#all or nothing

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round galleon
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pls tell me

ashen pecan
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nahbru im a teenage boy inside an asian girls body

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OKs

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so

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i

round galleon
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yyeeeess…

ashen pecan
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well i use a heat gun which i bought for my cosplay making and stuff

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i used to never be able to keep my eyelashes up

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and i just use a metal eyelash curler then heat it for like 5 seconds

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u can probably just use a hair drier

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ive seen people use a lighter but like damn bruh im not doing allat 😭

round galleon
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are you seriously serious

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right now

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that’s it

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bro

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what

ashen pecan
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yes

round galleon
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bro

ashen pecan
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and mascara

round galleon
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bro

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🥹

ashen pecan
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i use the telescopic

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uhh

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waterproof

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waterproof is very important

round galleon
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im gonna eat them off your fricking eyeballs how are they so cooperative

ashen pecan
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LOL what

round galleon
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br i genuinely thought u have

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like lash clusters

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or fake

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cuz they’re so

ashen pecan
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omg

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hlep

round galleon
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siiiigh

ashen pecan
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well i have like

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idk i thought my eyelashes were short before and i never really cared about using mascara cause it get weighed down

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heat help

round galleon
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wow i

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wow

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bro is bro

ashen pecan
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I WAS GONNA SAY THAT

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HELP me

round galleon
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LMAO

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are we broing it

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im broing it rn

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get it

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pls say yes

ashen pecan
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yes

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yawahaoo

round galleon
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touchdown

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fricking green

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watch out

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watch out.

ashen pecan
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i used to say green f with the n after

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and then i realized

round galleon
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bro don’t know the kodiac green

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fortnite

ashen pecan
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i never know

round galleon
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BRO ODJT KNOW 😂

ashen pecan
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DOESSSS HE KNWO

round galleon
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doomsday i am coming for you.

ashen pecan
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ok when

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eta

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?

round galleon
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imminent….

ashen pecan
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illm be waiting

round galleon
ashen pecan
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hey where ar eyou going

round galleon
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im ursula but instead of stealing ur voice like in the little mermaid i am coming for your lashes

ashen pecan
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PLEASE dont do that

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ill be a masc forever

round galleon
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haha you’re gonna have alopecia on your eyebrows haha

ashen pecan
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NO

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???

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NO

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I WONT EVEN BE A MASC

round galleon
ashen pecan
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IF u take away my eyebrows

round galleon
ashen pecan
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its like the ojnly thing that makes me look masc 😭🤘

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no joke iwthout my eyelashes im

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just

round galleon
ashen pecan
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bro u cant even tell i have eyelashes when theyre not curled

round galleon
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schloooooooorrrp

ashen pecan
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cause theyre pointing down

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hey

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dont

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do that

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?

round galleon
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and they fall down cuz them darn eyelids

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fricking

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whatever they car
lleed i forgot

ashen pecan
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monolids

round galleon
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monolid or whatever ridk

ashen pecan
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?

round galleon
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yeah

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yes heh

ashen pecan
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i dont know if i have monolids

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i have the crease

round galleon
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bro me either idk

ashen pecan
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man theres too many eyes

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i might have almond im not sure

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no

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i thijnk round

round galleon
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bro all ts shit is so confusing

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like

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hey js

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bro

ashen pecan
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wait they look the same

round galleon
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eyes they’re just eyes

ashen pecan
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:(

round galleon
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donut be sad

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bro why r they thy colour am i evil

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why are they that colour bruh my eyes donut do ts

ashen pecan
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um

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burnt umber

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i miss

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my orchestra class

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already

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bro

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my hands hurt

round galleon
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why

ashen pecan
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cause

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i was practicing

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and i was pressing down too hard

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sad faic

round galleon
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are you a violin

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because

ashen pecan
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im a cello now

round galleon
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um

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oh

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are you a cello

ashen pecan
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yo uknow if i was an instrument id probably be a cello

round galleon
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why

ashen pecan
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cause theyre cool

round galleon
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why would you be a cell

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ok mane

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are you an electric guitar because our connection is eeeelectric!

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i thought of that on the spot areyou proud

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heh.

ashen pecan
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idk if im an electri c guitar

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thats good

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tho

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clap itup

round galleon
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if i was an instrument i’d be a triangle

ashen pecan
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im not that energetic to be an electric guitar

ashen pecan
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like those

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metal ones they use in band

round galleon
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the metal triangle

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yes

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LmoaO

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i feel maternal to metal triangle

ashen pecan
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um i feel like

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if you were an instrument youd be

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uh

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lets see

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your personaltiy type result is a viola

round galleon
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is that the transgender version of a violin or what

ashen pecan
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viola is like a step down of violin

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then cello

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then bass

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as in tones

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like uhh

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uh

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violin soprano viola alto cello tenor bass is bass

round galleon
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what are these funny words

ashen pecan
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choir

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like pitch

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yes

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thanks

ashen pecan
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yes

round galleon
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np

ashen pecan
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wot

round galleon
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that is quite interesting

ashen pecan
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what did u just say

round galleon
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that is quite interesting prolly

ashen pecan
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no

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ya

icy knoll
ashen pecan
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LOL bro violas are always like

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looked down on

icy knoll
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Fr

ashen pecan
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also a lot of people dont know the difference between a violin and viola

icy knoll
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Our orchestra bullys the violas

ashen pecan
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theres only a few violas per orchestra

icy knoll
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Whole diff cleff

ashen pecan
icy knoll
icy knoll
icy knoll
icy knoll
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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but ive played the violin

icy knoll
icy knoll
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Cello is honestly the best one

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I was second chair in my orchestra

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I had to leave tho when i moved halfway across the world tho🥀

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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glorious

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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wsp @ashen pecan

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yo

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hi @vestal dragon

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I HJATE PROOFS I HATE PROOFS IM NOT A MATHEMATICIAN

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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ghk bro this guy is so majestic

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i cant pursuit this fine shit tho

glass tundra
ashen pecan
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why

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these necklaces i got r so cool

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i got it for 35 and its like heavy metal

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35 in total

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tbh i dont know if im a silver or gold

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like undertone

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im definitely not a warm toned person

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i think im neutral

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i look best in natural lighting

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i dont have enough gold jewelry to showcase it anyway

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i only wear like dark red and blue

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black white grey

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anything desaturated

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unless its my azure nasa jacket idk

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i think that fits me

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SEVEN MINUTES IN HEAVEN

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FUCKING WITH ME NOWWW ITS ALL THAT I HAVE AND UR ALL THAT I WANT

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BECAUSE SEVEN MINUTES IN HEAVEN IS ALL THAT I NEED WHEN I GET WITH HIM

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is this

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a video star edit

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wtf

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yo vsp editors are something else

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i couldnt even tween on vsp

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😭

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oh wait

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no its alight motion

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thats even crazier

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alight motion is literally insane its like vsp and capcut together

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capcut kinda sucks tho

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vsp is bad for tweening imo i think it works in like

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movement

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but it degrades a lot of fundamentals in editing like you cant go back and tweak with some stuff you've edited

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plus the quality gets worse and worse every time you render and create a sequence

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i mean maybe its better now

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who knows

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its not a dead app i think its good for velocity and transition edits

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tweening is more of after effects and alight motion probably

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i wanna get more memory for my mac so i can edit again :/

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it cant even take

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photoshop sometimes

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lke it glitches

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i think the first thing id edit if i was able to use my editing softwares is probably

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danganronpa or dark souls

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im actually so jealous of people that can animate lol

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like youre so talented

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no

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i shouldnt be jealous i should be inspired

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im following this person

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their edits r so cool

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wth

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i wanna learn how to sprite shift but theres barely any editing tutorials for danganronpa specifically

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banger after banger

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their editing is so cool

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and its under 10k likes for each one

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my sister said im kirigiri

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I WANNA be a danganronpa character

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but idk which one i am

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probably shuichi hes so awkward

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or maki

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akane

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?

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i dont know

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my dad bought my capo ^_^

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yay

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i kinda wanna go back to the convention ngl

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they had really nice figureNO

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i cant

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bro

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i cant buy any more figures

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i dont have space

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:(

ashen pecan
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guys i love luffy but

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i cant watch one piece

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at least not all of the episodes

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😭✌️

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omg wait

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i just thought of another finesse in my room

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i have this monitor qhwre i put all my plushies and taekwondo equipment on

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but ive been thinking of changing it and i think i wanna change it to a bookshelf instead

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also its on top of my other desk

ashen pecan
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so i just put stuff there

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guys i can actually store my books if i do that

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ill probably do that in a couple months or if i find a decent priced one at ikea

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idk about buying online tho thats the thing like its probably more cheaper and stuff but i actually wanna get a good quality shelf

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not that theres none of them on amazon but when i say im gonna buy something on amazon i tend to js hold it back and i dont really ask my parents if they can buy something for me online even tho my dad legit has prime they always forget and its like so annoying i have to keep on reminding them

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kinda wanna get a wooden one idk

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aaa i can put all my manga on it and move my figures there

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im gonna be kinda sad when i move out because my room is so cool

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but thats a while from now sooo

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idc

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my room genuinely looked so sad when i initially got my own room

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ive gotten so far

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i dont really like those videos that are like room makeover and they buy a ton of new stuff in my opinion

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as in decorations

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and stuff

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not furniture its just all new stuff

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i like my room a lot because its stuff ive gotten over the years and its like a mixture of all these aesthetics ive had

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every corner has its own personality

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one of my corners is just like planes the other one is cute stuff with anime things and the other is minimalistic black and white things

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then my desk is a combination of all of those things

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most of it is just like photos and polaroids on the panels that open up

round galleon
ashen pecan
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🙂‍↕️

ashen pecan
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this

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burnout book is actually really great

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ngl

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it gives good advice like even tho it gives the statements of like oh take care of urself to avoid stress it does it by adding more depth and quote worthy stuff

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probably not life changing sentence but this was soemthing i found when i was reading

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sometimes i dont take my own advice ill admit

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also this was another one

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i like dummies books cause it feels more humane

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you can really see through the cracks of their writing style and what their thought process is

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cause its informal but it does have a lot of stuff packed into it

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man im trying to find a desk bookshelf rn

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amazon

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so

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these are my requirements

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i want something that matches the aesthetic within color and material that looks natural with preferably wood

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i gues

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ok

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um

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i also want to make more book nooks so its gonna have to be pretty tall within the slots

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and im gonna have a few thick books i dont want it to fit just like 2 or 3

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id like to have a top flat part so i can put some of my figures or even book nooks on it

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OH and it needs a back panel so it doesnt fall on the back of my desk

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its not pushed to the wall

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so

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i dont want it to be all vertical shelves

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id like to have some variety

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i have to measure the wideness i guess

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um

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thickness i dont really care i think my desk top is a pretty large surface

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the height shouldnt be short thats all i want

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i actually wont have a ton of books in there but like just for my manga yk i have around 10+

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i kinda wanna start collecting sets tho

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the reason im holding back on buying manga is because i dont have any space

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💔

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another reason why i want it to have a top part is so i can stack other storage organizers if i want

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actuallt well if i wanted to i can maybe buy some book ends

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found one

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im sending it to my dad

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🎉🎉

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oh man

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hm

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i feel like i should

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push my desk to my wall

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its heavy tho im not strong

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:<

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theres so much stuff in it lol

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i like everything on top of my desk but i dont wanna change it cause its cute

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its jus

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my monitor

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i wanna switch out

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my dads so chill

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my goat bruh

vestal dragon
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dont question it

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video kinda js showed up

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i should shut up

ashen pecan
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bro i

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i was at this shoe place trying to find jordans and i was talking to my dad

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then this woman was like excuse me sir

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i

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YOOO i got the jord

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ans

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imma crease them first day

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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fish

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help i went to church today and we went to the gift shop

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therw were these

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little cute chibi saints

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like keychains

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i love chibi Jesus

vestal dragon
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thats lit

ashen pecan
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would unironically make that my pfp everywhere

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😭

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its so cute

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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everywhere i go theres a chibi jesus on my shoulder

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fr

vestal dragon
round galleon
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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dont worry

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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trust me bro

vestal dragon
round galleon
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source: trust me bro

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peak ball knowledge

ashen pecan
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yeah thats my source for everything

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not even nasa or harvard can beat that

vestal dragon
round galleon
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source: on john

round galleon
vestal dragon
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as much as its bullshi

round galleon
ashen pecan
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the jordans are on

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do you believe

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ggs theyre already creased

ashen pecan
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i bet on losing dogs

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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huh

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YE SSIR YES SIR YESS SIR

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GRACIAS

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DONT WORRY NO THANKS IM OKAYYY

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ateez my beloved

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😭

ashen pecan
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THIS IS EVERYTHING I NEEDED

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HELLO?? this is literally my ideal variety of majors

ashen pecan
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how do people like

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make

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friends

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?

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like it

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i dont even know if i have friends most of them are just aquaintences

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i have like

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maybe 3

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irl ones

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the online ones dont count

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sorry

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just like

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bro

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everyone has their friend groups yk

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i need to make friends and talk to them so i can balance out my life and stuff

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i talk to my family

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except for my mom

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so just my sister and dad thats compensating but also i want friends too

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more or less a best friend

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i think the only best friend i had was sky to be honest

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i talked to her so much and we would hang out on our own

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i introduced her to my friend group

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we were like two peas in a pod its just

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i dont think our values match up

ashen pecan
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but thats

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just a reminisce

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i need to forgive

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forgive everybody and myself

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not that i hate anyone or hold any grudges

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but forgiving is losing hope in a better past

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im here

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right now

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im alright'

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i dont really consider a lot of people friends unless id like

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hang out with them

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i should befriend some people in strings club

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im gonna be there like 3-4 times a week

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oh i need a microfiber cloth for my instrument

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:I

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i drank tea earlier

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sigh

ashen pecan
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i dont know if i would hang out with them necessarily

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i dont want to have a friend group

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i wanna

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be someones special person

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please dont do this to me

ashen pecan
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i can talk to them just like

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i dont want to absorb

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absorb their bad habits and stuff i wanna be pushed higher

ashen pecan
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lol

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luv sic is such a good song

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hehe

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ik i have to like push myself to meet new people but

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i have to be observant about this

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i mean i could totally ask someone in my class if they would want to hang out

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but i dont know if i met anyone that i want to ask

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that to

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my lunch time is very precious to me

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me and

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natalie are getting more distant

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shes hanging out with other people now

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im glad

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i hope shes having

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a good time

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i miss

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natalie

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though

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can i actually stop talking like

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with every word in every essage

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whatever

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i dont care im gonna type and press enter like im saying it irl

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every message i send thats not finished is me literally taking a pause irl

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and then i emote or something

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im always pinching my nose bridge its not funny

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tbh i dont know if im expressive

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im noticing my facial expressions are kinda unique

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i try to be expressive i dont wanna be a robot

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bye flamingo is so fine

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if i was a teenage boy id probably act the same way as he does

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also he has the most delicious hair

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ever

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i actually act like a fangirl bro i literally do that thing where i smile and have my hand to my mouth

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when i watch edits of attractive guys

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NILERED

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please

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my youtuber hear me outs are

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haejsdfnrasl

ashen pecan
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im reposting this

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i dont car

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ei DONT CARE

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nobody even checks my page

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GSOHSGIIA DGJIASFGADFJHD FJGX

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NILE RED

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NILE RED

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NILE RED

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why is there

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NO NILE RED EDITS

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GIVE ME

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oh

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my

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bro is

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i think i just obsess over boys that are like alternately me

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just a male

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PLSSSS bro his smile and laugh is so silly

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wrong video

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wait

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HEHEH ADHJFSKADGJASG DSOJ HIS SMILE LIKE gives me oxytocin im

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crying

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im actually choking myself

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bo

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my

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boyfried

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ok i aint going that far iM NOT HAVING A PARASOCIAL RELATIONSHIP

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bor

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BUT HES SO CUTE IJM GOASJNGJJFGHDFGIJJSIFHDFIGH

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is this how kpop fans feel like

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i hate to say it but

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man

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i

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schools actually great

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right now

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my orchestra class is so welcoming

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when i did that presentation everyone was like so interested and im like

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guys

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cries

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and kiera is so nice and willing to help me as a cellist

ashen pecan
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asjdfhajsdfhj

ashen pecan
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slepy

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not really

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how do i get a 7 minute mile bro

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🫱

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?? can someone be my chiaki

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WHY IS YTHIS EDITOR SO UNDERRATED

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WTF

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this editor is actually making me consider using alight motion

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no

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someone

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actually get me more memory

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bro

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this is my favorite

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ever

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i really

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need to replay danganronpa

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dude i wanna keep on editing

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thank God danganronpa exists

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God bless their style

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omd

ashen pecan
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???

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;OE

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WHAT

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i didnt know mr kitty had other great songs than after dark

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WAIT THEYRE ALL SIMULTANEOUSLY SAYING IT

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this editor is so

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like

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what

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i need you

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to hurt me

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i need you

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to kill me

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i should actually pick up editing again

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arg

vestal dragon
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its so easy

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u hop on a game

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yall play together

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now yall homies

wide nexus
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your beautiful omg

ashen pecan
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thank you :D

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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one of my best homies

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we became homies cuz one of our other friends showed us a game

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and then wanted both of us to play together

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and then we milsim'd together

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and we're friends ever since

ashen pecan
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yeah but youre not like best friends simply because of a game its because of your compatability or whatever that made it more profound

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i mean theres people i play games with like

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i play with my ex sometimes but we dont really talk a lot outside of that

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maybe thats a friend to you

ashen pecan
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i wish i got this sword

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they had an artorias sword but it was out of stock :(

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lots of big blades too

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they had guts sword in full on steel

vestal dragon
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he has almost completely different ideals than me

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and lives a couple minute away

round galleon
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what makes a friend is completely subjective maybe doomsday is looking for a deeper platonic connection rather than only playing games together. imo that’s pretty shallow and that’s definitely not a “best friend” to me either

vestal dragon
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yeah im not saying that you guys are only friends because you play games tg

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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yh uh

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first date kinda nervous

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i finished the first 2 volumes of monster lets go bruh 😭

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i close my eyes and believe that you are here

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wrong have i done please make it clear

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heaven will fall as you hold him in your arms

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blood on ourr handssss we stand alone

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i need to genuinely stop posting myself bro im scared of what people online r capable of

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why do asian fuvkboys always walk the same way

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sorry

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in another life im an asian fuckboy

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hro

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im so impatient today

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everybody pissing me off idk why

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probably because im with my dads family rn

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they spend so much time lounging around

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like for hours on end

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“we’re leaving now” or “lets go now” gotta be the sentence of the century for me bro

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WHY ARE WE JSUT SITTING I HAVE NOTHING TO DO HERE

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im killing everybody

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when i see a fly i dream of encapturing them in a pokemon ball

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and letting them die in there or i can shake it around

ashen pecan
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ufh

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i cant

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why is

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my mom talking so much today

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im tired

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i wanna go home

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i dont like when people say focus on the present and then just leave it at that

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like bro

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give me your cer paragraph and ur life story behind living in the present

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i dont really give a damn about the way you touch me when we’re alone

ashen pecan
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i feel disgusting today

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bru

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i was like filled with malice

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i kept on thinking about slitting my wrists

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not in

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a way where i would want to

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i get these thoughts where i think about violent things for some reason and i hate it

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vro

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yk

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i was like thinking about seeing my veins

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as i cut through it

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dawg i dont know how people watch gore

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like theres some instances i iust trip over it but i hate it sm

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i might have ocd or something i said this to my therapist a long time ago and she said i might have it

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bro i dont wanan get these violent thoughts this isnt me

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ive been clean for a while tho but idk my triggers for this

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probably because ive listened to too much music lately

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its not good to listen to music excessively especially if you daydream its just gonna make you gain these negative behaviors

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also its like

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its not even being in the past present or future youre literally out of the picture for any of those and then you come back

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everything comes rushing to you

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and then you get stressed

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then you try to compensate by listening to more music

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its not good

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youre still your average self after daydreaming

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midnblowing

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right

ashen pecan
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i dont gain anything and it doesnt give me any discipline

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i never actually understood the concept of cutting like i thought it was just to do it because u think u deserve it

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lol bro build real discipline

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if you wanna feel hurt just work out it feels excruciating

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but then again thats improving urself so ur repelled by that

ashen pecan
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there was this other school we were competing with and their jerseys were like “yeah its supposed to hurt”

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that was incredibly tuff

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ngl

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ours was just plain

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🧍🏻‍♀️

ashen pecan
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trying to express a lot of negative emotions as well

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people who do that dont know how to deal with their negative emotions so they resort to cutting

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thats just my inference

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i was talking to this guy and he described cutting as like

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doing something right

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seeing the blood triple out

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i guess i can see that

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tbh when i did it imma be transparent it was like a way where i wanted people to notice

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and empathize with me

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sometimes i put hand sanitizer on it

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that was actually

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insane

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lol

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im glad i dont anymore tho

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i havent cut myself in 2 years

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or did any self harm

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it doesnt work for me i dont feel the cuts after 2 days

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andni didnt want them to be deep because i wanted to do it really often

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this is probably really bad but i cut myself really deep the other day on accident with a box cutter

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there was blood on the floor it was like

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a fat water droplet but blood

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and i felt so

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present

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the rush felt so sensational i dont think ive felt anything like that in a while

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i wouldnt do it again tho

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i didnt really feel anything after that i was just sanitizing the cut with the

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what do they even use for injury cleansing

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but anyway i used that and like put a bandaid over it

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i was kinda worried it would open up again because it was on the crease of my finger

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and i couldnt play guitar for a few days

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but yeah i

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tbh thats weird to read back on

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call me an edgelord

ashen pecan
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dies

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im home

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:3

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im washing my bedsheets rn

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cause i havent done that in like 2 months

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i really need to get into the habit of washing my pillowcases

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i have those satin or silk ones

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prob satin

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but i need it cause it reducess uhhhhh

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friction

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my hair is pretty healthy rn actually

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i was looking at it earlier and i barely saw any split ends

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i think its great i like cut everything off a while ago cause it helps it grow

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i might have to get another haircut later in the year tho

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i want to at least get 2 haircuts per year to get less split ends

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probably a couple inches off but nobody really notices so

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after my hair reaches my armpit ill see if its still good

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that'll take

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a while actually

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u grow half an inch of hair per month

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no wait nevermind that'll take like 3-4 months

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my hair has gotten so much more longer im so happy

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i would love to get layers but it ends up looking choppy especially if u dont style it right

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ill probably cut my bangs in a diff style

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i like my side bangs tho but i hate when its like harsh

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ok im gonna go take a shower bye

ashen pecan
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omg

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i should curl my hair tonight

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like those fuckass sock hair routines

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its probably not gonna be hella curled but like

ashen pecan
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i just found out that i have no tops that match my jordans

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gg

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i was wearing a burgundy shirt and i realized that its more purple than red

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stares

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how

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am i going to style jordans

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bro

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.

ivory galleon
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This part is gold

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Being 35 is like wow youth is gone it’s just me and the grim reaper now. I won’t get plastic surgery because yeah those ppl look weird. I’m halfway between relevant and irrelevant for mating purposes, but im starting to feel relevant to the world instead and that actually feels good kind of

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Thankfully I’m a good mom so my kid won’t hate me. That’s nice. Grateful to be in school for a second career I actually want instead of the first career done out of necessity at the time

ashen pecan
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wat

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JAHSGKSDFVAHKGJHARGEJEFDBNDVJD

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ashen pecan
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IT CAMEE

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IT FINALLY CAME

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THE big one

ashen pecan
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i cant read ultimate guitarb

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bro

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im sweating

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trying to play this song

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help

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HELP ME

ashen pecan
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guys that play the guitar are so attractive

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like

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the acoustic

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i dont know any guys that play the electric guitar

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but

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UGHH theres this video of this guy playing howls moving castle on the guitar but its like 4 minutes olong

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and i dont have link perms

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hols on let me trim it

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i guess

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that is so short i thought it was a minute

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argh

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nevermind

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i love people that are so skilled at something thats not like conventional

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thats kinda specific

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or if it is conventional they have to be like disgustingly good at it

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tomorrow i go tew school

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idk how im gonna tell me guitar teacher i switched to cello

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i was already having a stroke trying to play the guitar a few hours after practicing the cello

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now

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im worried

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um

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and both of my deadlines are until janurary

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so i can drop either of them

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or both

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and then i can play the violin

ashen pecan
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:(

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ill see how it goes with the cello first

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i love my guitar teacher hes so chill

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it makes me sad i wont be having guitar lessons in a couple of months

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its until december i will stop getting them

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so like 4 months or so

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yea

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damn bruh i

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im spending like 800 dollars on lessons

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every month my mom has to make the downpayment for 200 dollars

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wait unless its

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ok idk what she means by that cause she said she spends 200 dollars per month for lessons but idk if thats like

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no i think she meant bc per lesson is 45 dollars

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yeah around 180 dollars

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still crazy tho

ashen pecan
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bye hes so

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well hes already attractive i dont think its fair to say that guitar guys are attractive when hes the focal point

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pls

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but his articulation with his hands is so

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impressive

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you definitely have to play years of guitar to do finger style like that

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its already disorienting plucking i cant imagine using like all 5 fingers differenly

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it looks like hes weaving a spider web pls

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HES GIVING ME GENDER ENVY

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NOOOO

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PLEASE

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this is wht. i mean like im attracted to men that would be like me if i was one

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ITS THAT DAMN BLACK TSHIRT

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NO

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NOOOO

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NOOOOOOOO HELP ME

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HELP

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Im stalking

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his page

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why is this DOING something to me bro WHY DO I WANNA PICK UP MY GUITAR

red coralBOT
ashen pecan
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bro i have 24k message

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fytb

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messages

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ITS THAT DAMN LIGHTING

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AND THAT DAMN SHIRT

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BRO

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his video quality looks so

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exquisite

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im pretty sure he uses a dslr tho

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I Wanna be hiM

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now

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wait how do u genuinely

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his hand coordination

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gender envy

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...

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i wonder if anyone has gender envied me

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oh well

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i just got this text msg rn

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my eyes are watering whos cutting onions

ashen pecan
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like im not even saying that because he said that hes probably my one of the most realest online friends

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i have

ashen pecan
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lololooll

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im marinating a steak in a ziplock bag

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it looks like organs

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it looks nasty tho

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wait

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why does it say i need to let it marinate for 8 hours

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um

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no??

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im not gonna be on standby

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pLS

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i NEED this for tomorrow

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ok it says i can do it for 1-2 hours

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imma

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do something else

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then

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ouch

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i just ate sushi after microwaving it

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burn

ashen pecan
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cookin

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whats cookin good looking

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whats looking good cookin

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bro this steak is so fucking heavy

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good goodness

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😭

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imma be eating GOOD

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good shit

ashen pecan
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is that

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heavy for a steak

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oh it is

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hmn

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the steak is bleeding :(

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BRO I

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GENUINELY

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I WAS AT THIS FILIPINO MARKET

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RIGHT

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AND I SAW LIKE BUCKETS OF BLOOD

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that honestly triggered me

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idc if its an animals blood i

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keep that in the tissue bro

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😭

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we do NOT need to share with the class

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dont even butter my biscuit

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i was at the market to get steak and like

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it was seeping so much blood sometimes i ltierally forget those used to be animals

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HELO

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its still bleeding

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my biggest fear is going on here with the intention of journaling and accidentally doing it in someone elses journal

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the steak is crying

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:(

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dw thats not the blood its the seasoning

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oh its

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medium rare

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?

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i wanted medium well

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dubau!!!!!!!! i cut it

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OOOKOMGMG these korean strawberries are so good

#

pls

#

i love fat strawberries but they get rotten so quickly :(

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i wanna do this trend with someone

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or like animate it

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wait i could do this with kaida and ruben

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i could probably edit but not on after effects :(

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maybe.. the alight motion propaganda is getting to me

#

i can pay for my extra memory but like

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i do not have any transportation bro 💔

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and i definitely need to let my dad know

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wow

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thats

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thats nice honey

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ok i gotta slepe

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bye

ashen pecan
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no luck

#

my sleep schedule is so weird i wake up early but i still cant sleep early

#

she said take your time dont you rush

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God please help me get a better sleep schedule

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🙏

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probably because i drank tea earlier

#

but it was like

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12 pm

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idk

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me when

#

my two sides talking to eachother

#

ughh...

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bro i cant stop thinking of this girl i saw on roblox dollhouse roleplay

#

she was like those ekittens but she typed horrendously fast

#

😭

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when did parental labels get sexualized like genuine question

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daddy and mommy

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i mean dont get me wrong i tthink its funny sometimes

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but when did it become a thing to call ur partner that

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especially in um

#

bed

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?

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like

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dont you think of your parent when

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or maybe theyre absent i guess i can see that but still its such a weird thing to think about