#cannonball

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minor vine
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will discuss my mental state per week and various issues in my life

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as of today i feel better, more stable, less stressed.

minor vine
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if i had the choice to go through you or get rid of you from my life completely i would choose to repeat us again

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For even though it was really unpredictable and unpleasant it was worth the while

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I want to love you

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I want to stay

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But the more you push me away

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The more i actually get pushed away

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I hope you liked it too

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And i hope you can realize that it wasnt an idealization of you

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it was you that i loved

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Not the idea of you

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and i hope you wont read this

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i hope you will figure it out yourself

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because im tired of having to prove my own feelings to you while you just push me away

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i didnt want to be like everyone else to u

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i wanted to br like what you are to me

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i wanted the bare minimum

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that you couldnt give

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it still bugs me

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i would never choose to lose you rather than fix whatever was wrong

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but i guess i wasnt as important

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thats ok

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ill have to move on anyway

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it was worth all the while

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i hope you had the time of your life

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i wish i wasnt suicidal

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its gotten to the point where i think of it everyday

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if nothing happened

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or if it was the worst day of my life

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or if it was the best day of my life

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i cant change anything

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im always gonna be that same loser

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the same one my parents dont love

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the same one that doesnt have any friends

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the same one that doesnt know who he is

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the same one who gets made fun of

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the same one that was never truly loved

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ig it was a good life

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but im sick of it

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i hope no one gets hurt by me

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or by this

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i think its my way out of this

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its the most moral one atleast

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im js a tool to others

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nothing more

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a student

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a friend

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not really friends

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i think theyre all taking advantage of me

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without giving anything back

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maybe im too mych

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maybe im too little

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its too much to think of

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i hate every part of me

minor vine
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today was fun

glossy lake
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My day just started

minor vine
glossy lake
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Can't complain much

minor vine
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im not doing anything today either

glossy lake
minor vine
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I cant stop shaking

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I cant go to sleep

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I cant stop crying

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I dont know what to do

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Everything hurts

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Its 6 am i dont even feel tired

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I feellike im gonna die