Why can't I be free?

[inner sparrow]

I often feel like I'm the only one suffering from this because of the loneliness I deal with all i have is my siblings, and there company is just as painful as my parents, after 2021 covid kicked us all out of school and my homeschooling began, my big step sister got really sick by septsis she was in the hospital for 3 months and she soon got out we moved from the good old Michigan to Florida while she was at her mom's, what my parents have never learned is that i was forced on too by my big sister multiple times and lost my innocence before the age of 6, after she got sick she acted like she had never did anything to me, i had to see her face every single day and suffer the memories of it and naturally hated and was disgusted by my own addiction i lost self respect, and morals after 2021 i was alone no one but the family that threw eachother under the bus and never support eachother my father is emotionally abusive and is a ticking bomb while my mother has always looked away after 2022 i believe i stopped taking care of myself brushing my teeth became a mental war and soon i stopped, and no matter what problem i have and bring to my parents they always turn the blame on the other (im extremely desensitized too)

What do you guys think of the situation?

Am i overreacting? Am i just being a dramatic teenager? Am i the one in the wrong? I never have solid answers because, im always doubting my choices, and my empathy will not let me be mad at anyone

[dense merlin]

Can you tell me what you mean by losing your innocence?

[dense merlin]

It's bad, your family sucks as hell

[dense merlin]

I think it's pretty reasonable to be crazy about your situation. It's not dramatic, it's chaotic. You in the wrong? To me, your life just sucks and it made you look bad.

You're strong for that.

[inner sparrow]

That would probably get filtered by the server tbh so, just think it is what you think it is