everyone i have ever ben friends with has either left me or I have ben forced to lave them. so many people, i can still remember every single one of them. it hurts when i have to leave them even more than when they leave me, no good byes nothing to none of them just a "cya later" or "ttyl" and i never saw them again and never will. they definitely don't remember me but i remember every single one of them, i remember them loving me, them crying for me, them loving me for- me. after i lost my next group of friends today i started to remember moment of my past with these people, i start to remember all of them and all of my last moments. the last time i cried is around 3 years ago after my grandma died and now today i finally felt real sadness. ive always ben categorized as an a hole or somebody for people to despise or get angry or annoyed whenever i talk to them but i kinda liked it, maybe it was my way of coping but i don't know.
#i have no one and its starting to make me an asshole
misty meadow
i get way to attached to people way to easily
it makes me think of a quote by a famous nomad "let go of all earthly attachments to be free from everything"
can i be free of attachment itself in general and if so how can i?
what if i just embrace being an a hole and push everyone out so i wont get attached and wont get hurt.
misty meadow
if so my dm's are open
thank you i appreciate I would appreciate it alot