wind ermine
I must be honest, I don't know if I can summarize this. You will not have any understanding of my problem if you do not know all the causes, but warning it's like an essay 😭 I have no one to talk to so I kind of hyper explained
I’m 17, autistic, and struggling with severe issues. My boyfriend George recently joined the army to help secure our future. He was barely overweight but still sent to what they call “fat camp.” Last week, he called me for an hour and a half on Saturday, which was the only thing keeping me sane.
My home life is miserable. My dad constantly belittles me, treats me like a maid even though I’m the one keeping the house clean, and even bullied George when he was here. I have no real friends—just a couple of people who don’t care much. George is the only person who truly understands me, cares about me, and spends time with me. Now, I can rarely speak to him.
This week, he didn’t call at all. His phone never turned on, and his mom said he might be able to talk tomorrow, but I have work. I can’t risk calling out since I just started and someone quit. Missing his call crushed me. I woke up early, showered, and waited all day just in case—ignoring everything else I had to do after a 6-day work week.
My mental health has gotten worse. I can barely shower, my room is a mess, laundry is piled so high I sleep on the couch or in the bird room. I feel like I’m deteriorating faster than ever. Soon, it’ll be worse—our weekly calls will shrink to only 30 minutes, and I can’t guarantee I’ll be off work to answer.
I feel completely alone. My animals don’t bring the comfort George does, and everyone else around me harasses me, belittles me, or shows how worthless they think I am. The only person I’ve ever had to comfort me is now barely reachable.
lavish cipher