Lost my pet, friends believe i do everything for attention, cant afford therapy, I just want help

[twin portal]

As of today, my best friend who is a dog, got euthanized today, all my friends left and dont care about me and say I'm either too much or doing this for attention all because im autistic, my girlfriend left me for the same reason, all I want is someone to connect to again, to laugh with, cry with, to love, and it feels like God is against me, I know they say God gives his strongest soldiers the toughest battles, but this is too much for me, I dont know what to do, it feels like the light is gone for me

[midnight bloom]

I understand how you feel

You dont have anyone that can help you in your battle

Have you thought about replacing your pet? It wont make you forget, but it will make the pain lighter and more bearable, having a companion to feel with. It sounds very hard to forget, and its something that wont happen, but your friend really doesnt want to see you like this

Sorry, its not about replacing or changing it, its about finding a new companion with whom you can feel again.

[twin portal]

I wish I could get another one, but i got fired yesterday, and my parents are heavily in debt, no job wants me cause I'm autistic

[midnight bloom]

I understand the problems you face, you can open up emotionally with me in dm and vent