#i think im in denial

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My crush told me “i (opposite of hate) you” back in June (so 2 months ago) and… WHAT DO I DO??? DID HE CONFESS?? WAS THAT LOWKEY A CONFESSION? IM SPIRALING AND IDK WHAT TO DO HELP
i need advice PLEASE im scared he’ll reject me or something if i bring it up. We still talk every day and crack jokes and have fun and play together but I DONT KNOW what to do idk do i go for it??? Do i shoot my shot?????? idk

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he definitely said i love you

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but it was 2 months ago

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do u really think he still likes u

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because u clearly ignored the very obvious hint💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭

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Uhh

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Idk

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I was scared 💔 💔 💔 💔 what if he was playing with me

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But nvm looking back on all the stuff hes done i dont think hes the type to fool around

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We still talk everyday and call every weekend though so uhh maybe he still likes me..?.??.??

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honestly

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it depends on how he treats you, what are the things he says to you and does for you, his behaviour, personality, etc.

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if you'll tell me about it maybe i can figure out if he likes you or not

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and sometimes when people talk to others about something, they end up figuring out those things by themselves

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so maybe you'll figure it out on your own too

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You’re right, it does depend on what he says or does

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Let me scramble my brain for something

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Yesterday, while we were playing a game and vcing, i told him that we still have two shark blood bottles (these can be used to summon Megalodon boss for good loots) and he said that its ok to just hold onto it for now. And since is was like the third time i brought this up, i uh, tried to make it a little different… and i said “it kinda makes me wanna drink other people’s blood, you know”
And he was like “okay, fine fine just say you wanna drink blood lah”
Then i said “im gonna drink your blood. hehehe”
And he was like “nooo…… my blood is… my blood is…”
Then i said “ye, it’s like… type A. Quite delicious. WAIT im not supposed to say that”
Then he went “yeah? you know my blood type?” (major shift in tone here??? he was confident 😭)
Then…. I was too busy panicking over the fact that i sort of exposed myself (that i still remember his blood type) i couldnt hear what he was saying in that moment 💔 but yay i survived i guess? and im sorry its so lengthy 😭😭

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Wait i remembered something shorter

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He sent me pics of his food today

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And every single pic was each time he took a bite of the burger

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Nvm this could be platonic

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its just you remembering his blood type

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actually, i wasn't talking about this treatment. i meant like how he talks to you, does he call you nicknames? does he ever flirt with u or give u hints? does he ever call u gorgeous/beautiful?

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does he support u when ur feeling bad? like cheering u up? or are you not comfortable with him yet

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Mmm uhh no, he doesn’t call me nicknames, he used to flirt but he doesnt do that anymore, he doesnt give hints, he doesnt really call me beautiful like that no, its not really a him thing to say

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As for the support thingy, he did say i should vent to him (a long time ago, before this semi-confession thingy happened) but i never really vented to him

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A lot of other things happened before the uhh, half-confession too

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But im not sure if its worth mentioning

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He did flirt, test the waters, buy me games, but most of those stuff happened before the confession

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Nngaghahshshshd AAAA honestly im not so sure 😭 hes super careful and cautious cuz he smart… sigh… he does drop a lot of mixed signals sometimes…??? Sometimes? Sometimes… …???? ??

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Oh ya there was one time he called himself my edog

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In front of like, our friends….. haha….

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But that was before the almost-confession happened

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I DONT KNOW im an expert at picking up hints i swear but i can never seem to figure this guy out

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😭😭😭😭😭

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and tell me

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did he continue to buy u gifts after the confession

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Girl idk im sorry my memory is muddy 💔 💔 💔 💔 😭 😭 😭

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did he continue to flirt?

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Uhh he bought me

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Peak

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do u remember about the things that happened recently?

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And he still brings up about wanting to buy me deltarune

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Once

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Haha

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how about telling me how he treated u since the last week

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I’d say

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Well

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did he call u gorgeous?

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Like usual

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or anything

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He didnt continue flirting tho and no calling me gorgeous

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Hes middle class

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hmmmm i can confirm ur someone special to him

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I only sent him pictures before thr confession im sorry 💔 💔 💔 nooo

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But he did call me pretty one time

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Like

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“Wow so pretty”

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And he said my graduation makeup was crazy

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(In like a good way)

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So……. I guess thats….. positive.????

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Its ok girl if u dk hes interested or not i had trouble too figuring this guy out

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based on the things ur telling me i think ur a special friend to him

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but idk if he likes u or not anymore

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because he is not doing anything a guy should do for a person he likes (according to what u told me)

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Ahhhh urghh ur rightt

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he maybe just enjoying ur company

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and he probably thinks of u as his best friend

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and when he was confessing, what tone was it? did he say that in a joking way or seriously?

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yk i sometimes say ily to my friends too because i wanna make them feel loved and its obviously platonic

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what if he said that platonically and ur thinking its a confession

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Oh that one, it was in text actually

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Wait i forgot to say

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Uhh

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He knows about the fact that i have feelings for him as well

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But he doesnt know that i know this yet

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And he knew from when like

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I think April

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Honestly i say some questionable stuff too 😓 like when we were having a convo about whether i would like to romance NPCs in a DnD campaign im playing in (that he hosts) i kiiiiinda dropped “im too nervous to date anyone”….

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did he say something after u didn't get his hint

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But when you know the person you’re saying it to has romantic feelings for u

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Thats when it kinda changes

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😭 😭 😭

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i agree

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Okay

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So back to the post.. do u think he meant it when he said the opposite of hate thing orr

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# mental cape Okay

do u have any mutual friend who can ask him whether he likes u or not and then tell u his answer?

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And new topic

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Hes smart

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He’ll figure that it’s me whos trying to seek answers outta him

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But

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because the way he's treating you after confession is just like how he'd treat his friend/best friend

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Oh man

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This is killing me

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Should i just go ahead and ask him

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# mental cape But

how about u send him a fit pic tomorrow or face pic, and check his reaction? if he says ur gorgeous or very beautiful, I'd think he has feelings for u. cuz guy friends usually dont compliment like that

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they're like "u look good bih"

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but its not "you're so gorgeous"

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I guess…..

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if i were you, i would've just asked him

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because i hate overthinking about this

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Ugh so real though

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you're going nowhere by overthinking 💔💔

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just a small text is fine like

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“i believe you confessed to me 2 months ago and my dumbass clearly didn't get it. do you still have feelings for me? cuz i do"

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if he says no, just be like "oh okayy so wyd"

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Okay idkdkdkdidid should i text or say it in call

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honestly

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I'd recommend call

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cuz in call it won't be saved

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if u text, it'll be in chat and u can feel embarrassed about it

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in call it'll be okay once it ends cuz nobody has it stored

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think of it as "out of sight, out of mind" so call is definitely the better option

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God this is scary 😞

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But i dont think i can take sitting around overthinking and spiraling anymore ☹️

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Been doing that for 7 months straight now 💔

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girl i suggest u to sort things out asap

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cuz the longer u wait the more it will hurt

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I should??

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Aw man

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Me rn

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No but yeah real tho

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i trust u. u can do it

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Thank you dani 😭 for the 1% motivation

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Rip

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Link died

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😭😭

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Oh loll

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Alright, i think i’ll try to figure out a way to uh… i dont wanna say confront 😭 😭 talk to him about it this week

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I guess i’ll… share the news.. haha… or not… cause i might chicken out (i’ve chickened before 💔)

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Thank u dani for sticking w me 😢 appreciate you gang

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Wait girl

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Is it considered a sign if i said im hot once and he agreed and said yeah

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Then when i laughed and said “you just agreed????” and he doubled down “am i not supposed to?”

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HUH

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like was the weather hot that made u feel hot

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Like yk

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Not the weather hot

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ohhh

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girl just ask him

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🙏🏻🙏🏻

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I need to uh

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Wait

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For him

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To

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Come home

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okayyy

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all the best

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I COULDNT DO IT

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IM SCARED

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its ok we have

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2 more days

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until we cant vc for another couple of days

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😭😭😭😭

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this is a struggle

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JUST THE THOUGHT OF ASKING "heyyy soo remember that time when you told me you opposite of hate me hahahaha so what did u mean by that" MAKES ME UGUHHHHHHHHHHHH

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ask it casually

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ok but at the same time like

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im terrified

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:[

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of things

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changing

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hahahaha....

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for the worse.... 😔

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NO I CAN DO THIS

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i can

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i can i swear i can i just... have to be brave... 😭 😭 BUT IM NOT BRAVE NOOOO IM NOT BRAVE

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don't worry

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just chill

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I couldnt ask him

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BUTTTT

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BUT

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I did ask him about something else instead

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Uhh

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I asked

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If he remembers that time when he told me a story a while back (about himself)

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He said no 😭

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And i told him that i appreciate that he trusted me with that part of himself yada yada yada

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Then he was like no problem

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Except i said all the stuff and everything too fast so i didnt really give him a chance to speak or react 😂

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Haha………💔

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Also do we like

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VC too much..???

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IDK since he’s in the army he’s basicly busy 4 full days a week

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And every time he comes home i always ask to call 😭

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Then we’d stay in call until

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We pretty much go to bed

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When this happens tho we’d be callin for 2-8 hours

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But yesterday he said he was gonna go first at like, 8 pm

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And uh

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Idk

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Why

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He doesnt usually sleep at 8pm so

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And at 9pm when i asked if he was busy he said no

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😭

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Thats when i called him and told him ze story stuff

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Okayyyy buttt idk i feel like he was trying to avoid me… or I could be overthinking it

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Cause he texted me at 12 am and showed that he was playing roblox

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I was asleep though at 10 pm onwards lol

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But i got woken up due to my family talking at around 1 am

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Anyways what he texted me was the convo between him and another guy on roblockss

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And what theyre basicly talking about is the other guy was trading stuff up and trying to get me a valuable item

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And my crush was like “hes too nice for this world” and stuff while showing me

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Haha how sweet…😔

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But like not rly

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Idk

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I mean

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Its sweet that the other guy was trying to get me such a high value item

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But i dont get why he had to say he was going first?? At 8pm?? 😭

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Does he just not wanna call with me or what

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Smh then say so 💔

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I don't know why he is avoiding you but you should confront him about it and just ask your question already that whether he still likes you or not because he is lowkey leading you on which is not nice

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ah yes leading me on

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thats what i keep thinking too

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💔

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i wish confronting him was easy

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but im lowk losing my mind over it every day

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im worried about the timing, whether its too soon or too late 😞

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and im worried about whether i'd mess it all up

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idw to repeat the same mistake that happened with my ex ☹️ where i dtr too early and eventually spiraled myself into a break up

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cause it ties to my insecurities as well

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but honestly, i havent exactly been...completely transparent with him either

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i drop lots of mixed signals too

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i say stuff like "im too nervous to date anyone", i flirt one moment and pull away the next 😞 but in all honesty, im just terrified of fucking things up

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i dont know how he feels too and it js makes things worse for me

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i tried to apply common tropes/signs that other guys express when they're into somebody, but he fits into none of those

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and im so frustrated

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because this guy is so fucking smart

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i dont know how i have the mental capacity to deal with all this bs

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i've had so many opportunities to tell him that i like him, too, but i never did

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out of fear

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bc when i realized "oh shit, this actually matters", thats when everything felt on high stakes

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and it's been eating at me ever since

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i overthink whether i did too much, or if i was too pushy, or if i was too obvious, or if i ruined it all again

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am i too clingy, or too annoying, or selfish for wanting to talk to him all the time, im scared to face the answers because i know theyre all yes'es

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and

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im scared. soooo so scared... haha

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☹️

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am i doing things right?

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idk, but ig i'll never know, cause i can never read this guy

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"u been edging me for like 6 months" ...... funny cause hes been doing the same to me as well 💔

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grrr

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ugh

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but i know time is running out

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this has to happen one way or another

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if i dont do it now, i dont think i'd ever get the chance to do it again :[

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argggghhhhhhhhhh

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ok but what if i DONT want the chance to do it? like, ever?

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haha....

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okay thats obviously not the way....

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not the answer...

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what do i doooo

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what do i d odoodoododood im loost 😭

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hi

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could u catch me up with this thread because there's a lot to go through

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is reading the first message enough?

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yes

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no

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no

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actually no

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ok ok

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the first message is kinda outdated

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bet

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uhh tldr

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ur name reminds me of anaesthetic and aesthetic at the same time

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lol

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thats a first

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(ok back to topic)

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everybody always mention greek mythology when they read my name

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🤷‍♀️

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kk anyways

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so 2 months back my crush said to me "i (opposite of hate) you"

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being the dumbass i am i joked it off 💔

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now im sitting here for 2 months straight wondering if he still feels the same

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🧎‍♀️

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it was in a convo

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i was like

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lowkey messing around and telling him that he hates me

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then he was like

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why would i hate you

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don't die on me gang @mental cape

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# mental cape out of fear

that's fine Athena. it's normal to get frustrated with your crush. you don't have to blame yourself for over thinking about it much. just try to gather all the courage and confront your crush about it and if he rejects you then try to move on and heal. if he likes u back, that's nice for you, you can enjoy. but don't do the push and pull with him because this is toxic. it's fine to to feel jealous, clingy, selfish, jealous and wanting your boyfriend in a relationship. if you think that you are being annoying, you can just ask your bf whether ur being annoying or not

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had to tend to them

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tbf nothing rly changed 😭 he still offers to buy me stuff (and i turn em down) aaand still distant and not really giving me much to work with/dropping signs or hints

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like

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about this

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no cuz we're like

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friends

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`so its not really my place

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to say anything about it

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we called today, i originally wanted to confront, but he sounded so tired i didnt have the heart to 💔

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its alr... after tmr... he'll be home....

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crieisiirsieir

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i'll try

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i need to stop self sabotaging omg aaaa

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yes its ruining your mental health 😭