#I don't even know anymore

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flint pelican
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hey sorry to hear that you’re in this situation, it sounds awful to be mistreated like that by someone very important in your life

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my advice is to talk to her with full honesty/seriousness and see what happens

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tell her what you’ve told us

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she might not realise these things are hurting you, you know?

weak onyx
# flint pelican she might not realise these things are hurting you, you know?

Thx for the response 🥲
I actually already talked to her on the first day she broke some of her promises (Saturday) when she got home she was constantly saying sorry... I understood and told her it was ok... But the thing that bugged me is that I wasn't even aware she went out with her friends. Worst part is the place she went to was secluded and would've been hard to get to using my bike... I was worried something might've happened to her.. and the fact that she just followed her friends rule of "no phones" without even telling me where she was... I waited all afternoon for her response since her account said she was online... I talked to her and yes she did admit to be wrong but she admitted she could've actually told me she was going out with her friends... But she didn't, she told me her friend took her phone which got me like "why not just take it back?" She said she didn't really think about it... The next day I thought I might've hurt her by being mad for that so I gave her a peace offering since we were going to church on Sunday... I still wasn't fully over what happened the day before. Then came today, see I was actually starting to forget about what she did yesterday but what she did this afternoon broke me, she kissed her Bi friend (which she promised nothing would ever happen between them) IN PUBLIC .. she's been telling me for 3 months that she can't kiss me in public or when we're at the uni, even if it's just us and 3 other people in the hangout spot

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This broke me

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The fact she does everything for her friends to the point that it could hurt me

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I don't even know how to feel anymore

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Should I be mad?

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Sad?

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I wanna scream as loud as I can rn but I can't

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I know my neighbors would probably turn it into the talk of the town

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We haven't talked after she told me what she did

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It's been 3 hrs I think

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I'm going to try to talk to her later

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I just needed somewhere to dump all of this

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I couldn't handle it anymore

flint pelican
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no worries, yeah it sounds like a horrible situation to be in

weak onyx
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I already have problems at home now this 🥲

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Man can't catch a break these days 🥲

flint pelican
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haha unfortunately that is life

weak onyx
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I can't imagine how harder it would be after I graduate 🥲

flint pelican
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Im sure you’ll do great, you sound like a well-rounded person

flint pelican
weak onyx
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I think I'll manage I know this is just a phase in our RS

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My morals won't let me break up with her just because of this small problem so I know I'll be able to pull through this

flint pelican
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okay that’s nice, but keep in mind you should have your own boundaries

weak onyx
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I know²

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Thanks for the company 🥲

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It's nice

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Comforting

flint pelican
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it’s the least I could do

weak onyx
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Something I didn't know I needed 🥲

flint pelican
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it’s always nice to vent

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Helps you clear your mind and chest

weak onyx
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Ye it's nice should've done this sooner

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I didn't really want to vent to my friends since I didn't really want to bother them 🥲

flint pelican
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yeah I can relate

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personally I don’t have that many close friends I could talk to relationship issues about either

weak onyx
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Oh I see

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I'm really close with my friends we commonly rant about our family issues but I don't want to rant about my rs cuz I think it'll be weird

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And I lost the only person I was able to rant about anything to 🥲

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Kind of my fault but I accept it

flint pelican
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I feel you, losing a close friend is as difficult as losing a partner in my opinion

weak onyx
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I don't want anyone to think my gf is a bad person 🥲, she's great it's just these past days she's been doing all of this

weak onyx
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I blame myself everyday for losing her

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She cut off contact with me after she found out I got a gf

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But she did warn me about this

flint pelican
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that’s interesting

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maybe she had feelings for you 😅

weak onyx
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She said that when me and my crush(my gf) got together she would cut contact with me out of respect

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Kinda

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She actually confessed first

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Before my gf

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But i didn't really feel anything for her

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I saw her more like an older sister 🥲

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I hate how I'm too nice to others🥲

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Cuz some see it as flirting 🥲

flint pelican
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Oh I see

flint pelican
weak onyx
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We actually see each other from time to time since our courses are at the same building

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She ignores me and sometimes won't even look at me anymore 🥲

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Compared to how it was in highschool when she would always greet me or even talk with me while walking to our classrooms 🥲

flint pelican
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yeah I think she still had feelings for you

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When she cut you off

weak onyx
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I know she kinda shows it through messenger notes

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She loved using notes to say how she feels

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According to a note she posted before, it says she isn't over me 🥲

flint pelican
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That is tough

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hope all is well for her

weak onyx
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I hope too

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Well that's it

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Thanks for listening and being here with me

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It's been nice talking to you 🫡

flint pelican
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same hope everything goes well