#Stuck in a vicious cycle

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lapis wing
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I feel so stuck right now. I am trying to follow my goals and ambitions of writing a book, but I feel so slow and lazy. I feel like everything I do is extra slow and takes forever to start doing throughout the day. I see how entrepreneurs and successful people are constantly grinding and schedule everything in their day. I feel like I should be able to be very disciplined like them and be able to work on writing whenever, but some days I wake up feeling miserable, lonely, and depressed. And all of this seems to make me less efficient and sometimes even feel like not working on my book. But I see how other famous people were able to grind even when they were experiencing lonely times, so there’s no excuse for me to not be working on something. I’m in a phase in life where I just graduated High School and am moving onto college in several months which will supposedly help fill in that loneliness gap and make me feel better, but I can’t really do anything right now besides occasionally go hiking with friends. But I also have a big fear of regret and guilt whenever I’m not contributing to my ultimate purpose or writing in some way. I am scared and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get out of this mess.

Keep in mind that I’ve been suffering off and on from depression for well over a year

molten bolt
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hey there man, need any help?

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i would love to help

lapis wing
molten bolt
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hey, from what i read, you compare yourself to people who are successful. i understand that, everyone does that even me.
but personally i think you should not compare yourself to others.
because this can ruin your self image and the feeling of not knowing what to do is also very human. it is very normal that you sometimes think what should i do?

i would try new things myself even though this may be very exciting. new things let you get to know yourself better which makes you understand yourself better and can deal with life more easily.

i would certainly not feel obliged to finish something. you have to do what you feel like doing! and if that is a period where you do not feel like writing books i would not do that. and if you regret it later, just like you say later you can still finish it later you do not always have to start everything and finish it right away

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maybe your successful but just didn't noticed it yourself yet

lapis wing