I’m 18 years old. When I was born, my biological dad left just a month after. My mom temporarily lost custody of me, and I went to live with my aunt until I turned one.
My mom got me back and took care of me until I was two, when she got together with my stepdad. They raised me together until I was 11, but they broke up because she constantly argued with him and even attacked him.
After the breakup, I went to live with my mom, and my sister stayed with him. I lived with my mom until I was 14. During that time, she was heavily into drugs and alcohol. Her boyfriend back then abused her a lot. She also struggled with schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder.
Eventually, she signed over power of attorney to my stepdad and gave me up. I lived with him from then until recently, but it was a toxic environment filled with constant verbal and occasional physical abuse.
About a month ago, I found incriminating stuff on his computer and had to report him. After that, we were placed with his dad.
Now, out of nowhere, my biological dad is trying to be a big part of my life again. I feel really depressed and stuck in this cycle where it feels like I can never win.