How do I get a boyfriend without seeming creepy?

[thorn crown]

Hi.. uh. I'm 15f. I really want a boyfriend.. I'm just leading a lonely life right now. I'd do anything honestly.

The thing is, I think I come off as crazy or possessive. I'm sick of loosing people beacuse of it. I'm just over protective I guess.. I found out my ex was talking to another girl and I got mad. [He never told me and it was semi-flirtatious.] I scared the girl off.. and then he left me.

Sometimes I'll be creepy I guess, boys don't like it when you try to know everything about them. I just want to be a good girlfriend, someone that knows what they need and when..

Everybody calls me fake too, [and by everybody I mean the two guys who spoke to me yesterday] because I refuse to show 'special' pics, face/body pics, and wont do calls. I just have anxiety. I'll get ready, be somewhat confident.. and then I hear/see myself and shut down.

Help..?

If any guys think they want this/me.. please give me a chance..

I just want to cry. I don't really have any friends.. I drive them all away because I'm afraid to loose them. Ironic kinda.

I don't know what to do.. I just.. I don't know. I want to be good, but nobody gives me a chance. I can't even learn. It's hell. I just feel like I'm not worth the time.. or the effort.

[umbral apex]

Try making friends first

[thorn crown]

Nobody gives me a chance.

[plucky ginkgo]

You'll always have a chance with someone
Be patient for that
In the meantime, you can try to meet as much people as you can
Don't try to be especially friend with them, just try to enter conversations, to have chill chat about everything
Do that to learn how to control your feelings
Some guys don't feel good with a possessive girlfriend, some will love that
But in fact, your reactions is a proof that you don't have control at all on your emotions and this will be an issue later, not just about relationship
So work on that, be open-minded
You'll be fine

[brisk matrix]

want to talk in dms

[brisk matrix]

ı will listen

[half solar]

In life people are going to call you all sorts of things and call you shit. And yes you should take them into consideration, however, try not to let them affect your identity and your mood because you are not the person people label you to be because they didn't live your life or go through what you went through. You get to determine who you are and if you let the whole world judge you then at the end of the day who are you...?

Be yourself and trust me I had to learn this the hard way, would you rather have a hundred friends who like the fake you, or a handful who love the real you.