anymore

queen latch
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Hi, recently feeling like a burden, I already told it in my journal, but, now it's different.
I annoy my friends, my uncle, my dad, most of the people I talk to, hell one of my friend literally hates me because of my annoyance. My uncle seems to be exhausted of me and our calls, my father us getting annoyed the moment I wake up. and I'm not whining here that I'm annoying and i can't do anything, I'm writing this because I want to do something with it, I won't be clingy anymore, won't be cold or like, anything, I'll be a decent friend, son and cousin

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I'm sorry for the way I am, but I don't want to sit here and do nothing, I don't miss anyone who left me and I don't care about what people really say about me, mostly, I just want to be a decent guy

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My only online friends are leaving me

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It's off topic, and may sound too stupid, but like, for a year now i planned killing myself at Christmas

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I don't know

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I always felt like i annoy everyone, and these people proved me right, I don't know what else is here for me but a train coming at me

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And, about my friends a little

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So i think, they made a group without me, or just, keep avoiding me, ignore me and allat stuff, one of my best friends hates me and i think blocked me everywhere

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I hate them too, each time they make me feel odd, i may don't hate, but I'm sure angry

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I tried, i gave everything i could just to receive this

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I'm tired

queen latch
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No matter what, I'll try to handle myself

queen latch
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I'm not erudite, no matter how gard I will try, this will all lead to failure

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I won't pass it

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I can't

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I'm stupid

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I don't see my future

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Again

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I don't see the future of mine, as i should

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I'm father's failure, i onlt hurt and that's hurtingme

queen latch
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Scum

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Scum like my friends

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I bragged how they have no future, how they only play football and laugh

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But

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Who

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Am

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I?

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Scum, a bastard

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I mean nothing to anyone

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And my only hope?

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My girlfriend, I'll give her everything I got

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She cares about me, thought our relationship started not so long ago

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I wish, to give her only positive feelings and emotions

agile crescent
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noooo

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if i can’t support you, she can

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i believe in your future more than my own

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sooo

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stay strong

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for yourself

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and her

queen latch
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I didn't expect you to find ts journal 🥀

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But, thanks, very very much

queen latch
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I highly appreciate it, no joke, but i would appreciate morr if you pit yourself in your number one priority

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🫂

agile crescent
queen latch
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And you too Sartii