I don't know

[brazen cedar]

I don't geniuely know what I am doing. Like, I sometimes do stuff without an intention, I just "do it" and somehow I speak without thinking, I am telling myself "THINK" but, it doesn't work. I want many stuff to stop, but I guess not

[olive raptor]

What are you doing that you don’t want to do?

[brazen cedar]

For example, I talk without thinking and I regret what I say later. I am trying to stop it but, I am not sure how to do it

[boreal tapir]

Hey wasup dude

Here to talk if you need to

[brazen cedar]

I need way to get rid of impulsive speech

[boreal tapir]

And why you think it’s a problem man

Just trying to understand

[brazen cedar]

Because I regret what I say later

[boreal tapir]

But what kinda things do you say?

[brazen cedar]

Lying unintentionally

[boreal tapir]

Ooo

I can relate

But you don’t do it in a bad way right?

Well I think it’s normal to exaggerate certain things

[brazen cedar]

It does

[boreal tapir]

Has it been affecting your relationships?

Like With friends or family

[brazen cedar]

Sometimes

[boreal tapir]

And do you think are you being misunderstood? When you do it

There were a lot of people who would come off weird when I talked to them

Some people just didn’t like them

But they just tried to fit in

[brazen cedar]

Well, I think so

[boreal tapir]

Well i don’t know how to think before speaking really

And I don’t think everyone does

But there was a time where I was too fed up with some things and

I was just going on autopilot

Yk what I mean?

[dusty osprey]

very few people do ig its an acquired skill

just make small efforts

in every conversation

[brazen cedar]

It happens to me too

[boreal tapir]

Yeah?

Felt burned out?

[boreal tapir]

It’s true

Social skill wise yeah

But when you feel down

Or like burned out

It’s hard to deal with people

[dusty osprey]

yeah it goes out of hand

especially when u are irritated

[boreal tapir]

Yeah

But dude

[boreal tapir]

It’s alr

I just think life takes you to very strange places man

And it affects how you behave

Even when you try to control it

Don’t stress to much about it

And try talking to somebody

[brazen cedar]

Well, I can't go to a psycholog

[dusty osprey]

how are u misunderstood?

like did they think of u as a

worse person than u are because of ur lyings?

or like did the lying takes a toll on ur mind

[brazen cedar]

The latter

[dusty osprey]

u seem to have a problem with mixing up the truth and the lie later

so u feel frustrated?

like i had a problem like this so i think i can relate

[brazen cedar]

Ye, I am religious too

[dusty osprey]

so like u should actually try to consciously speak the truth when lying is not needed

infact try speaking the truth

even when u feel slight discomfort

like try to speak it atleast start from ur closest people(stop lying to them)

[brazen cedar]

I have another issue too

Not sure if this is trauma, but when someone yells to me, I feel my mind gets...dumb and starts racing

And sometimes my legs shake

[dusty osprey]

did ur parents use to like

yell at you a lot

and like beat u

or teachers?

[brazen cedar]

Yelling yes, beating no

[dusty osprey]

it might be trauma yea

[brazen cedar]

Is there a way to cope or..?

[dusty osprey]

honestly when it happens

try to not respond immediately and take deep breaths and look at what the situation is about really

is it your fault? was being afraid really necessary?

like make this ur default question when u encounter the situation

in your head

then speak/do what is needed

dont worry too much it might take time

like honestly i still cope with my trauma and idk if its healed or not so yea take time and whenever the situation arises

use it to train urself

[brazen cedar]

It is spain without s

[dusty osprey]

(btw im not a trained professional im js talking from my own experiences)

[dusty osprey]

yeah

spain in the bass without the s and b really

lmao

especially when u realise the yelling/beating all those years ago still hurts you

[brazen cedar]

Mine got evolved to a thing that I want to "silence" them

[dusty osprey]

woah woah bro went nuclear

lmao

nah its okay its a bit valid to feel anger

when remembering us as helpless and being treated like that

[brazen cedar]

Still, they are my family, but it hurts sometimes

[dusty osprey]

yeah exactly we need to forgive their past and even a bit of present tantrums

till we atleast like uk gain a bit of freedom and

start to really heal ourselves

cause hurting them would really do us no good

[brazen cedar]

Maybe a feel of satisfaction, then what else? More broken hearts ig

[dusty osprey]

apart from vengeance lol (batman w parents ahh) but yeah its fine to feel angry and resentful sometimes but like really for our good we need to heal ourselves first and protect our future from further pain

[dusty osprey]

exactly

[brazen cedar]

Well, it will be hard but, I guess I will try

[olive raptor]

It sounds like you are just more self conscious than average, many of us are ❤️ but perhaps you have internal shame or embarrassment about yourself, with time and age this will get better but as a kid or adolescent this can really be a struggle. You are not alone 🫶

If you are in a group setting a lot like school or big city maybe you are more self conscious in those settings as well. Some of us if we feel we don’t “fit in” or feel we look very good, are attractive, our minds naturally worry about that and try to find ways to fit in or be liked. That’s what it sounds like might be happening (in my opinion) and it’s definitely a big part of the human experience. When you follow a trade or skill you like, or when you find your group of people who accept you and value you just as you are and maybe you share interests with them, this will get better