#all or nothing

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ashen pecan
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rock... paper... DEFINITELY SCISSOR!

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i wish

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i wish that text was separated

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.

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.

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that was not in any relevance to the video

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im kinda worried bro what did my friend mean by i had a good straight disguise

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i hate reading tiktok comments

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this was under a thirst trap btw ITSNOT RELATED TO THE VIDEO I SENT

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I cant

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i cant get away with saying im straight anymore

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lol i js

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wanna be an egirl

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does

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i feel like im weird for not noticing peoples heights

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like unless its just really tall or reallly short obviously

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but theres a lot of guys in my school insecure about their height like

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bro

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i didnt even notice

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😭

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that junior i was talking to earlier hes like 5"4 or something and then this girl pointed out his height i was like

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w

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?

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dude i dont know if ur a pretty boy or have really nice hair i dont really notice

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nnnghh

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this girl is my type but i

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WHY DO I HAVE TO LIKE MALE GAZE WOMEN

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i promise ill be a good boy

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i know i look a little bit on the feminine side but uhh

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i swear im a teenage boy hiding in an asian girls skin rn

ashen pecan
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lol im gonna break someones neck why do i

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even

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not even related to the video

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but im so fixated over girls that arent real like its not fucking funny bro 😭

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and then i forget about the reality

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its not some like

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im obsessed with an anime character

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or anything

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because im depicting women to be like this when its only objectifying them

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and i think thats crazy considering i am one

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but fuck man i just

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wanna feel in control

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this isnt okay

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mngnhn im not gonna play the if game with my gender but if i was a man i just want a cute submissive and needy girl that lets me be in control

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nd its liek

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bro

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when its just in lesbian relationships it doesnt even feel real its just like

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forced

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i dont think anyone will understand

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and the thing is i love giving people reassurance/affection and making them feel good but i feel like thats just a part of me knowing that theyre not going to recieve it anywhere else and thats

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how i get under their skin

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is this how

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men view girls with daddy issues

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like i dont think its okay i think im preying on women

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in some sort of way to make myself feel more secure

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possessiveness wont get me anywhere

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but fuck its so

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youre mine

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i think this all goes away when i actually meet women irl though but im scared

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this is like my

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raw

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self

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im more grounded when it comes to irl like im more aware

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and i dont want to make anyone feel uncomfortable i

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this is purely just a fantasy of mine

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its

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not

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real

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im right here

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and then theres the other side of the spectrum where i just want to be cared by a woman

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by a woman who has motherly characteristics

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im truly just a man who yearns

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i dont even think im this

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passionate or strong about stuff i find attractive when it comes to men

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but its because these women rarely exist

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i can only realistically get in a healthier relationship with a man than try to compensate these ideals with

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other women

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uhw

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whatever

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i think its funny i view myself as a man but i know what my gender is like

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idk im more masculine for a woman obviously

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im not trans i dont care for anyone who says i am

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im not going back to that

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im just romanticizing what it would feel to be more naturally in control

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i dont think women are taken seriously when in authoriative roles compared to men

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because

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its always been that way

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is it annoying yeah but theres nothing i can do about it

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o

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so

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im just gonna pray people take me seriously and if they dont then whatever

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and the thing is like

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im not even dominating

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and i dont want to be 100% of the time

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sometimes when im with mascs its either i get more relaxed or im more feminine depending

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if i find them attractive

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when im with fems i get more protective and affectionate

ashen pecan
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idk if theyre kinda enforcing it its just not natural bro

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atp we just roleplaying

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😭

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ph my days bro

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ok this is random

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but i was talking to that junior guy again and i said his name

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to ask a question

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and he was like "yeah? whats my name?"

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bro that lowkey folded me

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like i didnt even consider him attractive before that i lowk thought he was gay or something

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the amount of charisma radiating off of him after he said that

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damn

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lowkey aint gas hes a junior tho

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he looks like a sopho

vestal dragon
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nah

vestal dragon
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🙏

ashen pecan
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thats

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what im saying

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everybody is made consisting of masculinity and femininity im just saying im more leaning towards masculinity

ashen pecan
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love vagabond

ashen pecan
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wow

ashen pecan
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i

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she looks so

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mesmerizing

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sometimes i dont even know what style i wanna be cause i h ave the urge to just dress masc for the female gaze and then fem for the male gaze

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but idk what my

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real

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sstyle is

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im just like minimalist basic graphic tee help

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with natural colors...

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i fear hannahowo girls are my type

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.

ashen pecan
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actually

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OMAE WA MOU

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SHINDTE

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What

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hannahowo is

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lesbian

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bro

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what

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umm

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i feel like i should be jumping in glee but im not

ashen pecan
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so

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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what do yo u mean

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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well

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idk

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thats the thing

vestal dragon
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what do u feel comfortable in

ashen pecan
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i feel like im comfortable in a lot of things except for anything too overly revealing

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or tight

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smh

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i can only wear tight shirts thats it

ashen pecan
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my style is just athleisure

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or whats what i wear usually

vestal dragon
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so

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generic stuf

ashen pecan
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imma look throguh my pictures to see what i wear

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actually

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eyah

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basically

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its just

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i mean ive already talked about htis i really like other styles like alt and stuff but its

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too high maintenance for me not gonna lie

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oh i think i just like anything like semi formal actually

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i loove button ups

vestal dragon
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fair

ashen pecan
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i also really like

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uh

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jeez

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i dont knwo what its called

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hold on

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i think i like a lot of things that make me stand out in a way like i have this one azure nasa jacket

ashen pecan
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thats one of the clothing pieces i have that isnt desaturated

vestal dragon
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are these clothings interesting

ashen pecan
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LMAO WHAT

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are you asking me that because im asian

vestal dragon
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uh

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no

ashen pecan
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uh

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yes

vestal dragon
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what

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i would

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never

ashen pecan
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no i dont really

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like

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idk i dont wear stuff like that

vestal dragon
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k

ashen pecan
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i do like sailor collars tho

ashen pecan
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what do u mean

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a kimono

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?

vestal dragon
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her clothings

ashen pecan
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uh

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i mean i have a kimono

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i like the style of it but i wouldnt wear it

vestal dragon
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k

ashen pecan
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ts

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gotta be racist

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LOL

ashen pecan
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WHY DO YOU KEEP ON

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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SENDING ANIME GIRLS

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HELLO

vestal dragon
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no reason

ashen pecan
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simon do you think im japanese

vestal dragon
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what does that have to do

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with anything

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idk what ur talking abt bro

ashen pecan
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ok bruh

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but anyway

ashen pecan
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yeah i

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like the sailor collar

vestal dragon
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i think she got

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an actual collar on

ashen pecan
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oh

vestal dragon
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why do ppl do that

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weird

ashen pecan
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mm

ashen pecan
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THIS IS NOT REAL WHY ARE YOU SENDING ME ASIAN GIRLS NOW

vestal dragon
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what

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uh

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what does that have to do with

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanything

ashen pecan
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come on

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YOU know what youre doing

round galleon
ashen pecan
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i love komi

vestal dragon
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are you saying im racist

round galleon
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i am

ashen pecan
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ME TOO

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BUT

vestal dragon
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the disrespect...

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I PLAYED MINECRAFT WITH YOU!!!

round galleon
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u enabling it bru

ashen pecan
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YOURE JUST SENDING asian girls or anime shit as a stereotype 😭

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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NO IM NOT

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🤫

ashen pecan
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fucktward

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YES YOU ARE

vestal dragon
round galleon
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ts why mfs hate telling others they race

vestal dragon
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idk what ur talking abt

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BRO

round galleon
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racists like u are everywhere unfortunately

vestal dragon
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i dont hate based off of race

round galleon
vestal dragon
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fuck you

ashen pecan
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im sure ur nOT hating its just weird how you keep on

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um

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doing that

round galleon
round galleon
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??

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bro

vestal dragon
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what stigma am i empowering

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tell me

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what stereotype am i empowering

round galleon
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somehow race always finds a way into every comment you make about doomsday

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and you cant deny that

vestal dragon
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no it doesnt???

round galleon
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okay well ill get the proof

vestal dragon
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im sorry, okay??

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jesus

ashen pecan
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theres a distinctive pattern with what u sent dawg 😭

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like

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uhh

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im not offended but COMEON im not an anime girl

vestal dragon
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OFC YOU AREN'T

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they dont exist

ashen pecan
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bro

vestal dragon
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AND

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AND

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I DIDNT THINK YOU ARE

ashen pecan
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and

round galleon
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here’s one for u mane

ashen pecan
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why do you keep on sending pictures of anime girls and asking if i like their outfit PLS

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and then an asian

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girl

vestal dragon
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i do admit

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i might have gone too far

round galleon
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im queefing WE as in ALL asians look like anime characters

vestal dragon
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which i apologize for

round galleon
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😭 😭 😭 ✌️

ashen pecan
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LO

vestal dragon
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technically im also asian

ashen pecan
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uh

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what are you

vestal dragon
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im from the middle east

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WHICH IS

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technically asia

ashen pecan
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i dont think that really changes anything

round galleon
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brother i think

ashen pecan
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im just saying

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like

round galleon
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that there’s a difference

vestal dragon
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i was js saying

ashen pecan
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theres this hyperfixation towards east asia

vestal dragon
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not in relation to anything

ashen pecan
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its really annoying bro

round galleon
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ima keep it a buck people just fetishizing east asians

vestal dragon
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i have a feeling no matter what i say

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you wont view it as good

ashen pecan
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bro jsu listen like

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im not gonna cancel u or anything

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im not that woke

vestal dragon
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i was talking abt

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senna

ashen pecan
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but it has became a thing thats genuinely so annoying when people subject stereotypes to my ethnicity

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like

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IM LITERALLY

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white

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whitewashed

vestal dragon
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yk how many stereotypes i face everyday

ashen pecan
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ok

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bro

vestal dragon
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ppl love calling me a money launderer

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and a genocider

vestal dragon
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bye

ashen pecan
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listen i GENUINEYL dont care about racism like you can call me every asian slur or say i eat rice

vestal dragon
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but i dont want to

ashen pecan
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yeah i know

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like im sorry but i have this bad history with people fetishizing me for my race and subjecting me to like

vestal dragon
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OH

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disgusting

ashen pecan
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right

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and sometimes it be people my own race

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like theres so many asians who are like SDGHAJKDNGJKSABFIUGHDAFG I love asians I only like asians

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and they only focus on

vestal dragon
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theres like a huge problem about it in japan too, no?

ashen pecan
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if they like someone and theyre asian

vestal dragon
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idk if u know

vestal dragon
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i saw someone talk abt it

ashen pecan
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well like

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tourists and stuff

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a lot of people glorify japanese people for some reason

vestal dragon
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i have a certain love hate relationship with tourists

ashen pecan
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especially in the states

vestal dragon
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well i mainly dislike them

ashen pecan
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my friend is japanese and hes like treated as a messiah bro

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no joke

vestal dragon
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because they misrepresent my culture and country on so many occasions

ashen pecan
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right

ashen pecan
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people that just

vestal dragon
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is he a student in the states

ashen pecan
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like japanese people in general

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ahhahas fd dattebayo

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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i see

ashen pecan
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well like

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he was normal in 6th grade but thats when he realized how much people love japanese individuals

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so its just

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kinda became something of his identity

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obviously its fine

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but he made it like some sort of reason why he was attractive

vestal dragon
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i see

ashen pecan
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a lot of people think im japanese in my school

vestal dragon
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yeah the people in the states have like

ashen pecan
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its like really

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um

vestal dragon
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such a tendancy to do un-acceptable shit

ashen pecan
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oh yeah

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for sure

vestal dragon
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my american friend said im a muslim

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???

ashen pecan
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dawg

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LOL

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no but everyone here is like

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so weird

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not gonna lie

vestal dragon
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are you in the states

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or...

ashen pecan
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yeah

vestal dragon
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i see

ashen pecan
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im american

vestal dragon
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ye i figured with the timezones

ashen pecan
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yup

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idk its

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america is really not good rn

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its always been this way

vestal dragon
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not at all

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the education system there can suck ass

ashen pecan
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dude

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i genuinely

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wish they valued hiring really educated teachers because sometimes they just

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dip

vestal dragon
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now it's all diversity hire

ashen pecan
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in 7th grade i had a teacher and she just left and we didnt learn like everything

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that year

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and we had to cram it into our 8th year

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everyone was failing that class bro

ashen pecan
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bro

vestal dragon
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hire based off of like

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ability

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not where you come from

ashen pecan
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i really didnt like when kamala harris presented the idea of making hiring or wages more higher in percentage of people that were poc or women

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i thought it was about equality

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dawg

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dude they blame everything on wage gap its

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incase you didnt know if you paid people less based on their race or gender thats literally illegal

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thats because men tend to work in areas specializing in things and women work in places specializing in people

vestal dragon
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ye

ashen pecan
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i dont think im that geeked over this topic tho so im gonna drop it

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and im gonna get called a pick me

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so

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raises hands in surrender

ashen pecan
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gitten

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br i

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i

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um

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i mightve just found out the girls number i got is dating this guy that has been stalking me on tiktok for a year

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she was like

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looking around on campus to find her bf and he was looking at her and stuff then i screamed she was here

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but she was like

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too shy to talk to him

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and

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he liked a thirst trap of mine

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i really hope

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its not him

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bro

ashen pecan
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and i saw what he looked like and he made his pfp him

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he was talking to my ex

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too

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cause they were in the same group

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😭

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oh my days

ashen pecan
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after seeing me

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like we made eye contact and stuff i thought he was just some random guy from my highschool

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but b

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goodness

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this is legit

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so weird

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please God bro shes like the first girl friend ive made dont do this to me

ashen pecan
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i dont need this

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not anymore

ashen pecan
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just bringing this back to say that mitskis a masterpiece

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bro the

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first love late spring

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when she starts singing si pleae hurry leave me i cant breathe

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i didnt even know that she was like synchronized with this man in the backgorund

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its

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so beautiful bruh

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i wanna play it on the guitar but i dont understand the online sources :I

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anyways bye

rain sapphire
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I am he

ashen pecan
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hmnjk

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i need to

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input

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today was actually so

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weird

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well not rly today its already the 12th but yesterday i was like

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in school it legitimately did not feel real

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bro

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everyone is a burger 😭

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there was this group of guys like

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this guy took this other guys waterbottle and threw his water out like wtf

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and then i was doing homework on a bench and there was this girl and his boyfriend and his friends were being so

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disrespectful to her

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what is wrong with you guys

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its alwasy the upper classmen too

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also theres gender neutral bathrooms?????

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thankfully the bathroom stalls are like

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they have full on doors you cant see above or under its kinda like a room

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yk

ashen pecan
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its not all that bad its like really open and big

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the breaks were so short tho i was just looking around for 15 minutes going to classrooms and the library to see if i can stay there for my break times but most of them were closed :(

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hopefully i can stay at the library or strings club during break

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im kinda already missing middle school not gonna lie i

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maybe im saying that because i have more familiarity to it but

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this is really weird

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the breakfast time is like 8 minutes and the snack line is absolutely crazy

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i already got homework ive just been staying up doing it

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its 2 am rn

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its fine im not staying up cause of that i just slept for a very long time after school

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man i really

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hope i dont take more naps in highschool

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it really throws off my sleeping schedule

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i might have to pull an all nighter or get a few hours of sleep

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:/

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well i only have to wake up at 7

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so

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its fine it could be worse

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oh wait

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sick

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i can sleep in i have a free period in the morning

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until 10

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also something else thats really weird is theres a lot of segregation between groups im only starting to realize that now

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like not by the school but everyone is like

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idk i see a lot of friend groups based off of race ? like

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im really uncomfortable already

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but

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its okay because i have no friends

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i guess

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at least for now

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i dont really know what a friend is

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to me

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when someone asks me how many friends i have i just

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i dont have any friends and like

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most of them are just acquaintances

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ive never had a best friend before

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☹️

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its ok

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well

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i have so much time

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i just

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im probably gonna spend my time at the track for now until clubs start opening up

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unfortunately the guitar club is only available for a day but i can probably just stay in strings club

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i dont wanna talk to anyone there its all just

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sophomores and juniors

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a couple seniors i guess

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im kinda upset that i make a lot of friends that are older than me because theyre going to leave sooner

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ig its not that bad if its a sophomore but i made a friend during orientationa nd hes a junior

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oof

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its 2 am

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SOMEBODY SAID IM A FUCKIN SLUM DONT KNOW WHERE I BELONG

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MAYBE IM FUCKING DUMB

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MAYBE IMM JUSTT A BUM

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bro how to be a human being has drugs it in fr

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GOT NOBODY CAUSE IM BRAIN DEADA

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bro

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brp

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bro

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i

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there was this one person in my math class and they were so

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THEY HAD SO MUCH AURA

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OH MY DAYDS

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bro literally did not talk or show any emotion bruh and they look so

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GENDER ENVY

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they look like the girl from pyramid game

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UHGSHJGJ

ashen pecan
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im scared of them

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my backpack is so incredibly heavy

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its not funny

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at least my math teacher said that i dont need to bring my textbook

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GENUINELY I DONT KNOW IF THAT CLASS IS LIKE

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BRO

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I KNOW LIKE ZERO GEOMETRY LMAOOOO

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why am i in an honors class

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it took me 50 minutes to finish the homework PLS

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i guess i

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im gonna study

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i dont think its too hard the vocabulary was js really confusing

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i had to use my computer for most of the parts

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my math teacher unironically looks like nilered

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but like

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mexican

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bro genuinely

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nilered is so

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JASDJAHSVBASI hes so

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heheh

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heh

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.

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papacita

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i wanna leave the server but

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my name color

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:(

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boi bai

ashen pecan
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Why do i

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why do i keep on attracting older guys pls

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this guy saw me when he was walking eith his friends and then after a couple minutes he came up to me and asked what grade i was and when i said it he was like

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oh…

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he looked like a junior

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😭

ashen pecan
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HEHEHE

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MY FIGURINE CAME

glass tundra
ashen pecan
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yeah but these guys are like

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3 years older than me

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this is NOT the audience

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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hi simonu

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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what up

vestal dragon
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what up w u

glass tundra
ashen pecan
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25

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on ebay

ashen pecan
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im tired tho

glass tundra
ashen pecan
# ashen pecan on ebay

its pretty flimsy material and its second hand but ive seen so many figures that were like 500 and the same thing

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heres another one

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i just FINESSED my room again bro

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its so over when i get real shelves 💔

ashen pecan
# ashen pecan

the wood was from my desk i just put it on top of my lamp

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SHIT LOOKS SO PEAK WHEN THE LIGHT IS ON

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WAIT i should

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eluminate the back

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oh nvm i cant but its ok

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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MY WORK DESK ACTUALLY HAS SPACE NOW

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OMG

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im so happy

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ur actually

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shitting me bro

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AT WALMART

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i can get it online

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BROO i dont even have space for any more figures 💔

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i might have to give some away or change my layout

vestal dragon
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SO COOL

ashen pecan
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hes so glorious

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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simon ubplay dark souls?

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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u should bruh

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i love the game sm

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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its like

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eh

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20-30?

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usd

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that is

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probably depends what platform idk

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i played the remaster

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with the dlc including artorias

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my figure guy

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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bro wha😭

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its so worth

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its a soul game

ashen pecan
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oh uh nvm its 40 dollars on steam

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😭✌️

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i just got mine as a gift

vestal dragon
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BAY HARBOR BUTCHER

ashen pecan
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?? the fuck

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why is my mom

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like

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why

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bro is …. not bro?????

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hi bolbert

rain sapphire
ashen pecan
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sup

rain sapphire
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Do you play minecraft?

ashen pecan
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yeah why

rain sapphire
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Just asking

ashen pecan
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do u wanna play

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or

rain sapphire
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im playing modded java rn with 3 other people.

ashen pecan
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i see

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m

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I DONT WANNA GO TO MATH CLASS

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TOMORROW

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I actually

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dread going now

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im scared bruh

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i was doing my math hw in my study hall period and this other 9th grader told me he was procrastinating the he

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hw

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and he didnt ubderstand it

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also my other friend was so confused

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lowkey

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cooked

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yo

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😭😭

round galleon
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homework

ashen pecan
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yea but like

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bro

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the

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fucking

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textbook is like deciphering an ancient text

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its in english but u get what i mean

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hopefully

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well i havent learned much geometry honestly our teachers lowkey dipped in middle school

round galleon
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what is the homework

ashen pecan
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its uhh

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idk most of it is like midpoint and with algebra

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its an honors class but im like

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bto

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bro

ashen pecan
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RAHHHH my

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this guy i gave my number to texted me

ashen pecan
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FINALLY

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i finished my homework

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bro i think im a burger

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sometimes

ashen pecan
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i genuinely have a savior complex lol

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its embarrassing

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and i will continue to humiliate myself to stop doing so

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it might not sound bad on the outside like im trying to help people but its genuinely something that makes me emotionally unavailable

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and i only do it because i want other people to percieve me as a good person

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i think im better than everybody else because im always helping and fixing peoples situations

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im only helping people cause i want them to tell me that i genuinely helped them

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do i seek validation

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yes

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i do

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as much as i hate it

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is there anything im going to do to stop this

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is what i should be asking to people that need help

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i dont need to save people

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not anymore

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youre not my problem

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fix urself you can use my advice to go on forward but im not you so make action to change your life

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nobody is going to save you

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most insane reddit user

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fr

ashen pecan
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i have a friend

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now

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:)

ashen pecan
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you know youre better than this

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why does my photographer friends always have sm aura

ashen pecan
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ill be fine

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💀

ashen pecan
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WHYA THE EHLDLL

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YO MY MATH TEACHER IS ON SOMETHING

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😭😭

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HE JUST POSTED LIKEB

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5 NEW ASSIGNMENTS

ashen pecan
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actually that class was pretty light

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math was merciful n shit today

rain sapphire
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LOL

ashen pecan
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no i dont have a gun...

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yo wtf this guy is lowkey fine

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me and him were talking for like an hour or something last night

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i saw him tdy but we dont have any classes together and bros face card

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😭

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bros face card

ashen pecan
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what does this insinuate simonon

vestal dragon
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what

vestal dragon
# ashen pecan what

are after attempting to consequently arrive at the context of the meaning of the image alone, or as its reaction to your previous messages?

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insinuate meant hint

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but anyway i was talking to him for a bit like he texted me afterschool and stuff

vestal dragon
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and then he told me that he was responding a little bit late because he was in practice

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hes pretty chill i was talking to him most of the time at my orientation

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i highkey thoguht his number was spam

ashen pecan
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sleepy

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consider my math homework finished

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finish him

ashen pecan
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im so sad

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bro

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i wanted to join the robotics club but the club times are after school and im so busy

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☹️

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ill join next year i guess

ashen pecan
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i didnt think he'd look THAT good

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i love when

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facial harmony

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theres also this girl in my orchestra class and her facial harmony looks so like

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calm

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and shit

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idk

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IDK

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im like jealous of her face pls

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like im gonna take it

ashen pecan
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and he has an overgrown buzz

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🥹

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yoo

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i didnt even notice until he was like oh yeah i buzzed my hair at the end of school

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something like that

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this is oddly specific but i love when southeast asians have buzzcuts

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like filipinos or vietnamese

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i like it when it looks

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um

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i dont really like it when it has a fade tbh 😭

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im trying to find a photo

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imagine this but

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black you know

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ive seen SO many guys at my school with bleached buzzcuts

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lol

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omg also like

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chinese guys with long hair

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i

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this is too specific

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i like it when hairstyles look spikey

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BYRE i also

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bro

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its not like these are like my ethnicity or race preferences but indian guys look so satisfying with mid tapers ESPECIALLY WHEN THEYRE WAVY LIKE OMG 🙏

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theres so many at my school

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and theres this guy in chamber orchestra thats like the bOSS bro his hair is majestic

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i love when guys style their hair

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if its like wavy or yk other than straight

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i like when people actually care about their appearance like if u at least look put together then ur going to appear more attractive

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that isnt only in like physical appearance its body language and posture

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ive made a mental note to myself to always stand tall no matter what

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not because im scared of like scoliosis

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(i am)

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but ive noticed in people that are more attractive even if their physical attributes are like ok, they generally have a taller stance

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because thats a subconscious sign of confidence

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literally confidence is so attractive

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i feel like when i was younger i was really inconfident but i looked

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pretty decent

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its just i would have a fragile ego and stuff plus my body language was just

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rigid most of the time

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i literally looked fine

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but i didnt attract a lot of people cause of my low self esteem

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oh yeah on top of body language eye contact is super important

ashen pecan
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i was watching this video from tbys and he was like talking about how people with bad posture tend to be picked on

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more

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like bullied

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after i started taking note of my posture and how important it is a lot of people like see me as confident or intimidating

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i doubt im intimidating but

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people dont really see me as approachable for some reason like yo i

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im just a furball bruh

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probably because im rarely smiling when im alone

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in most of my classes im jsut lke

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rbf

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i really am a smiley person though when i interact with people

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actually

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i think its just like

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the reason why people think im these things is because ive been told im attractive

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like i remember i was watching this video with joe goldberg in it and this girl was like how is he so mysterious

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and stuff

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this guy said its because hes attractive if that was a below average man playing him nobody would watch the series anymore

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this was around a year ago or more and i was countering that cause i didnt even know how much it played into how people frame these characteristics based on appearance

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but now i understand

ashen pecan
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like if someone is possessive and stuff it would be considered desirable if it was coming from

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yk

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a good looking person

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i feel like this is kinda annoying but its reasonable

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i just feel like a lot of my behaviors were excused because i was attractive and im now only learning how to get past that

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man im tired of being surrounded by enablers

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i love these little drawings

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idk who the hell makes these drawings but theyre so dope

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oh

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spaceheadtr

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i love having little quotes in my room

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my friend was making fun of them but like

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i love looking at them

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this is my plane wall with quotes

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also omg i

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i was coming back home from a walk and i saw in the laundry room there was a schedule my dad printed out and it was so 🥹 whimsical

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it was like

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gabie schedule time

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annd there were little cars

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printed out in color

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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i go to school at 10 am and then the next day its 8

round galleon
ashen pecan
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vroom

ashen pecan
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bro im actually

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like

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what

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i was in my bio class and we were going over the units we’re gonna learn

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I ALREADY LearneD THIS IM

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BYE

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I LEARNED IT IN MY 6TH YEAR BROOOOO 😭😭😭

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what the fart

vestal dragon
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🥀

ashen pecan
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THATS ACTUALLY CRAZY

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BOR

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I WAS IN THE BATHROOM TALKING TO MY FRIEND AND THIS OTHER GIRL WAS LIKE

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”is there a guy in here??”

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also cute hamster

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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i spent so much money today

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not cool

ashen pecan
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i love when

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i have blurry photos

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my hair genuinely looks so good rn lol

ashen pecan
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i have a thing for liking photos when my eyes are like blurred

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eyes today

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hi

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oh

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hello

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what ru writing about

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not anything

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why do u have 18000 messages here

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sometimes i talk to people here

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sometimes

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i

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talk

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like

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this

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wow is this like an intervention

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thats what makes up 18000

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idk if thats smth id intentionally do

round galleon
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hey. yellowroseinmouth ✌️

ashen pecan
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helo

ashen pecan
round galleon
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holy fricking green

ashen pecan
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my full court is standing 10 ft away from my toilet and peeing

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idk about u

round galleon
round galleon
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a hose bruh

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amateur

ashen pecan
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alre bruh

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😴🙂‍↕️

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BROOO im such a fein for like

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figures

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now

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for some reason

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i bought this luffy figure its so funny HELPP

round galleon
round galleon
ashen pecan
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yes

ashen pecan
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hes not actually gonna sit there tho hes gonna be on my work desk :3

round galleon
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br i used to be so big on miku figures back in like 2021 bruh oh my days

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i want nendroids

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and kangel figure GOD I LOVE NSO

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mended

ashen pecan
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hes my buddy

round galleon
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bro

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that book

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fix it

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pls

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fix it

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hey i remember that drawing in the back

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fix the book

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that book

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fix it

ashen pecan
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wait brb

round galleon
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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omg

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there were so many nendoroids at this convention i went to

round galleon
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KILLS YOU

ashen pecan
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No

round galleon
ashen pecan
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LOL

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LO

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haha youre so funny

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i wanna

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follow you home

round galleon
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ok women in male dominated fields ❤️ ❤️

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hey

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i have a question

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how do u do ur lashes

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genuinely