So I will start with names, background of me, and maybe some of her to.
Me: Male, 15, the protaganist/ my pov of this story, and giga chad in my dreams.
Her: names Jessica, and shes the antagonist of the story (the ex)
Mary: name of her friend who plays a vital role in this story
Sam: a guy I used to be friends with who has a small role
David: another vital role in this story
Lucy and Sophia: Not crucial characters just people who came along the way
Lorie: my sister someone who comes up with a bad wrap in the end...
#Snowys journal
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Jessicas sister Hannah: she was there for a bit.
And ofcourse mine and her family members, both of our moms, our sisters, her brother, and her stepdad and real dad.
And last but to date most DEFINITELY not least Adam.
Okay thats all the people this IS a true story so bare with me here
I thought about putting this in journaling but i didnt know so im putting it here sorry
AND HERE WE GO
So it all starts November 2023, I was 13 at the time, never had been in a realationship, and thought I should find someone finally.
And after about a few minutes of thinking and looking around my class I noticed this shy girl I had never really talked to and I thought "Lets give it a try!"
After a few months she figured out I liked her, we talked for about a week, it was both of out first realationships, and we got together.
We got together on Valentine's Day 2024, February 14th.
And it was great, a little background on her, she lived in a gated community (she was rich) her mom and dad had split up, she had an underprotective brother and overprotective sister.
both her parents had remarried and she was living with her mom.
Jessica saw her sister Hannah and her real father 2-3 times a week and her father never gave me a chance but I never met him so he wont be mentioned anymore.
But for the first 5 or so months of mine and her relationship (so fast forward to July), it was really good! We loved each other, except for one problem.
You see, she was heavily Christian, and at the time, I said I believed in god, but I was extremely lustful.
we will get into that later
but the first 5 months we hung out once a week, her mom, stepdad, sister, and brother really liked me they thought I was a funny good kid.
but when out freshman year started that was when it took a turn for the worse.
You see, up to that point I never knew anything about Christianity really, and I had deep struggles with lust.
That included alot of corn watching and m*sturbating
I struggled with those addictions when we dated and during the summer, I never really made any effort to fix that, or really ever in mine and her relationship.
And so at this point me and her had broken up about 3 times for different reasons
She was peer pressured by her friend Lucy who hated me because I was "short and ugly" and she was peer pressured into breaking up with me and getting with this guy Sam, who was actually the same height as me and at the time was my friend of 5-6 years.
She ultimately didn't get with him, apologized, and we got back together.
But now fast forward to November 2024.
Now I was really letting lust control my life and I was looking at other girls and idolizing sex (which I never had or anything just to let you guys know)
and she was starting to get really really obsessive.
she had made the thought in her mind that I was going to cheat on her/ break up with her for this girl named Lauren.
And it got so bad that Lauren and I were put next to each other by assigned seats in our first-period algebra class.
and then after she started getting mad about that I did it I broke up with her.
She was broken and tried so hard to get back with me by getting multiple people to text me, but ultimately, I let my lust take control and break up, ruining my great relationship with a great girl.
For the first 2 months after I was fine mainly because I was lustful and I spent that time trying to find a new girl.
In January, I got a call, and it was Jessica and her friend Mary.
They were basically trying to blackmail me into getting back with Jessica but I was still lustful at the time and I rejected it.
And that was that, now the second and final semester of school had started, and before I never had her in a class, and I didn't in this second semester, BUT she was in the class right across the hall from me in this separate school we went to for 2 class periods. For the sake of privacy, I'm gonna call this school "fire academy" and at this separate school, you can basically go to classes and learn a career, and do it straight out of high school.
and this is the start of the turnaround in this story
1 day on the bus ride to fire academy I saw Jessica sitting with this guy. His name was David.
Now I just assumed that her friend Lucy wasn't there that day, David and Jessica weren't talking because she kept looking back at me, but I was curious.
That same day I went on tiktok and stalked her reposts bc I knew I was still following her
and that was the moment I realized I screwed up.
After reading that my heart dropped and I regretted breaking up with her more than anything.
Because it made me realize that I could have been so much better, and she wouldn't have thought I was cheating on her if I had just been less lustful and been a real follower of Jesus Christ.
and I went and figured out that Jessica and David were talking for real and were going to date soon, and she really liked him.
And so I was depressed for 2 months
Bc I thought they were never gonna break up and I was gonna have to see them together for the rest of highschool
And then
something happend
In late April, I was in my Fire academy class, and my teacher was looking outside the door to try and find my best friend Steve's girlfriend.
He said "oh is that her?"
And Steve looks out the door and says "No but Gavin knows her!"
And my heart dropped after he told them that was my ex.
and immediately, my teacher and other classmates walked out to talk to her about me.
I ran to the back of the class into the bathroom because I was embarrassed.
I didn't want her to think I was trying to split up her and her boyfriend, David
When I came back, I saw her and he friend Sophia in the window, and they looked and smiled at me
after that, we got on the bus to go back to our main high school, and my friend John interrogated me about her, and I told him that I wanted to apologize to her and tell her I'm sorry for how lustful I was.
And the plan was to go during lunch and tell her that, just so I wouldn't have to do it in front of David like I was trying to steal her from him WHICH I WASNT.
And here comes a SUPER BIG turn
That same day at 8pm she texted me
I had fallen asleep and didn't see the text till the next morning
and it read "why was yall talking abt me in your fire class yesterday?"
And my heart dropped, and I saw my opportunity to tell her everything I ever wanted to.
And so I told her, like I have a few things I wanted to say to her and I wanted to say it in person, and I also said I'm not going to ask her out or flirt and that I respect her relationship with David.
And the next thing she said changed the rest of the school year
she told me that she and David had broken up after school, the day when she looked in my classroom window.
To be continued
Continuation-
Now I had read that right after I got out of the shower and immediately my adrenaline kicked in and thoughts were just racing through my head.
I ran down stairs and told my mom
Jessica then agreed to meet before first period to talk
and I just told her I'm sorry I was lustful, and I also said thank you to her because I realized how hard dating really is at this time.
I added her on snapchat and made it very clear I wanted to try again.
Now this is where Sam from earlier makes his TRUE debut in this story
we were texting ALOT, we got on facetime calls and stuff, and I was very obsessive and clingy to say the least, mainly because I never thought they would break up, and I didn't want to make the same mistake of letting lust ruin my chances at this girl again.
That same day at school, Sam sent me a friend request on snapchat, and he asked if I liked Jessica, and the answer was obvious, and I was very curious why he wanted to know. Which that reason will come out soon
Over the next couple days, I was peer pressured into making alot of moves on her and to be around her as much as possible, which ultimately was making her less and less attracted to me.
And I made a private story with a few friends on it with that Sam guy included.
And he immediately screenshotted the stories and showed her
She confronted me about it and basically told me its over and we probably wouldnt get back together
The next day, I stayed away from my phone and stayed home because I was really upset about it all.
However, when I opened my phone, I realized that Sam liked Jessica again.
And he showed her that story to sabotage my chances at getting with her.
That made me furious. I was really mad at him
and he started telling me like "oh you know I want to know what real love is like" and "you wasted your chance"
and I went off and at this point Sam, Jessica, and Mary were all texting me like "your completely overreacting about all this"
and they were right, I blocked Jessica and apologized to Sam, and that's it for the rest of the school year.
Now fast forward to June.
We were driving to vacation and I got a text from Jessica
And I learned that Sam, the guy I was friends with for 6 years, got into a relationship with Jessica that lasted 3 days.
after that my mom figured out I was texting her and I blocked her for a few weeks.
Fast forward to July 21st, 2 days ago.
The story will end soon these last 2 days is all there is up to date
So I got a text from her, she was basically making fun of me, I just didn't realize it at the time.
But I added her again on snap and we started talking
And I figured out that shes become one of those girls who text multiple guys for attention with her friend Mary.
We talked on facetime, and we sent videos on snapchat.
And her friend Mary was very adamant on getting me another chance with Jessica.
She told me what to do and I was gonna listen to her
Up until Jessica, yesterday 7/22, asked to facetime and she forgot she was screensharing and showed me a text with this guy named Adam that they can "finally get married at the fair on friday."
And at this point, I knew it was over. Her friend told me that sometimes she even says she misses me, but its all either not true or she just doesn't miss me enough bc she also asked Adam while me and her were on FaceTime, when he and she could facetime.
She lied when I called her out and said that she was "gonna go get pizza." Which was a blatant lie.
and so after that, we got off the phone, and I jokingly sent her a video asking how the pizza was. I sent 1 video, and I stuttered in it a lot, so I deleted it and redid it, and she got really mad at me for that.
And thats really it. I blocked her and Mary on everything and called it a mission success but fail.
She got this guy she knew from Louisiana to text me, but after a few texts, I apologized to him if I was rude and blocked him soon after.
NOW I HAVE 1 LAST THING TO SAY
and that is
I didnt want Jessica back, well I did but not the present day 1.
I wanted the old Jessica I dated in 2024, but I realized that I broke that girl, I broke her heart, and changed her forever, and now she will never be the same again.
She's now dyed her hair and become super attractive and changed into this girl who texts multiple men and can't decide what she wants.
Moral of the story is: you cant really win with exes like this. If you paid attention you would know that I spent months changing for the better, but in the matter of 1 text that I wrote in less than a minute reading "we are breaking up"
I started the change of a great person into a not-so-great person in a matter of seconds.
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I think from this point forward im gonna map out each day and how I feel
or atleast try to remember to
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OKAY IM REPHRASING THE MORAL
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When you make a decision make sure about it no matter how small it may seem.
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And we have an update on the original situation
my ex asked my best friend Mark
why I blocked her
TODAY
which Idk why shes so desperate to figure out why but she is
she claims she doesnt care but i beg to differ there has to be a deeper meaning.... But what?
Does she like me?
Does she want to tell me something?
Or maybe she wants the last laugh and to send a picture of her kissing some guy to me
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No updates as of the last few days which is a good sign
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Still nothing. I think its pretty safe to say that for the rest of summer I am freed of this girl using me for attention
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and ruining my emotional state.
But Im just worried
bc what about when I have to go back to school and face her again?
who knows what she will do to try and gardner my atttention.
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Schools back August 13th I really need to lock in and stop wasting the time I still have
Just worried. I dont want to feel like this bc of a girl who probably never thinks abt me anymore
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8 days left is not ideal
Lowkey scared
dont know why bc theres nothing to be afraid of
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Snowys journal
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Just 3 days
Lowkey nervous
Dont know what's gonna happen
Just wanna know how to handle it
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tomorrows the first day and i am shaking
not bc of that but just bc my ex gave my number to her new guy
and he texted me
I just called him and told him to tell my ex to stop giving my number to people and to warn them
that if this continues ut will get ugly
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@violet tendon i got terrible news
violet tendon
<@1351961784000708751> i got terrible news
Vc?