emotions

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do you get along with your parents

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its difficult

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do you have problems with anger? what emotions dont you feel exactly?

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every

maybe not fear, but thats only for spiders

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anger? happiness? sadness?

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but i think its dissapearing as well

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cant feel them

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are you not scared if there's some danger?

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no

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so if there was a rabid dog chasing you wouldnt feel fear

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no, but i still would probably run

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im guessing you dont have friends

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eeehhh

its complicated

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lets say you do

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ok

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do you voluntaliry socialize with them?

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only if they come to me first

its difficult for me to socialize

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why?

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hard to understand people

im not autistic

but understanding others emotions

its just difficult

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don't you feel happy after achieving something though?

its hard to believe you really don't have ANY emotions

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when i do achive something

its like

"ok good"

doesnt really matter yk

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im assuming you do poor at school

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no

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do you study for tests?

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no

i got E's

and a C and some D's

thank you for asking questions btw

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thats alright i think

how do you relax?

what do you do for fun?

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sit in my room i guess

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nothings fun so idk

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just sit?

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i watch youtube and probably play a game

isnt fun but it passes time

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what about empathy?

how do you respond to peoples suffering and if you inflict harm on others

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if someone fell down the stairs, i would probably not feel anything

and harming others, idk

its like i know

im supposed to feel bad, but im not feeling bad

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if you saw a woman get beaten in the public would you feel anything

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it has happened me actually

didnt feel anything tho

might sound dumb but should i??

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a typical person would feel empathetic and often they would try to do something about it

can i ask how you childhood looked like?

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traumatic

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were you abused physically? experienced lack of love?

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i was abused

idk about lack of love cause idk if someone has

my parents say they love me but they also talk behind my back

when they do tell me they love me, should i feel anything? cause i dont

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probably

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my mother told me i was born not crying. and the doctors thought i was ded

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she could have been lying

if you were born healthy you were definitely crying

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i was healthy

but not crying

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she did videotape it (idk if thats weird). i asked if i could see it but she isnt sure about it

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until you see it and confirm you werent its safe to assume you were

kids sometimes dont cry if they have obstructed airways

or if its on some pain medication because of the mother

you seem extremely phlegmatic and maybe antisocial

should probably contact a specialist

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i cant

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why

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cant tell my parents

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as soon as you turn 18 then

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thats what im waiting for

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thats good

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is something wrong with me?

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I mean

youre definitiely not like the most of people

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so im normal?

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no

sorry i forgot to type not

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ok

do you think therapy can fix me?

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possibly

youre probably like this because of your trauma

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i have really bad trauma

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what exactly happened?

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you have any triggers?

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no

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i got rped and abused by my "best friend"

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did you feel emotions before that happened?

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no

i dont think so

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so you're unsure?

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i look back at the times before my trauma and i dont remember having any emotions so no

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can i ask how you handled this situation

i am curious

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i tried to tell my father through another question and he didnt seem to care

we grew apart eventually

thats how i got away from him

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so you did not report it to the police?

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im too young and my parents would know

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well thats rather depressing

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i guess

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are you planning to report it once you turn 18?

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im not sure

probably not

and yes its stupid

but i just want him out my life

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i feel like reporting it could give you some closure

you are still probably influenced by what he did and reporting him might make you feel like it has finished

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im done with him

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okay

thats good

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will probably never forget it tho

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i dont think that would be possible for anyone

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im tired of people in my life

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what exactly is tiring about people

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they are mean and annoying

bad attitude

no one ever listens to me

some might listen to me but never understands me

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the mean part differs

what do you find annoying?

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that they keep being mean to me

and never stop

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i partially understand you

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when something is fun, will you ever stop doing it?

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If i have to

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are they picking on you at school

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some are yeah

hope college isnt like that

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it all depends on the people you meet

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yeah

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right now you will not find much mature people

in college maybe more

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hope so